Chapter 16

(C00lkidd first person pov :))))  )

After Bluudud left I felt guilty. I didn't told my dad about my feelings towards people, so it was pretty dumb to tell him what just happened.

We sat at the table, eating dinner. It was stew, yummy!

"Why are you... So, uh... So..." My dad stuttered.

"So what?" I looked at him and smiled.

"Nevermind, forget it. I thought you were sad."

"Nope! I'm not." I was just guilty. And disgusted of myself. I was just like a betrayer. My best friend since birth?... How could I...

I started shaking and dropped my spoon.

"Haha, you dropped it, so silly!" My dad handed me the spoon. "Why are you shaking? C00lkidd, I told you to stop wearing shorts! It's autumn and the weather changes a lot! Ugh..."

I looked at him. I didn't understand how he had that explanation. It was still hot outside.

"Oh, yeaaahhh... Totally! Look, I'm shaking 'cause it's cold! Grrr... Soooo cold!!! Hahahaha!!!"

I don't know why, but I kinda sounded like a psychopath.

"Dad, I'm full. I'm gonna go to my room now. Bye!"

"Ok, kiddo! But don't forget to shower, brush your teeth, change those clothes onto paja..."

I wasn't listening all of that. I rushed to my room just to lay on the floor. Yes, the best thing to do! Happy, sad, angry, bored... This thing was for everything, it didn't matter how you felt.

I was pretty happy, like I always am! But then, suddently I felt guilt again. Why... Why me when I did nothing wrong? Or maybe I did. Right now, Bluudud probably is killing himself. But who cares? Me. I was his best friend since I was born! How could I do that? Well, I just like someone else. So it's better to say the truth instead of living a lie.

Yeah, by the way, I like DivaDayo. Yeah, I'm into girls now! Yes, she is the new girl, but she sounds so sweet, and her hair smells so good... Mmmmmm...

I got a pillow to imagine it's her and I hugged it, kissed it and brushed its nonexistent hair.

I did this only to escape the guilt. But after a while I felt it again. 'What if that was me? What is DivaDayo would do the same?'... I really don't know what to say. These thoughts... Ugh.

I opened my tv to watch some cartoons.

Wrong channel.

Wrong channel.

Wrong channel.

Aha!- what the... These are not the cartoons that I like!

Wrong channel.

Wrong channel.

I just decided to close it. Boring, anyways. All I wanted to do was to sleep and forget about everything that happened today. I don't even care about Bluudud anymore. He sucks as a friend. All he does is getting into fights for nothing. And he also streams. But his streams are always boring.

Bluudud sucks. I don't even understand how I liked him. Meh, I guess everything is better now.

C00lkidd how dare you!!! Anyways, idk when I'll post the next chapter. Just kidding, I wanna write it right now!!!