Chapter 5: Nothing But A Freak

(Alexandra's Pov)

After what felt like an eternity of staying aboard this Waverider. Me and Jax actually had a very nice time. We mostly talked more about our lives and whatnot on how I work with Barry and the others and how Jax actually became apart of Firestorm because of them due to Stein's other original half Ronnie ended up dying. Jax was a football star before he injured his knee then became a mechanic after that which was pretty cool. I was glad to know that there's at least one person here who doesn't treat me like a freak.

However, as more time passed with no one coming back, me and Jax ended up getting bored so we walked around the ship "Gideon. That is your name right?" Jax asked, "How may I help you?" she asked, "I assume this ship has a uh autopilot or something?" He asked, I titled my head and looked at Jax with confusion "You assume correctly" She said, "Great, In that case, imma need you to take me back to 2016. See, me being here, it's all a big mistake" Jax commanded,

I chuckled and shook my head "Captain Hunter told me you'd try and do this, and he also told me not to listen to anything you say" Gideon said, my eyes widened as I laughed a bit "Woah dude, you just got owned by a robot!" I shouted and laughed, Jax looked pissed, "Well, you are a computer. You have to listen to me!" He shouted, "You seem overwrought Mr. Jackson, if you'd like to go to the Medbay, I'd be happy to prescribe you a sedative" She said,

I laughed some more "I do not need another roofie!" He shouted, "it's the good kind of roofie Jax" I told him, he glared at me "Come on, it's not funny. You know damn well you'd rather be home too" He told me. I shrugged, "Maybe at first but come on Jax think about it. When in our lives do we have the chance to explore the past? To explore different timelines and centuries we read about in History class? Don't you want to have that kind of experience? To see how life was back then? Plus, isn't it everyone's dream to time travel?" I asked,

Jax sighed a bit as suddenly something had hit the ship making both me and Jax fall to the ground, "What the hell was that!?" I Shouted, "A Thermite grenade. It seems someone is trying to breath the Hull" Gideon said, me and Jax looked at each other wide eyed before getting up to figure out who the hell was trying to kill us, "His name is Chronos. He's a temporal bounty hunter" Gideon explained as he kept shooting at the ship, "But we're cloaked how the hell did he know we were here?" I asked, "Bounty Hunters are known to have locations of the Waverider despite the cloaking" She said,

I growled a bit "The ship is taking heavy fire" Gideon explained, "We know!" Me and Jax shouted, "You need to get us out of here now!" Jax shouted as we ran around figuring out what we should do, "Why is Chronos attacking us?" I asked, "Perhaps Captain Hunter is best suited to answer that query" She said, I huffed with frustration "Well he's not fucking here right now is he!?" I shouted, "Fire photon torpedoes or something!" Jax shouted, "Only Captain Hunter is authorized" She said,

I growled "WELL THEN WHAT THE HELL CAN YOU DO!?" I shouted, "Where is Captain Hunter!?" Jax shouted as we ran to the exit of the ship where we were then fired at. Thankfully the others came back just in time as we were getting our asses handed to us. I just about had enough time running away like a coward so I went ahead and got on all 4's before running out towards Chronos with my electricity sparked around me (Give or take like Pikachu using Volt Tackle XD).

I knocked into him hard making him fly backwards, whilst everyone had pitched in to help us fight Chronos. I looked to see Ray and Stein running back to the ship to I assume merge with Jax and get said Atom Suit. I made sure they were covered as I ran around them shooting out electricity towards Chronos who kept firing at us.

When Jax and Stein merged and Ray got his suit. Chronos then got hit by a car as Mick, Leonard and Sara got out. I scoffed and rolled my eyes "It's about fucking time" I told them, "Nobody cares you freak" Sara said as they began to pitch in to help stop Chronos. I stopped and frowned as I felt my chest ache. I tried, I really fucking tried to not let that bother me so much but it does, it really fucking does and I don't understand why because I know it's true. I know I'm a freak so why shouldn't I be used to that already? Why am I not used to the fact that everyone else thinks of me as a freak? I know I'm a freak; I will forever be nothing more than a fucking freak so I need to grow the fuck up and get over it already.

