Chapter 39: New Year's Eve*

I work all day New Year's Eve until about 5 pm before I come home to Spencer who has had a day at home with Ryder catching up on paperwork. I come home and Spencer is in loose grey sweat pants, a white t shirt, and his normal mismatched socks. I smile at the sight as I walk in and Spencer looks up to lock eyes with me when he hears me open the door. He smiles and gets up from his seat on the couch, as does Ryder, and walks over to greet me. I hang up my jacket and put my bags down to hug him and give him a kiss before bending down to pick up Ryder. I look up and ask him "so how was your day with Ryder, Spence?" He smiles and sits at a chair at the kitchen island while I go to the kitchen to get something to drink. He says "it was good, pretty boring compared to what I'm used to," as he sits down. I hum in acknowledgment as I look for something to drink. Eventually I just settle on a glass of wine. I pull the chilled bottle of white wine out and turn to get a glass. I ask Spencer "you want a glass?" He says "uh no thanks, I'll probably not drink tonight in case people need a designated driver from JJ and Will's." I hum as I pour a glass of wine, a big glass of wine. Spencer chuckles and asks "bad day?" I chuckle back "just a long day. I think it's a full moon or something because people were just crazy." Spencer laughs "how so?" I hum "they were just noncompliant across the board. Claiming they didn't know the chicken in the cafeteria was a solid food. Stuff like that." Spencer hums "that does sound frustrating." I take a long swig of the wine as I nod. He asks me "do you still want to go tonight?" I give Spencer a shocked look "of course I want to go! Just let me finish this glass of wine and take a nap and I'll be ready to go in a few hours!" Spencer smiles and nods. "Sounds good, is it okay if I nap with you?" Spencer asks a bit shyly. I chuckle and nod "of course, Spence. Are you tired, too?" He shakes his head "no, I've just missed you while you've been at work. I'll just read while you sleep." I smile warmly at the thought of Spencer missing me this much. I say teasingly "you know this little bit of loneliness and longing you feel? I feel that every time you go on a case." Spencer gives me a sad smile "I know, Annie, I'm sorry." I give him a sad smile back as I brush his hair out of his face. I say "it's okay Spencer, I understand. All I ask is you come back to me in one piece every time." He nods "I do my best." I give him a kiss on the cheek and say "I know you do, bubs." His cheeks turn pink and he gives a shy smile in response. We walk back to our bedroom, Ryder's claws tapping on the hardwood floor of the hallway at our heels. I tell Spencer I'm going to change out of my scrubs and into some comfy clothes. He nods and climbs into his side of the bed, Ryder following and curling up at Spencer's feet. I smile to myself at the sight. Spencer turns on the tv to find a comfort show for me - I have him so well trained, don't I? - as I change into Nike shorts and one of Spencer's shirts. Spencer smiles as I walk towards the bed. I get a bit shy and ask him "what?" with a giggle. He shrugs and smiles as he tells me "I just think you look so beautiful in my clothes." I feel my cheeks warming up at the compliment as I look down. I say in a shy tone "Spencer you always tell me I'm beautiful." He leans forward and lifts up my chin "because you are, Annie. I will spend the rest of my life making sure that you know that every day." I shyly nod at him as I crawl into bed with him. I nuzzle into his left side and wrap my left arm around his waist. Spencer wraps his left arm behind me and picks up the book he's been reading. It's not even in English so I have no idea what it is or what it's about. I would ask but I know I would fall asleep during his explanation due to how tired I am so instead I just say "Spence, I'm too tired now, but will you tell me about what you're reading when I wake up. Maybe when we are getting ready?" Spencer smiles and his eyes light up at the question and he responds "of course, baby, now go to sleep. We've got a big night ahead of us." I nod and feel myself drifting off as Spencer punctuates his statement with a kiss to my forehead.

