Chapter 15: You Abandoned Me!

(Alexandra's Pov)

The day after the whole Mick, Chronos thing, I haven't gone to see him yet since after we captured him. to be honest I'm scared...like really fucking scared. I'm not sure what to say or what I should do. Mick isn't...Mick so I have no idea what he's even going to say either. I don't know if anyone else of if Leonard's gone to see him yet.

To be honest, I haven't really left my room since yesterday either because I've been so afraid and I don't want the others to see that, but I know I can't hide forever, so what should I do? What do I do? I don't know what to do? I don't know how much time had passed because all I could do was pace around my room. I couldn't sleep, I couldn't sit still, my mind and heart wouldn't stop racing. I can't just stand here and do nothing, I have to talk to him, I have to get some answers but I'm so fucking scared.

I clenched my fists tightly trying not to spiral into a panic attack and lose control so I also don't ruin the ship with my powers. I closed my eyes and took a few deep shaky breaths. I walked out of my room and headed to the same room where Mick was being held. I stopped by the door before entering as my heart was pounding and stomach was churning like I was going to throw up.

I felt a hand on my shoulder which made me gasp as I looked to see it was Leo, "What are you doing?" he asked, I sighed "I have to talk to him Leo. I have to get some answers" I said, Leo frowned "That's gonna do neither of you any good. He's not Mick right now and I don't want to see you getting hurt" He said, I frowned "I can't sit here and do nothing Leo. I can't stop thinking, my thoughts are killing me, I can't sleep, I can't eat, I can't sit still. I need to talk to him. I need to understand. I'm already hurting, I doubt there's much more he could do to me in that room. Please, just let me talk to him. Let me try to knock some sense into him...help bring him back" I pleaded,

Leonard sighed, "Fine but I'm staying right here incase I need to drag you out of there" He said, I nodded as I took a few deep breaths and entered the room. I looked to see Mick was sitting on the bench, just staring out into the void. The room was silent and the tensions were high. My heart stammered and breathing shuddered "Well, well, well if it isn't you. I was wondering when you'd show up" Mick said not even bothering to look in my direction.

I clenched my fists as I felt the tears already filling my eyes. I blinked them away trying to retain my composure and anger. I walked over by the door and crossed my arms. Mick looked up at me "You got something you want to say or are you just gonna stand there and stare at me?" he asked, I gulped down the anxiety the rose up in me and tried to figure out what to say...what the fuck was I supposed to say?

I sighed "I-I don't know what I'm supposed to say" I said, Mick scoffed "Figures. So what do you want?" He asked, I clenched my fists tightly feeling the anger course through me "Why are you acting like this Mick?" I asked brokenly, "Like what?" He asked, "Cold-hearted" I said, he smirked "I've always been this way" He said, I shook my head "No, no you haven't! This is not the Micky I know; this is not my Micky" I stated as my hands trembled and heart pounded faster.

Mick got up from his seat and walked over to me. He looked so emotionless, so dead...this wasn't Mick, "Then clearly you didn't know me at all" he stated, I shook my head "That's not true and you know that! Why are you doing this Mick! WHY DID YOU ABANDON ME!" I shouted unable to hold back my emotions anymore...it needed to come out, I can't stay silent anymore...

Mick said nothing, "Y-YOU LEFT ME, Y-YOU CH-CHEATED ON ME A-AND THEN YOU LEFT! YOU ABANDONED ME. I-I THOUGHT YOU CARED ABOUT ME. I GAVE YOU EVERYTHING! I GAVE YOU MY EVERYTHING AND THIS IS HOW YOU TREAT ME!? WHY!?" I shouted as the tears streamed down my face.

Mick scowled "I abandoned you? Where were you when I needed you the most! You were supposed to be on my side, by my side and you LEFT, YOU ABANDONDED ME! And you and Snart chose to leave me! WHERE WERE YOU HUH!? YOU ABANDONED ME!" He shouted back.

I sniffled "WHY WOULD I WANT TO BE WITH YOU WHEN YOU CHEATED ON ME?! Leonard told me what happened after I left and drunk or not you still chose to do that! You still chose to cheat on me! How could you do that to me?! I thought we had something; I thought for once in your hot mess of a life you actually gave a fuck about me...was everything you said to me a lie? Every touch, every word, every kiss, everything I gave to you...was I just nothing to you?" I asked brokenly as tears fell from my face.

