( Chapter Fourteen )

It had been an hour since Camila ran out of my house, I was sitting on my couch cuddled up to Lucy but it felt wrong. Everything about me and Lucy felt wrong, I felt empty. All I wanted was to be with Camila, I wanted to kiss her, hug her, stare into those beautiful brown orbs and I wanted to make her feel loved.

I had send her multiple text messages and she ignored every single one of them, I needed to find a way to fix this and the only option I had right now was to finally end this meaningless relationship with the girl wrapped around my arms.

"Hey Lucy, We need to talk" I began to say unwrapping my arms from around her petite body, I saw her sit up a worried expression on her face. "What's wrong babe?" She asked taking my hands in hers, She was making this more harder than I thought. I didn't want to break her heart but right now Camila's heart is all I wanted to take care of.

"So you know how we've been dating again for a while" I started talking again not really knowing how to end this, I saw her nod her head. "Well, You know I love you a lot as a friend and as a person. We've been friends since a very long time and I just think we should." I took a long pause as her eyes started to water. "We should just be friends" I could easily hear her heart break as tears started to stream down her face.

"I thought you were in love with me" She whispered looking at our entwined hands.

"I was Lucy, I thought I was. But, you broke my heart and I really tried to fall for you again but love can't be forced and I don't want to keep wasting your time if this relationship is not going anywhere". I tried to be as compassionate as possible not wanting to hurt her feelings any more. "I just think being friends is better, I have mad love for you just not in a romantic way. I'm really really sorry Lucy". I felt her hands pull away from mine.

"You like someone else?" She asked, I could hear anger on her voice. I took a big gulp because I didn't want to say anything I wasn't suppose to, I couldn't say it was Camila and jeopardize her marriage. "It's not that Lucy I just do.." She interrupted me jumping off the couch, her hands in the air, her voice angrier than before and her voice echoing all through the house.

"You fucking like Camila don't you? Don't you? Did you sleep with her?" She asked I could see Dinah and Normani peeking from their bedroom door. I got up slowly trying to hug her so she could calm down but she only slapped my arms away. "Fucking answer the question Lauren, It is her right? I fucking knew it. How stupid do you think I am?" The anger on her voice only scared me not because of what she would do to me but I was scared for Camila and what Lucy would try to do to her.

"This has nothing to do with her, I just fell out of love Lucy. Remember when you broke up with me? You said love wasn't there and that's exactly how I feel. Don't try to blame others for this relationship failing. It's us we just don't belong together." I finished saying her eyes strictly focused on mine the rage on hers sent goosebumps all over my body. She took a deep breath and "Fine Lauren, You'll regret this" she said before storming out the house slamming the door behind her.

"Whoa" Dinah said approaching me as Normani followed her. "Are you okay?" My best friend asked embracing me in a much needed hug. "Yeah, It had to be done. I hate playing with peoples feelings. I feel like the worlds weight has been lifted off my shoulders" I admitted to both girls as we separated. "I'm proud of you Lo. You finally stood up for what's right." Normani said giving my arm a slight squeeze.

"Uh excuse me, But are you gonna go get your girl or just stand here?" Dinah said a big smile on her face. "Imma go get my Camila" I smiled at both of them grabbing Normani's keys from the dinner table. "Get em tiger" I heard Dinah yelled before closing the door behind me.

On my way to Camila's house I was thinking of millions of things I would say but now standing outside her door I was clueless. I rang the door bell a few seconds later, a sad tearful Camila appeared. I didn't say anything I just took her in my arms and hugged her so tight, her small sobs hitting my neck.

"What are you doing here?" she asked slowly pulling away. I wiped the tears off her eyes and cheeks, I smiled before saying anything. "I broke up with Lucy" her sobs immediately stopped and the sparkle on her eyes was coming back. "You did what?" she asked surprised. "I broke up with Lucy, I couldn't be with someone I didn't love. I couldn't fix her heart while yours kept breaking. So I ended everything. I just want you Camila, Forever. Just you and me." I wiped a tear that was starting to fall from my eye.

She stared into my eyes and crashed her lips into mine, I grabbed her by her waist pulling her into me our bodies completely touching. We parted ways to take a deep breath "I choose you Camila Cabello" I whispered, my hot breath hitting her lips, a wide smile spread across her face.

"And I love you Lauren Jauregui" She hugged me so tight I felt every last broken piece of me had been put back together, every sign of sadness had vanished thanks to all the love Camila gave me. Right here, Right now is where I wanted to be.