I groaned and shook my head of the thoughts before we all ran back to the Waverider and took off. I guess this Professor was Kendra and Carters Son in one of their previous lives. He got injured however so they took him to the medbay while we all got strapped in and flew far, far away from Chronos.

The ship had lots of damage done so Captain Hunter had stationed us in something called a Temporal Zone while he worked on the repairs which was like a time limbo where we can hide out for now until then. However Rip was angry on how wrong the whole mission went and that Kendra and Carter brought their Past Son onto the ship.

I scoffed and rolled my eyes "Hey Captain, last time I checked you brought US on this little crusade of saving the world and you know damn well what you were getting yourself into when you recruited us so I'd check yourself the next time you think your so high and mighty" I said while glaring at him.

He said nothing as Kendra then threw a punch at him for his son getting hurt and asked Rip who attacked us. He went on to explain that he works for his former employers which made us a little confused "I thought you WERE a Time Master" Sara said, Rip sighed, "As I've expressed, time's not a linear thing. At some point I was, in fact, a Time Master" he said as Sara then punched him.

I smirked a bit "Will you people stop hitting me?" He asked, "Start telling us the truth!" Sara shouted at him. Rip threw his arms in the air with frustration "I relinquished my position as a Time Master when I commandeered the Waverider. Chronos was clearly sent to bring me in" Rip stated,

We all stared at him with disappointment, "you lied to us?" Stein asked, "Of course I lied to you. I needed your help, you all barely said yes as it was" Rip said, "What about the legends part?" Jax asked, Rip looked at us and didn't say a word, "That was a fucking lie too, wasn't it?" I asked with my arms crossed. My ears twitched and tail jittered with anger, "I chose you all because a hundred years from now, your lives have minimal effect on the recorded timeline. I needed your help without disturbing the history of 2166" He stated with sympathy.

I chuckled "So we pretty much mean fuck all to the world huh?" I stated, Rip said nothing "Give me one good reason why we shouldn't kill you?" Mick asked, "Ditto the arsonist" Stein pitched in, "Because if you did Gideon wouldn't listen to your commands and you'd be stuck here forever" Rip stated factually. I rolled my eyes "SO why don't you just take us home then and then we can kill your ass after how does that sound? You can certainly see your family again when it's over" I threatened as I felt my electricity spark from my body,

The others looked just as pissed, "Great, so we're not an elite team of heroes on a sanctioned mission, sent to rid the future of its most horrific bad guy. Just a collection of nobodies who time really doesn't give a damn about" Ray stated, "I didn't lie about the mission itself. Or the brutality and ruthlessness of Savage. Or my need for your help" Rip said,

I scoffed "Do you think any of us really give a shit about that at this point? About what you DIDN'T lie to us about? You made us believe and think that we were something and that we could be something and yet for us to now know that we don't mean anything? To anyone? Do you really think we'd care about anything else you'd have to say to us at this point?" I asked,

Rip frowned as I shook my head "I don't imagine you're the kind of guy who quits his job and takes on this kind of threat for altruistic reasons, so Rip, why don't you tell us: What did Vandal Savage do to you?" Ray asked, Rip sighed and shook his head, "The Time Masters discouraged marriage. They urge against procreation even more. A Time Master should be free of any personal entanglements that might compromise him. But...I fell in love, and we had a child. A boy, Jonas" Rip explained as you could see his eyes glossing over.

We all felt pity for the guy "Savage killed your family" Ray answered, "he slaughtered my family. And thousands of other families, and the body that I swore an oath to serve turned a blind eye. They continue to turn a blind eye. I won't. The last thing my child saw in this world was that monster's face. You can be damn well sure that when Savage dies, the last face he sees will be mine. I understand given the circumstances, if you wish to return home. We can make the jump once the repairs are done, if and when Professor Boardman stabilizes" Rip stated as Kendra and Carter went to check on him.

