Chapter 54

Homecoming

Today is homecoming. Actually the main homecoming party is tonight but now we are planning to come to the choir room and visit the glee club.

"Okay guys in 3! 1..2...3 go!" Finn give a commando.

We start our song as we enter the choir room together and surprise them.

Artie with Alumni:Woow!

Rachel and Santana with Alumni:Woah!

Artie with Alumni:Take me to your best friend's houseGoin' around this roundaboutOh yeahTake me to your best friend's houseI loved you then and I love you nowOh yeah

Finn (and Rachel) with Alumni:Don't take me tongue tiedDon't wave no goodbye(Don't...)(Break!)

Santana with Alumni:Oh! Take me to your best friend's houseMarmalade, we're making out, oh yeah,Oh! Take me to your best friend's houseI loved you then and I love you now

Finn and Rachel with Alumni:Don't take me tongue tiedDon't wave no goodbyeDon't...Brake!

Rachel and Santana:One, two, three, fourDon't leave me tongue tiedLet's stay up all nightI'll get real highSlumber party, pillow fightMy eyes and your eyesLike Peter Pan up in the skyMy best friend's house tonightLet's bump the beats 'til beddy-bye

Finn (with Alumni):Don't take me tongue tiedDon't wave no goodbye(Don't take me tongue tied)(Don't kiss me goodnight)

Artie with Alumni:Don't...

Rachel with Alumni:Take me to your best friend's houseGoin' around this roundabout, oh yeah Oh! Take me to your best friend's house I loved you then and I love you now!

Finn with Alumni (Santana):Don't leave me tongue tied (Don't leave me)Don't wave no goodbye (Don't leave, no)Don't leave me tongue tied (Don't leave me)Don't...Don't leave me tongue tied (Don't leave me)Don't wave no goodbye (Don't leave, no)

Artie and Finn with Alumni (Santana):Don't leave me tongue tied (Don't leave me)Don't...

Santana:Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Artie:Yeah, yeah...

Finn:Oh-oh-ohoh

We are cheering and clapping as we ended our song in the front of glee club newbies.

"Surprise from McKinley High class of 2012 and 2013!!!" Mr. Schue says excitedly as we standing in front of them.

I turn my face at Ryder and see him sit down next to Marley and give him a smile and he half-smiled at me.

"They are here to attend the homecoming party tonight and give some little experience in glee club with us." Mr. Schue says to the newbies.

"They look older since they have to face the college everyday." Kitty says.

"And you still look same with that cheerios uniform." Tina simply said.

I turn my face at Tina and chuckle until we both hi-five at each other.

"They are the past generation of this glee club who brough us into nationals twice." Mr. Schue says.

"And we are going to share some experience to you guys about what we got from glee club." Rachel grins.

"This is a place where you can sing and you can dance and you belong." Sam says.

"We also find love here." Kurt chuckles.

"Birth control." Quinn says.

"Tears." I simply said.

"Many things guys." Finn says to them.

"Alright maybe I'll leave you guys with these alumni so you guys can ask anything you want to ask." Mr. Schue says and walks off.

I sit down on the piano and these new member just look at us with their weird face. I dont understand what does mean.

"Alright since nobody want to ask us something can the alumni sit down please?" Santana asks.

We just nodded and sit down on our chair. I'm sitting down in a chair next to Tina and have my eyes on Sam and Rachel who still flirt at each other.

Santana and Brittany suddenly stand up in the front and grin at us. "We are getting married!" They both said happily.

"Wow congratulations." I'm clapping happily.

The others clapping happily to them and cheering for them.

"Thank you for all of you guys support to us for the lady to lady." Santana chuckles.

I just can smiling at them and the others do the same and clapping until we come to them and hug them to support them. It's cool. And finally happening.

The bells rings.

"Lets rock the homecoming party tonight!" Finn yells happily.

Everyone look pure happy here and am I the only one who fake my happiness right now? I dont know.

I just wanna get out from this place quickly because it really sucks and hurt me. I see Sam and Rachel holding hand each other as they walk out from the choir room.

I just need to hide my pain. I look at them just can half-smiled and about to walk off until someone catches my hand.

I turn my face and Ryder catched my hand. "You still mad at me?" Ryder asks me.

I shake my head and built a smile on my face. "No, Ryder. You set me free and I set you free. It's fair. Life must go on and we are always looking for something new. I support you both."