•••••

I wake up in bed by myself. I wonder where Spencer is until I hear the water running in the shower. I check the time and see that it's a little past 7. I get out of bed and go sit at my vanity to brush out my hair and just make sure I look presentable before the party. I just touch up my makeup from work, adding extra concealer to different spots and refreshing my blush, mascara, and lipstick. I change into a cute set of pajamas that's both pants and long sleeves, because Jack will be there I don't want to be too revealing. I do put on a tank beneath the pajama top in case I get hot and need to remove a layer. It doesn't take me near as long to get ready due to the fact that it's a casual pajama party. I go to the kitchen to quickly whip up some party snacks. I make some Buffalo chicken dip, Hawaiian roll sliders, and make some cheesecake brownie batter and go ahead and put the batter in a greased pan so it can be baked at JJ's. Spencer comes out to the living room in his pajama set, drying his hair with a towel. He looks impressed and says "wow you've gotten a lot done." I chuckle "to be fair I had some things prepped so it would be easier to mix up later. Before work I layered the sandwiches in and just added the butter glaze on top and baked them really quick while I whipped up the dip and the brownie batter. Took maybe 10 minutes." He walks around the island and says "well I bet it tastes amazing, baby," and gives me a quick kiss. I smile and ask "can you take Ryder out one last time and then I'll be ready to go?" Spencer nods and happily fulfills my request as I pack up everything to go. For Christmas Alison gave me a basket that holds casserole dishes so they're easily transported and I will definitely be using it tonight. After I've gotten everything settled I put on my uggs and my jacket since it's pretty cold outside and wait for Spencer to come back. He and Ryder return and I happily greet Ryder and love on him for a minute before having him get in his crate. Spencer carries the bag of food and I lock the door behind us as we leave. The drive is calm, Spencer tells me about the book he's been reading now that I'm awake. The drive is a short one. We arrive at around 8:45 pm and Spencer knocks on the door before walking in, just like at Rossi's. You'd think FBI agents would be more sticklers for security than they are. We walk in the front door and everybody that's arrived turns in the living room to greet us. JJ, Will, and Henry are obviously there along with Hotch, Killian, Jack, and Rossi. Jack notices our arrival and gasps loudly and dramatically before screaming our names and running to greet us. I giggle and pick up Jack since Spencer's hands are full. Jack excitedly says "you're in your pajamas, too!" I nod and giggle. I respond "it's a pajama party, Jack so everybody will be in pajamas!" I look to JJ and tell her "I have brownies ready to bake. Is it cool if I use your oven?" She hops up and responds "absolutely. Let me help you!" I smile and nod, putting Jack down. I take the food from Spencer and tell Jack to go see uncle Spencer. I follow JJ into the kitchen, leaving Spencer in the living room with Jack and everybody else. JJ preheats the oven and I start unpacking all the food I brought to add to the spread. JJ chuckles "wow you always bring the best food!" I smile proudly and just say "I love to cook and was taught to never come to a party empty handed." JJ drinks a sip from her glass of wine and says "well I am grateful. You want a glass of wine? I know Spencer is driving tonight so you can go a little crazy." I laugh at her statement and tell her "okay 1. You saw me drunk like once and should know from that that I don't need to be drunk ever. 2. Jack and Henry are here and I don't need to be a bad example. 3. I will never live it down." JJ laughs and says "just have fun, let loose, and see where the night takes you." She shrugs and takes another sip before continuing "maybe you'll get lucky tonight." I laugh "Spencer is such a stickler for consent I cannot get much past tipsy before he won't want to do anything." JJ awes before saying "that's actually really sweet. He's such a good guy." I blush and nod "he is. I love him to pieces. Sometimes I hate it when he can be a stickler for certain things, but I know it's just because he cares."

