Chapter 5

I woke up sometime after I arrived, my I felt like I was being weighed down. Elliot was sleeping next to my bed, and I frowned. If he would have stayed with me, I wouldn't have been brought here.

"Elliot." I slurred, my lips feeling as heavy as my body. He stirred slightly, then felt me looking at him, and he awoke.

"Hey, honey. How are you?" He yawned, and I frowned.

"I want out of here." I slurred, and he frowned.

"You can't." He breathed, and I shook my head.

"What's wrong with me?" I whimpered, and he gently rubbed my arm.

"They are admitting you."

"Why?" I cried, and Elliot frowned as tears streamed down my cheeks.

"They think you have PTSD." He replied.

"No, I'm fine! I just want to go home with you!" I cried. He quickly stood up and pulled me into his arms.

"Once you're out of here, you can come home. Sweetie, you need treatment." He breathed, and I shook my head.

"I only need you!" I sobbed. He held me even closer and after awhile, he looked down at me, and gently kissed my lips, the first time that we had ever kissed.

"I'm going to be waiting for you, Liv. So just get better, and when you get out, I'll be waiting to kiss you again, trust me." He replied, and I nodded slowly.

"Promise?" I questioned.

"Promise.For better or for worse, Benson."

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Everyday there was group and private therapy sessions. I was put on anti-depressions, and worked hard on trying to figure out what was at the root of all these flashbacks and panic attacks.

I was held for three months, and by the time I was out, I was at ease, and I hadn't had a panic attack in a few months. As Elliot had promised, he was waiting out front, a large smile on his face.

"Elliot." I smiled, and he walked over to me and pulled me into his arms.

"Olivia." He chuckled, and I looked up at him, and he leaned down and kissed my lips.

"I think I can get used to that." I beamed, and he laughed.

"I think I can too. Now, lets go and get something to eat. Then I want to show you something."

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Elliot and I went to lunch at our diner, then he drove towards the upper east side.

"Are we heading home?" I asked, and he nodded.

"Yeah, but a new one." He replied, and I arched my eyebrows.

"Why? I liked your old penthouse." I replied, and he nodded.

"Yes, but I wanted a place with a few more rooms." He replied, and I looked at him with confusion.

"What are you talking about?"

"Being with you."

"Are we together?" I questioned, and he nodded.

"I thought we were." He replied, and I nodded and went silent.

"Like, I was staying with you, and you've helped me so much, but I never really thought you would want to be with me." I stated, and he sighed.

"I've been in love with you since the day we met, Olivia. I just never knew how to relay that to you, so I kept it a secret. I know that I just blurted out something that I wasn't planning on blurting out for a little bit." He replied, slightly embarrassed. I grabbed his hand and squeezed it.

"I love you too." I replied, and a large smile spread from his lips straight to his eyes, it was a real smile.

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The apartment Elliot had bought was bigger than the last apartment, and had plenty of room, for whatever Elliot had planned. 

"So, Eli wants to come and stay with us." Elliot spoke as we walked around the bare apartment, that he promised I could design.

"He does? Isn't he 12?" I questioned, and he nodded.

"Yeah. But he's having a hard time with Kathy and her new kids." Elliot replied, and I frowned.

"Sean and her?" I asked, and he nodded.

"Yeah, five kids since our divorce. Eli doesn't like it. She ignores him." Elliot replied, and I nodded.

"He can stay. I haven't seen him in forever." I replied, and he smiled. He pulled me into his arms and then kissed me softly, before rubbing my back.

"We should get married." He replied, and my eyes went wide.

"Woah there, Cowboy! Marriage? When has that ended up good for you?" I replied, and he rolled his eyes.

"I never really loved Kathy like I love you. Yeah, she's the mother of my children, but we wouldn't have gotten married if I didn't get her knocked up." He laughed, and I smiled, trying not to laugh.

"At least we don't have to worry about that." I replied and he nodded.

"He is going to stay with her till the end of the month, by then we should have the house furnished and he'll have a bed to sleep in, and not the floor." He laughed, and I smiled. 

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When Eli came to live with us, Elliot and I had finished the apartment, and were ready to have him come. It was weird have a 12 year old living with us, but he was so much like Elliot, that it was amazing. They were always laughing and joking around, but the mess that they left was annoying.

"Eli Stabler!" I called from the front of the house, where I was standing next to a path of clothing and items that he had left on his way to his bedroom.

"What?" He questioned, and I pointed.

"Maybe pick up your stuff and put it in your room?" I replied, and he shrugged.

"Maybe I don't want to get lost." he laughed, and I picked up a jacket and threw it at him.

"Nice try. Your father is going to be home soon, and I have to pick up his stuff." I replied. He cleaned up his stuff and took it to his room, and I went back to making dinner. Or I guess you could say attempting to make dinner.

"What's that smell?" Eli asked, coming into the kitchen and wrinkling his nose in disgust.

"Spaghetti." I sighed, and he laughed.

"Doesn't smell like it." He replied, and I sighed.

"Well, I never learned how to cook."

"Your Mother never did?" he questioned, and I shook my head.

"She wasn't a good mother." I replied, and he climbed onto the bar stool and looked at me.

"Your a good almost step mom." Eli spoke, and I chuckled and smiled.

"Thanks bud. I bet that's the only thing I'll ever be." I stated, and he shook his head.

"I want a brother." He stated, and I arched my eyebrows.

"Eli, you have Dickie, Robert, and Sean Jr." I replied, and he shrugged.

"I'm fine with Dickie, but I don't really like the others.I'd like it if you and Dad had a kid." He replied, and I turned around so he wouldn't see me blushing. 

I never did think about having a child with Elliot until now, and I knew I wouldn't be able to stop thinking about it.

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