We all just stood there and looked at each other, unsure of what to do next really, "I think we all need a little time to consider our options" Stein said, Rip nodded as we all walked away to think. Kendra and Carter were with their son, Stein and Jax were talking while me and the others were down on the Cargobay.

The boys were tinkering with their suits/guns while me and Sara lounged about. While Ray was trying to fix his suit, it went off and fired towards me and Mick. I jumped and hissed as my electricity went off around me. The others stared at me wide eyed which made me scoff and cross my arms while looking away from them trying to not notice that they were all staring at me like some freak in a circus, "Sorry" Ray sighed, "What's the point of even giving this a second thought?" He asked, "Rip has already seen the future. He knows exactly what's in store for each of us. Might as well have stayed dead, cause the world doesn't need any of us" He stated,

He looked at each of us, "you're just a lost assassin. You're just a pair of good for nothing criminals, and you're a human cat hybrid creature who can control electricity" He said, I rolled my eyes a bit as my heart throbbed at that word...creature huh? Just a nice way of saying freak...so everyone here thinks I'm nothing but a freak huh? Well glad to know.

At that point I gave up on everything else the others had said as I walked away and headed back to my room because what's the point now huh? My friends thought this was going to be such a fun fucking idea and only to come and find out that I'm nothing more than a fucking freak? To find out that my life really means nothing?

While everyone was still thinking about what to do, I eventually got bored so I headed out to the main room where the others were. They all looked at me which made me roll my eyes as I took a seat next to Jax, "Can I just ask how you're actually real?" Sara asked, I tilted my head a bit "Meaning what?" I asked, "the cat ears and tail? I mean how is that possible?" She asked, "Why do you care?" I asked, her eyes widened a bit as she smirked "Just making small talk since we're a team now and all" She shrugged, I rolled my eyes "Kitty's feisty today huh?" Mick teased, "First of all I have a name, it's Alexandra. Secondly why do any of you care? Because last time I checked Mr. hot head all of you think of me as nothing but a freak so why all of a sudden you want to know about me now?" I asked, the others looked at each other and smirked "Well, since we're a team now we might as well get to know the real you and we're just curious to know about your...mutation and that ridiculous code name" Snart said,

I scoffed "Oh you're one to talk Captain Cold" I stated, he shrugged "touche" He said, I rolled my eyes "The particle accelerator is what happened. I don't know how the cat part of me got mixed into it because I'm still not even fully aware of how it began because as soon as I got hit with the dark matter I blacked out and had no memory of what happened because when I woke up, I was in the STAR Labs medbay" I said and rubbed my head at the thought where I still to this day have no memory of.

The others said nothing, "Alex you're not a freak" Jax said, I started to laugh as I felt my blood boil. There is NOTHING I hated more then when people would tell me that I'm not a freak because they are normal people who have NO Idea what the hell it's like to be me and to look like this. I stood up and stared at Jax "Do you have ANY idea what it's like to be half cat?" I asked, his eyes widened a bit "well no, but-" he started to say obviously regretting what he had said.

I'm are it was with good intentions and he didn't know and I know Jax mean well but I cannot control my emotions especially when I'm angry..."Exactly. So don't you sit there and tell me that I am not a freak when you don't even know the HALF of everything I've done" I raised my voice a bit as my cat tail jittered and puffed up like a raccoons.

No one had said a word as they avoided my eye contact for a moment. I clenched my fists tightly and hoped to god I could make them. My heart pounded out of my chest as my breathing got heavy. I could feel my electricity start to go a little haywire as it began to slowly shoot out of my body and shake the ship a bit.