~ Spencer's POV ~

I pick up Jack excitedly and he giggles. Jack asks me "uncle Spencer, are you and miss Annie going to get married?" I look over his shoulder at the people gathered in the living room. Hotch and Killian won't make eye contact with me. I scramble for words and say "maybe one day Jack but not any time soon." I don't need him running in there and telling Annie that she and I are going to get married. I want her to be as surprised as possible. I set him down and he runs back over to Killian, settling into her lap. I look at Hotch and Killian with a semi angry expression. They look away again and I say "Hotch, I didn't want you to tell Killian or Jack." He holds his hands up and says "I tell Killian everything and I didn't know Jack was awake when we were talking." Killian looks at me and says "come on, Spencer, you know we can keep a secret." I sigh and rub my face hard out of stress. Rossi asks "did you get it?" I look towards the kitchen, seeing only JJ from my place in the living room but she's leaning against a counter talking animatedly, I assume, with Annie. I didn't actually spend today working on paperwork, I went to a local jewelry store with Morgan and Prentiss to pick out an engagement ring for Annie. When we all met outside the place Morgan asked me "so what are we working with, kid?" I nervously stumbled over my words before I said "her ring size is a 6 and she likes round cut simple diamonds and rings. She doesn't want anything 'gaudy' according to JJ." Morgan nodded in response and Prentiss then asked me "do you know how much your budget is?" I nodded and said "well in my research it said 3 months salary is the recommended amount of money to spend on an engagement ring." Morgan whistled and Prentiss' jaw dropped. Prentiss then said "you know Annie won't care about how much a ring costs, Spencer." I nodded and told them "I've been thinking about this for the majority of our relationship. Marriage was always the end game. I already had so much money saved up because I didn't do much before Annie and I knew one day I would want to make big purchases like this. 3 months salary isn't too much for me after years of saving. I know it's not the cost she cares about, but I want to do this right." Morgan and Prentiss nodded, they decided to drop the topic. Prentiss then asked me "I gotta know, Spence, how did you find out her ring size? Is she suspicious?" I chuckled nervously before saying "I made sure she was sleeping heavily and I quickly and quietly measured the size of her left ring finger. I don't think she's suspicious at all." With that we walked inside and looked around to pick out a ring. We looked around for about an hour before we officially settled on a 2 carat diamond on a Pavé diamond platinum band. It was in my price range so I asked for it in a size 6. The store clerk nodded happily and went to fulfill my order. I read in my research that most stores actually carry mainly a size 6 so that made this process easier. I went through the process of paying for the ring and left with it in a bag. Morgan and Prentiss congratulated me and were so happy for me. Back in the present, I'm honestly surprised they haven't made it to the party yet. I tell Rossi "yes I did." Everybody sitting there gets excited and I pull out my phone with the pictures of the ring to show everybody. I ask Killian and Hotch to not show Jack so he doesn't accidentally ruin the surprise. Killian looks at me and says "she will love it." I chuckle nervously and say "I just hope she says yes." Killian laughs and says "Spencer if you asked her to move to the middle of nowhere Montana and start a cattle ranch she would do it in a heartbeat, but only for you." I blush and smile at that. Rossi tells me "you did good, kid." I can't stop smiling this point. I turn to Killian and tell her "listen, I actually do need your help." She smiles and says "sure what do you need?" I check to make sure Annie still isn't in ear shot and tell her "I need you to make sure she has a nice dress and has her nails done for the proposal. It should be easy for you to ask her and not get suspicious since I'm asking her on her birthday. I've hired a photographer to document the whole thing so you don't have to worry about taking pictures." Killian nods and says "done. I'll make sure we have the same day off this week and I'll take her out to do all of that. How and when are you asking her?" Rossi chimes in "my army buddy has a nice Italian restaurant in DC and it has a nice private rooftop area with a balcony. It'll be completely secluded and private. Penelope and JJ are going to go decorate it the day of." Killian awes and says "Spencer, she is going to love all of this. You have nothing to worry about." I laugh and say "then explain why I'm so worried." Just then Annie comes in holding a glass of wine and says "Aw what are you worried about, bubs?" Killian thankfully interjects "just about where Morgan and Penelope are. They were supposed to be here a while ago." Annie says "oh don't worry about that baby, they're always late to things like this because they pregame before hand." I've never heard the term pregame before so Annie quietly explains the meaning to me. I can tell Annie has already had at least one glass of wine with JJ, she's very giggly and her southern accent is getting more prominent as the night wears on. After a few minutes the oven starts beeping and she hops up to go check on the brownies. I decide that I don't want to add a trip to the ER to the list tonight and follow her to help her get them out of the oven. Before she can even get the oven mits on I have a different pair put on and have removed the brownies from the oven. She looks at me frustrated and says "I can get my own brownies out of the oven, Spence." I can tell she's moving from tipsy to drunk now in her speech and actions. I laugh softly then ask her "Annie, be honest with me, how many glasses of wine have you had since we got here?" She opens and closes her mouth like a fish for a second and says quietly "I left my third glass in the living room." I chuckle and tell her "I don't care if you drink tonight, it's New Years Eve and I want you to have fun, but that means I'm going to baby you a little and not let you handle things like a hot oven. Okay?" She still looks a bit sad but I watched her perk up when I told her I didn't care if she drank tonight. She nods and says "okay, Spence." I tell her "good girl," and