(Chapter Eleven)

LAUREN'S POV:

Waking up the next morning after my kiss with Camila seemed surreal, I had finally kissed her. Ever since I first met her the attraction towards her was something I couldn't deny but had to. She was married to Shawn and I had gotten back with Lucy, I thought that's who I wanted to be with but ever since I started spending time with Camila and having late night talks about everything and nothing, after her opening up to me about how Shawn treated her and after I revealed every different side of me to her how could I deny the undeniable I was falling for the girl and that scared me. But after last night I was sure she felt the exact same way we were just not at the ideal time and my mind was in a frenzy.

The glass shattering sound from the kitchen had woken me up Camila was nowhere to be seen and before I could get up she had stormed into my room and a few seconds later Dinah stormed in as well. The next couple of minutes were a blur, Camila had told them we kissed and I had to deny everything. I didn't want to jeopardize our friendship or her marriage or even my relationship with Lucy no one had to know what we did not even Dinah or Normani. I could almost hear Camila's heart break as I denied the events from last night. Even worse she had denied she felt anything and that was the worst thing she could of said to me, I felt my heart break and before I could say anything she ran out my room. My head was a mess, I was confused and angry with myself and her for allowing this to happen.

I texted Lucy to pick me up and immediately got dressed, I left the apartment without saying anything to any of the girls and entered my girlfriends car before driving off, I couldn't be close to Camila right now and this seemed like the right thing to do for the both of us.

"Laur, What's wrong?" Lucy asked concerned as she drove us back to her house. "Nothing, I just didn't want to be with the girls. I rather be with you" I lied and immediately guilt washed over me, She held my hand and I had to fake a smile to spare her feelings. Lucy didn't deserve this, me lying to her was something I would never forgive myself for doing but for now I just had to deal with my guilty conscious.

We arrived at her house and I took a seat on her familiar brown couch. I remember spending hours and hours laying here with her talking about our future, clearly life had other plans for us. "Are you sure you're okay?" she asked interrupting my thoughts. "Yeah, Come here" I said extending my arms and wrapping her around them. "I love being here with you" she breathed into my neck, I gulped and my heart started to raise. We had dated for a long time but we had never gone beyond the making out part, Well she had never done anything to me no one had. I always did all the work and I was fine with it I felt really self conscious so I enjoyed pleasuring her just as much.

She started to kiss my neck and before I could say anything she stood up and took her shirt and bra off leaving me speechless, her body was to die for, her tan skin and visible abs were a turn on for some reason. She was gorgeous and sexy, she straddled me, her tongue was warm inside my mouth and she bit my lower lip slowly pulling it towards her, I moaned quietly at the sensation and she immediately took my shirt off. I couldn't help myself she was hot and shit she was my girlfriend.

I slowly laid her down on the floor one of my legs in between her thighs as she ran her nails through my back. I stopped to look at her and had to blink twice, the image of Camila was fogging Lucy's face and I thought I was losing my damn mind. "Babe?" I heard her raspy voice say. "Sorry, I- I don't think I'm ready" I said before pulling off and grabbing my shirt off the ground and putting it back on.

"We don't have to do anything, Sorry I just wanted you to relax" Lucy said getting dressed. I felt even more guilty, I was with my girlfriend and thinking about someone else. This was not good.

We hanged out on her couch for the rest of the day my cellphone going off every couple of minutes from texts from Normani and Camila. I ignored them all day and just focused on the brunette trapped around my arms.

Dinah: SOS. Come home. We have an emergency

I read the text and jumped off the couch scaring my girlfriend. It was almost midnight and I thought that by now they would be asleep but something was clearly wrong.

"What happened?" Lucy asked. "I don't know, I have to go home. Can you drive me?" I asked, she nodded and we headed to my apartment. We arrived in no time since I kept telling her to speed up I gave her a quick peck on her lips and ran up my driveway. I opened my apartment door and saw the three girls seating on the couch, surprised expressions on their faces then laughter.

"I told you it would work" Dinah spoke first. I gazed at all of them, the text had clearly been a trick to make me come home. "What the fuck is wrong with you?" I blurted out the anger on my voice more eminent than I intended.

"We were worried" Camila half whispered. "Why? I was with my girlfriend." I said loudly, Normani rolled her eyes and Camila looked hurt just like this morning. At this point I knew our relationship was doomed, I should had never kissed her.

"Did you not get laid?" Dinah surprisingly asked making me laugh at how stupid I was being for taking out my anger and my stress on all of them. They had nothing to do with my confused feelings or between whatever was going on with me and Camila. "Nah, Imma die a virgin" I joked back making all of them laugh. "You're stupid Lauren, But seriously don't ignore us like that again." Normani said shoving me playfully.