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"DINAH! Hurry up we're already running late" I yelled from outside my apartment, it had been a week since my break up with Lucy and I hadn't heard from her since. We were getting ready for the Selena Gomez concert and as usual Dinah was taking her time.

Everything with me and Camila was perfect I was more in love with this girl every day and she felt the same way. We were outside hand in hand waiting for our best friends to get ready.

"You are really excited aren't you Jauregui" Camila asked kissing my cheek I couldn't help but blush at the feel of her lips. "I am but you know you're my favorite, DINAH we are leaving" I heard Camila giggle before seeing Dinah and Normani exit the apartment.

"Dammit Lauren can you chill, We literally have two hours until the damn concert starts. You betta relax or i'm not giving you the backstage passes" I could see Dinah's smirk from a mile away, Normani was locking our apartment door before grabbing Dinah's hand. They looked so beautiful together they were like the lesbian Beyoncé and Jay Z power couple.

"Okay okay you two relax, we'll make it there on time. Babe relax be nice to Lauren she's excited she's finally meeting the love of her life." I could feel Camila's stare from just behind my back I didn't have to look at her to know she was jealous.

"I mean, Camila you are the real true love of her life, Selena is like fiction you know" Normani tried to make it better but failed. Camila was a very jealous possessive person when it came to me, I loved it but hated it at the same time.

"Well this has been extremely awkward, Lets go" Dinah said as we all entered Normani's car. Me and Camila took a seat in the back, I grabbed her hand our fingers entwined and she smiled shyly.

An hour and fifteen minutes later we arrived at the venue were Selena was going to perform, We were waiting for Dinah's friend to come out and get us so he could escort us to Selena's dressing room. My heart was racing a million beats per second I was going to meet my first ever girl crush. Of course Camila didn't know this.

We were walking just behind Normani and Dinah and I could feel my hand getting sweatier. "Wow you are really nervous" I heard Camila say as I removed my hand from hers and wiped it down on my pants. "I mean wouldn't you be if you were meeting Taylor Swift?" I asked back just so she could see it was the same thing as if she were meeting one of her idols, she laughed and nodded her head.

"Hello girls" I heard a familiar voice say as Selena's dressing room door opened. I saw as Dinah and Normani and then Camila hugged the beautiful singer. I stood there my eyes roaming her body and face I couldn't believe it was really her.

"Lauren Lauren" I heard Dinah scream but I couldn't move or process what was really happening. "Babe?" Camila said shaking me. "Uh yeah, Ah shit sorry I just. Uh. Sorry." I stuttered I felt so embarrassed, I was making a fool of myself in front of my idol. I saw Selena laugh as she embraced me in the most wonderful hug, I put my arms around her petite body and unconsciously lifted her up as I twirled her in the air, her laugh hitting my ears and her hot breath on my neck.

"Nice to meet you all" she said when I finally put her down. My eyes were connected to hers, I couldn't take my eyesight off of hers. "What's your name?" She asked me. "Lauren" I said back not paying attention to anyone else around us. "You're beautiful Lauren, You all are" She said as I broke my gaze and looked at my other 3 companions. Camila did not look happy I could see jealousy all over her face while Normani and Dinah smiled back at me.

"My name is Normani and I just wanted to tell you hands to myself is definitely my jam right now, Also excuse my friend right there she's just nervous because you were her first ever girl crush" Of course Normani would say this right in front of Camila, Camila's eyes turn to look at me as she faked a smile.

"Thank you Normani you're really sweet, and really first girl crush?" Selena asked, I couldn't believe what was happening right now. "Uh yes well, Of course you're beautiful" I said back. Dinah gave me a slight push and pointed at Camila who was walking away. I saw Dinah and Normani excuse themselves as they went after Camila, I couldn't be rude and just leave my idol here so I decided to wait for all of them to come back.

"Is everything okay?" Selena asked as she walked back inside her dressing room and I followed. "Uh yeah maybe she went to the bathroom" I said back as I closed the door behind us. I was alone with Selena Gomez on her dressing room. "You are really beautiful Lauren, So why was I your crush?" She asked back in a flirty way. Was Selena flirting with me? I thought. "Well, You're beautiful, Smart, So talented and just have a big heart. I admire people who help others and try to be there no matter what." I said back my heart started racing when she got up from her chair and sat beside me on the couch.