kiss her on her forehead. She beams at that, completely forgetting that she thought she was about to be in trouble. We leave the kitchen to let the brownies cool. We go back to the living room and mingle with the rest of the people. Annie sits on the floor playing with Jack and Henry, having the time of her life. She holds Henry and lets him play with her hands between tickling him and she's giggling just as much as he is. It's not very loud but it's still very cute. Morgan, Prentiss, and Garcia finally show up and they are very drunk. I'm very relieved to know they took an uber to get here. To my surprise they're actually wearing pajamas, Garcia said they even went out to the bars in pajamas. She says with slurred speech "they only care if you're decent and we were having the best time in our pajamas!" It's getting later in the night and I worry Annie won't be awake for the clock to strike midnight so we can have our first New Years kiss. My suspicions are correct because around 10:30 she nods off with her feet in my lap and her head on the pillow at the other end of the couch. Small talk continues among everybody else while Annie sleeps. I watch her even breathing and hear her snore slightly, trying to gauge how asleep she is. It looks like she's passed out, but hopefully she will wake up in time for midnight. If not, that's okay, too. JJ is sitting on the other couch next to me and asks quietly "she's asleep?" I nod yes in response. She then asks me "okay can I see it now, please?" I chuckle and nod again as I pull out my phone to show her the pictures of the ring. Her eyes and smile grow wide as she looks at it. She's still looking at it, flipping back and forth between the angles and zooming in on different parts, when she says "it's absolutely gorgeous, Spence. She's gonna love it!" I smile sheepishly and feel myself blush. I just say in response "I'm just afraid it's too soon. What if she says no?" JJ starts laughing at my statement and says "Spencer she's going to say yes. You have nothing to worry about." I still wring my hands out of nerves and anxiety and say "but you don't really know that, Jennifer." She sighs in understanding and says "Spencer, I do." I ask her, now getting a bit agitated, "how?" JJ sighs again and says "Spence, she told me she would marry you if you asked her with a ring pop." My anxiety dissipates just a bit at that and I chuckle, feeling my cheeks start to get hot. I look over at Annie, checking for any signs that she's awake, but she's still out like a light. I ask JJ "really? Those are her words?" She nods in response "verbatim." I smile like an idiot at that. JJ chuckles and says "see? You have nothing to worry about." I hum before responding "right now I'm worried about not getting a New Years Kiss on our first New Year's Eve because you had her drink too much." JJ shrugs "I didn't force it down her throat, Spence!" I laugh and nod "I know. I want her to have a good time. Just happy she's in a safe place doing it and not out at a bar." JJ nods in understanding "I'm so happy for you, Spence. She loves you so much. She's going to be the most beautiful bride and you are going to be the most handsome groom." She smiles and pats my knee before getting up to play with Henry and Jack. I sit mostly in silence for a while, observing everybody and listening to the conversations. Morgan, Prentiss, and Garcia have just gotten worse as the night went on and it's very amusing to all of us. Eventually I feel Annie stir. She sits up and looks around with squinty eyes. She asks "what time is it, Spence?" I tell her softly "it's 11:15." She nods and rubs her temples. I ask her "do you want some water and ibuprofen?" She gives me a brief small smile and nods. I get up to fetch the stuff and I also decide to grab her a small plate of food just in case it'll make her feel better. I bring it to her and her face lights up just slightly. She takes the ibuprofen and water and I hand her the plate of food. It has a couple mini sandwiches, some chips, pizza rolls, and a brownie of hers. She takes the plate and smiles even brighter at me. She says "you always know just what I need, Spence." I kiss her temple and say "that's my job, Annie." She blushes and curls up on the couch next to me under the covers and begins to eat. She's definitely sobering up now, maybe she wasn't as drunk as I thought or she was. She seems a lot better after she eats some of her food. She eats all of her pizza rolls, one of the mini sandwiches, half the chips, and half a brownie. Honestly it's better than I was expecting. I've just noticed she's been restricting herself more because she noticed she gained a few pounds over the holidays. She's beautiful all the time and I don't want her to think a number on the scale dictates her beauty, her worth, or my love for her. She hands me the plate and nearly empty glass of water, asking me to put it on the table next to the couch. I do so happily and then she snuggles into my side. She slowly integrates herself back into conversation with everybody, laughing every now and then at a joke or adding commentary. I'm honestly so afraid Morgan, Prentiss, or Garcia will say something about the engagement and give it all away. I've threatened them all not to so hopefully that's enough. Hotch and JJ put the kids in bed in Henry's nursery and came back out to everybody. Now that the kids are gone JJ pulls out cards against humanity for us all of us to play. It was hilarious even though Annie did have to explain some of the more recent pop culture references to me. The funniest card combo of the night ended up being "I went from a bitch slap to my first kill all thanks to menstrual rage." That particular winning combo was played by JJ but Prentiss ended up winning overall, Morgan was a close second. We play until the countdown for the ball to drop in Times Square starts. We all get excited and start counting down together. We all yell the final 10 seconds in synchronicity "10! 9! 8! 7! 6! 5! 4! 3! 2! 1! Happy New Year!" Annie and I turn to each other, sharing our first ever New Years kiss. It actually starts to turn kind of heated and the three drunk amigos start whooping and cheering, making us pull away from each other in embarrassment. They're still cheering and now we are all laughing. Annie hops up and says "well I am going to start cleaning up the kitchen and gathering our stuff so we can head home to our fur baby." I hop up to help.

