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   I was studying, sitting on the bed under the blankets. I heard door keys and my heart warmed up in sight of him. How's my girl? He lied next to me, checking out what I was reading. I'm good. How's your work? It was tiring today. I don't like how our boss treats us. He complained, turning into a sad puppy. Why is that? I asked him. I don't know, he treats the women so bad, I've heard rumours about hitting them. But, I haven't met him yet... How come you haven't? He's said to live in Paris, so that's why. But, he's coming to visit us soon. Do you like your job Jaehyun? Actually, it suit him really well. I couldn't get a hold of how handsome he was on the photos displayed in magazines and advertising posters. I do, I do like it. But, I will hopefully find some other agency soon. Moreover, I talked to Mark... He paused, looking at me with those tired, brown eyes of his. He told you? I hesitantly asked. This was so bad. I don't want to- He paused his sentence, not wanting to think of the same scenario happening to us. Jaehyun, you have to realise that these circumstances are part of all of it. We have to keep our feet on solid ground. I buried his face in my hands, squeezing that pale, soft skin of his. His face expression instantly changed from low to high, smirking. So, how did you like it this morning? Us, being intimate... He softened his voice, leaning his lips on my neck. I liked it. I firmly said, teasing him. Just liked it? We had our first time, really feeling each other... He said, his fingertips moving lower to my private area. Jaehyun, I have studying to do! I played it all focused, even though he clearly got it that I wanted the d. Okay then, I'm going to take a shower. He said pathetically and I quickly jumped on his back. Let's have a shower, together. I said, and he laughed leading us to the bathroom.

   I headed into Starbucks, ordering my regular cappuccino when I felt someone's hand on my shoulder. I turned around and came across Yuta. Immediately, my happy feelings of seeing my friend from school after such a long time, turned into hatred ones. He noticed something was off, but acted as if nothing was wrong. Y/N! I've missed you, how've you been? I wanted so badly to hug him and have coffee with him, but I had mixed feelings towards him. He had betrayed his friendship with Mark...and Irene. I'm good Yuta. How are you? I sounded all fakely happy. I'm good. Do you have some time? I couldn't lie. I nodded and we placed our drinks on a table. I sighed waiting for him to say something. Are you okay Y/N ? You seem a little cold. Yuta started realising, that I knew something. Yuta... Please, just explain to me why it happened. Yuta's eyes widened and his bottom lip started trembling. He took a deep breath. I liked Irene since junior high school. But, Mark was and I hope he still is my best friend and I knew he liked her too. So, I never made a move. Until, one night. I was out with friends, she was out with friends too and we later, found ourselves drunk... In my car. Yuta, you should be ashamed of yourself. I said, not even spitting on his face. He looked away. There was nothing he could do. He had done the worse, he could possibly imagine. I have to go, Yuta. I'm so sorry, but I don't know what to say. I'm really furious about all this, cause you're one of the best people I know. I'll consider it was a moment of weakness, but when we come face to face with Mark I won't take your side. I said, and walked out of the place.

  It was beginning to darken and I still hadn't arrived home. We had been assigned for a group project and as usual, we found it extremely hard to collaborate with some students. I tried  calling Jaehyun one time, but it was off. I was one block away from our house, when I felt footsteps behind me. I felt shivers running down my spine as thoughts of painful memories started coming back to me. I didn't dare to look back. I quickened my pace, every minute being closer to my door and at the same time million miles away from Jaehyun's safe embrace. The stranger's breathing got heavier and I felt my eyes getting blurry from the tears. I was lost. I fainted.

  I opened my eyes, slowly adjusting to my foreign environment. I tried moving, but I was helplessly tied up both, my wrists and my legs. The place around me seemed as an abandoned stockroom. I knew who'd brought me here. And I was more than ready to face him. Oh, who was I kidding? A door opened to reveal the man who had made me the pure garbage I was. He smirkes, walking closer to me. Well, you look as wonderful as I remember you. He said, being the same dick as I remembered him. He lifted his left hand, dirty-ishly touching my face making me spit on him. He grabbed my hair and closely covered my mouth with tape. If you don't behave, your baby is going to end up in a trash. He said, and showed me a video of Jaehyun being in a, what seemed as a studio. At the sight of Jaehyun being in the same position as me, made me start crying and screaming our for help. As I had done long ago. When no one had noticed. Fourteen years ago that chidish screaming of mine, wasn't playful. Even if, at that time I didn't know what was actually happening and what was that he was doing, I did know I had screamed, although even my family never cared enough. Seeing Jaehyun, I felt just like my 6 year old self. Pure and innocent. I couldn't bear the thought of losing him. Take what you want and leave us, alone! I wanted to scream, but the tape was preventing me. Don't hurt him! I screamed, but only I could understand what I was saying. It's time for me to have some fun. He said and pulled me up from the chair I was sitting dragging me to another room, with a rotten mattress. He threw me away like a ball and landed on top of me, starting ripping off my clothes. It was awful, unbearable. I wanted to close my eyes and never open them again... But then, I had Jaehyun. I couldn't stand it not seeing him again.