Chapter 53

"No one is moving, Sam. We stay here. We cant leave Bianca alone." Blaine's voice.

"But how we say no to them?" Sam's voice.

What they were talking about. I rise and woke up from my bed then went out from my room and enter the bathroom.

"Just say no. You see how rude Rachel's attitude to Bianca that day? And Kurt behind her line since she is his bestfriend and I wont let that happen. We stay here and they stay in Bushwick. That's it. No changes." Blaine says.

They were talking about moving? Oh okay. Nevermind. I wash my face in the wastavel and I feel like I got flu. I cant stop sneezing.

I went out from the bathroom and about to take a drink but I can feel that I cant stop sneezing and my nose doesnt feel good.

"What were you both talking about?" I ask them as I realized my voice become nasal. Damn I really got flu.

"You sick?" Blaine asks me.

"Only got flu." I said and take a glass of water.

"Wait, I caught you sneezing after one day you have Snowy, you have allergic with puppy?" Sam asks me.

"Nope." I shake my head.

"Did you bring her to the doctor and get vaccine for pets?" Sam asks again.

"Nope." I shake my head.

"First of all, before you bring her home you have to bring her to the veterinarian first. We dont know what happen in that petshop because there were many pets there. You got flu because of the virus your puppy brings. You become allergic." Sam explains.

"Sam? Is that really you?" Blaine raises his eyebrows.

"What do you mean by asking is that really me?" Sam frowns.

"No, just flattered." Blaine chuckles.

I just chuckle and roll my eyes then take more drink. "Then what should I do?" I ask Sam.

"Bring her to the veterinarian. What else?" Sam raises his eyebrows.

"I cant bring her alone." I said then sneezing.

Blaine let out a sigh. "I really want to but I have my dance 101 and Casey, my teacher is so killer. I'm so sorry, B." Blaine says to me.

"I can go with you. I know about that because I had McConaughey." Sam says to me.

"Arent you supposed to be work today?" I ask Sam.

"Nope." Sam shake his head.

"Alright I'm gonna take a bath and change my clothes." I said to them and walk off.

"B, I cook you cream soup and warm milk okay." Blaine yells.

"Up to you." I yell back and enter the bathroom.

I press the knob and let the water fall down. I dont want to take a long bath so they wont wait for too long.

After that I walk to my room and get dressed. A short denim pants and found Sam's grey hoodie so I decided to wear it. It's become my favorite hoodie now and he never complain or mad when I wear this hoodie. I let my hair in a ponitail then went out from my room.

"B, I already make breakfast for you and you have to eat that. I'm so sorry I cant carry you but after my classes finish, I will go home." Blaine says to me.

"That's fine. Thank you for this by the way." I smile at Blaine.

"Alright see you, love you, take care." Blaine waves me a goodbye and walk off.

"Love you too!" I yell and sit down on the mini bar. "Cream soup with a warm milk. Wow."

"Hey, you hungry right?" Sam says as he hold Snowy in his arm.

"I never knew you really like puppy." I said to him.

"Puppy can make you happy and they're cute. You know that at first I saw Snowy I though she was a doll but then she ran to your feet and it's impossible if a doll did that right." Sam chuckle.

"You already have breakfast?" I ask him.

"Nope." Sam simply said.

"Okay I let you eat Snowy's food if you want." I laugh.

"You think I'm your puppy, huh?"

"I guess so." I laugh and wash my dishes in the sink.

After that I walk to Sam where he feed Snowy near the balcony door and join them.

"You bring that hoodie everywhere you go?" Sam raises his eyebrows as he saw I wear his hoodie.

"I love this. And I guess it's not yours anymore but it's mine." I chuckle.

"No, that's still mine include the person who wear that." Sam smirks at me.

I just smile shyly at him and he smile back at me until he pushes his face closer to me and cup my cheek then make me look onto his lips and he did the same thing. His face getting closer and closer. I close my eyes and I can feel his breath through my skin until something crash my lips and he kisses me softly and I kiss him back. We still kissing until we pull our lips each other and turn our face.

