Chapter 15

(I'M FINALLY FEEDING YOU CHAT)

(Still Bluudud's first person pov)

We got home and my stomach was hurting. I really didn't know what to do, so I just layed on an armchair.

"Sweetie, are you ok? Why are you crying?"

"Huh?" I looked at my mom. She was extremely worried, but why? "What!? No!!! I'm a big boy, I never cry!".

My mom let out a sigh and cam closer to me. She took my chin so she can see my face better.

"Please tell me what happened. I can help yo-"

"NO! NO, NO, NO!!! YOU CANNOT! YOU CANNOT HELP ME IN ANY WAY!!!" I shouted. I was shaking, I never yelled at my mom before, so obviously I was scared of how would she react. I immediately rush on the stairs to my room.

I closed the door gently. 'What the Hell... Why am I acting so weird?' I thought. I just decided to sit on my bed and think about what happened today.

I tried. But I would always fail. I couldn't. I just couldn't think of what happened. Everytime I was thinking about it, a tear or two streamed down my face.

This thing was so sad and frustating and disgusting. All in the same time. My stomach was hurting even more, but I refused to talk to mom after what I did. I'm a horrible person.

Do you have any idea why? I'll tell you. Not because of what just happened, because I used to hurt people and get into fights just to get C00lkidd's attention. I looked at myself in the mirror. 'Is this really you?' was everything that I could think at the moment.

But seriously... Is this really me? A guy who pretends that is cool just... For a stupid boy? Really? I'm disgusted. Of myself. Of him. Of Pr3ttyPriincess. Of everyone. All I wanted was to dissapear. But not killing myself. All I wanted was to fly away from this town for a few hours. Yeah...

Right then I heard a knock on the door and stopped daydreaming. The door opened (THAT WAS SO RUDE, I DIDN'T EVEN SAID 'GET IN'!!!) and it was mom. She sat next to me.

"Honey, we can talk about anything. Please, tell me what makes you so sad." She said with the calmest tone of hers.

I looked away. I didn't want to talk.

Right then she hold my hand. I flinched. Her hands were really cold. She looked at my with those green stupid eyes... With sparkles... And perfect... I wish I had the same eyes as mom. And her personality too. She was always so calm... AHEM ENOUGH COMPLEMENTING MOM EVEN THOUGH SHE'S THE BEST IN THE WORLD!!!

So, I flinched and she was looking at me. I tried hard to not.

"Bluu..."

"Ok, fine" yes, I gave up. I couldn't just shut up forever.

After I told her what happened, I saw her eyes watered. She hugged me tightly and I felt some tears on my back.

"I'm so sorry, darling... I really am..."

Ok y'all I think I'm gonna work on the next chapter too because I have nothing else better to do. Byeee