My feelings?

I woke up to Dallon putting Rivers on me and Rivers laughed and played while I slowly woke up. "Since all the drama yesterday I decided to make you a nice breakfast to make things happier" he said kissing me so I sat up and he sat a plate of bacon, pancakes, and eggs on my lap with some juice on the side table so I laughed kissing him goodbye as he had to leave for work. I was eating my food when I got a text

Julian: am I still going to pick up Rivers later?

Me: yah but it's quite a while from now, hey now I don't have to pay for a babysitter when me and Dallon are gone GREAT!

Julian: ha, wait Dallon isn't there?

Me: no he has 2 jobs one that he works most of the week in the morning, yesterday when he left that's the other job but it's random, he usually leaves around this time so he can't stay till I get home

Julian: oh well that's good that he has a job

Me: yah I guess, extra money on the table

And like that he didn't respond so I guess he got bored or had something else to do. I finished my breakfast and changed Rivers diaper getting his stuff ready and getting ready for work. I had gotten out of the shower and just threw on some shorts and a shirt to see who it was at the door because someone knocked, and it was Julian of course it's Julian who else would it be. "Hey Julian what are you doing here so early" I asked as I let him in

"I don't know, I guess to spend some time alone" he said so I slowly blinked at him and sighed

"Well okay then, so what do you want to talk about" I said walking back to my bedroom planning what to wear and Julian looked around our room

"Really only large" Julian said so I turned around to see him holding a box of condoms

"JULIAN!" I yelled trying to snatch it away but he was too tall for me

"What about me, extra large" he smirked so I glared at him

"Fine hold the box of condoms my fiancé uses to fuck me" I said and he pouted putting them down knowing saying fiancé would hurt his feelings. "Plus I wouldn't just use someone for sex" I said and mumbled "unlike some people" but moved on to other subjects before he figured out what I said.

"Feels like forever since I've been in here" Julian said looking around more and saw pictures of me and Dallon smiling and kissing so Julian picked it up sighing then put it down. He sat down on my bed playing with Rivers while I went to the bathroom to change. I came back out and Julian looked me up and down so I gave him a sideways glance since I literally just wearing some jeans and a tee shirt.

"So you do know how to change a diaper right?" I asked and he shook his head "really don't you have younger siblings?"

"Yah but I never changed their diapers, I was a rebellious teen not wanting to take care of little babies" he laughed making a raspy voice while saying that so I laughed

"So what you do first.." I said explaining the rest while showing him, he was right by my side so close that our arms were touching. He picked up Rivers and swig him around making him giggle so I laughed.

"Go to mama" Julian said standing him up and I awkwardly laughed sitting him on the bed. I started to do my makeup while Julian was watching and playing with Rivers. When I was finished I went back into the room and saw that Rivers was calling Julian dad so he shrugged his shoulders smirking so I took a deep breath and sighed groaning a bit. I handed Julian the bag to change diapers and other necessities and headed outside. Julian was about to just leave with Rivers but I stopped him

"Dude he needs a car seat" I said as he remembered that he needed one so I rolled my eyes "god you make a horrible father" and he playfully scoffed at me. I took the one out of my car and bent down into his placing the car seat there and buckling Rivers in. "You seem like such a dad now, with a car seat and everything" I laughed still bent down to fix everything and checking if everything was secure, that's when Julian grabbed my ass rubbing up against me so I stood up straight and pushed him away "what the fuck is your problem!" I yelled at him

"Cass I still love you, I know I fucked up and I'm truly sorry but I do really really do love you with all my heart" he said pushing me against the car

"Well it's a little too late Julian and you grinding against me or trying to turn me on isn't going to work" we stared into each other's eyes when Julian grabbed my face closing his eyes trying to kiss me but I slapped him extremely hard causing him to grab his face in pain yelling a bit. "And I thought that we could be friends after all that has happened" I spat at him leaving to work// I had finished work and decided to head back home, once I got there I got a text from Julian so I groaned out loud and read it and it say sorry for everything blah blah blah and pick up Rivers when you're ready. I picked up my keys and headed out to my car again but to pick up Rivers. Once I got there I knocked on the door and Fab opened it giving me a sheepish smile. "I'm here to take Rivers back home" I said not wanting to see or talk to Julian

"Oh okay well I was playing with Rivers while Julian is taking a shower, he's such a happy baby" Fab chuckled and I chuckled with him

"So basically the opposite of me" I laughed and Fab did too. Julian came out the bathroom only with a towels covering him from his waist, down a bit I could see his imprint through the towel so I blushed looking away continuing to talk to Fab. "So how've you been" I asked

"Nothing much really, just chillin" he answered and I nodded my head "how's having a baby?" He chuckled and I did too

"Pretty tiring but worth it in the end cause I have this bundle of Joy" I laughed ruffling Rivers hair and he giggled, Fab laughed stealing Rivers away from me

"Well he's now mine, I'm going to turn him into a drummer" he laughed and I smiled shaking my head

"Okay deal with him cry and changing his diaper and feed him, also maybe he might become a drummer you never know I mean he likes banging pots and pans all the time" and he highfived Rivers so I chuckled.

