27th April 1950

Chapter 12

"Is there something I should know, Perrie?" my mother asked inquisitively.

I blanched not knowing what to say but I was rescued by Jade who intervened before me, "Mrs Edwards, this is my daughter, Jasmine" she said taking the young girl from my arms, "Say hello, Jasmine" she turned to her daughter.

As she had done the first time with me, Jasmine raised her little hand and greeted my mother who reciprocated in the same way.

"And this is my mother, Norma Badwi-Thirlwall" she pointed to the woman who still looked uncertain in the doorway.

"Pleased to meet you, Norma. I'm Deborah, Perrie's mother. I want to thank you for helping my daughter" my mother said politely, offering her hand to the other woman who hesitantly shook it. "Will you stay for dinner?" my mother asked the three Thirlwalls.

"Yes, they will" I replied, "I wanted to thank them properly for helping me" I said in a convincing tone.

"Great idea, dear!" she replied, "If you would agree I would like to get to know Norma and her family better"

I stood still and realised I couldn't deny her, my mother was far too firm and I knew if I said no she would certainly suspect something was wrong, so I nodded and saw my her smile sweetly, I looked at Jade and Norma apologetically but they nodded understandingly.

We sat down at the table and Jade went to the kitchen to get dinner, the silence in the room was beyond awkward but it was broken by the little Thirlwall, "Perrie, when are we going to the squirrels?" she asked.

I saw my mother listening carefully and tried to ignore her eyes drilling into my soul, "Soon, princess. Saturday?" I asked turning to Jade, she looked between me and my mother and then nodded.

Jasmine did a little dance with excitement and I laughed at her enthusiasm, "Are you going to read Gulliver's story to me?" she asked with puppy-dog eyes, "Mummy didn't read it anymore"

"Mummy didn't have much time" replied Jade annoyed.

"It was better when we were here!" she cried and I closed my eyes to my mother's gaze, I saw Norma pick Jasmine up and walk away cradling her.

"When they were here?" my mother asked. I looked at Jade for help but saw her eyes as lost as mine.

"Well..."

"Like I said, ma'am, Perrie found me at a bad time and offered me hospitality" she finally said.

"I see..." my mother replied looking at me displeased. "Where is Jasmine's father, Jade?" she asked turning to the brunette.

I saw Jade whiten and felt the blood drain from my face as well. I prayed for Norma to come and save the day but she was nowhere to be seen.

"He's... he is..." Jade stammered and I saw my mother look between me and her.

"Alright. Perrie, please follow me" she ordered as she walked up the stairs, entered my room and I followed her keeping my eyes fixed on the floor, "Look at me" she said through clenched teeth and I took a deep breath before raising my head. I saw confusion and irritation.

"For God's sake, could you tell me who these people are and why they seem to have lived here for God knows how long?!"

"I told you. I found Jade and she needed help, I just offered her a place for a few days"

"Didn't it seem like it was only a few days and why do you seem to know each other much better than you claim?" she asked, getting more and more irritated.

"I don't understa-"

"Don't play with me, little girl. What is the squirrel place and why is that child asking you to read her fairy tales? And where is her father?! That kid will be four and her mother will be what? Eighteen? For God's sake Perrie!" she almost screamed.

"Mum..." I began, trying to keep my tone of voice calm, "I took them on a field trip and yes, when they were here I used to read Jasmine fairy tales to put her to sleep" I replied.

My mother huffed and crossed her arms, "I know there's more to it than that, Perrie... I don't know what yet but I'm going to find out, you can be sure of that" she told me determinedly, before heading down the stairs and back to the table.

I followed her trying to compose myself and found Norma and Jasmine sitting in their seats, the baby girl had her eyes circled in red and as soon as she saw me she came towards me but Jade took her in her arms.

"I want Perrie" she whimpered, I looked at Jade and nodded, she let her go and Jasmine ran to me, I took her in my arms and stroked her back while she put her face in the crook of my neck. All the while my mother watched every interaction, expression or movement with suspicion.

We ate and she bombarded Norma and Jade with questions, who fortunately were not intimidated by her austere tone.

I remained silent most of the time feeding the tiny girl and cradling her, giving comforting and apologetic glances to Jade who smiled at me understandingly.

When dinner was over, I got up and started carrying the dishes to the kitchen, Jade followed me and helped me wash and dry them. Our hands touched in the process and a sincere smile finally appeared on my face.

I splashed some water at Jade who laughed and did the same, we started laughing but tried to hold back our laughter and continued to joke silently, when we were done Jade took my hand and kissed the back of it.

"I missed you" she said softly with emotion filled eyes, "Jas too, more than you think" she smiled.

"I missed you too" I whispered with watery eyes.

