Chapter 52

Bianca's POV

I'm hangin out in Starbucks cafe alone. Drinking my ice latte and drawing something on my sketch book. Maybe I wont go to the class today. I dont have any mood to study right now.

"Nice sketch." Someone shocked me.

I turn my face and Austin is smiling at me. "Hey, thank you anyway." I smile back at him.

"You alone here?"

"Yeah, need a place to refresh my mind so I came here. What about you?"

"Just want a cappuccino and late breakfast bread. Can I sit with you?" He raises his eyebrows.

"Sure. There is one seat left in my table." I nod.

"It's not good for a girl like you alone here." Austin says to me.

"My twin brother went to his college and my another roommate cant stop making out with his girlfriend. So I went here. Sit down alone with my ice latte, my sketch book, and my iPad." I sigh.

"Seems like you got a problem. You can tell me if you want and trust me, I wont spread it to anyone else."

"No, I'm fine. I'm just bored and need some fresh air."

"Do you have any class today?" He raises his eyebrows.

I shake my head. "Nope. Why?" I lied.

"Wanna walk around? You said you need fresh air right? You need to go out there and feel the fresh air. Come on, I'm a good guy. I go to chruch every Sunday, I never get arrested, I never get a problem in school, I even never have sex." Austin chuckles.

"Seriously?" I raise my eyebrows.

"Okay for the last was a lie. I did." Austin laughs.

"Alright. Actually I lied to you, I have a class and it starts in one hour but I dont have any mood to study." I said to him while put my stuff back into my bag.

"I can see that how stressfull you are now." He nods at me.

"How could you know that?" I raise my eyebrows.

"Because I feel the same. My ex cheated behind my back and now she tried to come into my life again but I dont want her anymore and now I'm thinking how can I get out from her zone." He said as we walk together.

"Just get out. You said that you can do anything you love to do and no one can stop you. Just do it and it will work out." I smile at him.

"Wait, the one who said need fresh air was you not me but why you give me an advice? I should be the one who did that." He chuckles.

"I just need someone talk. I dont have many friends like I was in Lima. My friends here mostly is my classmate. My brother got into same university with his boyfriend and I'm here alone in a big city which doesnt feel like home."

"Artie told me about you. At first day you arrived in New York, you cant stop crying right?" Austin giggles.

"Yeah, it was because I broke up with my ex." I chuckle. "It was so embarassing. My brother warned me and told me that he felt like he kidnap me." I chuckle.

"I would think the same if I was there." Austin chuckle.

"Sadly, you werent." I chuckle.

"Your ex was stupid to dumped a cute girl like you." Austin smiles at me.

"He wasnt dump me, he just set me free. My last two relationship before him ended up with cheating. So he afraid to make the same mistake like my exes did so he set me free but three days ago he dated a new girl." I half-smiled at him.

"I'm sorry to heard that." Austin says to me.

"No it's fine." I smile at him.

"You will find a better guy. Trust me." Austin smiles back at me.

"Like you already find a girl." I put my tongue out and laugh.

"You mocked me now? Come here I had a weapon." Austin pulls my hand and start tickling me.

I push his hand away and laughing then run away from him. Until he suddenly catches my hand and hold my hand.

I turn my face at him and he just smile at me. "What?" I chuckle.

"Dont run away. I was kidding by the way. Well, you wanna watch movie?" He grins.

"Sounds cool. Okay." I smile back at him.

"Great. Come on." Austin smile back at me and walk lead me.

"Austin?" I called him.

"Yes, Bianca?" He turn his face at me.

"You make me feel better. Thank you." I smile shyly at him.

"You make myself feel better too. So it's equal." He giggle.

I just giggle at him and walk together with him as we hold our hands each other and make our finger interlock just like a couple.

We keep texting since last night and he seems nice and he can made me feel better also happy. Artie told me that he is a good guy. Beside I can see that from how he treated Artie that day, he was nice.

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"Thanks for walk me home." I smile at Austin.

"It's okay. Alright it's already evening and I have to back to my dorm." He smile back at me.

"See you. Thank you for the hangin out today."

"You dont think that this is a date right?" He smirks at me.

"What do you think?" I smirk back at him.

"Haha you better get in now before your brother ask who am I." Austin chuckles and strokes my hair.

"And you better go from this corridor." I chuckle.