Moments later Normani and Dinah left to meet up with Ally, Camila and I decided to stay home. After they left I went to our backyard and started climbing the stairs that were next to the wall side of the apartment and started climbing carefully. "Hey what are you doing?" Camila's voice made me almost slip and fall. "Shit I almost died" I yelled back not really answering. I kept climbing until I reached the rooftop and laid down under a blanket I had brought with me. It was late at night and no sign of the moon's light so it was extra dark and the stars were more visible.

I loved climbing up here and staring off into space it helped cleared my mind and just close off the rest of the world. I heard footsteps approaching me and then Camila laying right next to me. "What are you doing?" she turned her face towards me, Even with no light her eyes still sparkled. God, She was beautiful I thought that the stars were bright and just perfect but this view was way beyond more perfect than any celestial event I had witnessed before.

"I like coming up here when I'm feeling overwhelmed with the world down there" I managed to say. She scooted closer to me and I could feel her breath on my face. "I'm sorry" she whispered. "For what?" I asked confused to her apology. "Just, everything. I know I probably confused you with what happened the other night." her voice cracked a little and her eyes were not meeting mine.

I grabber her by her chin and lift her face so she could look into my eyes, her big brown eyes were forming tears and my heart just couldn't take it anymore. "Don't feel sorry, you didn't confuse me. You just made everything so much clear if anything" I said trying to ease her guiltiness her eyes started to dry up. "What do you mean?" she asked wiping one tear that had escaped her eye. "I-I think i'm falling for you and yes I know you're married and it's stupid to even feel this way. But I do" I started rambling before she put her index finger on my lips to shut me up.

"I feel the same way" she said before crashing her lips into mine, the sensation on my stomach only increased with every passing second. I could get used to this, she kissed me full of affection and she had so much love inside her I could feel it by the way she touched me, by the way she looked at me like no one else existed she made me feel like it was only me and her in this crazy world.

"What are we gonna do?" I finally pulled away from the kiss, my forehead resting on hers. "I have no idea" she whispered her eyes still closed. "We have to keep this between us Camila, At least until we know what we're gonna do. We have to keep this situation under control, remember you're married and well I can easily break up with Lucy but you can't make a decision just as easy as I can." We stayed quiet for a few minutes just staring off into the atmosphere.

"Make a wish" I said as a shooting start darted through the sky I looked at Camila and she mumbled something making me smile like an idiot. "You actually made a wish?" I chuckled lightly. "It's worth a try" she said smiling back. "Can I know what you wished for?" I asked, her grin grew wide and she just said "One day" before she started to get up. "Camila?" I had to remind her about our agreement once more. "I know Lauren I know. I won't say anything don't worry." She gave me a quick peck on my lips as she started descending the rooftop.

I felt relieved we had finally talked about what we felt but also felt guilty for playing Lucy. But I couldn't break up with her not yet. Not until I was sure this was not just another infatuation or just the heat of the moment. For my luck, it wasn't. The last week we had for ourselves consisted of random little "dates" with Camila since the rest of the girls had to work. We were more open with each other kissing at random moments even when out in public we didn't care when people stared at us, we were in our own blissful world.

"I don't want to go back to Shawn" she said as we laid in my bed on our final day, Shawn came back tomorrow morning and who knows when we'll have time to be together this much. "I know babe, I don't want you to go either" I kissed her forehead as I wrapped my arms tighter around her slim body. "What the heck are we gonna do Lauren?" she asked not really wanting an answer because we still had no idea what to do. We stayed quiet just enjoying our moment together when I heard the front door open and Normani yelling after someone. I let go off Camila and started getting off my bed to see what was going on when my bedroom door flew open.

"So you have time to lay here with your "Friend" but don't have time to even text me?" Lucy yelled, I had ignored her the past couple of days just sending her short text answers. "Calm down. Let's go outside" I said pulling her from her arm not before looking one last time at Camila who looked worried. "It's okay" I mouthed and she gave me a smile before I stepped outside with Lucy.

"Lucy you have to relax, I don't live alone here you have to respect my roommates and not make a scene" I said letting go of her arm. "That's what you're worried about? Your damn friends?" she yelled back making my eyebrows lift in surprise. I had never seen her this upset and I just wanted her to leave but I knew I couldn't just be an asshole to her. "No but I've been busy. Just relax we can hangout tomorrow and just do whatever you want" I said squeezing her arm lightly I felt her relax and was happy on how easy it was to control her.

"Anything?" she asked lifting an eyebrow seductively. "Yeah anything" I answered back quietly not wanting anyone to hear in case they were listening behind the door. "Fine. I'll pick you up tomorrow. You better be ready for a long day" she said biting her lip then furiously attacking mine. She finally let go and drove off. It took me a few seconds to compose myself and I headed back inside to Camila sitting on the couch and Dinah and Normani cooking in the kitchen.

"Is everything okay?" Camila asked as I approached her and took a seat next to her. "Yeah, you know how girls get" I answered not wanting her to know about the plans I had for tomorrow. "What did she say?" she kept asking. "Nothing, She was just mad I hadn't spend time with her but I told her we could just hangout tomorrow and go eat or something" I lied. I hated lying it was not my thing but I was scared of losing the girl seating in front of me so I had no other option.