I looked into hers and saw a storm of emotions, fear, regret, hope and desire, I closed my eyes and before I realised my actions I brushed my lips over hers, bit her lip for a second and pulled away as soon as I heard the sound of a glass breaking.

I looked up to find my mother's eyes wide open and full of shock.

The blood froze in my veins and the words stuck in my throat. I tried to speak but only nonsensical babble came out, my mother turned around and at a brisk pace grabbed all her things and walked out, I recomposed myself and followed her.

"Mom! Please! I can explain" I shouted after her even though I had no idea what the explanation would be.

"No need!" she shouted turning around and looking at me disgusted, "So that's it? You and a girl?" she asked.

I felt tears burning in my eyes and couldn't find the words, I let the tears fall having run out of strength and nodded, "I'm sorry, Mum. I tried not to feel, I tried to stay with Chris but I can't help but love her" I said stammering through sobs.

She spread her eyes wide, "Do you love her?" she asked incredulously. I continued crying and nodded. I stood motionless watching every crack in the ground, I heard my mother's quickened breathing and thought of every possible ending to such a pathetic scene, I awoke from my daze feeling a sharp sting on my cheek, I touched the painful part and looked at my mother who still held her hand up.

She looked at my bruised cheek and then at her hand and her eyes filled with shock and regret.

"Perrie, I didn't mean to..." she whispered but I stepped back looking at her fearfully. I took a few more steps and turned starting to run towards my house, I arrived at the door and passed Jade, who was waiting for me, without saying a word to her.

I ran up the stairs and entered my room, locking the door behind me and sliding slowly against the wall until I sat on the floor. I clutched my knees to my chest and sobbed. I heard Jade's voice calling me from the other side but I didn't answer.

A few hours later I got up, went to the bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror, I noticed the bruises left by my father and the redness on my cheek left by my mother, I wet my face and ran my hands through my hair trying to clear my head, everything that had happened after dinner was still incomprehensible to my mind.

I knew telling my mother about me and Jade would be risky, but I never thought she would react like that, more than anything, part of me hoped that miraculously my mother would accept it and be there for me like she always had been before.

I was angry with myself for giving in to the temptation to kiss Jade at that point, even if it was only for a second, it had been enough for everything to fall apart, I knew I would need her comfort at that moment more than anything else, so I went back to my room and opened the door.

Jade fell at my feet having been leaning against the door before I opened it, she stood up and looked at me with shining eyes full of concern, then caressed the area of my face where my mother had slapped me and sighed.

"I'm sorry, baby" she said, hugging me. I collapsed in tears in her arms and she took me in her embrace, carrying me to the bed and gently supporting me.

"I lost her" I cried in her arms.

"No, Pez, one day she will understand. I'm sure of it" she told me reassuringly but I couldn't believe her and kept crying desperately until I was exhausted and fell asleep.

Weeks went by and I never saw or heard from my mother again. Jade, Norma and Jasmine stayed with their hostess but they often came to visit me, especially Jade who stayed over almost five nights out of seven, sometimes even bringing Jasmine.

The little girl slept with us and I often woke up in the morning with her in my arms, I felt my heart fill with love every time that happened and my love for her grow day by day. I knew that the princess would always be part of my life in some way.

27th April 1950

I was by then in my fourth month of pregnancy and my belly began to show, Jade seemed to fall more in love with me every day but I began to feel the weight of all that was to come.

I knew that if I got divorced from Chris, and no longer having the support of my family, I would have to find a job and with a baby it would be beyond difficult.

I began to think of a plan that included a mixed, lesbian couple with two small children in a society that restricted women in any sphere and accepted none of those things, and I wondered what future I could give Jade or the children. It all seemed so wrong and hard and the anxiety and doubts about my choices seemed bigger and heavier every day.

"Get out of your head" Jade told me in a soft voice.

We were in bed and I felt her hand caressing my belly which was becoming more and more visible, I looked at her lovingly and nodded to let her know I was listening, she lifted my shirt uncovering my abdomen and kissed it several times. I smiled at her gentle, caring side and stroked her hair as she went on kissing me.

"How are you feeling?" she asked me softly.

"Fine" I replied without thinking, felt Jade's hand stop and looked at her.

"How are you feeling?" she asked again.

"Physically fine" I told her sincerely, "I just have some thoughts".

She listened and nodded, "Too many thoughts are not good for your health and the baby's as well" she said with concern.

"Do you have any suggestions?" I asked her with a crooked smile.

"As a matter of fact..." I heard her muffled voice as she slowly began to pull down my pyjama bottoms and leave wet kisses on my belly, "I have an idea" she smiled seductively.

