Wanderlust

Abel:

I woke up with Maya in my arms, I missed this. We had a good time last night and it was time to get up and get ready for another show. I kissed her shoulders making my way up to her neck slowly waking her.

"Mmmm...Baby let me sleep for five more minutes... Please"

I knew we only got a few hours of sleep but I had to get ready for tonight's show. I texted my mom to see how Isabella was and to let her know where to bring her so we can have breakfast.

"I know you're tired baby, but I want us to have breakfast before I get ready for tonight's show"

Maya went hard last night, I never seen her smoke so much before and I knew it had to do with her talking about her painful memories. I knew she had things fucked up with her life and knew there was more she didn't want to say.

"Alright babe, is your mama coming with Bella? I miss her"

She pecked my cheek and sat up.

"I called her and she's waiting for us to get breakfast. After, you ladies can explore London"

While searching for her clothes in just a tank top and boy shorts I had a good view of her ass. Not noticing I was admiring her asset she kept looking for today's outfit.

"You heard me baby?"

She quickly turned around to face me to see I wasn't listening.

"Huh? Sorry I was just mesmerized"

"Mesmerized? " she looked confused.

"Yeah, that ass of yours distracted me. You better put some pants on while you're talking to me"

I could see her smile and shake her head as I walked toward her. Placing my hands on her hips I brought her close to and started kissing along her jawline.

"Oww.. That's my spot...Baby stop! we gotta get ready. Your mama is going to be waiting"

I had to stop in my tracks knowing she was right.

By the time my mama came with Bella we were ready to go. It was cold out so we decided on eating at the hotels restaurant. The restaurant put us in a private area away from the windows so paparazzi and fans couldn't see us. I sat at the table just looking at my boys and what now was my family surrounding me. My daughter in a high chair playing with her sippy cup and my boys having a conversation with my girl and mother. I never knew this was the life I would have.

Simaya:

After breakfast we went back upstairs to our suite to relax before Abel goes to the venue he will be performing at. I laid Bella down for her nap before we explored the city. I laid beside her knowing she had to feel me near in order to take her nap. Abel was on his phone when mine started to vibrate from the nightstand. I slowly got up to reach for it when I saw it was Estelle. I could feel my heart wanting to jump out of my chest. I saw my grandmother before I left and she was the same, she didn't remember me.

"Hello?"

"Maya... Honey I know you're away but your grandma had an accident"

"What do you mean? Is she okay?"

"It happened before dawn, she left the apartment dazed and confused searching for you. And- she was struck by a car. I'm sorry- we are at the hospital and I called you as soon as I could"

I could her her sniffle as she tried to maintain calm.

Tears started falling from my face when Abel looked up from his phone to see me.

"Estelle... Please tell me she will be fine. Please just tell me!"

Abel came close to me. He knew I was upset.

"She's on life support Maya... They don't know if she will be okay"

I felt a stabbing pain in my heart. This couldn't be happening, I'm finally happy this couldn't be.

"Okay Estelle I'll be there as soon as possible"

I hung up and started balling my eyes out into Abel's chest. He held me tight and close to him. He has never seen me like this.

"Baby what's wrong? Talk to me"

Finally getting the words out I told him.

"My nana got hit by a car..she's on life support. I gotta go be with her baby"

"Let me call Cash so he can get us a flight as soon as possible"

When I heard him say 'us' I felt my heart at ease for a bit, he was willing to leave to be with me.

"No baby, you gotta finish the tour. You can't just go"

"That's not important, If it was me I know you would do the same. Let me just get everything situated"

"Baby you can't. Your fans are depending on seeing you, don't let them down. I'll be okay"

"My fans will understand but I don't want you to go alone. I'll only let you go if my mama goes with you, to make sure Bella is taken care of"

"I feel so bad, she really wanted to stay and spend time with you. I would feel better if she stayed here with Bella, so you can spend time with both of them"

He looked deep in my ready eyes and kissed my forehead.

"I'm taking you to the airport though, no matter what you say. I always got you girl"

Abel arranged for me to leave within two hours in a private jet. Before leaving the hotel I kissed my daughter goodbye, I never was this far apart from her. Only thing that gave me comfort was the fact she had Abel and her grandmother who adored and treated her as her own.

At the airport Abel had his hoodie over his hair, which fans noticed most about him. My flight was ready and when he hugged me, I melted into him not wanting to let go.

"I love you Maya, call me as soon as you get to Toronto"

"I love you too Abel"

I kissed him goodbye and boarded the jet.

Abel:

I couldn't concentrate on tonight's show, all I thought about was Maya. I never seen her hurting and crying like that. I went and performed and as soon as I got off stage I took some Addie's and washed it down with some lean. At that point I saw Maya texted me saying she made it and was at the hospital with her grandmother. I told her to keep me updated and that I would see her in a week.

"Yo Abel, are you ready bro?"

Cash asked.

"Yeah"

I had to host a club tonight with Drake. While in the car I made sure to check in with my mama to see how Bella was doing and to let her know that I would see her tomorrow evening for dinner.

My high was at it's peak as we walked in the club. The haze and flashing lights seemed slow motion as walked to the area where we would be hosting from. When the crew and I walked up Drake was already there with his ovo crew.

"Your ready to get this shit poppin?"

"Always nigga"

I gave Drake the hand as he started getting the people in the club hyped. We did a few songs and when we were done we enjoyed the rest of the night to ourselves. Our area was full of bad bitches and I could see my boys talking to a few.

I sat there smoking my blunt and drinking my whisky enjoying my high. There was two girls on each side of me that would'nt shut the fuck up. Who invited them to sit next to me?

"I'm such a big fan since Trilogy..."

I just nodded my head as I tuned her out. The other girl who I'm guessing was her friend was a bit more physical, she kept rubbing her hand on my thigh while whispering the shit she would do to me. These hoes had nothing on my girl, it was just one of those nights.

Simaya:

Getting to the hospital I wasn't prepared to see my nana in the condition she was in. I sat next to her holding her hand which was connected to IV's and a breathing machine. Tears fell from my face just reminiscing about the times we spent together. When I first got there the doctor told me that they had to take her off life support because it was documented if anything would happen to her she didn't want to be resuscitated.

I wasn't ready to let go and didn't agree with her wishes, I was being selfish and wanted her here. I kept arguing and suggested other forms of care but had three different doctors tell me she was gone and that the machine was the only thing keeping her alive.

I held her bruised hand and told her that I loved her and that I was sorry for not taking better care of her. My heart hurt and I felt guilty that I wasn't around to prevent this, it was my fault. When the doctor came in I said my goodbye and kissed her bandage forehead before walking out of the room. She was taken off life support and passed away at 6 a.m.

Knowing Abel would be asleep I texted him that she passed and that I was on my way to his loft to rest. Getting out of the shower I could see my eyes were puffy from crying and my cheeks were flushed.

Laying down I could smell Abel's cologne from the sheets, I missed him and needed him. I needed anything to just numb this pain.

Getting  up, I went  looking for Abel's stash. He had to have something, I went to his closet looking through his drawers seeing boxes of condoms, lying as always says he doesn't have any, and finally saw the medicine bottles with no labels. He had no weed but had some adderals.

Looking at the bottle I was hesitant on trying it, I always just smoked weed.

Opening the bottle I placed the 5mg pill in my hand and swallowed it dry. Twenty minutes past and it felt like I was floating. Now I knew why Abel took these, it numbed the pain.