Chapter 2

Alhaithams POV

There I was, preparing myself for the conversation Kaveh and I were about to have. I had sort of planned how I was going to talk about his "problem".

I sighed and knocked on his door.

Kaveh opened and he looked up at me questioningly.

"Kaveh... you might want to sit down for this..." His face filled up with doubt "I know I'm not that good at talking to others... but... but there's something about you which has kept me worried..."

I took a deep breath...

"Kaveh... the night I brought you back from the tavern I found out that you hurt yourself... before you assume anything I'm not mad at you! I'm just worried... I know we fight but you're actually the only person I'd choose to stay with. No one else understands me better than you and thats why I want you to talk to me about it... Please?"

Kavehs POV

Fuck, I knew it. He had found out.

I started panicking.

Fuck, fuck, fuck.

Why did he had to find out? I don't want him to worry and did he really ment what he said or was it just to make me feel better?

"Kaveh"

Now I'm a bigger burden. Poor baby Kaveh in need of everyone, lied by everyone.

"Kaveh?"

Why can't I just stop existing? Why can't I just dissapear? I don't want to worry anyone with my problems.

"Kaveh! Look at me!"

Alhaitham shook me out of my thoughts. I had started crying and he had a worried look on his face.

"Kaveh, It's all ok. I'm not mad, I promise..." He put his hands over mine. That made me cry harder. I didn't know how to react to that sudden affection.

"I-I'm so sorry... I-It's just t-too much... I-I don't want to worry you..." I stuttered, then Alhaitham hugged me tightly and I sobbed on his shoulder.

We stayed like that for a while until I calmed down.

"Kaveh?" Alhaitham asked softly

"Mhm?" I replied

"Next time you feel the urge to do it, tell me. I really want to help you get better and remember you're not a burden to me."

I nodded but still didn't fully believed what he said...

Alhaithams POV

I could still notice him feeling really bad even though I'd tried to make him feel better. With that in mind I came to a conclusion:

I was going to show more affect towards him and try not to fight every now and then. I wasn't sure how an antisocial asshole like me was going to manage it but I'll have to try.

Since it was getting late I made some instant noodles for Kaveh and me. We ate them together in Kavehs room. Once we finished I could see how tired he actually was.

"You should rest now, Kaveh", I said, taking the empty cups and heading towards the door, to let Kaveh sleep. My hand was at the doorknob, about to turn it when Kaveh said something.

"C-can you stay... you k-know... stay w-with...me?" his voice was low almost a whisper. Did he wanted me to spend the night with him? In... in his bed?

Kaveh noticed me hesitate. "S-sorry! I-I didn't meant to...forget it!" he had an embarrased undertone in his voice and his face was all red.

The image of Kaveh lying next to me sleeping send a warm feeling over my whole body...Should I agree? Kaveh really needs me right now... Maybe it wasn't a bad idea...

"N-no, if you want I can stay with you tonight...I-I don't mind" I assured him. Why did that weird feeling in my stomach get worse?!

After saying that Kavehs face lit up, "Really?"

I nodded and he seemed happy. We both got ready for bed and I have to admit I was nervous.

Kaveh had this long skincare routine (I havent been able to understand why), because of that I was done way before him. When he entered his room my heart skipped a beat. I had never seen him ready for bed, hence our different night routines and archons, I wasn't expecting him to look so good.

He had braided his hair, which reminded me of our time as students at the Akademiya, and it looked absolutely perfect on him. I remembered those times when we were good friends, before all went downhill...

I must have stared to long, because Kavehs voice brought me back from reality...

"Is something wrong...?"

Kavehs POV

Alhaitham had been staring at me for quite the time once I reentered my room.

"Is something wrong...?" I asked him

He wore a black tank top and some pyjama pants. I caught a quick glance at his strong, now visible arm muscles and I had the sudden urge to touch them, but held back.

"I-It's just I've never seen you with braids for ages!" Alhaitham replied and did he had a faint blush on his face?!

His blushing face made me blush and I quickly sat on the other side of my bed, processing the fact that Alhaitham and I were going to share it. Without having discussed it beforehand, we both went under the blankets at the same time and I turned off the lights.

My heart felt like it was going to burst out of my chest and I prayed that Alhaitham couldn't hear it.

What had I gotten myself into?!

I could hear Alhaithams breathing and I was so gratefull it was dark, because my face was getting redder with each passing second.

I was reconsidering my life choises when suddenly I felt someones arms wrap around me.

"Alhaitham? W-what are you d-doing?" I stuttered. Not gonna lie, it felt awesome and I wanted to stay like this but it took me by surprise.

