𝐱𝐯𝐢𝐢

warnings ;

i. sexual content

𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐤 𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐫

it's been a week since you and yuta saw each other after years. a week full of feelings, confusion, avoiding, frustration and exhaustion.

you didn't know what to do. you were avoiding satoru, but it hurt you. whenever you were looking at him, you felt a tightness in your chest.

you were also full of sexual frustration. no matter whatever you tried yourself, it just wasn't enough. but once you thought of satoru, you were able to satisfy your needs.

he was taking over your senses and you hated it. you wanted him out of your head. and you were willing to do anything in order to achieve that.

satoru, on the other hand, was slowly ruining himself. from the day he fucked up, he hadn't closed his eyes for more than a second. eye bags had formed, but with his glasses on no one could tell.

he was hardly back at his house. only went there to shower and change his clothes. once he was done, he was returning to the company to work all night long.

it was currently 1:30am, when you closed your office's door behind you. you walked to satoru's, and without knocking you entered. you were surprised to see him there. he raised his head, his eyes meeting your form.

"it's 1:30am"

"i still have work"

"and i guess i have more" he added, pointing at the folder in your hands.

"they're projects you have to check" you said, walking to his desk.

you left the folder on his desk, ignoring his eyes that were on you and avoiding his gaze.

"i want to talk to you" he hesitantly said.

he didn't know if it was the right time. he didn't think he gave you enough space and time.

"i need to be somewhere"

"at nearly 2am?" he asked, raising an eyebrow.

"yes" you quickly said.

you were standing next to the door, before you opened it. you turned your head to the side, eyes falling on him;

"goodnight... gojo"

his heart sunk at the sound of his last name falling from your lips.

"wait, y/n-"

but, it was too late. you were already out of his office, not giving him another second to talk. you quickly made your way to the elevator, feeling your eyes grow teary.

you walked out of the company and got in the passenger seat of the black honda civic that was waiting for you outside.

"hey"

"hi" you smiled, looking at the man next to you.

"so, is it normal for you to work til this hour?"

"sometimes i work til 4am. depends on how much stuff i have to look through" you said with a shrug of your shoulders.

"that's... rough" yuta commented.

"tell me about it" you laughed.

being in his car and looking at him as you talked, felt wrong.

going back to your house with him, felt wrong.

letting him touch you and remove your clothes, felt wrong.

nothing of what you were doing felt right. it didn't feel right to try and fill a void with someone other than satoru.

your eyes were closed shut, as your back arched off the mattress. he hit spots in you that made you feel good. but it wasn't enough.

his face was buried in your neck, leaving kisses that made goosebumps appear on your skin. they didn't feel right.

your nails slightly scratched his back, while you tried to keep quiet. the last thing you wanted was your neighbors complaints, again.

your head was filled with satoru, and you hated how you felt more pleasure when thinking about him and the things he used to do to you, than having sex with yuta.

without thinking, you opened your mouth and softly moaned the name of the white-haired man. yuta stopped and raised his head, looking at you; your eyes were wide and your lips slightly parted.

"fuck! yuta, i'm sorry"

"it's okay, y/n"

"it's no-"

"you're tired" he interrupted you, as he smiled down at you.

"that's not an-"

you stopped cause the look in his eyes told you not to continue. you looked away, as he pulled out of you and laid by your side.

you couldn't look at him. you felt disgusted with yourself. you knew that it was a bad idea to have an one-night with him, but instead, you chose to do it.

once he fell asleep, you allowed sadness to take over you. you bit down on your lip, trying to be quiet and not wake him up. your body shook, as you cried and hiccuped.

sleep didn't visit you that night. it was really early in the morning when you finally closed your eyes and relaxed. but even that, was only for two hours.

at 9am you woke up and turned to your side, eyes falling on the black-haired man. the man you called satoru some hours ago.

you got up from the bed and grabbed some clothes, before walking to the bathroom. you splashed some water on your face, noticing the way your eyes were puffy and bloodshot.

you brushed your teeth, before you left the bathroom, coming face to face with yuta. he smiled at you, but you couldn't give it back. he patted your shoulder, before he started making his way to the exit door.

and without a single word exchanged, he left. you stood there watching the door, a part of you wanting to go after him and apologize but the other growing tired of chasing after people.

you sighed and walked to your kitchen, slightly jumping in surprise.

