nine

Jimin's Point of View

It's been a few months since the incident with Seokjin and none of us have seen him since. Namjoon keeps telling us not to worry but that's all I've been able to do. You'd think I'd be over him by now after what happened at the pool. My heart is still attached to him and I can't help but be convinced that it has to mean something. I mean, it has to mean something...right?

It was now October and autumn was in the air. It was a beautiful Saturday afternoon on my day off from work (besides Sunday) with the sun turning the colored leaves brighter than before. I sat in my bed, listening to some calming piano music while writing some songs in my bedroom as I usually did in my spare time. 

My phone buzzed on the table next to my hand and I picked it up expecting it to be a notification from Instagram or something that I would ignore. To my surprise, however, I had received a text message from Seokjin.

My heart raced and a million questions flooded into my mind. Why was he texting me now? What could he possibly need? Is he going to ask me to pick him up from a party? Have him and Namjoon been planning something? Is he going to ask me to come over and have some "fun"?

I took a deep breath as I unlocked my phone and opened the message app. I clicked on the message and read it: Hey, Jiminie! Are you busy? I'd like us to meet at that little coffee shop we used to go to with the others at six o'clock. I'll be waiting for you there. Hope to see you soon!

My eyes shifted to the top right corner of the screen where the time was. It was 4:09 pm. I had about an hour and a half until it would be time to meet him. 

Thankful for the time, I set my phone down and thought about what just happened. After I confessed to Seokjin that night at the pool, none of us have seen him for the rest of the summer. Now, out of the blue, he messages me asking to meet him at the coffee shop. I was unsure of what to do. What did he want from me? What does he want to talk about? Did he get into trouble at a party and need my help? Does he want to try to take me home with him and into his bedroom? Does he just want to talk and clear things up?

My head began to hurt from all the possibilities swirling inside my head. I made my way out to the kitchen to grab some ibuprofen. As I did so, I decided I would call Namjoon. He has been the only one who's been completely calm about the situation and he's the one I go to in times like these. 

I took a couple ibuprofen and then walked back to my room, dialing Namjoon and calling. I could hear his voice on the other side, saying, "Hello?"

"Hey, um, I've got a problem that I don't know how to handle," I started, sitting in my desk chair.

"What is it?" Namjoon asked. By the tone in his voice, I could tell he was ready to help me with whatever I was struggling with.

"Well, you know how Seokjin hasn't been around for the past few months..."

"Yeah..."

"Well, he texted me today, out of the blue, asking if he and I could meet at the coffee shop tonight at six. I really don't know what to do. I don't know what to believe about him anymore," I told Namjoon, finishing with a sigh.

"Well, if I were you, I'd go see him," Namjoon answered honestly.

"How can you be so sure if it's a good idea? You know he tried to hit on me at the pool when I confessed," I said, trying to convince him to tell me not to go.

"Jimin, I know how difficult it's been for you since Seokjin graduated. I know you're scared of continually getting hurt by him. I know you don't want to get stuck in a situation you can't get out of. You still have a crush on him, don't you?"

"Yeah, I do."

"Then you should go meet him. Give him one last chance. You never know, he might have changed over these past few months."

Namjoon was right. Seokjin seemed like he really wanted to talk to me. I should give him one more chance to redeem himself.

"You're right. Thank you so much, Namjoon."

"No problem, Chim Chim. I love you, brother."

"I love you too, hyung," I said before I ended the call. 

It was final. I was going to go meet Seokjin at the coffee shop at six o'clock pm tonight. I just hope that I don't go home tonight in tears.