chapter 22

don't mess 

with my emotions,

wolfhard.

***

(listen to champagne by lia marie johnson, reflects emotions of sadness and adds on to this chapter more)

you woke up the next morning after the whole scene with finn. you didn't return after you stormed off yesterday and just went home. you apologised to the duffer brothers but they were the only people you texted.

millie, sadie and joe blew up your phone though wondering where you were. even gaten and caleb texted you at least 2 messages each. however, you heard nothing from noah or him.

him. you were still heartbroken. you had let him take your first kiss and you believed him the whole time. you really did think he liked you. 

but you thought wrong. he didn't. he doesn't.

you get out of bed as you reach for your phone, turning it over to see millions of millions of messages from sadie and millie. you sigh as you open up your groupchat with them as you scroll through the messages. all they were doing were asking where you had been and how they saw that finn was angry at you leaving. 

you roll your eyes at the thought of finn getting angry for you leaving. he bloody hell should be, he hurt you. what? he expected you to skip to a rainbow with the biggest smile on your face? 

thats not how love works wolfhard. you honestly didn't even know if you knew about love because you honestly thought you were close with it to finn, but now, you didn't know. you didn't know anything anymore. you felt the fame had just hit all the kids. you felt they had changed so much. 

you take one big yawn before getting prepared for another day of filming.

***

you walk into your trailer as you drop your bag onto the bed. you had avoided anyone seeing you, more like finn seeing you, as your mum dropped you off. it was silent on the car drive to the studio, you felt like crying but screaming at the same time. your mum knew you were upset so she just stayed silent, but you could see in the corner of your eye her looking to you.

you take a deep breathe as you look at yourself in the mirror. you check your imperfections and see ugliness. you look at your acnes forming on your cheeks and forehead, your collarbones not poking out very firmly, your teeth being slightly crooked and your lips being chapped. you grab your lipgloss as you put it on but you still look at yourself in the mirror.

you felt ugly. you never normally had these doubts but...you did this time. you did because he made you feel it. why weren't you good enough? why aren't you the one with him?

a knock on the trailer door startles you as you sigh.

"come on in, its open." you say as the door opens and in opens joe. he smiles towards you as you smile back.

"hi rebel." he says as you laugh.

"i'm sorry for yesterday, just something happened." you say as he nods.

"finn was so pissed but i put him in his space. i was however upset you left so suddenly. what happened?" joe asks as you look down. you didn't even want to remember anything about yesterday but you had to, you had to tell joe the truth. he was honestly like a brother to you. 

"well...finn was the problem." you say as joe grows concerned.

"what did the little shit do, i swear to god if he hurt you-" you interupt him as you laugh.

"first, if he hurt me you could probably do nothing. second, he did hurt me but not physically." you answer as joe eyebrows furrow.

"are you okay?" he asks as you nod.

"i'm used to boys and especially finn walking over me. so yes, i'm okay. just, wasn't expecting it from him since you said that if finn admits to a girl he likes her then he truly does. he did that with me. but, i guess it was just for the act." you answer as joe sighs and looks down, his leg twitching.

"oh my- ...that stupid kid." joe shakes his head as your eyebrows lift, not surprised.

"yep, stupid asshole." you answer back as joe laughs.

"do you have anymore romantic scenes with him?" joe asks as you remember the scenes were filming. you then remember...

"oh shit. we have a 'breakup' scene." you say as you jump up from your seat.

your heart begins racing.

"...w-w-where mikes says he wants to be with eleven but doesn't truly mean it. he has to f-f-flirt with me and lean forward and...everything. oh shit. shit. shit." you say as joe tries to calm you down.

the whole scene was finn full on flirting with you as you have to keep your cool, since alex and him don't kiss, finn has to be so close to your face. your heart begins racing as you couldn't bare to even look at him in the eye let alone let him so close to your face.

"i can't do it. i really can't. i really really can't do it." you begin shaking as you walk back and forth as joe turns to face him as he puts his hands on your shoulders. you look at him in the eyes as you both make eye contact.

but it was different. it was a chemistry spark almost. you look into his eyes as you feel your heart stop. he was a head taller than you as you looked up at you as he look into his eyes. he stepped back as you look down.

"you will be fine, just calm down and breathe." he says as you look up at him. you were slightly blushing as you laugh.

"what?" he says as you smile.

"nothing." you say, shaking your head. he looks at you and giggles with you too. you both knew what you were laughing about, but know you couldn't say any of it out loud. you were 16 almost 17 but it was still illegal if anything came with you and joe.

didn't seem to stop your brain thinking of anything though.

but you knew it was because of finn, that you were attracted to any guy.

"when do you have your scene?" joe asks as you check the time. you look at your phone and roll your eyes.

"now." you answer as joe shakes his head.

"you're a dork, come on." he says, before taking your hand as you run out the tralier, smiling and admiring the good friend you have.