"what in the world are you doing here?"

"i came to surprise you, but instead, you surprised me" maki said.

"you came to what?"

"i bought you your favorite cookies" she said, pointing at the box on your counter.

"but, y/n, seriously? yuta? the one you love as a brother"

"can we not talk about this?"

"why not? fill me in, because i just found out and i'm still shocked from what i saw"

"give me your key"

"why?"

"that's my house. and i don't want you coming in here whenever you want" you said, extending your hand.

"you're gonna tell me what the fuck is going on with you, before all else"

"i don't have all day. give me the key" you said, eyes boring into hers.

"it's one call and you have a week off, if you want"

"i don't talk to gojo"

"yeah, i forgot. you prefer his relatives" she said, making you roll your eyes.

"what do you want to know exactly? how i fucked yuta? or how i moaned satoru's name? what exactly do you want me to tell you?" you asked, anger filling your voice.

"what...?"

"are you happy now that you learned that?"

"can you calm down?"

"no, i can't! because i have to deal with all this shit and with you, who just comes in here whenever you like!"

maki got up from her seat and approached you, her hand meeting your cheek. you brought a hand to your face, your fingers touching the area. she slapped you with enough force to leave you shaken up.

"why did you do that...?" you asked, your voice shaky.

"look, i'm sorry, but you really have to get a grip on yourself"

"you're losing your mind and acting foolishly over something because you don't want to face it"

"you're not a kid anymore, y/n! you're gonna be thirty in some years. you can't avoid situations, or even worse, your emotions! you're hurting yourself, and everyone around you" she continued.

you stood there, staring at the floor while you let your brain absorb everything she was telling you.

"take the day off. i'm gonna tell him that you don't feel okay"

"i can't. i have things to take care of"

"what you have to take care of is yourself. stay alone and try to understand your feelings"

you nodded your head, eyes still locked on the floor.

"i don't care who you're gonna have in your bed every night. i only care about you. and i want you to think carefully and don't act foolishly"

she took your hand in hers and left the second key in your palm. you looked at it, eyes slightly widening.

"i don't want to cause you any trouble, and i'm sorry that i did in the first place"

"you didn't" you said, voice just above a whisper.

"i really hope you will find your way out of this labyrinth of your mind"

she took her things and started walking away, and only then did you raise your head.

"i'm sorry"

"you don't have to apologize. i'm not mad at you" she said, turning to the side to look at you.

"please, consider doing what i told you. it's for your own good"

you heard the door behind her close, leaving you alone in your apartment. you took a seat and opened the box of cookies, eating some while crying.

meanwhile maki was driving to the company, thinking of everything that happened in the past minutes. she wanted to call yuta and apologize, but she decided to let you be the one doing that.

she walked in the company, leaving her stuff in her office, before walking towards satoru's. she knocked on the door, before he allowed her to go in.

"good morning, maki"

"morning"

"what's wrong?"

"someone's losing their beloved, and that someone is you"

"and what do you mean by that?"

"before i start, she took the day off" maki said, in which satoru nodded.

"last night, she fucked yuta"

"what?"

"man, can you remove your sunglasses? i want to see your reactions without an obstacle"

"jeez..." he said, before removing them.

"don't tell me you haven't been sleeping for a week..."

"okay, i won't tell you"

"i'm literally gonna bang your heads together" she sighed, as she rubbed her temples.

"so, she fucked yuta, huh?"

"yep"

"wow... is he that much better than me?"

"nah, i don't think so. considering the fact that she moaned your name"

satoru's eyes widened, before he laughed. maki looked at him, surprised to hear that it was genuine.