I looked into her eyes and saw pure desire, "Jade!" I stopped her, "We can't! This won't be good for the baby"

"There is no study that says it's bad for them, though" she replied wryly.

"Jade, doctors claim that pregnant women shouldn't have... sex" I lowered my voice on the last word and replied hesitantly but I could already feel the wetness accumulating between my panties.

"If that's for that matter, doctors also claim that women don't experience pleasure during sex or have orgasms" she shot back with a smirk, "But we both know they're wrong" she said laughing and I felt my face burn with embarrassment.

"Trust me, baby. It won't hurt the child" she told me in a reassuring tone, "But if you don't feel up to it, I won't do it" she told me with sincere eyes.

I reflected on her words and couldn't deny that what she was saying was true, besides I hadn't touched Jade like that in too many months and I missed her hands on me, or anything else, I felt her warm breath hit my exposed skin and I saw her waiting for an answer with her hands still on the elastic of my clothes.

I thought back to all the moments we had connected and felt my throat go dry and the chills on my skin, I looked at her intently and decided.

"All right. But no fingers... inside" I said under my breath as it came out as a growl and I saw her smirk at me.

TW SMUT

She lowered my trousers and kissed my legs from my ankles to my thighs extremely slowly, torturing me just enough for my panties to get completely wet.

I felt her tongue slide over my waist and opened my eyes seeing her take my panties with her teeth and drag them down, I moaned at the sight and only wished she would touch me, Jade came back up too slowly and reached just above my sex and drew a straight line from thigh to thigh with her tongue, she went down a few millimetres and did it again but never got close enough, I lifted my hips to meet her mouth but she moved away tearing a dissatisfied whimper from me.

"Tell me what you want" she said in a rough voice.

I suddenly gasped and felt sweat beading on my forehead at her teasing tone.

"Fuck!" I cried out in frustration as I continued to feel her tongue circling my clit without ever touching it.

"I love it when you cuss" she said and I heard the smile in her voice.

"Please" I begged her desperately.

I felt her warm mouth wrap around my clit and suck it and I moaned in pleasure, then she pulled away and I whimpered again, "Like this?" she asked sarcastically.

"Jade! Please!"

Again her mouth wrapped around my blossom and she sucked on it pulling it, "Again?" she smiled.

I grabbed her hair and pushed her face in front of my pussy, "Jade! Fuck me!" I said in a rough voice and it came out like an order, I was surprised at myself and my audacity and felt Jade's warm breath hit me where I needed it most causing more shivers.

"My pleasure" she said smugly and I finally felt her tongue madly licking my pussy from clit to entrance.

Jade ate me as if her life depended on it and I unravelled in a mess of screams, whimpers and moans.

I felt my body begin to shake as her strokes became faster and faster and I felt the pleasure build up, realised I was close and started to lift my hips in rhythm to meet Jade's mouth.

"Fuck! Jade! I'm going to-" the pleasure hit me like a runaway train and I held Jade's hair tightly as she continued to eat me up riding my orgasm.

I laid back and let my muscles relax, I felt all my limbs loosen as if they were made of jelly and I prepared myself to receive Jade but seconds later I felt her tongue return to me and run along my slit.

I jerked my head up and saw her looking at me with dark, lust-filled eyes, "Jade...? Wha-?"

I felt her stiff tongue enter me and penetrate me as her thumb rubbed my swollen, sensitive clit.

"Fuck! Fuck!" I screamed, closing my legs around her head and enjoying every second more.

She quickened the rhythm and I threw my head back arching my spine, felt my hips move uncontrollably in pursuit of her tongue and unconsciously unbuttoned my shirt and began to touch my breasts with one hand while the other went back to clutching Jade's hair.

"Fuck!" my walls tightened around her tongue and she increased the speed.

Another rush of pleasure hit me and I came undone again at her touch.

"Fuck..." I said exhausted as Jade stopped and pulled out.

She crawled over my body and snuggled into my side, stroking my stomach.

"You're sexy when you touch yourself" she whispered in my ear, making me smile.

"What the hell was that?" I asked her still shocked.

"You said no fingers inside, you didn't specify anything else" she teased me and I laughed at her cleverness.

I turned on my side and looked at her softly, stroked her hair and put a lock behind her ear, I saw her looking at me with eyes full of love and kissed her tasting me on her lips.

I slid a hand down to her breast and touched her nipple through the fabric, she sighed on my lips and her body tensed.

"My turn" I whispered in her ear biting her lobe, another deep breath escaped her lips, "Unless you don't want to" I said teasing her.

"Temptress" she replied in a broken voice and I laughed at her.

