Part 25[thump!! shattered heart]

I rubbed my eyes as I woke up from my beauty sleep.since the day i found out that I am pregnant i started taking care of myself it's not like i didn't before but now I am more careful around my surroundings.i started sleeping more, eating more.in the starting weeks yoongi thought something is strange about me he even asked me but i didn't tell anything I just said "i think I am getting thinner and thinner so let me eat".but not now,he don't mind if I eat more or less.He is always busy and i don't mind it .At least not until I tell him about us.

As i sat up on the bed i remembered something that made me smile.i looked at my belly which is now showing a little bit.but in these past 2 months i started to wear loose clothes so that yoongi will not know about this and to my surprise he really doesn't know.

I keep my hand on my belly and caress it slowly.

"Today we will tell dada about you my baby"i said lovingly to my baby bump.Suddenly i felt like I needed to puke so i rushed to the bathroom and did my business after that i took a shower and wore a loose sweater and wore a shrug on it so now my growing belly is not showing that much.it'll only show if you look at it closely or if you touch it.and did a ponytail.

After that I went downstairs in the kitchen and started making breakfast.

Sometime later yoongi came."Morning"he said while sitting on the table."Morning"i said smiling."I am getting late.do fast"he said looking at his phone."Almost done"i said as i grabbed the plates and went over to the dining table....When I was done eating i stood up and grabbed my plate as i was going in the kitchen yoongi said something."Don't you think you should eat less?you are getting fat look at your face and tummy"and for a second i thought he found out about my pregnancy.But i felt relief when i realised he said face and tummy of course because of over eating and midnight snacks my cheeks are getting chubby.

I looked at him and said."What's your problem.my body my face.you don't have to worry about me and my eating"i said childishly and went inside the kitchen and heared him chuckled."Okey fine I'll not interfere."His phone rang and he went outside.And i did dishes.

Yoongi's p.o.v.Aishh this girl.My phone rang.It was can."Hello?"can said."Yess""Everything is done.after work come at the xxx cafe to discuss about the deal"he said."Okey"i said and hung up.I went inside and just then y/n came."Who was it?"she asked."Jhope. I am getting late bye."i said and turn around to walk out but again i turn towards her."Do you wanna come? everyone wants to meet you ""No.actually I have an appointment.""Where?""Hospital""Are you okey?you are sick.why didn't tell me.lets go I'll drop you"i said grabbing her wrist but she released her hand from my grip."No no you are getting late you should go I'll call a cab.anyways it's nothing serious."she said smiling sweetly at me."Okey then take care"i said and left.

Y/n's p.o.v.He left the house and i looked at the time.it was 10am but I have to go at 2pm.i still have time.With that i start to do house chores.

I was tired after doing all the house chores and so I fell asleep.........I woke up and looked at the time.still one hour left.I should take a shower.I took a shower and wore this.

With that i left the house to the hospital for monthly checkup.......After waiting for almost half an hour I am here sitting in front of the doctor."The baby and you both are doing good.your husband is taking good care of you"she said smiling at me ."Uh actually I didn't tell him yet that I am pregnant l"i said "What?why?"she asked."I wanted to surprise him and Today is his birthday so I'll tell him tonight"i said smiling."Ohh great it will be the best gift for him.good luck"she said."Thanku.and can you please give me the pictures of my pregnancy."i asked and she nodded.And gave it to me.

I left the hospital happily.As i was walking home i saw a store .there were baby's clothes so I went there and took them.