"i'm sorry" he said, coughing.

"that would've been so uncomfortable for her" he added, going serious.

"not a word about yuta..."

"i'm not in love with him! why should i care?" he said, in which she chuckled.

"i slapped her" she said, after some seconds of staying silent.

"why?"

she looked at him, noticing the different emotions in his eyes. he was way more serious than before, nearly scaring her.

"she's acting foolishly, and i'm sure she knows that she's not only hurting herself, but everyone else, too"

"so, you decided to use violence against her?"

"i don't know why i did that! i just wanted to snap her out of it!"

"by slapping her?"

"jeez, i'm sorry!" she said, her voice getting louder, too.

"give me that second key"

"i don't have it anymore. she asked me to give it to her, so i won't go whenever i want"

"and probably see whoever she has on her bed, every night" she added.

"that's it. i'm gonna visit her" he said, getting up.

"don't! i told her to stay alone and spend time to understand her feelings and her actions"

"how much time do i have to give her?"

"cause i fear that if i give her more, i'm gonna lose her completely" he continued.

"some days? a week? i don't know! i really don't"

"do you want to take the day off, too?"

"i can't. i have to look through y/n's. to help her more"

"i'll do it, don't worry about it. go back home"

"really?"

"yeah. you're pretty stressed. all this, along with the preparations for your wedding, are too much"

"thank you"

"i'm gonna bring you the docu-"

"there's no need to. i'm gonna go to her office, since she's not gonna come"

"okay"

"i'll see you tomorrow" she said, as she walked towards the door.

"yeah. see you"

she exited his office, leaving him alone with his thoughts. he didn't know what to do. you were growing way more distant and satoru didn't wanna lose you.

he ran a hand through his hair, before he left his office. only when he was outside he realized that he didn't see things darker, but instead normal. he cursed under his breath, as he searched his pockets for his sunglasses.

"mr. gojo, what happened to you?"

his eyes fell on his secretary, miwa, who looked at him with worry.

"nothing" he smiled.

"your eyes..."

"i just didn't sleep last night, that's all"

she slowly nodded her head, not knowing if she had to believe him or not. he noticed the folder in her arms, pointing at him.

"is that for me?"

"it's something ms. l/n wanted to check some new documents, but she's not here today"

"give that to me, i'll take care of that stuff"

she gave the folder to her boss, watching him as he put on his sunglasses. he patted her shoulder, making a blush spread on her cheeks, before he walked past her.

he closed your office door behind him, as he made his way to your desk. he sat on your chair and immediately adjusted the height, since he was much taller than you.

while he waited for the computer to turn on, he looked through your agenda; reading what you had to finish for the day. he went to log in your computer, when he noticed something else you've written;

"sign a contract with another company"

his eyes were wide, as he grabbed his phone and called maki. it was picked up after three rings, and by then, satoru was already panicking.

"let me guess, you want her password to log in"

"fuck the password! she wants to leave the company"

"what?!"

"i was looking through her agenda for what she had to do today and she has written a note that says; sign a contract with another company"

satoru was shaking and he couldn't calm himself down. he couldn't believe that you would go this far, in order to avoid him.

"what the fuck?! she didn't tell me anything!"

"did she tell you she was gonna fuck yuta?!"

"no?!"

"then, i'm not even surprised she didn't tell you this!"

"okay okay. first of all, calm down"

"second, i don't think she's gonna leave. if now she's actually spending time to think things through, then she ain't gonna avoid that"

"i hope you're right, cause i won't be able to run this whole company without her"

"oh god, no. that would be a disaster" she said, making him chuckle.

"i'm gonna go back to work, because i see the list for today is a long one"

"okay. i'm gonna keep you updated if i find out anything else"

"thank you"

he hung up and left his phone to the side, before holding his head in his hands. he could hear his fast heartbeat and he could still feel his hands shaking.

"what have you done to me, y/n...?"