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Abel:

After leaving the venue we went back to the hotel and changed. The club entrance was crowded with fans trying to take a picture of whoever entered the door.

Maya stood quiet the whole way here and not mentioning the awkward exchange between her and Drake. I felt it was kind of my fault for not making it clear that we were together, I didn't even know what to call the type of relationship we had. I kept my life private and nobody knew that I had a daughter but my crew and close family I trusted.

Walking through the club to meet Drake in the private V.I.P area was insane. The club was full of good looking females waiting for anyone of us to take them back to the hotel with us. We walked up stairs where the private are awaited is, it was like a second floor looking down at the clubs dance floor.

"Yo Abel you made it"

Drake give me the hand as well as the whole crew. I pulled Maya close to me knowing she would feel nervous with all these niggas around.

"Of course, this shit is already poppin' "

"It's London, they know how to get shit started. I see you brought your friend"

I noticed he was drawn to Simaya and I didn't like it. She wasn't a groupie we could pass around like we usually do. I loved this girl.

"Yeah, I wanted to show my girl a good time"

I could see Maya glance at me with a smile. Drake on the other hand had kind of a surprised expression. I never introduced any female as my 'girl' to him.

"It's London I hope this guy is showing you a good time"

"I barely got here this morning but so far so good."

Maya kept her answer short not trying to make any conversation.

"We will be here another day so you have time, well I'll leave you two to enjoy the night. I gotta do this hosting shit, drinks are coming. Simaya it was nice meeting you"

I held Maya's hand guiding her towards the back where we could have a drink.

"I know that shit was awkward for you baby"

I looked at Maya confused, she must have noticed how it was new to me to introduce her as my girl.

"I just didn't want him to assume you were for the taking"

"So I'm your girl just for the night?"

I hated public display of affection but her eyes looking up at me just pulled me closer to her. I placed my hands on her hips and leaned in placing kisses on her neck.

"You're my girl every night... If I could I would fuck you right here"

Whispering in her ear I nibbled on her earlobe sending her chills.

"Always teasing me..."

"You guys are like rabbits, always fucking"

Hyghly laughed.

I pulled away from her neck to see Hawk with bottles Hennessy and champagne.

Simaya:

Abel grabbed a glass and started pouring me some Hennessey. Taking it straight I could feel the slight burn go down my throat. Placing the glass back down on the tray he poured me another.

"Stop trying to get me drunk"

Abel pulled me close to him kissing my Hennessy flavored lips.

"I just want you to have fun, so later we can have fun together"

He winked and kissed my lips again.

"Why wait until later?"

I gave him a slight smile.

Looking down at me he had a slight smirk. Without saying anything he was leading me through the the swarm of people in V.I.P.

"Where are you taking me?"

I chuckled.

"I'm going to give you this dick, I can't wait until later"

We were walking down a hall when he found the restroom. As soon as he locked the door he turned around and started kissing me hard. I could tastes the sweetness of the Henny and cigarette from his lips. Roaming my body with his hands he pushed me against the sink I could feel the bulge in his pants get bigger.

Finally pulling me up on the sink, sliding his hand up my thigh and in-between my legs he felt my wetness.

"Damn you're ready baby"

Pulled my dress up, sliding my panties to the side he slid two fingers inside of me. I inched myself closer and felt him enter me. I wrapped my arms around his neck holding my weight he gripped my waist from under my dress he started stroking in and out.

"Fuck baby, you feel so good"

He said in a light whisper.

He began thrusting himself deeper and deeper into me causing my legs to tighten around his waist.

"Ohh.. Baby you feel so good. Give it to me harder"

I couldn't get enough of him, he was the best I've ever had and knew exactly what to do.

"Fuck girl, I'm about to give you another baby"

With my back against the wall now I knew he was ready to release, I couldn't hold it in anymore and we both came at the same time. Breathing hard he rested his face on my shoulder before pulling me up and letting me down.

Adjusting my panties and pulling my dress down he pulled his boxers and pants up. We cleaned up as best we could. I checked my makeup and hair and went back party.

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"Yo Cash there's Abel"

Lamar called out.

"We heard the moans nigga"

Hawk teased.

I could feel myself blushing at the fact it was obvious what we did.

"You didn't hear shit, give me a drink" Abel laughed.

Hawk handed him a glass full of Hennessy and finallly handing me a white russian. It was my favorite cocktail and Abel must have ordered it. Sitting next to Abel he pulled out a bottle of pills and kush.

"Let me roll that for you baby"

I insisted on rolling the blunt because I was quite a pro at it and hated when someone didn't do it right. When I was in high school I use to be a pot head and weed would help me get through days that I felt lonely. As I got older I slowed down and smoked every once in a while.

I opened the medical bottle of OG kush and the strong smell hit my nose, this shit was strong. Breaking it down I started to to lick and roll the blunt wrap just perfect. Abel and his boys just watched me thinking I was going to fuck up. By the time I was done I rolled five blunts and they were ready to smoke.

"Damn Simaya, you rolled this shit perfect. I didn't even know you smoked" Hawk had a blunt in hand examining it.

"I smoke sometimes but I use to be a pot head in high school. It was a medicine for me and helped me get through some bad shit"

I could feel the sad memories of growing up alone and missing my parents hit me at that instance. I grabbed a blunt, lit it up and took a deep pull from it. By this time everyone was either smoking a cigarette or a blunt.

"What kind of bad shit got a girl like you smoking everyday?" Hawk asked bluntly.

I didn't mind being asked what bothered me, I usually kept that stuff to myself because it made me sad. My parents were buried in NYC and ever since I left I never went to visit their grave site. It was too heart breaking.

I looked down and remembered when I first started living with my grandparents. They were sick and always stood home. The only close friend I had was Amina, we were seven years old and all the girls at school hated me for no reason. I was an American girl so it made me different. Being bullied pulled my self-esteem down and got worse as I got older. I finally made it out of that hell hole and graduated.

Not only was I bullied when I moved to Toronto, I had bigger demons following me from New York City. I never told anyone that I was molested while being in foster care for eight months. I felt the pain shoot through my chest just as the memories started to flood my brain.

"Before moving to Toronto my parents were killed, my grandparents were always sick so they barely had time for me. So smoking helped with being lonely"

I could feel all these eyes on me as I answered Hawk's question.

"Damn, Sorry. I didn't mean to get in your business"

Hawk replied.

"No it's fine, I just don't talk about it much"

I puffed on my blunt and could feel the high start to numb me. I felt Abel pull me close and kiss behind my ear.

"I use to do the same, the high numbs those feelings and makes you forget about all the sad shit" he whispered loud enough in my ear to hear him.

"What did you have to be so numb about?"

I asked as I laid my head on his shoulder.

"My dad left, my mom was gone all the time working. My grandma was around but I too was lonely and sad"

"I guess we have a lot in common"

Later that night we went back to the hotel I felt even more close to Abel. He was drunk off his ass asleep while I laid my head on his chest wide awake. I could hear his heart beating eventually helping me to fall asleep