"Dont tell this to anyone else not even Blaine." Sam says to me.

"Why?"

"You're my secret. I cant hold it when I look at into your eyes, all I wanna do is kiss you and drawn into your eyes but I have someone else and we have to hide it." Sam cup my cheek and rubs my cheek with his thumb.

I just look at him and wrap his hand with my hand. I know this is too late to tell him that I love him. To tell him that I cried that night because of him and not Ryder. This is too late to tell him that I'm his. No one else.

We keep looking at each other until it get interupts by my sneezing then we suddenly laugh together.

"I think we should go before your face getting wet because of my sneezing." I chuckle.

"Yes because you cant spray your parfume to my face." Sam pinch my nose and chuckle.

"I gotta get my bag first." I said to him and get into my room.

I take my slingbag and my black mini boots. After that I wash Snowy's bowl in the sink and then take her cage and wear her a rob on her neck so I can let her walk with me.

"You ready? It might be take a little bit long so I guess we will have lunch outside." Sam says to me.

"Alright, sir." I chuckle.

"Sam, would you accompany me to meet the producer about the tv project I told you?" Rachel suddenly walks into our apartment.

Sam turn his face at me. "But I already said to Blaine that I want to accompany Bianca to the petshop." Sam says to Rachel.

"No, it's okay. I can go with myself." I said to him.

"Is it okay?" Rachel asks me.

"Yeah, fine. Maybe I will call Larissa later." I smiled at them and take Snowy's cage with my left hand. "Come on, Snowy." I said and pulls Snowy's rope as she walks next to me. "Have fun, you both." I said to them and walk outside.

That's risk when someone you love keep you as his secret. You got nothing to do and watch them together when you have to hide it. That's fine because no one knows how big my love for Sam is. He cheated but I cant hate him, I just mad at him but as long as I try to stay mad at him, I cant stand with that.

I keep walking in the New York City street with my pet and looking for veterinarian. I dont know where I should go actually and my flu is become worse.

"Bianca?" Someone called my name.

"Hey, Austin." I smile at him.

"I was about to come to your apartment actually but then I saw you here and seems like looking for something." Austin says to me.

"I'm looking for veterinarian actually. My roommates said that I got flu because of the virus from Snowy." I said to Austin.

"So this is Snowy you've told me? Aww she is look like a doll. Here let me help you." Austin chuckle and take Snowy's cage from my hand.

Suddenly I'm start to sneezing again and rubs my nose ugh it's bothering me and I forget to bring my tissue paper.

"Okay, why dont you put Snowy in her cage?" Austin asks me.

"She still can breath if I put her there?" I raise my eyebrows.

"Of course, Bianca." Austin roll his eyes. I'm still standing and he place Snowy inside her cage carefully then lock her cage. "She will sleep inside. Dont worry." Austin says to me as he hold the cage.

"I just dont know where I should find the veterinarian." I said to him.

"Why dont we come to the petshop where she came from? There must be a veterinarian there." Austin frowns at me.

"I dont think about that bef.....hatchiiiii."

"And after that we will bring you to the doctor." Austin rubs my back.

"No, I'm fine." I shake my head.

"You're not fine, okay. Now we go to the petshop and then doctor." Austin says to ma and take my hand.

"You will get infected after this."

"I just need to drink my vitamin and herbal tea everyday." Austin smiles at me.

"Before you get infected, I wanna say sorry okay."

"Haha it's okay. Come on." Austin hold my hand and make our finger interlock as we walk together.

It's been more than a week I know him and he is nice. He is like an angel who come when I needed a help or someone next to me. And everytime he hold my hand like this, I feel like he is trying to protect me. We've been out for a date once or we called unexpected date and it was sweet because after that he sends me rainbow roses.

2 hours later

Sam's POV

"Where are we going to next?" Rachel asks me.