"Okay see you." He leaves my hand and walked away. "Thanks for the nice date." He shouts and smile at me.

I just shake my head and smile back at him then get into my apartment until I see two couples there. Blaine with Kurt and Rachel with Sam.

They are sit down on the sofa in pair and lean each other while watching movie and I'm alone here like an idiot.

"Hey, you already have dinner, B?" Blaine turns his face at me.

"I did with Larissa." I said as I place my shoes in the shoes rack.

"Where have you been? You've never went home this late." Blaine raises his eyebrows.

"Went out with my friends." I said and take a drink.

"Kurt and Rachel will stay for a night." Blaine says to me.

"Oh cool. I'm wondering what Tina and Artie doing right now since there is sparkling between them." I chuckle. "You guys already have dinner?"

No responses.

Alright seems like I'm really alone right now. Even Blaine didnt answer me. I let out a sigh and walk to my room. I close the door and change my clothes into a pajama.

I can hear that clearly they are laughing together while watching the movie and I'm just like a ghost here. No one notice. I really wanna cry but I keep my tears and hold it. I dont wanna cry anymore.

I take my phone and dial some number until a voice come out.

"Hello?"

"Coop, I'm bored. Can I...."

"Just kidding, this is Cooper Anderson's mailbox. Leave the message after beep."

"Nothing to say, just miss you, take care. I love you." I hung up the phone.

I place my phone on my side table and take a pillow. I lay my body on my bed and trying to sleep but I cant. It really hurts me when I have to be alone with myself right now.

2 hours later

I keep rolling around in my bed. Ugh Blaine and Kurt might be have something next room. I can hear into their moan clearly.

I went out from my room and walk to the kitchen then take a glass of drink. I look at the window and it such a beautiful night sky with full of stars.

I open the balcony door and standing outside with a cold wind and sky with the stars as the light. I never see a beautiful sky like this before.

Sam's POV

I feel so thirsty. Rachel already fall asleep and I still cant sleep. I look at the clock and it's almost midnight. I went out from my room until I heard some moan sounds from Blaine's room. Ugh he must be have sex with Kurt right now.

I walk to the kitchen and take a drink until I see the balcony door is open. I walk closer and Bianca is standing there alone and looking at the sky.

Such a beautiful night sky with full of stars and this is such a quiet romantic night. Suddenly a cat jump to her and shocked her until she take that cat and rubs that cat.

"Hey kitty, you dont sleep? Or you run away from your owner? Wanna stay here with me? I'm alone and lonely. No one notice me. Even my brother more busy with his fiancé and his stuff." She is sobbing.

After all this times she feels that she is lonely and alone? I remember that no one notice her when she went home that late. Even Blaine just took it too easy not like he used to be.

I place the glass on the table and walk outside to the balcony. "You dont sleep?" I ask her.

She turn her face at me and wipe her tears quickly. "I cant sleep." She half-smiled at me.

Suddenly that cat run away from her to another place. She keep looking at the sky and didnt say anything. I really wanna hug her right now but I cant. I'm afraid that I will hurt her again.

Bianca's POV

Tears slowly fall down to my face. I have nobody to talk to tell them what I felt right now. Like really I'm alone and lonely.

Suddenly a cat jumps to me. I take that cat and place him in the balcony and rubs his hairy body.

"Hey kitty, you dont sleep? Or you run away from your owner? Wanna stay here with me? I'm alone and lonely. No one notice me. Even my brother more busy with his fiancé and his stuff." I'm sobbing.

Yeah I feel like I lost everything in my life include myself. It really hurts. I really wanna go back to Lima right now.

"You dont sleep?" A familiar husky voice.

I turn my face and wipe my tears quickly. "I cant sleep." I half-smile at Sam.

Suddenly that cat run away from my hand to another place. I'm just still standing here alone and looking at the sky. Really wish I was in Lima right now.

"You okay?" Sam asks me.

"I'm fine." I half smiled at him.

"You must be hearing some sounds from Blaine's room right?" Sam chuckles.

"Yeah it's bothering me." I chuckle. "You dont sleep?" I turn my face at him.

"I cant sleep."

"That's a strange when you have alive teddy to sleep with."

"B, I'm so sorry. I cant say no to Rachel. She just came to me and..."

"Sorry for what? You did nothing wrong. I know what she felt because I felt it too. She will dependent on you later like I was dependent on Ryder because you bright her day. Just do it. I talked to Finn and he felt guilty and accepted his mistake." I half-smiled at Sam.