"B, you sure about what you just said to me?" Ryder frowns at me.

"Yes, I am. You have to know that I have a pet now. It's a puppy, white puppy girl named Snowy and she is so cute." I chuckle.

"Give me a hug before you go please." Ryder says to me.

I smile at him and give him a hug and he hug me back. "You gonna make it with her because she is a good girl and I know what she felt."

"Okay you can go now. I dont wanna miss you deeper." Ryder half-smiled at me.

"See you." I half smiled back at him and walk out from the choir room.

I hold my hand to hide my tears. I walk to the parking lot to find my car. I get into my car and turn on the radio. I dont start my car but I'm listening to a song that really express myself right now.

Tears slowly fall down to my face. At least I'm alone now and nobody sees me cry. I just wanna die right now because it seems wrong to back to Lima when I though it would be good.

I start my car and drive away from McKinley to my home. I just wanna lock myself in my room right now and cry out loud without nobody sees it.

Maybe I shouldnt come to Lima. I should stay in New York alone only with Snowy and it would be better but it's too late and I dont know what to do right now.

As I got home. I saw no cars around which nobody inside. I get into my house and walk into my room then lock the door. I sit down on the sofa near the window and look outside. How unfair this life is.

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I keep looking at the window. I'm not going to homecoming party tonight. It's better than I let myself hurt anymore.

"B, which one is the best?" Blaine walks into my room.

I wipe my tears quickly and walk to him. "The black one with dark brown bowtie." I said to Blaine.

"You still not get ready?" Blaine asks me.

"No, I dont have any dates." I shake my head.

"You have me with you. Come on please." Blaine says to me.

"I'll coming." I simply said.

"Alright because Kurt will pick me up in ten minutes." Blaine says to me.

I just nod and sit down on the edge of my bed. I'm not going. I'll stay here as long as I can. It really hurts me when I have to see Sam dancing with Rachel.

I go back sit down on the sofa near my window until I see Blaine enters a car and drive away from our house. It sucks I know.

"B, honey, you're not going?" Mom's voice.

"I'm not in a good mood to going mom." I simply answer.

Mom suddenly sit down in front of me and look at me. "What's going on? Tell me."

My cry brokes. I cant hide my pain anymore and start crying until mom suddenly hug me. "I'm hurt. I saw someone that I love with someone else when I cant have him full and only see him." I'm crying.

"Honey, I-I dont what to say but if you stay here it will hurt you more." Mom wipe my tears.

"Then I should go?" I raise my eyebrows.

"B, you cant run away from your problem. It wont make any changes. You have to face it and make a change with that. You're not a high school girl anymore. You grow up now and I want you to be brave to face everything in front of you. You want to take control of the hospital and you have to ready face the risk. Get out and make a change, honey." Mom hold my hand.

"What if I dont make it?"

"You'll never know if you never want to try." Mom says to me.

"You know what, mom? These past few days, I got homesick. I really wish I could fly to Lima but when I got back to Lima, everything is getting worse." I'm sobbing.

"Listen, you're in Lima now and I want you to make your magic. I dont want to see my little girl cry, come on, Bianca. Face it and dont run away. You have to try it." Mom cup my cheek.

"I dont have any dates or anything to prepare, mom." I said to her.

"Come here." Mom takes my hand and walk lead me. We then enter the wardrobe room and she is looking for something. "You never wear this yet." Mom give me a black mini dress. "This shoes seems cool." Mom give me a black high heels. "Now lets get you changed." Mom smiles at me and bring me back into my room.

Mom take my make up pouch and start touch up my face with my make up. I've been crying a lot these weeks and I guess my eyes look bad now.

After that she style my hair. I cant believe that mom could do this things to me. Deep down I really want to go to homecoming party but things about Sam hurt me.

"Change your clothes with this dress now." Mom says to me.

I take the dress and walk to the bathroom and change my clothes with the dress she gave me. After that I walk back to my room and mom smiling at me.

"Perfect. Now wear this high heels." Mom give me the heels. I sit down on a sofa in front of my bed and wear that heels she chooses for me. "You look super beautiful." Mom smiles at me and bring me to the big mirror.

I just chuckle when I look at myself in the mirror. "Thank you so much, mom." I hug her.

"I know that deep down you want to go." Mom smiles at me.

"You can read my mind clearly." I smile back at her.

"Now go. I want to see you smile and not crying anymore." Mom give me my car key.