~ Annie's POV ~

I walk in to the kitchen, not expecting Spencer to be following me. I start putting the brownies back in the pan they baked in to take home but I leave a few for JJ and Will. Spencer walks in and wraps his arms around me from behind. He asks me "how sober are you now, Annie?" I chuckle "I'm completely sober, Spence. Three glasses of wine in fast succession makes me tipsy for like an hour or two tops. Add the nap, water, food, and ibuprofen after and I'm totally sober now." He says "you promise?" I giggle and say "ask me anything, Spencer, and I'll try to prove it to you." He says "anything, huh?" I giggle and hum an affirmative response. He then asks "when will our year anniversary be?" I then ask "year anniversary from when we met or from when we officially started dating?" He trails light kisses on my neck and says "both." I giggle at the sensation and say "we met on March 12th and we started dating on April 8th." He says into my ear with a whisper "that's correct, I guess you are sober, now." I giggle and nod "I told you, Spence." He hums and says "okay is this everything for us?" I tell him yes and hand him the bag with all of our dishes. We walk out and he takes the stuff to the car. I go over to JJ and Will, thanking them for such a fun party. I say my goodbyes to everyone. Hotch, Killian, Jack, and Rossi, are also getting ready to leave. I ask JJ "should we give the three drunk children rides to their apartments?" JJ waves that idea off and says "oh no, Morgan will just sleep on the couch and Emily and Penelope will sleep in the guest room." I nod and ask if she needs any help before we leave. She tells me to go ahead and head out, winking at me, with a knowing look on her face. Spencer comes back in to offer his help and also to say goodbye to everybody. We head out shortly after, getting in the car and heading home. I hold Spencer's hand, resting both of our hands on the dashboard, as we drive home. Spencer says "I had a great time, I don't know about you?" I giggle and nod "yeah Spence I had a great time and a great nap. Honestly I feel the safest napping in a room of FBI agents." Spencer laughs hard at that and shakes his head "I never thought about it like that, honestly." We talk about the night and laugh about the events and funny things that unfolded as we make the rest of the drive home. The three drunk friends honestly were the best entertainment that money can't buy. It was like the three stooges or really bad charades all night. We make it back to our complex and head inside, hands interlocked. Spencer says as we step into the elevator "so um...I'm guessing...that the nap you took really energized you." I bite my lip and nod as I wrap my hands around his neck. I see his eyes flash darker as a devious smile spreads across his face. He swiftly leans down and connects our lips, sweetly at first, but before it can become too heated the elevator opens. We hastily walk down the hall and Spencer unlocks the door with more ease than I would have. We resume the kiss once inside, my hands are buried in his hair while his hands explore my body like it was the first time he was ever able to touch me. I pull away, breathless, and say "I want this, but let me take care of Ryder first and then I'm all yours." He processes what I said while catching his breath and nods. He plants a kiss to my forehead and says "that would give me time to get set up as well." I furrow my brow in confusion and he just winks at me. I get Ryder and I take him to the closest pet relief area of my complex so he can go to the bathroom. I decide to take my time and slowly make my way back so Spencer can have all the time he needs. We make our way back inside and I set up Ryder in the guest room with food and water so he will be out of our way for a bit. I then make my way from the guest bedroom to our bedroom. The door is closed so I knock and call out to Spencer so I don't ruin any surprises for myself. He tells me to wait outside and he will come get me. I wait outside for a couple minutes before Spencer opens the door and steps out. He's still clothed in his pajama set and comes out with something behind his back. He looks at me carefully and says "I'm planning to implement the punishment for your behavior at Rossi's Christmas party. If you don't want to do that you need to color out. Understand?" I nod and say "yes, I understand, sir." Spencer nods, pleased. He continues "what are your safe words?" I say "green for good, yellow for slow down or change to something else, red for stop everything." Spencer smiles and says "good girl. Now I want to use this. What's your color?" I look and he's holding a silk blindfold. As soon as I register what it is I nod and say "green, sir." He nods and opens the door all the way so I can come in to the