"I'm hungry. Can we have lunch?" I ask Rachel.

"Sure." Rachel said as we hold our hand each other. "Wait, isnt that Bianca?" Rachel points at a place.

I turn my face and yes she is. I know the hoodie she wear it so bad. She is walking with a guy. Is that the guy named Austin? That guy hold Snowy's cage and they both seems have a good talk.

"Wow who is that cute guy? The guy who sends her flower that day? They're cute together. Let's go surprise them." Rachel holds my hand and walk lead me.

"Can we just dont disturb them?" I ask her.

"Why, Sam? She needs to tell us about her new boyfriend." Rachel says to me and keep walking.

I just let out a sigh until we stop their way.

Bianca's POV

"Wanna have lunch? I'm hungry." Austin says to me.

"Let me guess, you skipped your late bread right?" I chuckle.

"How could you know that?" Austin chuckle.

"I just guess that." I chuckle.

We keep walking together until suddenly Sam and Rachel stop our way. Rachel and Sam holding hand each other and I dont know what this mean.

"So this is the guy who sends you flower that day?" Rachel chuckles.

"You told them?" Austin frowns at me.

"They were there." I said to Austin. "Well, he is my friend, Austin Ford. And Austin, this is Rachel Berry, and Sam Evans. He is my...roomamates."

"Nice to meet you guys." Austin smiles at them. "We are about to have lunch actually, you guys wanna join?"

"Yeah of course. We also about to have lunch." Rachel nods as agree.

"Okay what about in Italian restaurant over there? Because only that restaurant which has a storage place because we brough a pet." Austin says.

"Sounds cool." Sam nods.

"Well yeah, come on, Bianca." Austin takes my hand.

Sam and Rachel walks in front of me and they both keep holding hands each other and flirting at each other and I'm here trying to hide my pain. We shouldnt have lunch together now.

We then arrived in the restaurant Austin told us. We enter as we got a table for four. Sam and Rachel sit down right in front of us.

The waiter gave us menu and since this is Italian restaurant I already know what should I choose.

"What do you want?" Austin asks me.

"Spaghetti carbonara." I smile at him.

Suddenly I'm starting to sneezing again. Damn it really bothering me. I just wanna take a rest and sleep now.

I cover my nose with my hand and looking for tissue paper because I cant stop sneezing until Austin give me his handkerchief. I shake my head but he shake his head also so I take it.

I turn my face to Sam who sitting right in front of me until he suddenly turn his face to the menu.

"Thank you. I'm sorry it's kinda bothering." I said to Austin.

"You need to take a rest after this." Austin smiles at me and strokes my hair.

"You're sweet. How can you both know each other?" Rachel asks curiously.

"I joined when she had lunch with Artie Abrams. Since there was no seat left so I sat there beside I'm in the same club with Artie and after that I walked her to her class." Austin chuckles.

"Yeah it is." I giggle.

"Cool. By the way where did you get that rainbow roses? My girlfriend cant stop ask me to give her that." Sam chuckles at Austin and smirks at Rachel.

"Sam, I didnt ask for that." Rachel chuckles.

"But I know you want it right?" Sam chuckles.

"Well I will tell you later, dude." Austin chuckle.

I just smile at them and drinking my drink. I wish I could go home and sleep now. Then get amnesia and forget everything.

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I'm not feeling well today. Snowy is totally health and the one who is not health is me. Mentally and physically is not good.

I went out from my room as I heard Rachel, Sam, Blaine, and Kurt are laughing each other. Blaine and Kurt are sitting down on the sofa. Sam is standing near the mini bar with Rachel sit down on my favorite seat and facing them.

I walk passed Sam to get my teabag. I really need sleep right now. Until Sam moves his stands to back little bit and take my hand without nobody knows.

He hold my hand as I'm looking for my teabag in the cupboard under the mini bar table.

"Alright we should go before we miss our last bus to Bushwick." Kurt says.

"Yeah dont forget that next week is homecoming and we should come to Lima!" Rachel says excitedly.