I unbuttoned her pyjama shirt and pounced on her breasts licking and biting her nipples repeatedly, I felt her body twitch at my touch, and I began again tapping and sucking, then biting and licking to soothe the pain, she whimpered holding my head between her breasts, I kissed the skin on her ribs and then on her hips and belly.

I saw the goosebumps where my lips met her soft, velvety skin and I continued to descend, reaching her waist and with one movement I made her lie on her back and grabbed her pyjama trousers and panties removing them with a hasty movement.

I was enchanted by her naked body that I hadn't seen for too long and moaned at the sight, admired every curve, every mole and detail that her skin had to offer me and wished more than anything else that I could immortalise her body and admire it forever.

I came back up to her face and grabbed her jaw, kissing her passionately, "Turn around" I ordered in a rough voice, I saw her eyes go wide in surprise and nod frantically, she turned around placing her belly on the sheet and her back facing the ceiling.

I sat on top of her perfect ass, "Hands above your head" I said without leaving room for repartee and saw her carry out the order without any protest.

I began to grind letting my clit rub against her cheek and arched my back resting one hand on her thigh and balancing myself while the other went to her clit and began to rub it.

"Who makes you wet like that?" I provoked her.

"You! You! Fuck! Perrie! This is so good!" she moaned as I continued to rub her swollen, wet flesh moving over her.

My arousal grew wildly as I saw her helpless and gasping in pleasure under my dominant side and I moved my hand that held me in balance from her thigh to her back, running all the way down her spine and up to her head, I grabbed her hair pulling it and causing her to lift her head until her back was arched "FUCK!" she screamed, "More!"

I tugged at her hair again and heard her moan and whimper, without warning I thrust three fingers into her and she screamed in ecstasy.

"Shit! Fuck! Fuck me, baby!"

I didn't let her tell me again and I penetrated her quickly while continuing to hold on to her hair to keep my balance on her, my sensitive clit rubbed against her ass for a long time sending waves of pleasure through me.

"More!" she screamed in desperation.

I removed my hand and slipped it in again adding another finger, she twitched under my touch and began to emit broken syllables that made no sense at all, I continued to fuck her mercilessly until I felt her walls tighten around my fingers and her body stiffen helplessly in orgasm.

I continued to grind on her soft, perfect ass watching her shake and moan and that was all it took for my third orgasm of the evening to hit me, I slowed down and continued thrusting into her to extend the pleasure until she came undone exhausted and breathless.

I got off her and joined her, I turned her on her side and hugged her tightly looking into her eyes holding her and cradling her, I saw a few tears streaking her face and worried, "Was that too much?" I asked her hesitantly.

"No. No. Absolutely not" she laughed recovering her breath, "That was perfect" she smiled, "Where the hell did you learn that?" she asked incredulously.

"More like I might have imagined it once... or twice" I said wryly.

"I can't wait to see what else you might have imagined" she taunted me.

I smiled seductively and caressed her cheek, before descending past her waist again.

"Wait! Now?" she opened her eyes wide in surprise.

"I'm not done with you yet, Miss Thirlwall" I replied before pouncing on her body.

SMUT End

"I have something for you" she said getting up from the bed and walking over to her fabric bag, I looked intently at her glorious naked body moving around the room and silently thanked heaven for allowing me to witness such a marvel, "It's a bit old but it still works" she told me softly.

I frowned and looked at her curiously, I saw her come back holding something behind her back and I tried to lean out but she prevented me.

"It was my father's, I think he stole it from some Nazi in all honesty" she laughed, "I want you to have it" she said looking intensely into my eyes.

She took out a chrome metal camera with a leather handle, I looked at it carefully and turned it over in my hands looking at each button, then I looked at Jade who had a big smile on her face.

"I can't accept it" I said handing it back to her, I saw her gaze lower and lifted her chin for her to look me in the eye "It's wonderful, Jade, but it was your father's. I can't"

"I talked to my mother about it too and she agreed. You wanted to narrate the world and with this you'll be able to do it" she said with emotion filled eyes, I felt my eyes tear up and wanted to refuse but when I looked at Jade again my breath caught in my throat.

"I want it to be yours" she said again with intention, "And then it will help you kill time when I'm at work" she smiled.

"I don't know what to say" I admitted, "Thank you, Jade" I smiled sweetly at her gratefully.

At that moment I for the first time felt the need to say something more, but those words stuck in my throat, I looked at Jade hoping I could express through my gaze all that she needed to know and prayed that one day I would have the courage to tell her what I really felt.

A/N - Leica IIIb, produced from 1938 to 1946, is to be considered the final evolution of the Leicas of the early production period, making significant improvements over previous designs, it was one of the products that revolutionised the modern photographic industry. 

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A/N - Do you like the new cover? Thanks to my babe sdedwards25 to suggesting the new picture 🧡

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