"Mom, I love you so much." I hug her.

"I love you too honey. Go now or you'll be late." Mom says to me.

"Alright, see you." I wave her a goodbye and walk downstairs.

I went out from my house and get into my car. I start my car and drive away to McKinley. Mom was right, you'll never know if you never even try.

At least I'm not wrong to face the truth now. Ten minutes driving. I finally arrived in McKinley. I park my car and walk to the McKinley gymnasium.

The beat music is playing while I'm enter gymnasium. I look around to find someone that maybe I can ask for a dance but I cant find any. That's fine.

So I walk to the food buffet until my eyes meet Sam's eyes. He is dancing with Rachel and he smiles at me quickly until the smile disappeared and he turns his face back to Rachel.

"You wanna dance? I let Finn to have date with Quinn tonight since they too obsessed for become homecoming queen and king." Puck suddenly asks me.

"Sure." I nod at him and he bring me to the dance floor.

We start dancing together but I cant take my eyes off of Sam. Damn Bianca! You have to hide it and dont show it to anyone else.

"I know what you felt. I told Finn the same things too but for tonight just having fun." Puck says to me.

"Thanks, I never knew that you become a good guy now." I chuckle.

"Become a better person now." Puck says proudly.

"Good one." I chuckle. "I'm thirsty by the way. Thanks Puck." I said to him and walk off from dance floow.

I just cant dance with someone else that I dont love especially when I see the one that I love is dancing with another girl.

"Finally, you came!" Blaine says happily.

"Mom helped me with this make up and hairstyle." I chuckle.

"Blaine, lets dance again." Kurt interupts us. "You wanna join, B?" Kurt asks me.

I shake my head. "No, I'm tired actually." I giggle.

"Stay here. Dont run away. I'll be back." Blaine says to me and walks off with Kurt to the dance floor.

I sit down on a mini bar and take a mocktail. The music keep playing until it turns into a slow romantic music and everyone get in pair and having a slow dance.

I turn my eyes at Sam and he still dancing with Rachel and kissing each other. I guess I better go than see this. I walk out from the gymnasium and hold my hand hard to hide my pain.

I keep walking until I enter the empty auditorium. I turn on the lamp and sit down on the edge of the stage alone and crying.

Why cant I kiss him and tell the others that he is mine? Why cant I do that? I cant tell them that I love Sam and he loves me. I cant do that.

Sam's POV

I saw Bianca entered the McKinley Gymnasium alone. I cant deny that she is so beautiful tonight, like always.

I keep looking at her until our eyes meet and I smiled at her quickly until I turn my face back at Rachel and dancing with her.

Puck come to her and I guess he asked for a dance until they both enter the dance floor and she keep her eyes on me.

Not too long but she walks off from the dance floor then sit down on a mini bar and take a drink. I really wanna dance with her but I cant.

The music turns into a slow music. Everyone get in pair and Rachel pulls her body closer to me until we share a kiss while dancing.

I open my eyes and I see the place of Bianca sat is empty. Where the hell she is? I look around as Rachel and I roll around but no one dancing with her. I have to find her after this.

Ten minutes and she is still not here even until the slow music ends up. "I wanna take a pee. Can I go?" I ask Rachel.

"Dont take too long, Sam." Rachel says to me.

"I wont, Rach." I strokes her hair and walk off.

I'm sorry, Rachel. I lied to you. I need to find where the hell Bianca right now. She must be hide her pain alone and crying in a place where no one else can see her.

I smell her expensive parfume around here. I keep following that smell until I enter the auditorium.

I saw her sitting down alone on the edge of the stage when I'm behind the curtain. She let her head down and wipe her tears with her hand. I know she is crying right now. Crying because of me.

She stand up from her seat and standing on the stage. And look at the audience seat. I keep hiding myself behind this black curtain. She still standing until she start singing.

Bianca:When you hold me in the streetAnd you kiss me on the dance floorI wish that it could be like thatWhy can't it be like that?'Cause I'm yours

We keep behind closed doorsEvery time I see you, I die a little moreStolen moments that we steal as the curtain fallsIt'll never be enough

It's obvious you're meant for meEvery piece of you, it just fits perfectlyEvery second, every thought, I'm in so deepBut I'll never show it on my face

But we know this.We got a love that is homeless

Why can't you hold me in the street?Why can't I kiss you on the dance floor?I wish that it could be like thatWhy can't we be like that?'Cause I'm yours

I really wanna hold you like we used to be. I really wanna kiss you on the dance floor. I really wanna hug you everytime you cry but I cant.