room. I look around the room and he's dimmed the lights and lit a few candles and rain sounds to set the mood. He tells me "strip for me, princess." I do as he says without hesitation. After I put my clothes in the hamper and return to him he walks behind me. He gathers my hair in his hands and pulls it back into a pony tail for me. He then says "I'm going to put the blind fold on now." I don't say anything and allow him to fasten the blindfold over my eyes. It's pitch dark and I can't see anything at all. I reach out to grab Spencer to steady myself. He chuckles darkly at that. He says "I'm going to lead you to the bed now." He takes my hands and leads me to the bed so I can lay on my stomach. I then have a question. I ask him "permission to speak, daddy?" He chuckles darkly again and says "yes, princess." I ask "are those the only items you plan on using or will there be more surprises?" He chuckles again and says "I will be using other items, but if you want me to stop using them you know the words." I say "yes, daddy. Thank you." He says "you're welcome, baby" and gets to work tying me up. He ties my hands behind my back. They're clasped together and bent at the elbows so they'll be in a more comfortable position. Spencer must be planning for this to last quite a while. He checks in with me frequently as he ties me up. I've actually calmed down quite a bit with the darkness that I can see and the simple rain noises. Spencer also tied my legs so they are bent and parted at the knee, my right foot is tied to my right hand and my left foot is tied to my left hand. Before he moved on he was sure to place a pillow under my hips so I would be a bit more comfortable. The last thing he does is connect my pony tail to the ties connecting my hands on my back, making me gasp when I accidentally pull on it. Spencer steps back to marvel at his masterpiece of nylon rope. He then asks me "what's your color, Annie, you still doing okay?" I say "green, daddy, I'm okay." Spencer lets out a happy hum as he mills around the room doing other things. I hear him rustling around in the closet and the next thing I feel is large coarse but soft strings gently cascading down my shoulders and back. Spencer asks me after a beat "do you know what this is?" I shake my head as I tell him "no, sir." Spencer continues "it's a flogger. Have you heard of it before?" I nod my head before I realize it pulls my hair. I quickly stop nodding and say "yes, sir, I've heard of it." He hums and asks "but you've never used one, correct?" I respond "no, sir, I haven't. You are correct." Spencer continues to gently work the flogger over my body, making every hair and nerve stand at attention. Now that I know what it is, I know what it's used for, too. Spencer says after a minute of silence "you're behaving so well for me tonight, princess. I'm impressed. Maybe I should give you wine and naps all the time if it means you'll be a good girl for me." I moan and say "I always want to be a good girl for you, daddy." Spencer chuckles and says "that's what I like to hear. What's your color?" I hum and say "green, sir." My own voice is the last thing I hear before I hear the strands of the flogger cut through the air and hit my ass. I hiss in pain at the feeling and cry out. Spencer checks in again before continuing. "I know this is your first time with one of these and if you don't like it and never want to use it again I want you to tell me." He says with care and worry in his voice. I just say "I'm green, Spencer. Seriously, I'm okay. I promise." I don't see him but I think he's nodding to himself, maybe working up the nerve or something. Spencer says "you're going to get 5 with the flogger. Count them." I hear the strands whip through the air again before they land on my left ass cheek. I count with a whimper "1." I hear Spencer pacing, probably drawing out the time between hits to build my apprehension. Next I hear the flogger and then feel it on my right ass cheek. I count as I cry out in pain "2." I think Spencer expects more of a reaction because the next time I hear the flogger whip through the air I feel it land on my heat, causing me to jolt forward and actually cry out in pain. Tears are leaking through the blindfold and down my cheeks as I cry out "3!" He continues pacing, just causing my anxiety to skyrocket. The next thing I know the flogger whips through the air twice, hitting both cheeks back to back as I count "4, 5!" I cry out in relief that it's over. I hear Spencer drop the flogger before he comes around and sits on the edge of the bed and lifts my blindfold. The light is blinding and I squint to adjust my eyes back to normal. Spencer gives me a soft smile, telling me he's being his normal self and checking in. He shushes me, I didn't even realize I was still crying, and