"I cant wait to go back home." Blaine says.

"Okay see you guys! Get well soon, B." Kurt smiles at me.

"Yeah thank you." I smile at him.

"See you, Sam." Rachel give Sam a quick kiss then walk off with Kurt.

I just half-smiled when see them like that then make a cup of hot tea to make myself feel better.

"You feeling well?" Blaine asks me.

"Yeah a bit. Dont worry, Blaine." I smile at Blaine.

"You want me to cook you something?" Blaine asks me.

"No, I already have dinner and I just want a hot tea." I said to Blaine.

"Okay, good night. If you cant sleep just come into my room." Blaine says to me and walk off.

"Or my room." Sam said in whisper.

"You better get in before Blaine caught us." I said to Sam.

"You like that guy?"

"I dont know. He seems nice and cute one." I said while I'm drinking my tea.

"No. You cant like him. You're mine and I dont want you to date him." Sam shake his head.

"What about Rachel?" I raise my eyebrows.

"Just wait until she can stop dependent on me and then we tell them about us." Sam hold my sleeve.

I just half-smiled at him. I know what Rachel felt right now. How it feels to be dependent on someone like I was with Ryder.

"You mad at me?" Sam asks me.

I shake my head. "Nope. Because I know what she feel. But you cheat twice." I chuckle.

"But at least now I'm cheating with someone that I love not with a fake nurse with a big boobs." Sam chuckle.

I chuckle and roll my eyes. "But you hurt Rachel." I said to him.

"You hurt yourself." Sam says to me.

"I'd rather to hurt myself than hurt anyone else."

"Okay stop this. I dont wanna make you cry anymore. And I want you to carry me to barber shop tomorrow because I want to cut my hair and we take Snowy to walk around in Central Park. Only you and I. Nobody else." Sam says to me.

"What if I dont want to?" I raise my eyebrows.

"Dont you dare or I will...." Sam smirks at me and about to tickle me.

I stop him and chuckle. "Okay I want to." I smile at him.

"That's my girl." Sam hugs me.

"I'm sleepy." I pull his hug away.

"You want to sleep with me?" Sam asks me.

I shake my head. "Blaine will caught us. Good night, Sam." I said to him and about to walk off.

He catches my hand and make me turn my face at him. "That's not a good night supposed to be." He cup my cheek and then kisses me softly.

We pull our lips each other and smiling at each other. I rub his cheek and walk off to my room and fall asleep there.

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Sam and I keep walking in the New York City street to Central Park also with Snowy. Without holding hands and like a couple used to be because I'm his secret and the others knows that he is dating Rachel not me.

"You cut your hair like that and dyed your hair into brunette make you look more idiot." I said to him.

"I though you'll like it." Sam says to me.

"Eww no." I shake my head. "You look older than your age. Maybe it's the effect of dating older girl."

"Okay stop it." Sam roll his eyes.

"I just realized that your type is older girl. Quinn Fabray, Santana Lopez, Mercedes Jones, Penny Owen, and now Rachel Berry. They are older than you. Only me who is younger than you."

"We're here to have fun okay not fight or argue." Sam frowns at me and trying to hold my hand.

"Rachel is coming over to us." I simply said as I see Rachel with a big smile on her face is coming to us.

"I like your new hairstyle." Rachel chuckle and lean her head on Sam's chest. "What are you guys doing here?" Rachel asks.

"We accidentally met there. I was about to bring Snowy to Central Park." I said to Rachel.

"Ah I see. You wanna watch movie with me, Sam?" Rachel asks Sam and go back lean her head on Sam's chest and wrap his waist.

I just half-smile at them and turn my way but suddenly Sam catched my hand and I push his hand away slowly. "Alright I think I should go. I dont wanna disturb your dates." I smile at them and walk off.

"Have fun, B!" Rachel shouts.

