Santana, Im Here

(Brittany's Pov)

"Let go" she growls at me it's so much force that I flinch and I see hurt across her face for a second before she walks off and I'm shocked. I never thought Santana would treat me like that.

"You can't take that personal baby girl, Santana is like everyone else, human" Shane say and I scoff.

"I've met girls like Santana, remember when she sung that song at the restaurant. It was a deep song and when I went into her room she has dark quotes up and what I'm trying to say is that she's had an rough life" he says but I'm confused.

"Okay never mind. You know how you stopped talking as a defense mechanism from getting hurt" he says and I nod.

"Well people like Santana, who have been through so much pain, choose to let people believe their mean and bad by pushing them away. She screamed at you because she's having an internal battle with herself. she doesn't know if she should let you in or not. Now brittany I know you've had a rough life but so have Santana and we all cope differently so you can't blame her for trying to push you away. Although I feel like if you keep fighting back and ignore all the stabs she give you. You'll slowly seep into her heart" he says and I give him the 'whaaaaat' look.

"Don't play dumb with me, you like her. You like a crazy psycho Latina who threatens anything that breaths but the good thing is that she treats you right and she's falling for you too. I can see both of you fighting it but I don't get why, your both afraid to get hurt yet you both know pain so both would never hurt each other" Shane says and hugs me.

He's right about me being scared to give love a chance. I think it's time to tell him why I stopped talking. I feel like he deserves to know, we've known each other for about 7 years and I trust him with my life. I text him and see his smile drop and his phone hit the floor. Everyone comes towards us except Santana but she starts to walk over.

"Brittany are you okay" Shane says and I nod yes.

"Why didn't you tell me about this" he says in a low voice. I just frown at him.

"Here I am thinking you stopped talking because everyone called you stupid not because you........." I cover his mouth before he could continue. We have a hard glaring contest and I win.

Don't act like you didn't know~brittany

"Are you okay" he says after reading my text.

Yes, I got help after it all~brittany

I walk off and board the plane. We get the seats and we take up two columns so its actually really random now since everyone wants to talk and play around. Santana is upfront keeping to herself but Dani is trying to strike up a conversation. Then it's Kurt and Rachel talking. Then Sam and Mike talking. Mercedes and Tina are watching a movie. Shane and Blaine are talking about hair gel. Quinn and Puck are arguing about his obsession with Mario kart. Last is me in the back and I'm trying my hardest to just Keep calm.I can hear Dani speaking to Santana and I'm getting pissed off.

(Santana's Pov)

Ever since we've been on the plane for about an hour, I feel like puking. My ears are popping like a bitch and on top of that, Dani is in my ear annoying the hell out of me.

"Santana, are you even listening" dani says annoyed.

"No" I say but barley can say it because I'm getting dizzy.

"You look a little blue, maybe I should help keep you distracted" she says as she drags her hand up my leg but I swat it away as it comes closer.

"Go away" I say silently breathing hard, I feel like I'm about to have a panic attack.

"Why, why would you choose that dumb ass blonde Barbie that's a mute by the way instead of me. 100% sapphic goddess" she says.

"More like 100% bitch" I say and she growls at me.

"What do you see in her, how do you know anything about a mute. I mean come on, lets say you guys do get together. What happens when the retard wants..........." she get cut off by my fist.

"Santana, was that necessary" Quinn says use to me knocking people out with one punch.

"She......teased......Britt" I say but have to have to breath deeply because I'm getting really dizzy.

"Sweetheart are you okay" a random woman asks.

I nod and sit back in my seat. I try to lay down and ignore it but its just getting worst. I feel like I'm drowning and can't get enough oxygen. I start to panic and breath even faster. I feel someone grab my head and attach an oxygen thing to my mouth. I try to pull away but they hold my head firmly and I start to breath regularly after about ten minutes. I look up to see brittany straddling me again and I smile at her taking care of me again.  She leaves afterwards and I go back to trying to keep my stomach calm and my ears are popping like crazy, I can't do this for four more hours. This is why I never should've got on the damn plane, I should've just drove the three days by myself.

"Santana, how are you doing" Quinn calls and its registering that I need to reply but I can't speak. my ears are on fire and my stomach is like a tornado.

"Santana" Mercedes says but I still can't respond. I feel like my body is on fire and if I respond ill explode. I'm trying hard to keep everything underway but I can't, It hurts so much that I'm...................

"Santana, why are you crying" Puck ask and I just ignore his dumb ass.

"This is why we don't fly. I knew we should've drove"

(Brittany's Pov)

"We always fly" Puck says.

"No dumb ass, we all don't. you guys fly while me and Santana drive for this exact reason" Quinn says and I feel bad. I look over at Santana in a trembling mess and she's holding her ears and is in a fetal position. If I knew this was going to happen I would have never book our tickets.

"Go comfort her" I hear Quinn says to Kurt.

"No way, she just going to scream at us. It's like she's scared we will attack her" he says.

"Kurt you out of all people know what Santana's been through. She screams at us because she wants us to hate her but no matter how much she hurts us, you can't be mad at her" Quinn says looking at her.

"Why the hell not" Kurt says.

"Because a dog doesn't turn for no reason. Meaning Santana's not bitchy  because that's her personality but because life's made her that way. She wasn't like this when we were little girls actually quite the opposite and what would you do if your used to abandonment. Eventually that becomes your normal and when your out of your comfort zone and feel threatened you fight back. What I'm trying to say is that she's scared and vulnerable from what happen and will always be like that. You should know that Kurt. For now on, if she insults you think of it as a plead to stay instead of a plead for you to leave" Quinn says and walk away. I watch as everyone goes back to what they usually do so I sigh and go over to her. She turns around and, my heart breaks at her sight.

"Go away" she growls even harder but I just stare at her and see fear in her eyes. I hold out gum while making a chewing motion and pointing to her. She eventually takes it and I give her some music to keep her occupied and then ask for some Relaxers for her queasiness. After 10 minutes she starts to feel better but she's still having a hard time controlling her breathing so I lay  my chair back in laying down mode and pick her up and put her in my lap. She's stiff at first but eventually relax and bury her head in the crook of my neck. I look back to see everyone smiling at us except dani, I wink at her and she flips me off. I shake my head no while making a disgusted face.

It's been about two hours and she's sleep but somehow is still chewing gum. I look back to see everyone's sleep and we got an hour to go. She starts to stop chewing and I decide to get the gum out of her mouth. Don't worry, I did wash my hands before I gave her the gum and have been holding her for the past two hours. I look down at her lips and lick mine subconsciously. I let her head move back a little to rest on my shoulder and then I gulp. I don't want her to think I'm a creep or anything. I take my thumb and middle finger to pry open her lips gently while I use my pointer finger to go inside her mouth. I feel the gum resting on her tongue and I touch a tiny bit of her tongue in the middle and I feel her tongue tighten around the gum and moving it before her lips grip onto my finger so delicately and uses her tongue to push out my finger but not before sucking on it. Her doing that goes straight to my core and I moan while keeping my mouth close. I look around in a panic to see everyone on the plane in our compartment is sleep and I sigh in relief. I hear Santana start chewing her gum again to see her smirking up at me.

"Nice moan"