Chapter 73-Don't forget

Chapter 73-Don't forget

Cammie pov

Zach has been avoiding me. It's been bothering me a lot lately. How could he think that he knows what is best for me'? Most of the time, I don't even know what's good for me, so how could other people know. He thinks this will help me in the long run, but in reality, all he is doing is making me want to smash his head against the wall until he learns that I am never giving up on us.

It's not so easy to give up on a relationship of this magnitude. I know it was hard for Zach, he didn't want to do it, but somewhere in his deluded mind he thinks he is doing the right thing.

I may understand his horrible reasoning, but that doesn't mean this whole issue doesn't hurt. He left me. He chose to leave me. Zach gave up on us, to give me a better future. How doesn't he know that my future is always with him? Why does he still not understand that without him, my future isn't bright anymore.

I wasn't always so calm(ish) when it came to Zach's decision. I had my fair share of sleepless and pitiful nights. I had my friends and family to comfort me, but Zach was shutting everyone out. Who did he have left?

The answer was simple, me. I won't give up, although that didn't make things less frustrating.

I already made my decision, and I would like to tell him, if he wasn't so busy trying to avoid me like the plague. I tried calling him, his phone always went to voicemail. I left dozens of messages, he never responded to any of them. I tried talking to him at school, he barely acknowledges my presence in any of the classes we have together. When I try calling out his name in the hall, he just walks faster. I even went to his house after school, no one answered the door.

It's been over 2 weeks, how long was he going to keep this up?

One day out of desperation, I went to see his mother. It was a bad idea from the start for so many reasons. One being that she hates me, and the second being that I wasn't sure if Zach was even on speaking terms with her. I was running out of options.

I was originally planning on going to Townsend, but unfortunately for me, he was on a short vacation with my aunt. I had to settle with a phone call with spotty reception on their part. He promised me that he would talk to Zach as soon as he gets back, which wouldn't be for another couple of weeks.

So until then, I was left on my own. The trip to see Catherine was a waste. As soon as she opened the door and saw it was me, she slammed it back in my face yelling, "GET OUT! GET OUT! HOW DARE YOU COME HERE!" I realized then what a big mistake I was making. I ran away from her house scolding myself for thinking that would ever work.

I don't understand why she doesn't like me.

I was running out of approaches. I tried going to him directly, through other people. I was so lost on what to do.

My friends were always there to support me and tell me how much of an idiot he is. Bex was the first person I called after he broke up with me at the park. Liz and Macey were called about 2 seconds later.

Bex was the first one to threaten to beat him up. I laughed at her and told her that while I understood why he was doing this, he just doesn't understand that his actions were completely unnecessary! If we were going to different colleges, shouldn't we spend as much time as we can with each other?

I just get so angry thinking about it. I get enraged when I think about Zach. He left me to fend for myself. It's harder to sleep at night knowing he won't even look at me. As naive as it sounds, I thought he wouldn't hurt me after what happened a few years ago.

AH! This makes me want to punch him and kiss him at the same time.

The bottom line was that I missed him. Being apart from him for so long made me realize how dependent I was on him to keep the day going. Now they just drag on, one boring day after another.

Everything is just so confusing. I don't think I can handle it much longer. I am going to lose my mind.

You would think that after a few weeks I would lose my determination and spirit. It's the exact opposite. In fact I've started calling, texting, and showing up at his doorstep more often. I'm not sure if he's annoyed yet, or guilty, I wish he would talk to me so I could figure out what is going on in his head.

It wasn't until recently where my friends finally gave me the advice I needed. We were sitting around at the mall after Macey dragged up to help her pick out an outfit for her date with Preston. I was a little jealous in the beginning that all my friends had caring boyfriend's and mine is ignoring my very existence. It stung for a little bit.

"Cammie are you sure you are ok?" Liz asked me quietly, yet loud enough for all of us to hear. They have been treating me like glass for a while. Needless to say, it has been utterly infuriating.

"I'm fine Liz." I tell her with a small smile.