I turn my face and wave them a goodbye. Snowy is still walking right behind me while I hold her rope. I enter the Central Park and find an empty bench so I sit down there with Snowy next to me.

Tears slowly fall down to my face. I hurt myself and this is really hurt. It's more hurt than knowing your boyfriend cheated behind your back because at this problem you can see that clearly.

Snowy cant stop barking at me. I unwear her rope and let her run around. A pet knows their owner since I gave her food everyday and she will back. And I'm still sitting down with my head down and tears filled my eyes.

Austin's POV

"Dude, where the hell are you? I'm already in Central Park." I said over the phone.

"I cant meet you now. I got headache. Sorry, man." Arnold hung up the phone.

Damn! Then what the hell I'm gonna do here? Watching some couple PDA and waiting for sunset? Such a stupid things.

Suddenly a white puppy run to me. Wait this puppy look familiar to me. Until I see her necklace and right it's Snowy. If Snowy is here so the owner must be also here. Where is Bianca?

I lift Snowy up and look around. "Where is your mommy, Snowy?"

Snowy just barking at one side. I follow her gaze and there she is. Sitting down alone with her head down. Wait what happened?

Since the first time I know her, I already know she is different than any other girls. She is smart, beautiful, innocent, and different than any other college rich girl. And I admit that I kinda like her now.

I walk to the behind her bench and want to surprise her. "Hello!" I lift Snowy and place her right in front of Bianca's face.

She wipe her tears quickly and turn her face. "Hey, how could you find her?" She smiles at me.

"The question is why you let her walk around alone? What if someone kidnap her. She is so cute." I chuckle and sit down next to her.

"I'm sorry." She simply said.

"You okay? Seems like you've been crying. Tell me what's wrong?" I turn my body face her.

"Have you ever feel hurt like really hurt even more hurt than you know your girlfriend cheat behind your back?" She cries.

"Come here." I move her body and hug her to comfort her. "Crying out loud as you can. Dont hold it anymore. I'm here." I rub her back.

Her sobbing voice is getting loud and I can feel that she hold something that she never tell to anyone for a long time. She is still crying. I pull her body away and wipe her tears away.

"Tell me what's wrong?" I ask her.

"I'm lonely and alone." She is sobbing and let her head down.

I cup her cheek and make her facing me. "You're not alone." I shake my head.

"Have you ever feel like you are alone in a crowded place?" She raise her eyebrows.

"I was before I met you. I was alone. I feel like an useless person in this world until I met you and you bright my day here and make me feel like I'm not useless. You always ask me for an advice but you never realize that at the end you always gave more advice than I did." I smile at her.

"Really?"

"B, you are not alone. I'm here with you. You're just homesick. I know that. Come on, stop crying because I want to see your smile." I wipe her tears away.

"My homesick is overeact." She chuckles.

"Not really but kind of." I chuckle.

"How could you find me here?" She asks me.

"Snowy ran to me. I was about to meet someone but it turns into a cancel."

"Your date?" She raise her eyebrows.

"I'm straight. And the person I was about to meet is my high school friend, he entered Harvard and we about to meet up here. Why?"

"Nothing. I though you have a date waiting for you." She giggles.

"I have a date with Snowy." I giggle when I lift Snowy body up.

"Austin, thank you. You are the person who can make me smile besides Snowy." She smiles at me.

I just can smile back at her. She has the most beautiful smile ever. "You're beautiful."

She just smile shyly at me. And turn her face away. I flip her hair back to her earlobe and make her turn her face at me. I cup her cheek and look onto her eyes deeply. The most beautiful eyes that I've ever seen. She did the same thing to me. I look at her lips and I really wanna kiss her lips. I push my face closer to her and we close our eyes until I feel her lips on mine and I kisses her softly and she kisses me back! I never though she will did this.

We pull our lips each other and smiling shyly at each other. I look around and we kissed when the sun goes down. How romantic it is.

"Wanna have dinner in my place?" She asks me.

"Sure." I smile at her.

