Lonely Star

Simaya:

It was near 4 in the morning when I woke up hearing someone stumbling outside my bedroom, It had to be Abel. I got out of bed and opened the door to see him sitting at the top of my stairs.

"Baby what are you doing?"

I helped pick him up when the aroma of his cologne and liqour hit my nose. I never seen him this messed up, it scared me. With his arm around my shoulders I got him to my room and laid him on my bed.

"Baby, what did you take?"

"I promised you I'll be back"

"I'm happy you did...but what did you take? you're burning up and sweating like crazy"

"I'm good girl, I'll sleep it off"

"You took a molly right?"

"Maybe..."

"Abel stop fucking playing, you're burning up. So tell me now and get your ass in the shower"

I helped undress him and took him to the restroom. I ran the cool water and helped him in the tub.

The water fell down his face as I stood there making sure he didn't fall over.

"I'll be fine baby, I just got too faded"

"Abel I know you hate when I tell you this, but you gotta chill on taking that stuff"

He stood there quiet while the water hit his body.

"I'm trying Maya, I've been doing this shit for too long to just quit"

"I know... It just scares me. It could kill you"

"Don't worry about that, I'm not going anywhere"

Abel:

The cold showered cooled me down and sobered me up. Getting out I dried myself and got dressed in a tee and some sweats. Maya was in bed already and I knew when I walked in there she was going to give me shit for tonight. It scared her seeing me like this but it wasn't anything new to me. This is what my life was about.

I climbed in bed and hugged her from behind.

"Are you mad?"

"It's just scary. What if you were alone and your body overheated? Do you ever think of that?"

I knew she had all the right to be upset, she loved me and didn't want anything to happen to me.

"I know baby, I'm sorry. And I don't think of that, the high is what I think of"

The euphoria of being that high had me hooked.

"Abel just be careful, and just try and chill with that stuff baby especially when you're on tour... Please"

She never pleaded with me and I knew I couldn't be around her when I was doing these types of drugs.

"I'll be fine baby girl"

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For the last couple of weeks until I left I was careful not to get too fucked up around Maya. I promised her while I was over seas I would chill on it. I convinced her to come with me a month into the tour.

~1 Month Later~

Europe has been so fucken crazy since I got here. Today the crew and I were going to the airport to pick up Maya, my mother and my daughter. Before getting here I convinced her to come and my mama couldn't be without her grandbaby so she came also.

"This nigga is all smiles cuz his girl is coming"

Lamar tried ranking on me.

"You mean GIRLS nigga, FaceTime can only do too much"

Since I've been gone I haven't fucked with anyone and I had my needs, so when I got Maya alone she knew it was going down.

"Is that them bro?"

Cash spotted them walking away from the boarding bridge. I saw Maya pushing the stroller and my mom walking along the side of her.

"Yeah that's them"

I was cheesing mad hard. I couldn't help how happy I was.

"Hawk look at this nigga smiling hard"

"Chill bro, that's his family"

Cash had my back and knew what I felt for Maya, and could relate since he was now dating Amina.

Since being in Europe we had to add extra security, the fans were crazy over here.

So when we walked up to them we were mobbing it. I had my hoodie over my head trying to somewhat conceal my identity.

Maya jumped in my arms and I squeezed her tight kissing her. I hugged my mom and tried rushing them out of there before any paparazzi noticed. My boys took care of getting their luggage so we were already on our way to the hotel.

"It's so beautiful over here"

Maya whispered to me, she has never been to Europe so I wanted her to share this experience with her.

"Not as beautiful as you"

She gave me a smile.

"You missed me?"

"Always"

"You're just horny..."

"That too.."

She pinched me as I gave her a smirk and placed a kiss in her lips.

I looked at my daughter asleep in her car seat, she's gotten so big and I felt guilt for not being around that much. She was six months old and was starting to crawl. She was my twin and my mother adored her. She loved her so much she put her fear of flying to the side and came with Maya.

Simaya:

We finally settled in our suite and giving Abel a quickie we had to rush and get ready for his show. Abel's mom had a suite next to ours and decided she didn't want to come, she stood with the baby while we went out for the night.

I was finally dressed while Abel took forever in the restroom. I decided on wearing some light blue ripped up skinny jeans with a white long sleeved cropped top I was putting on my heels when I had to get my makeup bag from the restroom. I walked in and saw Abel doing lines on the sink counter.

The coke was perfectly lined up on the glass mirror he used.

I just shook my head and grabbed my makeup bag. I hated that he did hardcore drugs, his mood swings were so unbearable. He finally came out acting like nothing and I decided not to say anything because he had a show to do.

"Are you ready?"

We heard a knock knowing we had to leave.

"Yeah, let me get my purse"

He held my hand the whole way to the venue. Lamar was about to slid the van door opened when we saw nothing but flashes from paparazzi and fans screaming.

Abel squeezed my hand tight knowing how nervous this made me.

"Abel I think you should go first bro, these fans are rushing up out of nowhere. Lamar and Hawk can rush Simaya to the entrance"

Abel nodded at Cash agreeing with his plan.

"Don't be nervous baby, my niggas got you"

He kissed my cheek and made me feel somewhat better.

We finally made it inside and in Abel's dressing room. I sat there in awe just listening to him warming up his vocals. His voice have always amazed me.

After his warm up he sat next to me and started to sip on some Hennessy. I could tell he was trying to calm his nerves so I carressd his leg.

"Relax, you'll do great"

"Thanks baby"

He kissed me when a knock came from the door. Drake walked in with some of his guys from his OVO crew. Abel and I got up to greet him.

"What's up my boy"

"Just chillin Drizzy, getting ready to hit that stage"

Drake gave Abel the hand and pulled him in for a hug. I could see Drake's eyes wander towards me.

"It's crazy out there. I see you're already getting the party started"

Abel turned my way and noticed how Drake was looking at me.

"My bad, this is Simaya"

I reached to shake his hand when he pulled me in for a hug. I didn't want to be rude and pull away making it more awkward.

"Nice to meet you"

I just smiled as I pulled away and glanced at Abel , he had a serious look on his face.

"Likewise girl. Make sure that you guys come to my after party. It's going to be poppin"

"For sure bro"

This should be interesting....