"I want a child now" Fab joked and I laughed

"I'm sure there is plenty of girls willing to have your kid at anytime" I laughed so he raised an eyebrow at me "NOT ME YOU BITCH I HAVE A FIANCÉ!" I yelled laughing and he said he was kidding.

"On the topic of your soon to be husband, he seems really shy" Fab said

"Yah he is but that's perfect for me because I'm shy most of time too" I chuckled "he's really sweet and a great cuddlier might I add" I laughed and Fab lightly laughed. Julian came back out but was now in a shirt and jeans "I need the car seat" I said to Julian "and you are getting it" and he nodded his head. "Can you keep playing with Rivers for a bit while we move things" I asked Fab and he nodded his head bringing Rivers to his lap and clapping his hands for him. Julian was currently undoing things and I sighed "sometimes I wonder why I forgive people so fast" and he looked at me but went back to undoing the car seat and taking it over time mine "you know I would have calmed down after a little when you came over but after everything I'm still kinda pissed"

"I'm so so sorry Cass I thought maybe just a little that you would have feelings for me" he said looking down

"I still- I wouldn't cheat on my fiancé" I said changing my sentence before I said something I would regret "how about we start over huh" I laughed and a small smile played on his lips "so how was touring!" I said with fake excitement and he laughed

"It was pretty good but everyone missed you" he chuckled and I laughed. He finished putting the car seat in my car so we both walked back inside

"Thanks Fab for watching Rivers for a bit" I said giving him a hug real quick then took Rivers in my arms "tell the other guys I said hi and bye" and I picked up to bag of things that I gave Julian for Rivers then walked out the door and went home. I put Rivers down and opened the door and saw Joana and Albert making out on the couch, Rivers immediately ran to Joana and interrupted them so I started to laugh my ass off. Joana sighed at me but Albert laughed with me, Albert picked him up and placed them in between him and Joana and cooed at him. Joana glared at me and I smiled shrugging my shoulders "teaches you not to make out on the couch, maybe it was a sign if you were to go further you would get pregnant" I laughed and she rolled her eyes as Albert laughed.

"Hey sweetie" Dallon said sneaking his arms around me kissing me so I smiled into it "I made dinner for once!" He laughed joking around showing me macaroni and cheese so I laughed

"Master cooking skills to the max" I laughed and he grabbed me a bowl and gave me some so I ate. I heard Rivers laughing so I turned around and saw Albert was blowing on his stomach making a farting sound and tickling him. I took out my phone and recorded it laughing along, Rivers was laughing so much I loved it. I captioned it "it's fun to see old friends" and tweeted it. The media knew that me and the guys had a fall out and the papz have seen me with Dallon before so I wonder how people are gonna react when they see Albert playing with Rivers. Immediately people started to favourite it and retweet and I started to gain more followers, a lot of people unfollowed me after what happened between me and Julian but I didn't really care. Just in case anyone got the wrong idea I changed my profile to me and Dallon kissing was kissing my cheek. Dallon came up behind me and kissed my neck so I giggled

"Another baby on the way" Albert joked seeing me and Dallon

"HAHAha NOPE" I sarcastically laughed "River is enough already" and the rest laughed, Albert put Rivers down and he came to me so I picked him up going to give him a bath. I turned on the water and once it was done filling I placed him in the bubbles and watched him play around while cleaning him. I sat on the floor and watched him, he splashed some water and got all over me "Rivers!" I laughed as he giggled splashing more so I screamed. Dallon and Albert peaked their heads in and saw me soaking wet while Rivers was laughing "babe" and he got the idea to watch him. "Come here Albert give me a hug!" I said hugging him and he tried to pry me off but I got him wet "guess you can say that I got you wet" I cheekily winked and Dallon rolled his eyes while Albert laughed shaking his shirt. I changed my shirt and came back out to see a shirtless Albert and Dallon was talking to him so I had a confused face and was trying not to look at Albert because that's awkward and weird, I went back and grabbed one of Dallon's shirts and threw it at Albert and he put it on. I dried Rivers up and put him in dinosaur pajamas so he made Dino sounds with me. I put him in bed and he fell asleep soon after, I went back out slowly and quietly closing the door and sighed of exhaustion. I threw off my clothes and plopped down in bed next to Dallon, he wrapped his arms around me and kissed my forehead. I snuggled into him falling asleep a little after.

~~~Sorry I can't think of anything bleh and it takes me so long to write 1 fucking chapter but oops atleast I don't take a month to update also I would be like 'hey I can't think of anything so I'm starting a new story while I'm the middle of this one' but I hate when people do that I'm like WHYYYY so yah I already got other ideas, also it's 1:30 am I should be off to slumber PEACE~~~