Sam:When you're with him, do you call his nameLike you do when you're with me? Does it feel the same?Would you leave if I was ready to settle downOr would you play it safe and stay?

Girl, you know this.We got a love that is hopeless

Bianca and Sam:Why can't (Bianca: you) (Sam: I) hold (Sam: you) (Bianca: me) in the street?Why can't I kiss you on the dance floor?I wish that it could be like thatWhy can't we be like that?'Cause I'm yours

Sam:And nobody knows I'm in love with someone's baby

Bianca:I don't wanna hide us away

Sam:Tell the world about the love we're making

Bianca:I'm living for that day

Bianca and Sam:Someday

Sam:Why can't I hold you in the street?Why can't I kiss you on the dance floor?

Bianca (with Sam):I wish that we could be like thatWhy can't we be like that?'Cause I'm yours, I'm yours

Oh, (why can't you hold me in the street?)(Why can't I kiss you on the dance floor?)I wish that it could be like that (Sam: I wish)Why can't it be like that? (Sam: I wish)'Cause I'm yours (Sam: I'm yours)

Bianca and Sam:(Bianca: Why can't I say) that I'm in love?I wanna shout it from the rooftopI wish that it could be like thatWhy can't we be like that?'Cause I'm yours

Bianca:Why can't we be like that?Wish we could be like that

"Because I'm just your dirty secret that you can throw away anytime you want to." Bianca crying.

No, B. You're more than that. You are my precious thing in my life. I never want to let you go but I know I hurt you and you hurt yourself because you hold it alone.

I better go. Rachel must be looking for me right now. I wipe my tears away and walk back to the gymnasium for the homecoming party.

"Sam, did you see Bianca?" Blaine asks me.

"No." I shake my head. "I just have a big poop." I giggle.

"Ewww." Blaine rolls his eyes.

I just can give him a fake laugh and walk to Rachel. Then continue dance with her.

Bianca's POV

I'm sorry, mom. Your daughter is not as strong as you think. I tried to hold my tears but I cant and now I ran away from my problem.

"B, what the hell are you doing here alone?" Blaine shocked me.

I wipe my tears quickly. "Just need a place to be alone. I went to this homecoming only to make mom smile meanwhile I really dont want to."

"You being nominated as the homecoming queen with Sam as the king." Blaine sit down next to me.

"Blaine, he is not my date. I cant get that or it will hurt Rachel." I shake my head.

"For how long you want to hurt yourself? You think that I dont know you keep your eyes on Sam these days? You half-smiled everytime you saw them kissed. You hide it but in the night when everyone is sleeping. You sit down in the balcony alone and crying there. I know that." Blaine rubs my back.

I start crying involves sobbing right now. I didnt say anything to him and lean my head on Blaine's shoulder. No one in this world knows me better than Blaine. No one.

"Tell him if you love him. Go get your man back. For now, you have to be selfish and think about yourself and stop put the others first. You hurt yourself too much, B." Blaine rubs my hair.

"This is too late, Blaine. I cant do that. I just need to wait until the right time." I'm sobbing.

"Until when? Until you die because you hurt yourself? I will talk to Rachel and tell her everything. Sam loves you, and you love him. He even told me and make me realized that you needed me but I wasnt there and I blame myself for that until now."

"Blaine please dont. You will hurt her. I know what she felt. She is dependent on Sam now like when I was dependent on Ryder. Just please." I begged.

"I wont let anybody hurt you, B." Blaine kisses my head.

"That night when I cried until I fell asleep in living room. I wasnt crying about Ryder. I was crying because of Sam. He kissed Rachel in the place where he kissed me and comfort me." I wipe my tears.

"Come on, forget it. You have to face the truth now. Come on, go back to dance floor and dance with me. I wont leave you alone anymore." Blaine stands up and show me his hand.

"If Austin ask me out you think that I should accept him?" I take his hand.

"If he can make you forget about Sam like Ryder did, why not? I want you to be happy, B." Blaine hold my hand as we walk together.

"Maybe it's because I lost Ryder and those feeling back but back in the wrong time."

"You dont know that you have a beautiful heart. And that's why those guys can fall in love with you easily." Blaine says to me.