Bianca's POV

"Austin, thank you. You are the person who can make me smile beside Snowy." I smile at him.

He smile back at me. "You're beautiful."

I smile shyly at him and turn my face away. But suddenly he flip my hair back to my earlobe and make me turn my face at him. He look onto my eyes deeply and cup my cheek. He has a beautiful eyes and charming face. He look at my lips and I did the same thing to him until he pushes his face closer to me and kisses me and I kiss him back.

I dont know but I feel like since he came into my life, I found something new inside me. I cried a lot these weeks but everytime I see his face or texting with him, he can make me smile.

We pull our lips each other and smiling shyly at each other. I take Snowy and I just realize that we kissed when the sun goes down. How romantic it was.

"Wanna have dinner in my place?" I break a leg.

"Sure." He smiles at me.

"Alright but I cant cook. I mean I can but only simple food." I giggle.

"My dad own a restaurant, and dont worry I can cook since I usually help him." Austin chuckle.

"Great then." I chuckle.

He just smile at me until he suddenly hold my hand again while his other hand pulls Snowy's rope.

Why cant Sam hold me like this? Why cant Sam kiss me during the sunset in Central Park like that? Why? Because I'm just his secret that he can throw away anytime he want to.

I hold Austin's hand as we walk next to each other until we got into my empty apartment. Nobody's home and I guess Blaine and Sam are having double date now.

"Welcome to Anderson's apartment." I chuckle as we get in. "You can let Snowy's rope out from her necklace." I said to Austin.

"Simple but seems comfort and cool." Austin said as he open the rope.

"Alright, let check out what we have for dinner tonight." I said as I open the refrigerator to check food ingredients.

"Do you have grind meat?" Austin asks me.

"This one?" I take a meat on a sterefoam plate and a wrapper from the freezer.

"I guess you never come to kitchen." Austin shake his head and come to me.

"I came. To take a drink, my potato chips, or make Mac N Cheese. The only food I can cook." I laugh.

"What kind of a girl are you, huh?" Austin chuckle. "Alright, we will make fried meatball with mozarela cheese." Austin says while look into the refrigerator.

"Sounds yummy." I simply said as I eat my potato chips and sit down on the mini bar.

"You help me with chopping the garlic." Austin says to me.

"I dont know how."

"I will teach you, come on. So we can own a new restaurant in Time Square soon." Austin laughs.

"You know what? I ever tried to make a chocolate cake for my ex on valentine day but it turn fail until I made five cakes and you know what made my cake turned into epic fail? The temperature. I baked it more than two hours." I laugh so hard.

"Really, for the first time I found a girl like you." Austin laughs. "Okay now you help me with chopping the garlic."

"I told you I dont know how. I love eating but I dont like cooking."

Austin pulls my hand and make me stand up from the mini bar. He gave me cutting board and some garlics also a knife. "Look at this okay." Austin shows me how to do it.

I nod and press the garlic with knife but my garlic still round and didnt break. "I cant." I sigh.

"Push it hard." Austin says to me until he standing behind me and hold my hand and help me doing that with helping from his hand.

"You're a chef." I said to him.

"Okay now help me to mix this grind meat with flour and garlic and anything else." Austin says as he take a big bowl.

"How could you find that bowl?" I ask him.

"Easy for me. Wear this plastic handgloves and mix this meat while I add the ingredients." Austin throw a plastic handgloves to my face.

I just pouted at him and take that big bowl with grind meat inside. He add chopping garlic to this bowl while I'm mixing this meat.

"When you cook something you have to smile so your food taste yummy." Austin strokes my hair.

"That make no sense." I frown at him.

"B, everything you do with a smile will end up with a good result. So smile, princess." Austin grins at me. "Look at Snowy, she fall asleep after you let her ran around." Austin chuckle.

"She is like a snow ball. Bulp big." I blow my cheek then laughs.

"After this mixed well, make it like a ball but added these little pieces of mozarela cheese." Austin shows me.

