(Chapter Twelve)

"Camila" I whispered.

I felt a sharp pain on my left cheek after the name had left my mouth.

"What the fuck did you just call me?" Lucy asked, Obviously she had heard me or she wouldn't have slapped me. She removed herself off of me and was waiting for my answer, her arms were crossed and she was fuming in anger.

"I-I it's not what it looks like" it's all I could really get out. I had no excuse for calling her Camila and my brain was not thinking of anything other than "we're fucked".

"Oh really? Then what does It look like? You called me fucking CAMILA! You know I don't like her and here you are with me, making out about to fuck and you call me Camila. Do you like her?" Lucy was screaming and my anxiety level was rising with every passing second. I didn't like confrontation unless it was needed and right now I didn't want to deal with this. I had to think of something fast so she could calm down.

"Ok yes, I was thinking about Camila but not because of what you think. She's been having some, problems" I paused for a second and Lucy seemed to be interested and more relaxed so I continued talking "She has problems with her husband okay? So I was worried because he got back today and I don't know I guess I just worry too much about my friends. You know how I am, So I'm sorry I called you Camila it won't happen again. I promise babe." It seemed like a legit excuse, my heart was racing until Lucy finally spoke up again.

"I do know you, I know you love and care too much about everyone. You have a big beautiful heart Lauren but really? Calling me Camila in the middle of our make out session is just not a good feeling" She sat down beside me looking more sad than angry now. I felt bad of the way I was treating her, how could I be so stupid to call her another girl's name.

"I know and I'm sorry. I'll just focus on us from now on okay? I'm all yours" I said and Lucy seemed pleased with my excuse. But, my last words were a lie I wasn't Lucy's at least not anymore. All of my being belonged to Camila and only her.

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It had been two weeks since I saw, talked, kissed or hugged Camila. Ever since Shawn got back he would not let her out of his sight not even for a millisecond, at least that's what Dinah had said when she visited her last week. I kept busy with work and Lucy but it wasn't the same I was missing my other half and Normani and Dinah seemed to catch on to that.

"Are you not going out with us?" Dinah came in to my room, I was laying down in bed since Lucy was out with her family. I was set on spending my weekend trapped in my room netflixin away. "Does it look like I'm going somewhere?" I asked back pointing to my unicorn onesie. "You can come like that, You're like really depressed since Camila hasn't been around." she admitted taking a seat on the edge of my bed.

"I'm not depressed Dinah, I just miss her. She's a great energy to have around but whatever. She's married so she doesn't have time for us." my voice had a little bit of anger in it and I hoped Dinah wouldn't notice, She did. "Are you mad because she's married or because she's taken so you can't be with her?" Her words hit me like a sledgehammer and my mind went blank. I was sure she and Normani knew something but I didn't expect her to be so blunt about it.

"Wh-What are y-you talking about?" I stuttered just like my old childhood days when I had to take speech lessons due to my annoying stuttering. "We know, We can tell by the way you guys are with each other. Love is hard to hide Lauren especially the way you guys look at each other. It's endearing Lo. I just want you to know me and Mani support you guys a hundred and fifty percent." Her words were so honest I couldn't hide it anymore.

"I'm in love with Camila" I finally admitted, not only to Dinah but to myself. I felt a tear fall from my eye and then a stream of them just kept falling. I was so overwhelmed by Dinah's words but I was sad I couldn't be with the only girl I wanted. "I know Lo I know. To be honest I rather her be married to you than to that prick of a husband she has" Dinah was wiping tears off my face as Normani entered the room, She looked surprised to my vulnerability. She had seen me cry probably three times before. I was not the one to break in front of people but this was just too much for me to handle and I had to let go and just allow myself to feel.

"What is going on? What happened?" Normani ran to my side and embraced me in a tight hug only making me cry harder. "I told you they were in love" Dinah said, Also hugging me. I was in between my "Norminah" sandwich as Camila called the couple. "You told Dinah and not me?" Normani asked a little giggle at the end of her question, I stopped crying after listening to my friend's laughter.

"She basically harassed me into it" I Laughed wiping the tears off my face. "What are you going to do? She's married you know" Normani said letting go of me and looking in between me and Dinah. "I know, I don't know first I have to see her." I said as I felt another storm of tears starting to form.

"I got an idea" Dinah jumped from off my bed and was now standing in front of me and Normani. "But you won't like it" she continued talking as we listened closely. "You can have a double date, you can say you just want to spend time with other couples since everyone else is single" I looked at Normani and she looked lost in thought. We were both processing Dinah's idea and it seemed like a pretty good one to me.

We arranged to meet up tomorrow night, I was a little skeptical about it but surprisingly Lucy agreed. She said she didn't want to hate on one of my friends so she was going to do this date for me. I was excited to see the girl of my dreams after two weeks of not seeing her gorgeous face, I listened to her voice today and that just got me more excited. We were going to meet at her house and Normani and Dinah had agreed on dressing me for the casual occasion.