he says "hey, hey, I'm all done with the flogger." He wipes my tears off my cheeks with his thumbs. Spencer says "I do have something else planned but if you want to color out, I understand. That was intense." I shake my head and say "no, we can keep going. Can I have some water?" Spencer hums an affirmative response and leaves the room I'm guessing to fetch water. He comes back with the water in a glass with a straw. I chuckle and he chuckles back. I gratefully take a few long gulps of water. Spencer hums and says "I'm so proud of you, princess. You did so well. Is it okay if I put the blindfold back down now and we continue?" I nod and say "yes, daddy, that's fine." The last thing I see before the darkness takes over my vision again is Spencer's devious smirk and a dark glint in his eyes. I hear him rustle through the closet again and eventually just get comfortable again before I hear a buzzing sound. The next thing I feel is the source of the buzzing sound vibrating on my sore butt cheeks. I gasp in surprise at the feeling. It's not entirely painful but not entirely pleasurable, either. He takes the vibrator down to my heat, slowly running it on the outsides of my labia, never fully touching where I want him to. I can feel myself slowly getting wetter as he continues this torture. I mean I was nearly dripping from the flogging, honestly. The direct hit to my heat sent all the blood rushing to my core, making it extra sensitive. I'm sure that was Spencer's reasoning for doing it. Eventually he zeroes in on my core and lightly circles it over my clit. I gasp in pleasure. He continues the light and tight circles with the vibrator on a high speed for I don't know how long. My legs are shaking and I am about to come. I beg him "please, daddy, can I come?" He hums "mm hmm come for me baby." I don't think to question the quick answer and just enjoy the feeling of the waves of pleasure washing over me. Spencer never turns off the vibrator and continues to circle it over my clit until I was practically begging him to stop out of overstimulation. He says "you want me to stop rubbing it on your clit?" I'm nearly sobbing now and say "yes, please!" He says "hmm okay," and proceeds to stick the vibrator inside of me, still at a high speed. It's at this moment I realize it's an egg vibrator and not the normal one we had used in the past. I cry out at the sensations taking over my body. I'm shaking but can't move too much because of the restraints and every time I move my head I accidentally pull my own hair. I feel the orgasm building within me again as I ask "please, can I come, sir?" Spencer answers "yes, princess," and I practically scream as I feel the second orgasm rip through me. The vibrator doesn't turn off or even turn down. I'm going crazy and can't think straight. Spencer walks over to see my face. He doesn't remove my blindfold but asks me "having fun?" I can't form a coherent sentence and Spencer chuckles. He then says "one more and then you can take a break." I nod and Spencer leans down to give me a quick kiss. He settles himself by my lower body again and starts to swiftly rub my clit side to side with two fingers. I quite literally scream at the overstimulation. I can't form the words to ask permission, but he senses it. "Come for me, princess." I lose it at that point and come hard. As I start to come down from the high Spencer finally removes the vibrator from my heat. I sigh in relief and let my head down a bit before I realize it will pull my own hair. I don't know how much time has passed but it's now just been a few minutes of silence as Spencer gave me water and comforted me. I now hear Spencer undressing at the end of the bed and I'm scared and excited at the same time. Spencer says "you ready to keep going, Annie?" I just nod my head and say "yes...sir..." between bated breaths. He chuckles and I feel him line up at my entrance. He has practically no resistance due to my absolutely dripping heat. He pushes in and slides in with ease. I cry out in pleasure and in pain. Spencer let's me adjust, cursing as he adjusts himself. After a beat he holds on to my hips and pulls me just enough as he thrusts to hit some of the deepest parts inside of me. I am moaning out in pleasure. It's an entirely weird feeling knowing I can hardly move in response to all of this. It's weirdly freeing. Spencer pulls the vibrator back out, I know because I hear it buzzing, and attaches it to my clit. I cry out at that and come without warning, riding the waves of pleasure but also afraid Spencer will be angry I didn't ask for permission. My fears melt away when he says "that's my girl, give me one more and we will be done for the night." I groan at his words, not being given the chance to come down from that orgasm. Spencer chuckles "be a good girl