Mick said nothing, I sniffled and wiped my face "You have NO idea how I was when you were gone. I had NO Idea what Leonard was going to do with you. I was barely holding it together as it was when he told me what you did in Star City 2046. When you were gone, I was broken. I couldn't sleep, I couldn't eat, I barely left my room for days and I couldn't talk to anyone because of how heartbroken I felt because that's how much I care about you and how you make me feel. I gave you my everything and I have NEVER done that with anyone before and you BETRAYED me...and yet, I still care for you and care about you...I know this isn't you Mick and I know deep down in there somewhere you still have feelings for me and you care about me too" I stated as the tears didn't stop falling down my face.

Mick still said nothing, which made me scoff and shake my head as I headed out of the room to see Leo leaning against the wall. He looked at me and frowned "What happened?" He asked, I sniffled "I kept asking him why, why he's doing this and why he's acting like this and why he abandoned me but he thought I abandoned him after everything you did to him but I told him how I was when that happened and that I had no idea that you were planning that but he said nothing" I explained.

Leo sighed, "Just give him time. Let him think about it, I'm sure what you said affected him" He said, I sniffled and nodded as I headed back to my bedroom to just think. I don't know anymore. I sat on my bed and curled up into ball and just cried...I don't know what to do anymore. God I hated this; I hated this so much and I don't know what to do. Everything hurts, everything fucking hurts and I don't know how to make it stop...please just make it fucking stop...it hurts so much.

(3rd Person View)

After everyone had found Chronos, who turned out to be Mick, everyone was shocked on how all of this happened. When they took Mick back to the ship and locked him away everyone was so confused on why Mick was back even though he was supposed to be dead but Leonard never actually said he killed Mick but he didn't know he was going to turn out like this.

Alex was just as shocked and confused because she knew this wasn't Mick. She knew this wasn't the Mick she fell for and she was going to do everything in her power to get him back, even if it meant killing her in the process. She has no idea what to do let alone think but looking back at Mick made every single emotion come back. All that pain, betrayal, anger and sadness from him cheating on her but also the love she still has for him and she knows she can bring him back...she just has to...

A few days later, everyone was trying to figure out not only how to help Mick but still focus on the mission of stopping Savage. Alex on the other hand wasn't too great as she paced around and spiraled about wanting to go see Mick but she was scared...she didn't know what to do or what to say but she had to do something. So when she had what courage she had, she left her room and headed down to see Mick but Leonard stopped her and asked her what she was doing.

Leonard didn't like the idea of her being alone with Mick due to him being brainwashed and would probably kill her if he got out but he also knew that she wasn't going to take no for an answer so he stayed behind her while she went and saw Mick and every emotion came back but not only for her but for Mick as well. Deep down he was feeling everything too, the guilt, the anger but also everything he had felt for her...but he couldn't figure out how to be how he once was...he didn't know how.

Once Alex tried to talk to him, everything she was feeling eventually came out and she was now screaming her pain out about how he cheated on her and abandoned her. Deep down Mick felt pain, he felt guilty but he couldn't do anything about it. If anything he screamed at her back saying that she abandoned him and that he needed her the most and how she was never there...Mick could feel himself slowly starting to feel again and slowly starting to come back but In reality, he didn't want to...

When Alex left, Mick sat down and all he could think about was Alex. He never saw that side of her before and while deep down Mick still loved her more than anything, he knew she was better off without him. He knew that she deserved better than him. He tried so hard to get her to hate him and he tried so hard to forget her and to hate her like he used to but he just couldn't deny what his heart was telling him.

No matter what those Time Masters did to his head, they can't change his heart or change the way he feels about Alex...He didn't want to think about her, he didn't want to love her but deep down he couldn't deny that he did...But there was NO way on earth she would ever forget what he did to her...he knew it was wrong, even when he was drunk and cheated, deep down it hurt him and it felt wrong but he had to...he had to in order to protect her because Mick knew he didn't deserve her so he did what he had to do.

But seeing her again and screaming at him like she did with tears streaming down her face not caring how pathetic she looked...something inside of him broke and yet, he couldn't figure out what that was but all he knows is that entire night all he could think about was Alex...no matter what happened he hasn't stopped thinking about her since...but how could she ever forgive what he did to her? How could she ever forgive him...if Mick was her, he wouldn't...if anything he can never forgive himself for what he did to her...

(GOOD ENOUGH. ENJOY!)

(2000 Words)