Me and Lucy were sitting on my car just outside Camila's and Shawn's house, My palms were sweaty and I felt like I was about to go rob a bank. I had bought a dozen red roses and a bottle of wine for today's dinner. Lucy was wearing a nice casual red dress and she looked beautiful as always, I was wearing a black tight dress and red heels my signature red lipstick and Dinah had applied a soft grey eyeshadow to make my green eyes pop up and it worked. Lucy had complimented me several times on how green and sparkly they looked, if she only knew the reason of that sparkle was Camila.

We finally exited the car, Lucy had the bottle of wine in one hand and the other was holding my hand as we walked up the steps to Camila's door. "Wow you're really sweaty babe" she said letting me go and wiping her hand off on her dress. "Yeah you know how I am around new people" I said feeling her grab on to me again. I ranged the door bell twice before hearing running footsteps approaching the door as it flew open and saw the man standing on the entrance.

"Hi you must be Lauren, Come in" the tall guy seemed cheerful about me being here, He was very welcoming to me and Lucy. "Thank you, This is Lucy my girlfriend" I introduced them as they shook hands I was looking everywhere but there was no sign of Camila. Shawn seemed to notice my wandering eyes, "She's upstairs finishing up, She'll be down in a sec. Lets take a seat" he said as he walked us to their living room. "We brought you this" Lucy spoke up as she handed him the bottle of wine and I gave him the roses. I wanted to give them to Camila but I couldn't just stand here with the roses on my hand while Lucy gave the bottle.

We talked for a few minutes about our jobs and the weather until I finally heard footsteps approaching us. Camila entered the room and I felt like everyone could see and even feel my heart beating. She looked stunning, she was wearing a long white dress with black or dark blue stripes, making her curves and booty very noticeable. She literally took my breath away, she met my gaze and I felt as the whole world disappeared. "Hey" she said as she waved at me and Lucy. She seemed quiet and extra shy tonight she must be as nervous as I am I thought.

"Well I am starving, Should we go ahead and start dinner?" Shawn asked and we all agreed we took a sit at the dining table as him and Lucy continued to talk about some place in Europe. I wasn't paying much attention because the brown eyed girl took all of it. She kept meeting my gaze and she smiled shyly sending my heart to flutter and my stomach was about to burst from all the butterflies in it.

"You should go get the pasta and the drinks" Shawn said to Camila dryly, She immediately got up not saying much. "I should go help" I said getting up, Lucy and Shawn didn't seem to notice as they were engaged in their conversation. I opened the kitchen door and saw Camila vending over trying to take the pasta out of the oven and my god my mind went to so many places looking at her like this with that tight dress.

I approached her from behind as I put both my hands on her waist. "Oh shit" she said as she got up immediately and turned around to face me my hands still on her waist. "Well I missed you too" I said with a huge smile on my face as I finally got to touch my girl again. " You scared me silly, I missed you too much Lo" she said before crashing her lips into mine. I missed this feeling so much I pressed harder on her waist pulling her closer to me, I wanted her so bad but that couldn't happen not with our partners just outside the door.

"Oh my god" I giggled as Camila step back and I saw her lips red from my lipstick. "You should clean that up before they notice" I said giving her another peck on her lips. She went to the bathroom as I finished taking out the pasta and Shawn entered the kitchen, Close call I thought. "Where's Camila?" he asked looking around. "Oh I think she went to the bathroom" I answered back walking out and taking a seat next to my girlfriend.

The next two hours consisted of Lucy and Shawn talking about politics or places they had been and me and Camila looking at each other. Our eyes spoke louder than our words. We had become experts at saying nothing but knowing exactly what we wanted to say. Finally Shawn said something that made me almost jump on top of the table in total bliss.

"A month?" I asked getting a weird look from my girlfriend and a giggle from Camila. "Yeah I have to go to Europe for a trip and I will be flying around the continent before coming back home. So my Camila is going to have to suffer for a whole month. Right baby?" he asked taking Camila's hand. She nodded and faked a smile that I could only tell wasn't real. Shawn was going to leave for a whole month and I was so excited to have my girl back.

"When do you leave?" Lucy asked, Thankfully I didn't have to. "In two days" he said giving Camila a peck on her lips before getting up. "I'm going for a smoke, I'll let you girls chat for a bit" he said leaving the three of us alone. "Are you sad?" Lucy asked Camila, I was looking at her and could see a small side smile before she answered. "Devastated" and I couldn't help but giggle at her sarcasm that not even Lucy seemed to notice. I knew Camila all too well by now.

After Shawn came back we all hanged out at their living room drinking wine and it wasn't such a bad night. But it had to end at some point and I was sad I wouldn't see Camila until Shawn had to leave in two days. Before we left Lucy and Shawn went to their backyard for a last smoke leaving Camila and I alone. "Are you excited you get to have me for thirty days?" the beautiful petite girl asked taking a sip from her wine.

