Chapter 16

"Gun, I want to be with you."

What did he just say?

Suddenly, I can feel everything. I can feel my heart beating fast, my hands feeling cold, and my cheeks burning. I can feel P'Off's hands on my skin and his body against mine. I can even feel the intensity of his stare at me.

"W-What do you mean?" I asked. Did I really heard him right? Did I understand him right? Is he asking me to be with him right now?

"I guess it's a little sudden," P'Off said as he let me go. He inched away from me. Instinctively, I pulled him close.

"It's not that!" I said abruptly. His eyes widened. I realized that my voice went a little too high. He did not pull away though.

"I just thought that you'd be mad at what happened," I said. My hands automatically went to my nape. Shyly, I looked at the floor. I don't like the idea of P'Off getting mad at me. But this reaction? I could never foresee this.

"I just realized that..." P'Off said. I looked at him. He was instently looking at me. He smiled softly and it made my heart melt. I wonder what he saw that made him smile like that. I wonder if I can make him smile like that everyday. That would be nice and fulfilling. I would be able to do anything just to make him smile.

"P'Off..." He slowly inched his head towards mine as he intently looks at my lips. I know what he was going to do. I can feel anticipation running through my veins. I silently wish he'd kiss me sooner.

"I just realized that..." he said again. His left hand went to my cheeks. Now, this is also something I can never imagine. P'Off is not fond of touching and yet, here he is. This close proximity that just feels right.

"T-that?" I asked. My mind unconsciously supplied the rest of the sentence. That he loves me too, that he also wants to be with me, that our feelings are real and serious, that he sees me as the one meant for him.

Right then and there, we heard the voice of our director.

"Let's get back to work, everyone!"

P'Off abruptly stood straight and I looked around to see if there's anyone that sees us though I felt a little disappointment. On the other hand, despite wanting to be together with P'Off, I can feel fear of what the people might say about us. We're both guys, after all. Even though there's nothing wrong it, there are people who automatically thinks that something unconventional is something wrong.

"Should we go on a date later?" I looked at him in shock. I guess I can never get used to him suddenly acting sweet or even interested in me. He looked at me, waiting for an answer. I nodded once, then I nodded repeatedly.

"Sure," I said. P'Off simply laughed at my silliness. I really like seeing him smile, but sometimes I wish that it wasn't because of my clumsy and silly behavior.

"Let's go back," he said and just like how he took me away, he held my hand and pulled me back to the studio. I looked at the people's reaction and I can almost imagine what they were thinking but I decided to ignore it. If P'Off can nonchalantly hold my hand, then I can also act like everything is normal.

But then... I wish that P'Off and I would be able to level up to a new normal though. I wish that I would be able to hug P'Off thinking that this amazing person is mine and not just a friend. I want to let myself feel genuinely happy whenever P'Off acts sweet instead of wondering if his actions have meaning. I wish that our new normal involves being together.

We did not repeat the scene a while ago. Instead, they shot other scenes first. I wanted to feel apologetic. Instead, I felt like I did the right mistake. I feel satisfaction in what I did and I think that makes me unprofessional but that also makes me feel like myself. No script, no acts. Just me and how I truly felt.

We were asked not to leave after the shooting ended. I also noticed the staff going around with papers in their hands. The director was talking to the scriptwriter and they were in such an all-business atmosphere around them. The other actors were simply lounging around, resting or eating or having fun. P'Off sat beside me and is busily scrolling through his Instagram account. I can feel some eyes staring at us, but P'Off doesn't seem to mind. He even asked me to take a picture of him. Finally, the director asked us to gather around.

"So, we wanted to show you something," the director said. We all looked at the small screen and watched as our director played a scene. It was my scene with P'Off awhile ago.

"Listen, I like her so much. I really do. So, if you don't have any good intention towards her, just stop." Shia. It really hurts me deep inside. I pushed that thought away and focused on what we're watching but then, I felt P'Off's hands on my shoulder. It was just a casual touch. He just wanted to watch the scene more closely, but his touch somehow soothed some pain. From my peripheral view, I saw Jane looking at P'Off's hands on my shoulder. I simply looked back at what we're watching.

"And you? You think you have a chance on her? It's obvious who's more suitable to be with her between the two of us. Get out of my way."

"Annoying."

"Why? Why are you more deserving than me? Because you're more talented? Because you're more good looking?"

"I'm begging you, please stay away from the love of my life."

"No, I won't."

"Because I love you too." Wow. Sometimes, I'm really surprised at how good I act. Perhaps, it was because the words were real, but I can really feel the emotions that those words conveyed.

"We decided to change the script," the director said. There were lots of confused reactions and I myself was confused.

"Isn't that a reckless move?" I heard Jane ask. That's what I was also thinking. We've been practicing our script. Changing it would require adjustments.

"Our scriptwriter is willing to change it, and I won't make you act unprepared. Besides, it's just a little tweaking, you know." Meanwhile, the scriptwriter was looking at P'Off's hand on my shoulders. That's when things clicked. They were planning to keep the clip. Instead, they'd change the script to adjust to it and I and P'Off would probably take the biggest hit when the script changes.

"P'Off..." I called him.

"I'm fine with it," he said. It shocked me. He was unwilling to exchange characters with me but now, he's agreeing with changing the script.

"The characters that will be affected the most will be N'Off, N'Gun, and N'Jane. N'Off already agreed. What about the other two? And the others?" I did not know where to look. I did not know what to say. But I know that I want this change.

"I'm also fine with it," I said. Then, N'Jane also agreed. Finally, we're done for the day. I fixed my stuff and was about to go to the parking lot when I realized that I rode with P'Off to go here. Right then and there, the devil appeared before me.

"Let's go on a date, shall we?" He asked and offered me his hand. I gladly took and and we walked together to his car.

Author's Note✨What is this? An early update? Nope. This is a thank-you update for you, reader. Thank you for supporting my story💖

P.S. I will still post another update on Friday. I hope you look forward to it✨