"No you aren't Cammie, and don't think you can pull one over on us. We know you too well." Bex tells me seriously. I sigh because I know she's right. We all know what's been bothering me. Maybe saying it aloud will help get it out of my system.

On the other hand, saying aloud that Zach left me just makes things more real.

"We all know what is wrong." I say sullenly. Well this trip just got a little depressing.

"Remind us again." Macey said a little harshly. I guess they were all a little frustrated with me as of lately. I can't say I blame them, I've been a mess. At least I can admit it.

"I'm angry at Zach for thinking any future without him is better. I am angry at him for deciding what's best for me without even consulting me. I'm infuriated that he won't even talk to me. I am sick and tired of him shutting me out. And I'm frustrated that he assumed breaking up with me would magically makes things all better!" In my little outburst, I didn't notice that my voice kept getting louder until I was shouting at the end. Everyone in the mall was staring at us. I also didn't notice that I stood up from my chair in a fit of fury.

"Cammie, we know this is hard on you. Zach is being an idiot as usual. Anyone with eyes can see that you two belong together. I know you understand he is scared, and when people are scared, they don't think clearly. Zach doesn't want you to go which he thinks is selfish, and instead does the thing he thinks is selfless. In his mind this is all for you. He thinks you deserve someone better than him. It's his deepest insecurities coming out in a destructive way." I nod my head, agreeing with Macey. I'm pretty sure I know why Zach did this. Although it's not like he would tell me anything nowadays.

"What I'm trying to say Cammie, is that maybe you should give him some space. You go to his house everyday." I looked at them shocked, how did they find out? Bex catches onto my surprise and explains it to me quickly.

"Liz installed a tracking device on your phone. She did the same to Zach."

"That's an invasion of privacy!" I never thought they would be this intrusive.

They all shook their heads in usion. "Both of you are miserable and in this state you are unpredictable. It's for your own safety."

"I am not a child! I can take care of myself." I defend myself. What do they think I would do? It was a nice thought, but they took things too far.

"Then stop acting like one. If he keep ignoring you, then maybe he needs space. So give him some space and hopefully he would have time to clear his head and come to his senses." They made a good point, there was no denying it.

"Fine, but I want to tell him in person. So I need Liz's tracking software on his phone." If I had to keep my distance from him for a while, I need to see him one last time, even if he isn't going to talk.The three of them huddle together and whispered for a good minute or so.

"We'll give it to you. And before you look at the history, just know that every night he walks to your house, raises his hand to knock, then sighs and walks away." I this was just as hard for the both of us, but we will make it through. I know that for sure.

"Thanks guys." I don't know what I would do without them.

"When you find him tell him to stop being such an idiot for all our sakes." Bex told me taking a sip of her coffee.

"Will do Bex." I decided to find him then. I told the girls I was leaving, they didn't seem to mind that much. Apparently Zach was at the park. The same park he broke up with me in. I wondered why he would go there? For me all it brought was bad memories.

I found him sitting on a park bench, similar to the position I was in a few weeks ago. I quietly took a seat next to him. When he moved his head and saw ti was me, he got up to move away. It hurt to say the least. I grabbed his arm and pulled him back down.

"Don't walk away from me Zach. I'll make this short for the both of us." I let of of his arm, and surprisingly he stayed. He did avoid eye contact though. Still, progress is progress.

"I want to let you know that I am giving you space. I will leave you alone for as long as you need. Just know that I will be here. I'm choosing to stay here with you. I already contacted George Mason, I am going there in the fall. I'm not throwing my life away when it means being with you." I leaned over and kissed his cheek. He didn't push me away.

"I love you Zach, and I'm here for you. Don't forget that." It was then that he finally looked up, staring me directly in the eye.

"I won't."

I smiled at him, and as heartbreaking as it was, I walked away.

If this encounter proved anything, it's that things will get better soon.

A/N: It's almost been a month, and for that I'm sorry. A lot has happened and I've been so behind on all of my updates. I'm going to try and get back on a 2-week updating schedule. This story may be finished late winter.

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