"What do you think? I almost twerked on top of the table of how happy I got" I said making her laugh. "Why are you so quiet though?" she immediately lost her smile and I could see her worried expression as she whispered something that made my blood boil.

"He hit me" she whispered, I got off the couch and was going after Shawn before she stopped me. "No please no, You're going to make things more complicated. He's leaving in two days, for a month Lo. We can plan what to do with all of this, we're going to have time so please don't" she begged me, her sad expression made my heartbreak and I just wanted to kill Shawn.

But I didn't, Not because I was scared but Camila was shaking and I didn't want to upset her even more. "Where did he hit you?" I whispered back not seeing any bruises on her arms or face. She lifted up her dress and I could see marks on her legs, her beautiful legs had green and blue bruises all over them. "He said people wouldn't notice" her voice cracked, I wanted to do something I couldn't allow this but Camila insisted on not, so I didn't.

I couldn't look at Shawn after that so we decided to leave before I did something stupid, Lucy thanked them and we took off. Minutes later I had dropped off Lucy at her house and was seating on my bed thinking about Camila. How can anyone ever hurt her or even think about it. She was the most precious human being I had ever met. She had the most beautiful soul and the biggest heart, I wanted to kill Shawn for hurting her I really wanted to but I knew that would end up hurting her even more.

I always wrote down my feelings or thoughts as a way to release some anxiety or stress. But also I loved writing songs I was a good guitar player and I had written a few songs before but no one knew this talent of mine. Only Normani of course I had written her a best friend song when we were in fifth grade and I had made her cry, I sung to her when we were all alone because I was too shy to sing in front of anyone. I was not born to be a performer but rather be behind the scenes and I loved it.

Tonight I was feeling inspired by a certain beauty and I was writing like crazy and I grabbed my guitar and started making out some tunes after three hours an Normani telling me to shut up several times I had written a song for Camila. I had written a song for Lucy before but I never told her because I was too anxious to sing it for her but this time I wanted Camila to hear me out.

Normani walked in my room making me jump, "It's four am Lo, Please go to sleep" she said half asleep. "I will I just finished the song, I'm going to sing it to Camila tomorrow" I said, Normani's eyes widened up making me laugh. "You are going to sing? In front of someone that's not me?" She asked shocked making me laugh harder. "Yes, Why are you jealous?" I asked sarcastically.

"No, but you have never done this before. You wrote a song for Camila and you're going to sing it. What a day to be alive" she laughed at how surprising it was that I wanted to sing to my favorite person. "Yeah yeah well too bad you won't hear it because you won't be here. I want to be alone with Camila so you and Dinah are going to have to go out somewhere until late.. Very late." I winked as she just nodded her head in agreement.

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Shawn had finally left and Camila was on her way over to my house, Dinah and Normani were hanging out with Ally and I had my house all to my self. I was nervous and happy and scared for tonight, What if Camila hated the song? What if she hated my singing? I wasn't ready to make a fool of myself as the door bell rang and it was too late to back out. I embraced Camila in a tight hug as we kissed non stop, I couldn't believe she was going to be all mine for a whole month.

"I missed you so much" She said in between our kisses, I closed the door behind her and carried her to the kitchen as she continued to kiss my face. "I missed you too Babe" I laughed as I set her down. "Wow you cooked for me? I should give you breaks more often" she said as she took a sit on the chair and looked at all the food I had made. "You must be Cuban" she said as she grabbed a croqueta. "It's all my moms recipes so be nice. It's actually the first time I cook for someone" I admitted. "You've never cooked for Lucy?" she asked surprised as she shoved food inside her mouth, I was amused at how much this girl could eat.

"Never, She's not as cool as you" I said, Making her giggle as she kept eating. We talked about everything that had happened in those two weeks, she wanted to hear about my work and how Dinah and Normani were doing with their hidden relationship. It was finally time to sing her song and I walked her to the living room as we took a sit on the couch and I grabbed my guitar.

"What is this" she asked. "I wrote you something, I have never done this before just with Mani so don't be rude okay?" I laughed nervously. "I would never Lo, I didn't know you played. I didn't know you singed." The amusement in her voice only made me more nervous. "Well I don't sing, I just try so if I sound horrible just lie to me and say I sound beautiful like Amy Winehouse or something" I joked around while I tuned my guitar.

"Babe I'm sure you're going to sound amazing plus this is awesome. No one has wrote a song about me before. So thank you for taking your time, I Lo-" I interrupted her before she could say those words, I wanted to sing then I wanted her to tell me those 3 words I've been dying to say myself. "Just listen" I said and she nodded in agreement a beautiful smile formed across her face as I strum my guitar creating the first melody.

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A/N: Hey guys! Thank you for over 500 reads, I don't know if anyone actually keeps up with this but if you do thank you thank you.

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