***

"oh look who's late again." 

you roll your eyes, making eye contact with finn as he sighs. you felt your blood boil as joe whispers in your ear.

"don't let him get to you, its just a scene." he whispers before hugging you from behind before waving off. you wave off to him before looking at finn, as he rolls his eyes.

"you move on fast since apparently you are hurt." he says as your eyes widen.

"oh fuck-" 

"OKAY QUIET ON SET!" matt says as he walks over to you and finn. you roll your eyes as you give finn the cold shoulder as you hear him scoff. matt looks at you both with concern.

"so i'm guessing you both haven't res-"

"no, we haven't. it would be appreciative if we just moved on the scene please." finn says, as nice as he can with the cruel tone of his voice. matt just coughs as he takes the scripts and hands it to both of you.

"well, can you both just read the scripts and just go over your lines together please. don't kill each other until after we finish filming this season please." he says sarcastically as a little giggle escapes your lips as finn glares towards you, erasing whatever laughter was left. 

you both walk off into the spare room as you take a seat on one of the couches, going over your lines. finn looks at you as he sits down opposite you. 

"can you sit further away from me?" you say sassily as finn shakes his head.

"can you not be a bitch?" he says as your forehead creases.

"um, what? i'm the bitch here now?" you say as finn looks up at you.

"yeah? you didn't notice?" 

"wow, coming from the actual douchebag." you answer as finn eyesbrows lift.

"just points to my main point." 

"that doesn't even make sense, get a better comeback." you answer as you shake the script  sharply, before covering your face with it as you continue on reading.

"what the hell is your problem? you were the one that said it was just for acting?" he says as you scoff.

"are you fucking serious? no finn, it wasn't just for acting. you admitting your feelings towards me and vice versa wasn't acting." you say as finn looks down. he bites his lip as you look down at your paper too.

"you were serious?" he says as you laugh sarcastically.

"you're gonna play that card? how the hell do you think i was messing with your emotions, its always you messing with mine. why didn't you tell me the truth you didn't like me?" you ask as finn looks down, as he drops the paper downwards.

"I...i did like you. i...do like you." he says as you roll your eyes.

"no you don't. just stop. stop doing that, i can't deal with it. make up your mind." you say as look away as you fight back the tears coming.

"you said yesterday the kiss that day was just for acting. so, i assumed you never liked me so before you could hurt me, i decided to hurt you." he says as you laugh.

"finn, stop! i don't want to hear it, you fucking hurt me yesterday. don't expect me to forgive you the next day. we are not in a movie." you say as you look up to the ceiling, a tear still able to fall down your face. finn looks at you as you make eye contact before you turn around in your chair. 

"are you...crying?" he says as you shake your head, facing the opposite direction as tears are now streaming.

"no-o-o..." you answer back as you sniff. you look down at your script as you feel finn get up. before he can do anything, you think to yourself...

if he comes and puts his arm around me, i'm going to- 

and thats exactly what he did. he comforted you as you felt even more tears spring up. you were sobbing now like crazy. he spins your chair around as he faces you, his eyes glistening.

"oh fuck off. leave me alone." you say as he puts his arms on your legs.

"i'm not leaving." he says as you roll your eyes.

"tell me the truth then wolfhard, do you like me or not? i can't deal with this any-"

"yes i do y/n, i honestly really fucking do alright. i'm sorry i was being a dick. i...i thought you didn't like me and that you were playing me." he says as you sniff again.

"how was i playing you? you had the script two weeks ago." you say as he shakes his head.

"so did you." he answers as you freeze. 

"how do you know-"

"i was going to surprise you in your trailer when i saw your drawer was open and as i went to close it, i saw the extra bit of the script. i know i shouldn't have but i grabbed the script and read it. i had already been prior given it but didn't want you to find out since i thought you would fake your feelings towards me. when i found the script-"

"your heart shattered in a million pieces, you felt your entire world collapse and you felt so betrayed?" you finish his sentence as he gives you a soft smile.

"you thought i would do the same thing of what i accused you of, didn't you?" he says as you nod your head.

"i thought you would do it cause i hurt you last time." he answers as you laugh.

"i would never hurt you. i never want to hurt you ever again. i really, really like you okay? i really do wolfhard." you say as you feel yourself blush, wiping away the tears.

finn looks at you before leaning in to kiss you. you accept his gesture as you lean in, your lips touching. you move into the kiss as you feel your heart start beating fast but your mind in relaxation. back in finns arms, as he softly touches your skin on your back.

a smile forms on your faces as you move with each other, getting closer and deeper into each kiss.

you were both happy. 

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hope you all enjoyed the chapter and also the amount of views holy shit. thank you all so much it honestly means the world none of you have any idea how much it means to me.

this is a long chapter cause i'll be really busy for the next few weeks since i have this amazing thing called exams hah.

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angie