She looked at me suspiciously but didn't say anything else. A few hours later and after Camila finished saying her goodbyes to our two best friends I found myself outside her home. Shawn would be here early in the morning and if she wasn't home he would go crazy and I didn't want her to deal with any more bullshit from her husband. I was feeling all sorts of mixed emotions I was extremely sad I had to let her go once more but also excited to see where all of this would take us, a future with Camila didn't sound bad at all.

"I don't want you to go" she said squeezing my hand, tears started to form on her eyes and I felt a nod in my throat. "I don't want to either" is all I managed to whisper before embracing her in a side hug. I kissed her forehead lovingly and she sighed loudly.

"I wish this wasn't so hard, I wish we could just ran away together." Her words made my heart flutter but break at the same time at the thought that we would never be able to be together. "Soon, I promise we will find a way. When am I going to see you?" I asked nervously, knowing Shawn he would probably never leave Camila out of his sight.

"Let me talk to Shawn, I'll come up with something. I promise we won't have to be apart for too long" she said assuring me. I cupped her face with my hands and crashed my lips into hers. I felt the taste of her tears on my mouth and felt mine starting to fall and connect with hers. This kiss was raw and full of all the love we already felt for each other. It was crazy how much we connected and how strong our feelings were, everything felt so normal and like we had done this before.

Sometimes I felt that maybe in another life we had been lovers, separated by death but our love was so strong and pure we had been given another chance to find each other in this life. I had told Camila this one night while seating in the rooftop of my apartment, She cried and agreed we had something we couldn't explain or understand. The connection and the love was there, but unfortunately there were other factors involved that wouldn't allow us to be together. At least not for now.

"I have to go babe" she said pulling away, I wiped the tears off her beautiful brown eyes. I was trying to be strong for the both of us but it got harder by the second. "I know" I whispered my voice sounding even shakier than before. "I promise I'll text you tomorrow and I'll think of something so we can see each other okay?" she added before giving me a final peck on my lips. The taste of her was engraved on my mind and it was for sure my favorite flavor.

"Okay, just take care and if you need me for anything text me. No matter what time it is, Please. I will always be here for you" I said before she nodded her head and left my car I waited until she was inside her house safe before I drove off. The drive home seemed endless and I couldn't stop myself from crying. The thought of her with Shawn was heartbreaking and I hated to think of him mistreating her again. I was scared for her, she was so small and vulnerable but now she had me.

The next morning felt different, not waking up next to Camila really took a toll on my emotional state. She already had such a great impact on me that I couldn't imagine not having her in my life. I wanted to text her but wasn't sure if she would be with Shawn so I laid in bed just thinking about what the rest of my day would consist of, I was not looking forward to my meeting with Lucy later.

A few seconds later my phone vibrated under my pillow and a smile instantly took over my face.

Camz: Good Morning Babe, Shawn will be here any minute so I just wanted to shoot you a quick text. I miss you so much, not waking up next to you felt so surreal. I will think of something to tell Shawn so I can see you tomorrow. I miss you so so much, Please be good. Don't do anything I wouldn't do. See you soon.

I Didn't answer back not wanting to risk her getting in trouble but her text made my mood so much brighter, I loved that she called me babe. But that last sentence really confused me, what did she mean don't do anything she wouldn't do?

I took a quick shower and was getting dressed when someone stormed into my room.

"Dinah what the fuck, I'm half naked" I said covering my upper body with my towel. "Girl, You have nothing I haven't seen before" she said taking a seat on my bed "I miss Camila already" she sighed. "I know, So do I" I said taking a seat next to her. "Do you think she will ever leave Shawn?" she surprisingly asked me.

"I hope so" I answered without thinking, she turned her gaze at me a huge smirk plastered across her face. "I knew it" she said before exiting my room and screaming Normani's name.

Shit, I would never hear the end of this. I finished getting dressed, and a few minutes later I was seating on Lucy's couch.

"Ready to have the best day of your life" I heard my girlfriend say as she straddled me. I gulped loudly and my mind started replaying Camila's text.

But just like that it vanished when Lucy started kissing me, her tongue was inside my mouth. She didn't let me breath and I started to feel her hands creep under my shirt. I grabbed both my hands and cupped her butt under them. I squeezed them firmly making the brunette moan quietly, her breath was warm inside my mouth. Her tongue was so skillful playing with mine, she started kissing my neck and her hot breath sent chills down my spine. I slipped both my hands under her pants feeling her warm flesh under my cold hands.

She moaned quietly with every squeeze I gave her butt, I started sucking on her neck and she slipped her hands under my bra cupping my breasts under her palms.

But I wasn't all here I kept thinking about a certain brown eyed girl, "Camila" I whispered.