"It's cold here. You better come in or you will get sick later." Sam says to me.

"I just want to see midnight sky in New York right now. You can sleep if you want." I said without looking at him.

"Dont stay here too long. Good night, B." Sam says to me and walk off.

I didnt say anything and still standing in the balcony. Such a cold wind but cant break me down because people attitude's to me nowadays is coller than this wind.

Bianca:Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorryYou don't know how lovely you are

I had to find youTell you I need youTell you I set you apart

Tell me your secretsAnd ask me your questionsOh, let's go back to the start

Running in circlesComing up tailsHeads on a science apart

Nobody said it was easyIt's such a shame for us to partNobody said it was easyNo one ever said it would be this hard

Oh, take me back to the start

I was just guessingAt numbers and figuresPulling the puzzles apart

Questions of scienceScience and progressDo not speak as loud as my heart

Tell me you love meCome back and haunt meOh, and I rush to the start

Running in circlesChasing our tailsComing back as we are

Nobody said it was easyOh, it's such a shame for us to partNobody said it was easyNo one ever said it would be so hard

I'm going back to the start

Oh

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Sam's POV

"What are we going to do today?" Rachel asks.

"Themepark? Central Park?" Kurt raises his eyebrows.

"Sounds cool. Since this is Saturday and I love it." Rachel says excitedly.

I just drink my coffee and look at Bianca's door is still closing. I shouldnt leave her last night. I should stay with her.

Suddenly the door bells rings. It must be the postman who usually send newspaper to our apartment. Blaine open the door until I see a bouquet of rainbow rose.

"A package for Ms. Bianca Anderson." That postman says to Blaine.

"Yeah this is her apartment." Blaine nods and sign a paper then take that bouquet of rainbow rose.

Who's that roses come from? Ryder?

"Wow it's beautiful. Who's that from?" Kurt asks Blaine.

"Austin Ford?" Blaine raises his eyebrows.

Wait that name sounds familiar for me. Oh No! The sender is the guy that she's been texting with that day. Her crusher? Or something?

"B.. you got a package from someone." Blaine yells.

"Coming!" Bianca yells back and went out from her room. "A bouquet of rainbow roses?" She raises her eyebrows.

"Who is Austin Ford?" Blaine asks her.

"A new friend. He is in arts club and also friends with Artie and....." Bianca got cut off.

"Kurt, look! That's the commercial with stupid idiotic accent." Rachel says excitedly to Kurt.

"Where? Blaine, look this is what I told you yesterday!" Kurt grabs Blaine's hand.

Blaine turns his face to the tv and walk closer to Kurt and ignore Bianca. "Wow thats funny!"

Bianca just half-smiled then take her roses and walk to her room. I can see that she was about to cry but she hide it. My hand reflects want to stop her but I cant stop her.

"Sam, look at this!" Rachel says to me.

I just smile at her and come to them. I really feel bad about what happen to Bianca now. I need to talk to Blaine. I have to.

"Alright lets go to Central Park today." Kurt yells happily.

"Wait, I have to bring Bianca. She has full days of college this week and I guess she needs a vacation." Blaine says and walk to Bianca's room.

"But it will be more fun if we have a double date." Rachel says.

"Yeah it is." Kurt nods as agree.

"I cant leave her alone here or she will be starving." Blaine simply said and enter Bianca's room.

Bianca's POV

"B, change your clothes. We are going to Central Park today." Blaine open my door.

I shake my head. "I dont want to disturb all of you date."

"Oh come on, it's better than you stay here all day. You need to hangin out." Blaine sighs.

"Blaine come on or we will be late!" Kurt yells.

"Come on, you have me with you." Blaine smiles at me.

I sigh and nodded. I already wear a skinny jeans with a black long sleeve net shirt. I take my grey shawl and my mini boots. I put some money, credit card, and my phone into my sling bag.

"Come on, lets go!" Rachel yells as she hold Sam's elbow and walk out.

Blaine and Kurt also do the same. I turn off the tv and close the balcony door then walked out and lock the door. I put the key into my sling bag and they went away and leave me alone.

There is no one wanna take the lift so I turn my way to the stairs and take a walk to get into the ground floor.

"Why you took the stairs?" Blaine asks me.