"It will be melted when we slice it right? Okay so like this?" I show my meatball to him.

"You want to play a tennis with that meat? Too big." Austin laughs.

"I like the big one because I love eating." I laugh.

Austin laughs so hard then take my hand. "Like this.." He shows me again and smile at me. I just can smile back at him while he hold my hand.

"That movie was gross!" Kurt walks in with Blaine, Rachel, and Sam follow.

"Hey, you!" Rachel smiles at Austin.

I leave Austin's hands as I saw Sam glared and frowned at me. But wait, why should he mad at me?

"Hey, you two!" Austin giggles. "Oh you must be Blaine right? I'm Austin Ford, Bianca's friend from arts club." Austin smiles at Blaine.

"The sender of rainbow roses that day. Nice to meet you, man. He is Kurt Hummel, my fiancé." Blaine smiles back and introduce Kurt to Austin.

"Hi nice to meet you two!" Austin chuckle.

"You both cooking? Blaine asks.

"Yeah you guys already have dinner?" Austin asks.

"We did. But since when that girl can cook?" Blaine points at me.

"I can. Look at this. Tennis ball meatball." I show Blaine my meatball.

"I told you that's too big." Austin rolls his eyes.

"Come on guys, dont disturb two person who has a date." Kurt chuckles.

"We are not having a date. We just accidentally met in Central Park when I brough Snowy to play around." I giggle.

"Yeah I was about to meet a friend but he cancel it until I saw Snowy ran to me." Austin giggle.

"Accidentally dating huh." Blaine chuckles and walk to the balcony with the others follow.

Austin keep busy with cooking. I turn my face to the window and see that Rachel and Sam are standing next to each other and hugging each other when I'm here only can see them.

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Having a dinner with Austin was good. Kurt and Rachel are staying here again. They've been ruining my beloved sofa and living room but not clean it up again.

It's already midnight and I'm still cleaning the living room. Since like everyday they come, I never watch tv anymore or sit down on my sofa. And I guess I should buy a tv for my room.

After cleaning the dirty glasses and clean the sofa. I take my potato chips and go to the balcony. I sit down on the ground with my back against the window.

I rarely sleep nowadays and I love sitting down in the balcony and looking at the night sky. Wondering if I can fly away to Massachusetts and meet Brittany there then she will make me laugh and roll my eyes with her words or fly to Lima and never come back to New York.

"Why you always stay up late nowadays?" Sam suddenly sit down next to me and about to put his hand around my shoulder.

I move my seat little bit further than him and push his hand away from my shoulder.

"B, it's cold here." Sam says to me.

"My heart is coller than this wind." I said without looking at him.

"Oh come on, I'm freezing." He chuckles.

"Then why you come here? You can cuddle with Rachel now. I'm usually alone here cuddle with the cold wind."

"Since you bring that guy to our apartment you become weird." Sam says to me.

"Why? You bring Rachel into our apartment. Into your room and sleeping in your bed without any crawl or anything. She doesnt need to stay all night during thunderstorm. And why I cant bring Austin only to have dinner with me when I'm alone? Is that wrong?" Tears slowly fall down to my face.

"Wrong. Because you're mine." Sam simply said.

I didnt say anything and look straight in front of me. With tears slowly fall down to my face.

"Come on, get in. I wanna cuddle with you." Sam says to me.

I shake my head. "Your girlfriend is here, you better back to your room. I'm fine."

Sam sit down in front of me and hug me. Tears still fall down to my face. "I love you so much. Stop crying because of me. It's hurt me." Sam sobbing.

I pull his hug away and look at his face. I wipe my tears away and smile at him. I shake my head and wipe his tears away. "This is first time I saw you crying in front of me. You better get into your room before Rachel wake up and caught us here or anyone else." I hold his hand.

"Can I stay here with you little longer? We usually share something to talk right? So tell me how is your college." Sam chuckle.

I just chuckle and tell him everything I did past these few days in college. Laughing and crying together.

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