Alhaitham spoke next: "Can we be friends again and stop the silly fights? I don't want to hurt you like that again...I'm really sorry about what I said to you and how it made you feel..."

I could feel he really meant it and I felt myself melting into his tight embrace.

I nodded and slowly felt myself drifting into sleep, the warmth of Alhaitham surrounding me...

The next morning

When I woke up the space next to me was empty. I recalled everything that happened last night and I blushed again.

The smell of Alhaitham was still around and when I sat up I saw a small post-it with a message written on it, laying on my nightstand:

I had to go to work, but I made you breakfast.

It should still be warm. I'll be back at 6-7 p.m.

Eat properly!!!

-Alhaitham

I smiled and chuckeled, knowing that Alhaitham clearly had struggeled to write me this note. Then I went out of bed, into the kitchen to see what he had made me. I was actually positivily surprised to see a stack of warm pancakes.

Additionally I made myself some coffee and went back into my room. There I started working on a clients request as I ate and drank my breakfast.

I drew sketch after sketch, throwing them away and starting all over again. I lost notion of time and once I retourned back to the present I had spend 4 hours trying to create something, failing miserably.

I masaged my temples as an attempt to concentrate but it didn't work.

Shit, I need to get this done in less then three days...

"You wont be able to do it"

"Just give up already, you're waisting time"

"The debts will keep piling up anyways"

"Fuck, fuck, fuck" I mumbeled, starting to stress out. I had to get this done. I can't aford to loose any more time.

"Just cover your ears and focus on boxes and lines" (Iykyk) I tried telling myself to be able to work a little more, but it didn't work. I sighed defeated and plopped onto my bed. I'd just continue tomorrow.

I stared at the ceiling, my mind completely blank.

The scent of Alhaitham was still around, which brought my thoughts back to him. It was currently 1 p.m. so Alhaitham wouldn't be back in less than 5 hours.

I dragged myself towards the couch and put on the tv. I started going through all the channels, not finding anything interesting to watch.

I groaned and eventually just stayed at some soppy romcom. At the end I even ended up crying at some parts. After the romcom some actually good comedy got transmitted and I stayed to watch it. It helped me to cheer up a bit.

Alhaithams POV

I've actually been slightly scared to leave Kaveh alone with his thoughts. I had made him breakfast to surprise him in the morning and cheer him up.

The whole day all of my thoughts were about Kaveh, making it hard to focus on my paperwork.

He had looked so cute in the morning, still sleeping, his lips slightly parted. This led me to another thought.

A more confusing but tempting one...

To kiss him

I had thought about that at least a 100 times today. It was driving me crazy!

Why was I daydreaming about being close to him and doing romantic stuff? We just stopped fighting and became friends again. Why were those feeling haunting me now?!

We're just roommates!

I've never felt anything like this before so why with him?! He probably just thinks I'm a friend, why am I thinking about being something else then?!

Once I was finished with most of the work I called it a day and went back home. I hoped Kaveh had eaten the breakfast and taken care of himself...

Once I had unlocked the door, chuckles filled the space. I recognised it was Kaveh and a big weight fell off my heart.

When I entered the living room I saw him watching TV. His eyes inmidiately lit up when he saw me and the sight of him being happy that I'm back made me fell all warm inside, again.

I threw myself onto the couch next to him. "How are you feeling?"

"Better, also since when can you cook? The breakfast was actually good!" He praised and I told him that I had noticed how he skipped breakfast every now and then and I wanted him to eat properly. Then we both fell silent, the TV show playing in the background.

I glanced over to him. His gaze was focused on the TV and in that moment there was so much I wanted to say, so much I wanted to promise him, so much I wanted to give him...

He deserved so much and yet, the world was so cruel and unfair to him.

At that moment I decided to make a move...

I wanted to make him feel happy and with a purpose in life.

I wanted to make him feel loved.

I wanted to kiss him, feel his lips against mine...

"Kaveh...?"

Authors note:

SORRY FOR THE CLIFFHANGER😭😭😭

I'm loving this story so much rn that I'll probably post the next chapter in less than a week!!

I hope I'm fullfilling your expectations and interpretating correctly Kavehs and Alhaithams personality (I'm a 100% sure that Alhaitham is actually caring and soft on the inside)

How did you find the 'Writing on the wall' line? I'm just obsessed with the song and I had to add it in here! (If you don't know the song it's a Kaveh fansong made by Will Stetson, GO LISTEN TO IT😾🫵)

Thank you so much for continuing to read this story and again, any feedback or ideas are really appreciated🫶😭

Have a great day/afternoon/night!!✨❤️

-Ju<3