I started to do more shopping for home decorating........When I was home i fell asleep again cause I was feeling tired after all that walking......Yoongi's p o.v.We all are here at the cafe can told us to meet.Me,sooyun,can,and his man's that he collected."So the deal is we will help you get out of this marriage trap and as you know marriage is not a small thing,so you have to pay all of us every month with a good amount of money"can said i looked at all of them and they Just nodded."How?""With the help of your friends of course."one of them said."But-"i was about to say something when can Intrupted."Deal or no deal the choice is yours."I sigh somewhere in my heart i think it's not right.i am getting a bad feeling.something bad is gonna happen.i can feel it in my heart."Okey when to start?"i asked and he give me a smile."Today at 12am come to the xxx""Okey"Just then my phone rang."Yes rm""Where are you? Break is over"he said irritatingly over the phone."Yeah coming."I hung up."So meet you in the night""Bye take care"sooyun said and kissed me on the cheeks....Sooyun's p o.v."Are you sure our plan will work?""Yes baby don't worry.be happy we are going to be rich"can said with a smirk."All of you can go.come in the night at xxx"he said to all the other mans.....Time skip to 10pm.Y/n's p.o.v."Aishh how hard this cake can be to make"i said irritatingly.I am trying to make this cake for the 3rd time and still i can't make it."I'll just order"i said and grabbed my phone to order.After ordering i huffed and looked around the kitchen.all mess."Now i have to clean this"i whined....Uff finally the kitchen is clean.What time is it?I looked at the time on my phone.11pm.Oo yoongi will come anytime.And i didn't even started decorating."Aishh my whole plan to surprise him will go in vain."i said to myself."It's all because of you.you have to sleep every time just like your dada "i said looking at my belly.

Let's start decoration......

"Woohh finally over.we did great buddy"i said smiling.

Everything was done.I decorated the living room area and put the gift in his room..And the cake arrived when i was decorating.

His favourite colour is white so i ordered a white colored cake and put the white roses on his bed and for the baby, white clothes and white pair of shoes and the pictures in an envelope at the side.

I went to my room and took a shower and started getting ready.

When I was done i looked in the mirror.usually i don't wear makeup but today i decided to do some.I kept my hair open and wore a wine coloured dress.

(Choose whichever you like)

I went downstairs,sat on the couch and looked at the time.12:10am.Why is he not home yet.I called him but his phone is out of reach.So i called jin."Hello?oppa"i said."Yes yn.""Is yoongi with you all?""No he left 30 min before""Oh okey then""Okey"I hung up and looked at my belly carassed it and said."Dada is about to come.just wait a little more"(I suggest you all listen to the "judaai"(badlapur)instrumental version here.or just listen to "bhula dena"(ashiqui 2)instrumental version.it will feel more realistic)Timeskip.I woke up to the sound of my phone's ringtone.It was jin."Um hello"i said rubbing my eyes."Y-y/n?"jin said.his voice sounded as if he has been crying.I stood up from the couch and said."Oppa.are you ok?what happ-"i said he cutted me of."Y/n yoo-yoongi.he-he"he said stuttering as if you afraid of saying something that will hurt me."W-what happened.where is yoongi?"i said my heart started beating fastly.I looked at the time and it was 4am.Yoongi is not home.did something happened?no it can't."Jin oppa tell me where is yoongi?what about yoongi?"After sometime he said something that made my heart crashed into millions of pieces.i was feeling like someone stabbed my heart.i couldn't breath.i plopped down on the couch."No it can't be.you said he was coming home.then what hap-"i said but couldn't complete my sentence as words are not forming in my mind and mouth."Say it again maybe i heared it wrong"i said desperately."I don't know anything y/n.someone just called me about 3 hours ago and told me he had a big accident and couldn't made it.they said we can't see him cause they are going to burry him now.because of the car crash his face and everything ruined.so we can't see it."he said while crying as well.

I was numb i couldn't feel anything.i was feeling just like a dead body.i can't move my hands,legs, can't blink.my throat felt dry but i couldn't move even an inch.even tears were not coming.But i managed to say."Send me the address of the grave"i said with no emotions at all."Be carefull."he said and hung up.

My whole world fell apart in just a day.I forgot there is a thing called fate that nobody can change and was planning to live a happy life but no one can change the written.

A tear rolled down from my left eye to my cheeks.and i came to realisation.jin was going to send me the address.i saw that and ran outside to get in the car and drove off.....When i reached there.all of his close one's was there.Standing and looking down at his grave.His mom was crying hard and the members were trying to stop her from crying.

Jin saw me and came towards me running and hugged me..but i didn't even blink I was just standing like a statue and looking at his grave from a far.then i slowly put my hand on jin's shoulder as i was loosing my balance.But my eyes didn't leave my late husband's Grave sight.

"I am sorry.i am sorry what kind of brother I am.i-i killed him he died because of me"he said while crying so hard but my tears are just in my eyes not coming out.they were just at the edge but weren't flowing.

