Chapter 17: The Fallen Hero Haunts My Thoughts

Liam Payne’s girlfriend confesses to miscarrying her deceased fiancé baby just month after he passed and now she is running from the past that is still haunting her. Will all of this affect One Direction’s image?

Liam had been in the hospital for two weeks in the ICU and everyone kept quiet. Why did they keep it from everyone? That story is coming up next.

(A few days earlier- Maya’s POV)

We set in two rows of chair the first row was Harry, Liam, and I. The second row was Zayn, Niall, and Louis. I was sick to my stomach I didn’t know what I had gotten myself into. When did my personal life become the business of everyone in the world? I knew dating Liam meant I wouldn’t have much privacy but this happened before Liam why does it matter?  I couldn’t keep my thoughts together or in order. How was I suppose to know what to say?

Barbara Walters set down in the chair across from us and smiled. Everyone smiled back. “How is everyone today?” She asked. They all said they were doing great, but I didn’t say a word. I was too scared to open my mouth.  I felt Liam’s hand grab mine and it made me feel at ease for about point five seconds until the interview began.

“How are you guys?” She asked. “We are doing great enjoying spending time with our families before it’s back to work,” Harry answered. “But just a couple weeks ago something happened what was it?” Barbara asked. “I was put into the ICU in my hometown hospital,” Liam admitted.  That’s when my stomach dropped. “Why were you there?” She asked. “I had an infection in my small intestine,” Liam answered her. “And Maya were you with him?” She asked me. “Yes, we were visiting his family when Liam got sick,” I told her.  “Did you guys fly out?” Barbara asked the rest of the band members.

“Yes, we did right after we found out,” Louis replied.  “Why didn’t you tell anyone?” She asked. We all exchanged glances at each other.

 I cleared my throat and then answered. “We honestly were just waiting for the test results to come back, but then we all sort of came to an agreement Liam need privacy during the healing process so we didn’t tell anyone. It was more of a safety thing as well for everyone else in the hospital. We all know how loyal the Directioners are and we didn’t want to cause anything at the hospital. We didn’t instantly think hey let’s not tell anyone because of the events that might occur. We  honestly thought for a long time about this. I mean these boys have always been loyal to their fans and never lie about anything so it was hard for them not to be able to make them part of the journey but at the same time they also knew it was the best.”

“We all know how Hollywood works you post one thing on Twitter or Instagram and someone twist your words and then next thing you read something completely different, we were already dealing with something pretty drastic and we didn’t want to add fuel to the fire. We had to put Liam first in this whole situation and his family. Yes it was hard not to post anything but we all knew it was for the best,” Louis explained.

“You guys were there for two weeks and were spotted without Liam. What did you guys do about that?” She asked. “That part was tricky,” Harry chuckled. I shot Harry a glare. “We would do our best not to get spotted but it wasn’t always that easy. We usually said he was spending time with his family or we were running to get lunch for everyone. Honestly we were never lying, but there were a few tabloid stories about Liam running away and we were covering up for him, but as you can see now that’s not true.” I explained.

“Liam, you would tweet about how happy you are that you got so lucky to be with these guys and Maya while you were in the hospital but never said why. Why were you so happy?” She questioned.

“They went above and beyond to make sure I had everything I needed. I mean the guys brought a game system and hooked it up in my room and we played for hours. Maya helped my family with whatever they needed and she was there for me around the clock day in and day out.  I did not expect them to do any of that. I mean the guys gave up their holidays for me. I tried to send them back to their families countless times, but they never budged.” Liam explained.

“We have always considered each other brothers so if one of our brothers have a problem we will help them in any way we possibly could and that’s exactly what we did,” Zayn told her. “Maya, what is your stand on these guys?” She asked me.

I couldn’t help but laugh. “These guys are the craziest bunch of guys I know, but don’t let them fool you because all five of them are major softies. Practically living with them from day one I have been able to see the true colors of each of these boys. They have been so welcoming and supportive from the start and we are all so close its hard to imagine not getting a text message at 3:30 in the morning from Harry asking if we can go get ice cream the next day as long as Liam drives, but he’ll pay. “ I told her.

“I do that all the time,” Harry admitted with a chuckle. “Do you guys think of Maya is different from Danielle or Sophia?” she inquired. “I would say she is different in a couple ways,” Niall replied.

“How so?” I asked him. “You can just tell it is real love between these two and they just fit together. I know I saw Liam happy with both Danielle and Sophia, but I never saw him look at them like he looks at Maya.” Niall explained.

“He gets love in his eyes,” Harry mentions. “Love in his eyes?” I laugh.  “It’s almost like fireworks,” Harry tries to explain. “Alrighty Harry,” I laugh. “Maya, is it true certain people wanted you to go back home while Liam was in the hospital?” Barbara asked. “Yeah, they thought it would be good for me, but I didn’t budge I didn’t want to leave Liam,” I told her. “But part of you wanted to go…didn’t it?” She questioned. How did she know these things?!  “You did?” Harry blurted out. “No way she wouldn’t want that!” Niall exclaimed. “Guys please,” Louis begged. How did she know…who told her…

“Yes, part of me wanted to go home,” I practically whispered. She gave me a satisfied grin.  “But why?” Harry asked sounding super confused. “I had past issues that I kept hidden but the hospital brought them back to the surface,” I told him. “What was it?” Niall asked. Liam squeezed my hand and I looked at him. He gave me a reassuring head nod.

“The day of the concert in Omaha when we all met I had been feeling sick for awhile so I went to the doctor and I was told I had had a miscarriage.”  I explained. I didn’t hold back the tears any longer. I started to cry. “Why didn’t you tell anyone?” Niall asked. “I didn’t want anyone to know, my parents didn’t even know. I had a thought all along I was pregnant, but I never knew for sure, I sort of just shrugged it off. I mean I was so stressed it could have been anything; well after it never went away I figured I should probably go to the doctors. Well after I had found out I did my best not to tell anyone. Carter’s parents had just lost their son I couldn’t tell them they had a grandchild they would never get to meet they would have killed them.” I sighed.

“Do they know now?” Barbara asked me. “Yeah, I told them before we left,” I told her. “What did they have to say?” She questioned. “Nothing really,” I shrugged. “But what was the big deal that no one could know?” Zayn asked. I didn’t say anything I just got up from my chair and ran to the greenroom shutting the door behind me.

(Flashback)

“Carter, I’m pregnant!” I gushed. “That’s amazing! We have to tell everyone!” He exclaimed. “No, not yet It’s too soon to tell anyone, “ I told him. “Why?” He asked confused. “I’m not that far along, something could go wrong,” I informed him. “Fine, we won’t tell anyone, but the second we are allowed to we are telling the world!” He cried. I laughed so hard. “Maya, this is it, we are going to be parents,” He gushed as he looked into my eyes. “Yes, as scary as that sounds we are going to be parents,” I told him. He pulled me in for hug and I smiled as I hugged him back.

(End of flashback)

The real reason I never told anyone was because I knew for a fact I was pregnant and after losing Carter it was hard to face the fact I had lost our child as well.