I can't lie

Dallon woke up with kisses so I chucked stretching, I sat up and sat on Dallon's lap "god you are so beautiful, you know that" he smiled and I blushed looking away so he grabbed my face and kissed me. He grabbed my ass and I yelped a bit as i was not expecting that. He gave me a cheeky smile so i smacked his chest, he rolled me over to where he was on top now and give me a kiss jumping out of bed. He pulled me to the bathroom and he jumped in the shower.

"you should have asked me to join you instead of drugging me along" i laughed

"sorry Cassy i want to be a little more adventurous" he said as i pulled off my underwear stepping in with him

"and where is all this coming from" i chuckled as he started to blush

"well i asked the guys what you and Julian were like before you guys broke up, and they told me you guys had sex a lot and weren't afraid to try things. i was really embarrassed because they were very blunt about it, also they said that he would always do things surprisingly so i don't know" he blushed looking down

"Babe you don't have to do any of that stuff, also don't listen to them and my past, what's good is the present as us here" I said wrapping my arms around his neck so he kissed me and it got heated quickly so we did things while everyone was asleep, or so I thought. I put my underwear back on wrap myself in a towel walking out with Dallon when Albert and Joana were standing outside the door so we both turned bright red "I uhh" is all I could get out

"You're really loud you know that" Joana smirked and I turned even more red

"It's because she didn't have a pillow to bite on" Albert teased remembering back then with me and Julian

"Shut up Joana with your hair pulling kink" I said and her eyes widened as Albert looked to her with a questioning look "and stop with your vivid memory of my past ya weirdo" I said shuffling with Dallon back to our room as I heard Albert say

"So you do have kinks huh" so I laughed getting changed. Dallon pulled me in for a kiss so I went along with it

"Okay I gotta go" he said breaking the kiss

"Nooo do you have too" I said pushing him on the bed and kissing him

"U-uh fuck, sadly I do unless I want to get fired and that I don't want so I have too" he said as I was kissing his neck so I pouted getting off "some other time" he winked at me and left out the door. I started to get ready. I got a text from Julian saying he was coming early again so I rolled my eyes and typed back an okay, I don't see why he comes to hang out with me, all I do is get ready. The doorbell rang and I was going to get it but Albert yelled that he would so I changed real quick.

"Sup Albert what are you doing here!" Julian said

"Just here with my girl, I think Cass is in her and Dallon's room" he chuckled at the last part which I guess made him jealous because he didn't say anything "I'm just kidding man, take a joke I'm sorry" Albert said but Julian had came into my room and closed the door

"Sup" I said buttoning my jeans, he looks towards that area so I folded my hands on top of each other in that area feeling uncomfortable. He looked back up giving me a small smile sitting on my bed "so how are you"

"I'm all good and you" he said

"I'm great" I smiled

"Want me to go check if Rivers is awake" Julian said standing up stretch

"Yah that's fine go ahead" I said putting my hair in a bun. I hear him groan and he comes back in and I see that Rivers had purposely drooled on him, Jesus he is 2 and he wants to play around.

"Ugh Rivers" I said taking him, I turned away from Julian to go clean Rivers up as he was giggling and I changed him. I put Rivers down and I turned back around to see Julian shirtless so I turned red while staring at him.

"It got all over my shirt so yah" he said so I looked back up at his eyes and I cleared throat looking away. I started to do my makeup, so he sat next to me watching me. I would occasionally look over at him which he was still looking at me intently. When I was done I stood up and so did he, I pulled out one of Dallon's shirts and gave it to him "don't worry I don't need it" Julian laughed