"Nobody enter the lift with me so I better took the stairs than I trap there alone." I said to Blaine.

They walk in front of me. Rachel with Sam, Blaine with Kurt and I'm alone here. I shouldn't join them and see this because it really makes me hurt.

I'm not alone. I'm with them but I feel like I'm lost in the middle of crowded. In the middle of people who doesnt even notice me I'm exist.

I cant call Austin to come with me because he went to Nashville every weekend and I feel like I'm useless here.

I look around and keep walking until I pass a pet shop. I stop in front of it and looking at those puppies which looks like smiling at me. I turn my face at them and seems like they dont notice I stopped here and look at these puppies and smiling at them.

"You wanna come or just standing there?" A woman smiles at me.

"Can I bring one of them home?" I ask her.

"Sure. Just come in." She chuckle.

I enter that pet shop where are many puppies here. Not only in their mini house but also in the outside. I'm standing until a white puppy girl run to me and lick my shoes. I lift her up and hold it in my arms. I'll bring this cute puppy home.

Sam's POV

I turn my face and I dont see Bianca. Where the hell she is? She is just gone or something?

"Blaine, did you see Bianca?" I ask Blaine.

Blaine turns his face and look around. "Does she just gone? Or turn her way?" Blaine raises his eyebrows.

"Oh come on, she wont be lost in New York City beside you live in Time Square not in Bushwick." Kurt says.

"But she is not around us." I protest.

"Sam, she is not five years old girl. She bring her phone and her money. She can go back to your apartment easily." Rachel says to me.

I didnt say anything and keep look around. I dont want something bad happen to her like trapped in the lift or even shoot gun or anything.

"Kurt, over there!" Rachel points at a place then run away with Kurt.

"Blaine, we need to talk." I said to Blaine as we walk slowly.

"About what, Sam?" Blaine turn his face at me.

"Bianca is lonely now. It's been a week I didnt see her smile and she just cried. She needs you but you seems busy with Kurt and your college. I guess she got homesick now." I said to Blaine.

"What? I didnt see that." Blaine shake his head.

"Since we moved here, how many days you spend here only to walk around with her or even hangin out?" I raise my eyebrows. Blaine didnt answer me and keep quiet. "No days you spend with her. Even on the first day we moved here, you went to Bushwick to met Kurt. You didnt know she cried until fell asleep right?"

"Sam, what the hell I've done." Blaine sighs.

"That day when she asked you about blanket, it was me who did that. I saw her fell asleep in living room and cried in her sleeping so I wiped her tears away and gave her a blanket until I saw her phone that she got a lot of message and missed calls from Ryder. Then last night, I saw her standing in the balcony and cried. She talked to a wild cat and said that she is alone and lonely. This morning, when you asked her about who the hell Austin Ford is, she tried to explain but you got distracted from Kurt and Rachel until I saw her tried to hide her tears then went to her room. Blaine, she needs you right now. She needs her big brother around her." I hold Blaine's shoulder.

"What kind of brother I am huh? Sam, what's wrong with me? Oh God." Blaine groans and cover his face with his hand.

"And now she is not gone. She must be turn her way to somewhere because she feel she is invisible around us." I said to Blaine.

"I promise to myself that I wont make her cry but I broke the promise that I made." Blaine sighs. "Then why you know about that but you didnt comfort her?"

"I'm a jerk. She saw Rachel kissed me right after she went home. Then when I was trying to make her smile yesterday, Rachel came to me and suddenly kissed me which made me really hurts. I really wanna hug her. I really want to but I cant. I hurt her many times and I dont want to hurt her anymore." I said to Blaine.

"I promise after this, I will listen to all her problems and hug her." Blaine says to me.

"Dont make a promise, Blaine. Just prove it. I want to see her smile again and I guess you too." I half-smiled at Blaine and walk off.

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Bianca's POV

At least I have a puppy now so I wont be alone anymore. A white puppy girl named Snowy because her hair is really white like a snow. I'm glad that the woman let me adopt Snowy and I will make her as my friend.

I take a blue ribbon from my drawer and place it on Snowy's neck as her necklace. Then I take my hair clip and place it on her head. She just look like a beautiful puppy now.

"Hey Snowy, I'm Bianca and we are friends now. So dont leave me alone okay." I smile to that puppy until I remember something. I open my drawer and take mini christmas hat that Sam gave with the hamster. "In memoriam of Mr. Andervans so you have to wear it." I said to the puppy.