I broke the hug and started walking towards them.I sat just beside his mom.I sat there for almost 15min.not blinking not doing anything.Just looking at his grave with sorrowful eyes that was filled with tears.His mom was now silent.she was as much broken as me.afterall he was her only son.She looked at me and then at my belly and again at me."Did he knew"she said.she was a mom ofcourse she would know just by looking."What"I said still without any emotion."About the baby"she said.and everyone was looking at us confusingly but someof them understood."N-no"i said my voice broke but I couldn't cry."I-i wa-was ab-out to tel-l him toda-y"i said and felt like my words are not coming out from my throat.they were stuck.even a sob was not coming.

We sat there all silently.processing if it is real or just a bad dream.

After sometime little water droplets started to drop."Y/n let's go.you will get sick."hoseok said.and grabbed my arm to pull me up but i didn't move."I'll come.just leave me here for sometime.ill be okey"i said dryly."Let her stay here hoseok"yoongi's mom said.

And they all left.

"See your dada leave us here alone.tell him to come take us too"i said looking at his grave,hand on my belly.

"Yoongi..................""Happy birthday to you.........."I waited for a response as if he could reply to me."I have a surprise for you.........."I sat silently for some time.rain was now dropping faster than before.but i was careless."I.....am...... pregnant.....yoongi......."i said and a tear rolled down my cheeks.

And with that tears started to roll down my cheeks one by one.But they were just silent tears no sob,no screaming,just tears.

Suddenly someone held an umbrella over my head.i looked up slowly.it was a little girl.

"Don't cry.everything will get back to normal."I just looked at her."My mommy always says that if you will cry over a person you love but had lost him/her it'll hurt them too.so if you really love them don't hurt them by crying."she said and wiped my tears with her tinny hands.

Just like yoongi wiped when I was about to kill myself.i remembered his soft touch.

And more tears started to flow.

"Y/n!"someone yelled i looked behind it was dae, haewon, kyungmi,jin and yoongi's mom.

Dae, kyungmi and haewon hugged me."Let's go home hmm"dae said.but i didn't move."Let's go y/n look at you.you are all dranched in rain.you'll get sick"haewon said her eyes filled with tears."I'll come with you y/n."mrs.min said.

And with that they all started taking me to home.i looked back to see the little girl but she was not there anymore.its like she disappeared somewhere......Sooyun's p.o.v."She was...... pregnant?"i mumbled to myself.we are here behind a tree watching the scene."Did yoongi knew about this?"can asked."Probably not otherwise he wouldn't have come to us"i said."Hmm let's keep it a secret"can suggested."Yeah.its between you and me only"i said looking at him .

Y/n's p.o.v.We came home.yoongi's mom,kyungmi,dae,and haewon are staying here today.

Jin gave me yoongi:e phone when we arrived here.

As soon as we came home his mom went to her room and locked herself there.Kyungmi and haewon helped me get in yoongi's room and helped me change my clothes as i was  feeling too weak to stand.After that they went to sleep in my room aka guest room.

Now i am Here alone in his room..the smell of his scent lingering in his room.I looked at the side where i kept the clothes and envelope.I took it and opened it trying not to cry.

I looked at the pictures and started thinking about the evening.

I planned everything.he was happy.he was even talking to someone on the call about babies.i was happy.he was my everything.how will i live now.i don't exist.......... without him.I saw him this morning.if I had known that ut will be my last time seeing him i would have hugged him kissed him and told him that I am pregnant.

I love him. So much.

I saw him sitting on the side of the bed looking at me lovingly like he used to.

"Why did you leave without saying anything"i said to him blankly.But he just smiled."How can you do this to me huh"i said again.Still he didn't said anything."Please come back and tell me you did a prank on all of us"....No answer.A lone tear fell from my eyes.and i felt him hug me.I didn't even blink afraid if he would go away.

But then again i wanted to feel him so i just let my actions take control on me and i hugged him back. this time closing my eyes and feeling him.

But when i opened my eyes.i saw nothing...........that was just an ....... illusion.I looked around the room and remembered our first conversation here.We fought.he yelled and threw me outside his room.i thought we can't be together but I was wrong as everything was going great the fate has to come in between.

I started remembering all the moments I spent with him.all the good memories of him and i.

Little flashbacks."Yoongi hey!look here"i said and took a picture of him.We were playing video games here but got bored so i grabbed my camera and clicked his photo.