"Jules you need a shirt you dipshit" I said and he grabbed me throwing me over his shoulder and closed the door after I opened it to go let Rivers back into his room "ah put me down!" I yelled laughing and he threw me onto my bed with his knees on both sides of me. His eyes were looking deep into mine and his lips were slightly ajar, I looked back into his looking at every little thing that I hadn't noticed has changed in 2 years. His hands were at my sides and he was looking my lips so he licked his own, he carefully looked at my reaction as he gently went in for a kiss. I was still for a second but eased into it, his soft full pink lips meeting mine, oh how the years of not taking in someone lips can change. He slipped his tongue inside my mouth and took in every little space I had, searching around tasting me. I move my hands up and around his neck which I then tugged at his greasy hair. We broke the kiss as we had to catch our breath, he looked at my then went back to kissing me but this time both our tongues were wrestling around. I heard a small groan come from Julian as I tugged his hair, he moved his lips down my jawline to my collarbone so I bit my lip and eventually he made me moan so I felt him smile against my skin. He lifted my shirt over my head and threw it, he looked at me then went back to kissing me. I felt his bulge grow in his pants so it turned me on, he undid my pants and took them off while still kissing me. He used one hand to grab my ass and the other to balance himself, he rubbed his erection against me so I breathed out

"Fuck" as I closed my eyes and bit my lip. He undid his belt and pulled his pants off onto the pile of clothes that had been thrown off already. He reached his hand around and had I clasped my bra throwing that onto the floor as well, he quickly pulled down my underwear looking at me fully. He licked his lips hungrily and kissed me but was more eager this time, he had pulled out a condom from his pocket and pulled down his boxers slipping it onto himself. He entered me a little too eagerly and went straight at it, he made me feel some type of way I couldn't explain. It was a mix between amazing and lustful but also guilt and sadness, obviously I was over taken by lust but I'm guessing I will definitely feel guilt later. I was mad at myself for letting this happen and letting him have me so easily, I let out a final moan as he slowed down and got out of me. He threw the filled condom in between trash so I guess Dallon wouldn't see and he gave back over to me smiling,  kissing me.

"I missed all of you" Julian whispered in my ear pulling me into a hug. I stared straight ahead not saying a thing as I realized I cheated on Dallon. I felt Julian start to grow again because our naked bodies were pressed up against each other and also it was right there since we were both naked so he entered me again, not even thinking twice. He had pulled a quickie for himself and I stayed quiet realizing what I had done, I had turned into Julian and this is the same reason I left him expect this time I'm not pissed off my mind. Julian had looked accomplished that he had gotten me in bed because he was smiling while pulling his boxers and pants back on. I started to pull my underwear and bra back on slowly so Julian came up to me "hey are you okay?" He asked genuinely concerned and I looked at him speechless "oh god I'm sorry, but these means you have feelings for me right?" He asked excitedly

"I" I said looking him straight in the eyes "I love Dallon, Julian" I didn't want to tell him I still had a little tiny bit of feelings for him because I don't want to do that to Dallon, I mean he's so sweet and adorable and nice, oh god what have I done. Julian's face fell and he stood up grabbing the shirt I had offered him and threw it on himself, he was about to leave but he turned around and looked at me up and down then I heard him grabbing Rivers and left.

"Hey guys- woah, where is Julian?" Albert asked coming in but only saw me in my underwear so he kind of adverted his eyes else where.

"He um left" my voice cracked as I was about to cry so Albert looked at me then sat next to me

"What happened?" He asked so I tried to speak but it only led me to cry. "Shit I'm sorry you don't have to tell me" he said hugging me, Joana came in and had a confused look but I saw Albert nod his head towards me to get her to come over so she sat down on the others side of me.

"What's wrong Cass" Joana asked so I calmed myself down

"I-I cheated on Dallon with Julian" I said my voice shaking as I was about to cry again "please don't tell anyone" I begged and they nodded their heads. I looked at the time and stood up grabbing my clothes putting them back on. Thank god I had waterproof makeup and I left to work soon after.// I had been a little off all day I when I went to pick up Rivers I did and left straight away I didn't talk to Julian even though he tried and when Dallon would try to get near me I would be distant. Julian always ruins everything, my life was perfectly fine until he came back, yet I am kinda glad he came back. I need to do something I can't lie to Dallon I don't want to do that him...........