f i f t e e n

  Jaehyun had left for work, and I was at home studying for the upcoming test. My mind was trapped in my fear of the man I came across yesterday, but I was trying to focus on what I had to do. Irene came by and we had some tea. You shouldn't have dragged yourself here. I could come to your house! I told Irene, as I welcomed her in. But, something was clearly not okay. Her eyes were swollen and she was almost about to cry. Irene? What's wrong? She wrapped her hands around me, crying. I held her head in my hands, letting her take it off of her. She then slowly started calming down and we sat on the couch. Irene, what happened? I asked her, couldn't standing to see her like this. I-I lost the baby. She said, making me lose all possible words I could say to make her feel better. I hadn't expected this reason. I took her in my embrace and kissed her head. I haven't told Mark. He's going to get so sad. So mad. No, no don't say this. He loves you. Either way, it's not your fault. Irene I'm really sorry. But, you need to be strong. Everything is going to get better. Just make a try. This happens to many couples. It's our biological abnormalities. I started saying all those crap, not knowing what was right or wrong. She started crying even harder. Y/N, I'm a terrible girlfriend. She said, and I couldn't understand what was that she was implying. Irene...? It wasn't even Mark's! She confessed, my eyes widening in shock. I couldn't believe my friend was telling me this. Then... Who-? It was Yuta... We had sex, one time. And it was that stupid time, that I didn't get any protection. She added, feeling as if she was lifting a weight of her shoulders. Irene, why? I asked, as calmly as I could. Cause, I'm a stupid whore. It was a freaking mistake- How is having sex with Yuta a mistake? I interrupted her, getting all furious. Please, Y/N. I need you, don't get mad. She pleaded. It's just, I didn't expect this from you, Irene. I'm not mad... It's complicated. Would you like to stay here? I suggested. No, I'm going home to Mark. I need to tell him. He was so excited. We were all indeed, but I guess you should never take things for granted without keeping it clear that it's always fifty- fifty.

  I was waiting for Jaehyun to come home. I had baked pizza and a chocolate cake. I did things to keep me busy. I heard his footsteps. I ran to the door to greet him, but as soon as I opened it I saw a broken Jaehyun. His lips were wounded and his left eye was bruised. Oh my God! Jaehyun, what happened? I cried out, holding him in my embrace. I saw that asshole. He was waiting a block away from our house. He wanted to come to you! This fucking bastard! He shouted, throwing down his bag. Please, Jaehyun. Let's go take care of you. I'll go have a shower. I'm fine. He said and left me alone in the living room, scared and sad. Sad and broken. The past was coming back to reality. What if our minds didn't see into the future?

  I was laying in bed, waiting for Jaehyun to join me. I saw him, standing at the door looking at me. He was tired and sad. I smiled at him. He lied next to me, putting my head on his lap. I'm sorry for acting all cold. He apologised. No, baby. You don't need to. You hurt yourself and I owe you. No, you owe me nothing. It's my duty to protect you. I won't stand it, seeing you getting h-hurt, by him. He said, caressing my hair and placing traces of it behind my ears. I left a soft peck on his hand, making his face soften. Thank you for the pizza and the cake. He showed off his dimples, making me feel happy in my living nightmare. How long would we be able to live like that? Let's get away from here. Without telling anyone. He said out of the blue. I liked that idea. I liked that a lot, actually. Where should we go? I don't know... Europe ? He asked, gazing at the blank space. Let's wait until summer. Until our wedding. I suggested and he nodded. You'll be safe, until then. I won't let anything happen otherwise. He said, leaving a peck on my nose. Oh, did you talk to Mark? I asked him, having completely forgotten of the midday incident. No, why? He asked. Oh no, nothing. I was just wondering how he's doing. I lied, not being in the mood to talk about that.

  I was half awake as I felt Jaehyun whispering something into my ear. Hm, what is it Jaehyun. What time is it? I tried to talk, but my mind couldn't cope. I felt his lips on mine. I'm not in the mood Jaehyun. I want to sleep. Y/N... Let's get married sooner. He said quietly. And, why do we need to talk about that now? I don't know. He giggled. I couldn't sleep. He added. I was thinking of - I interrupted him with a kiss. We will talk in the morning. Sleep! I said, cuddling with him.

  My eyes met with the early morning's light. I could hear the water falling down, indicating Jaehyun was taking a shower. I tried recalling the small talk we had last night, but it felt so distant, as if it was a dream. Jaehyun got out of the shower coming back to our room. And damn! He wasn't even wearing a towel. Are you doing this on purpose? I said, sarcastically. Maybe... He smirked. He lied next to me, completely naked and water dripping down from him. His wet lips kissed me. Good morning. He smiled, kissing me again. I caressed his cheek, seeing something different on my hand. On my finger there was placed a diamond ring. Minimal and beautiful. I had to make a proper proposal. But, I couldn't find the right one. He cutely smiled, although him being naked in front of me, only made him more kinky than cute. My eyes got watery, as I nodded my head. He full smiled, giving me kisses all down my neck. Y/N... Let's have a baby. He said and at at that moment something changed inside me. Something made me crave a baby too. It could be the shining diamond or him being naked. Yes, let's have a baby. I said, and with no hesitation we had romantic sex.