He was so focused on writing songs i looked at him and just lost in him.

When they were splashing water on him on there shoot.he have so much patience.

"Haha okey okey I am sorry pls f-forgive me"i said laughing he was tickling me."No no you started it now tolerate it"he said laughing."Yahhhh min yoongiii stopp itt"i laugh.

"You are looking like a world wide handsome"i said drooling over his looks."Look jin heard you."he said trying to hide his blushing state."You look good when you blush"He looked at the side smiling.

"Ajhumma(aunty)this is too expensive"he said.I took him there in the local market."No no the rate is fixed""Oo look at these cute potatoes just like our y/n"he said and i just glared at him for insulting me ."Haha look did we came here to buy this potatoes"he said looking at me but ended up smiling his gummy smile."It's fun here"

All the BTS members and I were playing games in parteners.when they gave me and him a dare to act like teenage girl friend and boy friend.He held my hand so tenderly and my heart started beating.

I was talking to jin again and he got jealous.and didn't talk to me the whole day."yaah yoongi are you still not going to talk to me"i asked.and he just glared at me.

.........I woke up to the sound of dishes.I went inside the bathroom and did my business.for a min i forgot about what happened last night.

I dialled his number and it ringed in the drawer at the side of the bed.I took it and saw my name.gold digger.

I remembered what happened last night.And absent mindly started to look at his photos on my phone.i took his photos secretly................

After sometime someone knocked on the door but i didn't answer so they came inside and sat at the bed.

"Let's go eat your breakfast"it was his mom.I shook my head as a no."I don't have appetite"not looking at her."What had to happen is done.no one can stop it.dont ruin your life now.its life people come and go"his mom said trying to act brave but I know she is crying from inside."He was not any people.he was my life.the father of my child.my life saver.how can i forget him"i said my voice cracking a little bit."Then think about your husband's child.yiu don't want to eat it's okey but don't kill my grandson from hunger"she said and hold my hand."Come on now stood up and let's go eat something everyone is waiting for you you have to eat for this one"she said looking at me and then at my belly.

After 2 weeks at night."Can I stay at your house for sometime?"i asked jia."Why what happened is everthing okey between you two"she asked worriedly."I'll tell everything.but answer me first"i asked again."Yeah of course you can stay here as long as you want.but plss tell me is everything okey?"she asked again."I'll come tomorrow morning.bye take care"i said and hung up.

Next morning.I packed my bag and now i was in yoongi's room to take some of his clothes.Accidentally my wedding ring slipped out of my fingers and went under the bed.I bent down carefully and started searching for it with my hands.My hands caught something.I took it out and saw ........the watch I gave him on our wedding night.

I kept it in my bag.And then left his room with my two suitcases and one bag.

"Where are you going you can't go just like this" Jin said.

Yess jin....he came here to see me and his mom.

"I am sorry but i can't live here anymore.i feel suffocated and I am having nightmares from the night he left me alone in this world."

"But it's your home too"jin said."It was.now it's only mrs min's house"."What are you saying "mrs min said."Yess.what's the point in living here when yoongi is not with me anymore.i never wanted this house or anything from him i just wanted him but when he is not here anymore there is no point of me living here"i said.

They both stood still.

"I'll take my leave now.take care.i'll be in touch with you all"she said and gave them a small sorrowful smile.And walked past them.

"But where will you go?to your brother?"jinasked."Somewhere far from here.where no one knows me"i said without turning back and walked off.

Timeskip.I arrived at gwangju.its night time.Jia and her husband came to pick me from the half way since i didn't know there home.

We were all sitting in the living room ."Now tell me what happened between you two that you had to leave your house like this"she asked getting worried."He died"i said looking in the air with blank eyes.They both look at eachother and said."Don't talk rubish.tell us so we can talk to him"she said now getting serious."He had an accident and he died 2 weeks ago"i said this time looking at her in the eyes my eyes filled with tears.They both were shocked and tears started to brim in jia's eyes too.She hugged me."I am sorry to here that y/n"she said ."It's not your fault.""You are pr-"she said but i cutted her off."Yess.and he didn't knew""Wh-what"she gasped."I could......never..tell him."i said and covered my face with my hands and started crying silent tears again.......         To be continued or  The end?

..........................Joking guys 😉. let's see a new lovestory? y/n and who?