Enotionally Vacant

It's even two day since I found out that Eric was dead. And I've just... not been myself. I haven't been to school in week. I haven't talked to Bryan or even Jeremy in 4 days. My mom and Janelle came home once they got the news I haven't talked to my mom. But I talk to Janelle once during the week but we looked at each other and we both started crying. I lost my brother and she lost her on of her best friends.




Eric told me one day on the phone that when he got home he was going surprise her at her birthday party. I told her about it and we cried for an hour just hugging each other. Even though my mom is home now Jeremy wanted me to stay with him. To make sure I wouldn't do anything stupid. So I stayed.




I was laying on Jeremy's bed listening to music "There's no way to glorify this pavement. Syrup, Percocet, and an eighth a day will leave you broke, depressed, and emotionally vacant. Despite how Lil Wayne lives. It's not conducive to being creative

And I know 'cause he's my favorite

And I know 'cause I was off that same mix." I was crying listening to this song. It made me think of Eric. He showed me who Macklemore was. And since then he's been my hero. I only had one earbud in so I heard when Jeremy said "Dakota? are you okay?" I guess it's time to talk to him now.




I sat up with my back to him and wiped my eyes. "N-no." My voice. I got up and ran to him. And hugged him. "I'm not fine Jeremy. It still hurts. So much." I broke down crying hugging him. He sat down and pulled me in his lap hugging me and trying to calm me down. It worked somewhat then I ended up falling asleep. It was Sunday and I decided I needed to go back. To school tomorrow.




I heard Jeremy's alarm go off and he got up trying not to wake me up but I

sat up. "Dakota go back to sleep." "No I'm going to school today." "Are you sure?" i nod. "Okay. I'll go get a shower then we can goto yours so you can shower and get changed." I smiled a little. Then nodded. "Yeah." He got in the shower and got dressed 15 minutes later.




"Let's go." He grabbed my hand and we walked to my place. When we got into my apartment my mom was in the kitchen drinking coffee she looked up and smiled. "Mom I think I'm going to go to school today." She smiled and nodded. "Okay." I want to my room and took a shower. Then brush my teeth and put on some light maroon lipstick. Then I went into my walk in closet to pick out my outfit and get changed.