"Can I sing a song for homecoming party tonight?" I ask Blaine.

"You even can jump from the high rocks if you want." Blaine chuckles.

"Alright but I want you sing with me." I smile at Blaine.

"What song you want to sing with me?"

"Everything Has Changed by Taylor Swift and Ed Sheeran? A song that really show my feeling right now."

"Sure." Blaine smiles at me.

We then enter the gymnasium and people is excited for the homecoming king and queen announcement. I keep holding Blaine's hand as we standing next to each other.

"The homecoming queen from class of 2012 is Quinn Fabray!" Principal Figgins says and clapping.

Quinn walks to the stage and get her crown also her flower.

"And the homecoming king from class of 2012 is Finn Hudson!" Coach Sylvester says.

"I can guess that." I said to Blaine.

"Yeah they both are too obsessed to being the homecoming queen and king but wait, it divided by school year? Not by the whole? You still have a big chance to be homecoming queen class of 2013." Blaine chuckles.

"And I want you to be my king." I chuckle.

"Now it's time for the homecoming king and queen from class of 2013." Mr. Schue says from the stage and open a paper then smiles. "Wow she is always be the queen. Homecoming queen from class of 2013 is Bianca Anderson!" Mr. Schue clapping.

"You deserve that. Come on." Blaine takes my hand and walk lead me.

I just can smiling and walk to the stage until Mr. Schue give me a crown and flowers.

"Now the homecoming king from class of 2013 is......oh no it's Blaine Anderson!" Mrs. Schuester clapping.

Blaine walks to the stage with a smile then get his crown. Full of clapping filling this room. Blaine and I hugging each other. Quinn and Finn leave the stage. Blaine and I take a stand microphone and about to sing something.

"Good evening McKinley and you the alumni! Grab your partner and dance with them now. Enjoy!" Blaine says over the microphone.

I whisper something to the band until a sound of guitar is ringing. I turn my face at Sam and he is dancing with Rachel right now.

Bianca:All I knew this morning when I wokeIs I know something now, know something now I didn't before.And all I've seen since eighteen hours agoIs green eyes and freckles and your smileIn the back of my mind making me feel like

I just wanna know you better, know you better, know you better nowI just wanna know you better, know you better, know you better now

Bianca and Blaine:I just wanna know you better, know you better, know you better nowI just wanna know you, know you, know you

'Cause all I know is we said, "Hello."And your eyes look like coming homeAll I know is a simple nameEverything has changedAll I know is you held the doorYou'll be mine and I'll be yoursAll I know since yesterday is everything has changed

Blaine:And all my walls stood tall painted blueAnd I'll take them down, take them down and open up the door for you

Bianca:And all I feel in my stomach is butterfliesThe beautiful kind, making up for lost time,Taking flight, making me feel right

Bianca and Blaine:I just wanna know you better, know you better, know you better nowI just wanna know you better, know you better, know you better nowI just wanna know you better, know you better, know you better nowI just wanna know you, know you, know you

'Cause all I know is we said, "Hello."And your eyes look like coming homeAll I know is a simple nameEverything has changedAll I know is you held the doorAnd you'll be mine and I'll be yoursAll I know since yesterday is everything has changed

Bianca with Blaine:Come back and tell me whyI'm feeling like I've missed you all this time, oh, oh, oh.And meet me there tonightAnd let me know that it's not all in my mind.

Bianca:I just wanna know you better, know you better, know you better nowI just wanna know you, know you, know you

Bianca and Blaine:All I know is we said, "Hello."And your eyes look like coming homeAll I know is a simple nameEverything has changedAll I know is you held the doorYou'll be mine and I'll be yoursAll I know since yesterday is everything has changed

Bianca (with Blaine):All I know is we said, "Hello."So dust off your highest hopesAll I know is pouring rain (and everything has changed)All I know is a new found graceAll my days I'll know your faceAll I know (since yesterday is everything has changed)

This is a song that I usually sang right after Sam and I know each other. And now I'm moving on and I have to set myself free. No more tears and no more pain. If we were meant to be together then we will be together again. If he back into my life it's mean that he is my soulmate. That it's.

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Believe it or not but I cant stop crying when I wrote chapter 51 until chapter 54. Those four chapter done in one day because what happened to Bianca is really happening in my life and I really feel that and I cant stop crying because of that. Sounds overeact but it's true. Well, thanks for reading and voting and love my story.

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