I look around my room until I see the rainbow roses Austin gave me. I take it and bring it outside my room and place Snowy on the ground.

He is sweet. He just said thanks to me about we did yesterday by giving me a flower. And this is rainbow roses which so hard to find. Now I realized that only this flower and my new puppy that can make me feel better.

"B, you home?" Blaine open the door.

"Yeah." I simply nodded and washes the flower in the sink.

"Where the hell you gone?" Blaine asks me. Suddenly Snowy start barking and run to my feet. "What is that?"

"A puppy?" Sam asks me.

I turn my face at them and place my roses on the table. "I'm sorry, you guys walked too fast and I stopped in front of a petshop until I saw those puppy smiled at me so I smiled back at them and....."

"You both left us!" Rachel and Kurt walks in and cut me off.

"And then?" Blaine raises his eyebrows.

"Then the owner came out and asked me to came in until Snowy ran to me and licked my feet. The owner said she likes me and it was hard to find a right person to adopt her since she is the shy one.." I got cut off again.

"Blaine, do you have any new dvd?" Rachel asks.

"Ugh shut up! I'm listening to Bianca's story about this puppy. Then?" Blaine asks me.

"Then she let me adopt Snowy and it was free. I just need to buy for her food and her stuff." I smile at Blaine.

This is kinda strange when Blaine got distraction but he still wanna listen to me.

"So her name is Snowy? Hi I'm Sam." Sam says as he lift Snowy up. "Hey, she is wearing Mr. Andervans's christmas hat. If I bring McConaughey here, he must be falling in love with you."

I just chuckle and take a vase from the table and change the flower with my roses. "I asked the owner about hamster but they only have puppies and kittens." I chuckle.

"No more hamster because it's really like a brown mouse. I remember when you forget to lock your hamster cage and he ran away to my room and scared me." Blaine sighs and sit down on a chair in the mini bar right in front of me.

"But you like her, right?" I ask Blaine.

"I like her. She is beautiful." Sam chuckles as Snowy lick his face.

"I dont mind as long as you're happy." Blaine smiles at me.

"Thanks Blaine." I smile back at Blaine. "She likes you, Sam." I chuckle.

"Sam, stop playing with that puppy. I'm sorry but I like kitten better." Rachel says.

I didnt say anything and turn my face to my flower. "So who is Austin Ford?" Blaine raises his eyebrows at me.

"Just a friend. That day, Artie and I were having a lunch in cafetaria until he came to us. Artie knows him and he knows Artie because they are in the same AV club. Until Artie left us to his class then we talked and he walked me to the class and yesterday I lied to you. I went out with him not with Larissa." I said to Blaine. "Oh he is a freshman and majoring Arts. He was from Nashville, his father own a restaurant in Nashville. He is funny and cute." I chuckle.

"So did you both kiss or something?" Blaine raises his eyebrows.

"We just know about this week, Blaine. Beside I'm not ready for a new relationship yet." I half-smiled as I turn my face at Sam who is busy playing with my puppy.

"Hey you both need to stay in Bushwick tonight." Kurt says to Blaine.

"We cant, Kurt. We cant leave Bianca alone here." Blaine shake his head.

"Yeah beside no one taking care of this puppy." Sam says.

"You guys can. I'm fine here." I said to Blaine.

"Come on, Blaine, Sam. Beside Mercedes will come to promote her new album and stay with us." Rachel says.

I place my vase on the table and didnt say anything. I take Snowy's food and place it on her bowl. Then give it to her.

"We cant leave Bianca alone here. I already promise to my parents not to leave her alone. I'm sorry, guys." Blaine says.

I didnt say anything and dont have any guts to face them and keep focusing to give Snowy food.

"For how long you didnt have eat, Snowy?" Sam chuckles.

"Sam ugh come on." Rachel says to Sam.

"Sam..." I called Sam and pointed at Rachel with my head.

"Please, Rach. This puppy really remind me with my dog." Sam says.

I keep focusing feeding Snowy until suddenly Sam touch my hand. And make our fingers interlock for a while but I push it away. Sam turns his face at me and smiling at me. I just give him a half-smiled. When we were dating, Sam never called me with my name. He always have his own nickname for me but now why he called Rachel with her own name? Not a nickname like he usually did?

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