and take it, princess. Be my good girl." As he says the last phrase he takes the vibrator to my clit again, moving it in right fast circles. I scream out in pleasure as I come around him. Spencer moans out in pleasure as I feel him twitch within me before I feel him fill me up. He groans as he pulls out of me and I feel our combined release starting to leak out. Spencer must have put a towel down before we got started because he just used that to gently catch the excess release threatening to spill. He lifts my hips and pulls the pillow out from under me as he deftly begins untying the knots he made. He unties my legs first, gently laying each down; they feel absolutely limp. He then unties my hands quickly, he unties the rope from my hair, and he removes my blindfold. My whole body feels limp and I can hardly move. Spencer whispers in my ear and says "I'm going to get some things to clean you up and take care of you, stay here." I think to myself that I couldn't move even if the apartment were on fire. He comes back dressed in his boxers with more water and a snack from the kitchen before going to the bathroom to fetch aloe and a warm wet wash cloth. He immediately moves to clean me up, I flinch at the sensitivity and he apologizes softly. Once he's pleased with his handiwork he starts to rub aloe on my butt so it won't be so sore tomorrow. I hum in content at the feeling. Spencer chuckles before also taking some aloe and lightly rubbing it on the outside and around my vulva. He says "I wouldn't normally do this, but you're looking quite red and I want you to be able to walk tomorrow." I hum "well I definitely can't walk now." He chuckles. He then turns me over lightly and moves to pick me up. He takes me to the bathroom and sets me on the toilet to pee so I won't get a UTI. He leaves the bathroom so I can pee in peace, coming back with just a t shirt of his. He chuckles and says "I'm assuming you don't want to wear panties to bed after that." I blush and nod, honestly I hadn't even thought that far ahead. He helps me put the shirt on and then we move to lay in bed. He gives me my water as well as a granola bar and some apple slices with peanut butter. I look down at the plate and start to feel myself dropping. I feel tears well in my eyes with no warning and I grab onto Spencer and say through tears "Spence, I'm dropping." He doesn't miss a beat, pulling me into his lap. He has me straddle him because that will be the least painful position for me after the events of tonight. He shushes me and whispers sweet nothings and words of encouragement in my ear. He rubs my back up and down, soothing me better than anybody else can. He tells me "it's okay, sweet girl," and "such a good girl for me. You did so well," and "I love you so much," and "I'm so proud of you." The words of validation are what I needed but they make me cry harder before I can start to get back to normal. I'm holding on to Spencer's neck for dear life. As I feel myself start to level out I start to feel embarrassed. Spencer can tell because I'm hiding my face from him. He gently pulls my chin up and says "Annie, don't be embarrassed. It's perfectly normal and healthy to drop after a scene like that. Part of my job is taking care of you and reassuring you. You would do the same for me in any capacity so don't feel embarrassed or guilty because I'm taking care of you." I sniffle and nod. I then say "I just don't like not being in control of my emotions." Spencer nods and says "I understand. It's okay, I'd be more worried if you didn't have these emotions." I chuckle and nod. We share the snack, talking and laughing like we normally do before getting ready for bed and taking care of Ryder. Spencer gets dressed in sweatpants and a t shirt and slippers to take him out one last time before bed. I get myself ready for bed and complete my normal routine while fighting the soreness from our extracurricular activities. Spencer comes back in with Ryder and we crawl into our shared bed together. One small happy family. I tell him "happy new year, Spence. I love you." He smiles and responds "happy new year, Annie, I love you, too." He kisses me on the lips briefly and we slowly drift off to sleep after that.

AN: Hi, I haven't left a note in a while! If you're reading this story as I'm publishing it I just wanted to let you know I have finals coming up and might not update as much over the next few weeks. Or I may update a lot if writing becomes more of an outlet for stress and source of procrastination than it already is. Lucky y'all you get to find out soon. Please leave comments and stuff if you have constructive criticism or ideas you may want me to implement later in the story. Idk how long this story will go but we will cross that bridge when we get there. Thanks for reading! 💛