"Thank you, I try to give back as much as possible. Is Camila your girlfriend?" She asked, I sat there frozen for a second before I could finally answer. "She is" I answered smiling at the thought of everyone knowing Camila was mine. "She's a lucky girl" She said giving me a peck on my lips. Selena fucking Gomez kissed me, I was on cloud 9 right now. This was not real life it couldn't be. "Thank you for being a fan, You're cute Lauren. I'll see you out there okay?" I just nodded my head as I exit the room and saw my two friends and girlfriend standing outside.

"Are you okay?" Normani asked as I lifted my hand to my lips. "No fucking way" Dinah yelled. "Did she?" Camila asked. I couldn't process everything but I nodded my head looking at all their surprise expressions. "Wow you did it Camila" I heard both Normani and Dinah laugh. "She did what?" I asked now confused. "She made me talk to Selena's manager about this, all of this, the talk." Dinah said. "Yeah she wanted to make tonight special so she said if you guys could possibly be alone for a few minutes and just talk" Normani continued talking "We were not expecting the kiss though." She finished saying.

I was looking at Camila who was staring at the floor, "You did this for me?" I asked her she just nodded her head, I closed the space between us and let my lips wander hers. "I love you Camz, Sorry for being a douche and ignoring you." I gave her a bunch of little kisses all over her face making her laugh. "I love you too lolo" she said back. We entwined our fingers as all four of us walked to the first row to watch Selena Gomez perform.

After performing almost 14 songs and her concert about to be finished Selena addressed the audience. "Thank you guys for being here tonight, I love every single one of you. Thank you for your constant support I do all of this for you. But tonight is extra special a friend of mine requested a song for the love of her life. So this song is for you Lauren Jauregui from the girl that loves you more than life itself" She pointed at me and I looked at Camila that had a huge smile on her face.

"No way" I said as Selena Gomez started singing. "Wow Camila you did that" Dinah said as she recorded everything.

"Your beautiful eyes stare right into my eyes

and sometimes I think of you late at night. I don't know why

I want to be somewhere where you are"

As Selena Gomez finished the song Camila had picked for me I was hugging her so hard I thought I would break her. "Thank you so much Camila, You really know how to make a girl swoon. I love you so much I don't think you'll ever understand" I said before kissing her, I could feel her smile on my lips only making me smile too.

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"You two are gross, Stop already" I heard Dinah say as we entered our apartment I couldn't stop kissing Camila and telling her how much I loved her because even if I told her a billion times it wouldn't come close to her really knowing how crazy in love I was with her.

"Just because Mani doesn't do cute shit for you, Don't be jelly Dj" I said back as I kept kissing Camila. "She does, We just don't show it in front of 25,000 people" She said back giving me a push from behind. "Yeah that was a little too much" Normani laughed as she and Dinah went inside her room and me and Camila went inside ours. We got into our Pijamas and were laying in bed staring at each other.

"I'm going to ask Shawn for a divorce" her words hit me like a wall of bricks. I was not expecting this she was going to get a divorce for me? "You're really trying to kill a girl tonight" I shyly laughed I didn't know what to say. "I'm serious though I don't want to waste my life away being with someone I feel nothing for. I want to be with you and I would give anything to achieve that."

"Are you being serious Camila, Are you really sure you want to do that just for me?" I asked back insecurely. I loved Camila and of course I wanted to be with her but a divorce was a huge huge step and I wanted her to be completely sure.

"Just for you? Lauren, You are the reason I smile again, you're the reason I want to live and that I feel alive again. You make me feel loved and confident and just so happy. I'm doing this for me. I want you and I have never been so sure of anything else in my life. I would give up anything so we can be together, So yes I am sure and I am doing it." She said back, I grabbed her by her waist and pushed her towards me her lips felt soft on mine and my tongue darted into hers. She moaned quietly as I pressed more into her hips.

She separated our mouths before I could go deeper, "but there is something you need to know and if after that you don't want to be with me then I will understand Lauren but first you have to listen okay?" My heart stopped, what could possible be so bad that she thought I wouldn't want to be with her.

"There's nothing or anything you could say or do that would make me want to not be with you Camila. Don't you get it? I am fucking in love with you i'm obsess with your lips, the way you fall off bed almost every morning when you wake up, your body, your smile, your laugh everything about you I want to have you forever Camila so no I would never leave you." I wanted her to feel safe telling me whatever it was and I did. She kissed me and took a deep breath before talking.

"I love you Lauren. But getting a divorce from Shawn comes with a huge risk." I listened closely to every word she said, I started to tear up and finally understood why she wouldn't get a divorce, I understood everything and my heart broke once again, this time it felt different.

It felt like it was the last heartbreak I would get and that scared me more than I would of ever imagined.