I couldn't help but laugh a bit "My friends had told me that I went on a rampage before they had tried to sedate me. They told me I had wiped out the entire City of their electricity for days and did a lot of damage in the process because I couldn't control who I was and what I was turning into. Not only that but because my cat mutation had formed, it made me eat from the trash and eat small animals for their meat like some rabid fucking animal. It made me throw up for weeks!" I shouted,

The others stared at me with wide eyes, "You have ANY idea what it's like to walk around your city hearing people whisper things about you? To know that your senses have been enhanced where you can hear what everyone says about you behind your back? To have everyone look at me with such disgust like I was ugly freak of nature. To have everyone staring at me like some freak who belongs in a circus. Those 3 right there and Ray have pretty much already called me a freak!" I shouted and pointed at Sara, Mick and Leonard who looked at their lap,

Jax frowned "You know what it's like that no matter how much I hide my mutation that everytime I look in the fucking mirror I will always be nothing more than a freak" I stated as I felt the angry tears welled up in my eyes. The others said nothing as I shook my head and ran back to my room. I sat on my bed and curled up into a ball as I covered my mouth and choked on sobs. God I fucking hate my emotions, I hate feeling this, I hate having to cry over something so pathetically stupid...I am weak. I am a weak, stupid, worthless, good for nothing freak!

(Mick's Pov)

Once me and Snart were recruited by this Rip guy to kill some Randle guy, Snart convinced me to join so we could kill and rob people. Upon meeting the others, I came face to face with the little kitty herself Alex or what she goes by Discharge. She works for the heroes aka Team Flash. This was going to be an interesting time that's for sure.

Once we actually got around to knowing her, turns out she more sarcastic than me, and feisty too which I think is pretty hot. She didn't usually say much unless she was mad at someone and needed to get her input in. I didn't come to hate her as much as I did before. I guess I didn't realize how truly mean and feisty she really is.

When me, Snart and Sara got back from kicking people's asses in the 70s, we came back only to find out the ship was being attacked by some Boba Fett looking dude. Everyone had pitched in to take this guy down, which of course meant I could burn him. I could see Alex out of the corner of my eye running at the guy on all 4's with her electricity around her. It was pretty interesting to say the least about her powers when it's not aimed directly towards you.

After we had managed to make our escape, the ship was broken so we were going someplace to lay for a while, while it gets fixed. However, shit went down as everyone was angry at the Captain. He kept getting punched in the face which I thought was really funny. Turns out he had lied to us about a lot of shit and that included being legends which actually turns out that us being recruited meant that our lives had no meaning to the timeline.

I mean I wasn't surprised by all of that of course but for Alex to be included to that? I don't know, something felt wrong about that, or I guess something felt wrong about me because I was starting to feel bad for her? Why the fuck am I feeling bad for her? Like I care about her? Eventually Rip said we did have the option to go back home so we all left to think about it.

Me, Snart, Kitty, Sara and Boyscout were all in the Cargobay tinkering with our stuff while Sara and Alex had sat down quietly trying to think of what they wanna do. When boyscout went on a rant about the whole situation he went around saying how we were all nothing pretty much. However when he told Alex she was a human, cat hybrid creature who controls electricity, she kinda...spaced out for a moment before she ended up walking out of the room, "What happened with her?" Sara asked, no one said anything and didn't answer her question but for some reason...I still felt bad for her, I don't know why or how but I did?

After a while, we all got bored and ended up in the main room sitting in the chairs while we waited for the ship to be fixed. Alex eventually came out of her room and walked in, which made us stare at her. I can tell it pissed her off as she rolled her eyes and sat next to the Kid. It was quiet for a moment until Sara had asked how Alex is real because of her ears and tail.

However, she got very feisty with Sara because earlier she had called Alex a freak and for some reason it felt wrong? I don't know. Anyways, she went on to explain that she genuinely doesn't remember what happened because she said one minute she was knocked out by the dark matter from the particle accelerator, the next she woke up at STAR Labs looking like she does now.

We said nothing as the Kid then told her she wasn't a freak. She laughed as we looked at each other with confusion. She then got so angry so fast that she rambled on about how no one knows what it's like to be her, to be half cat and everything she did. She breathed heavily with so much anger as I saw her clenching her fists so hard it look like it could bleed.

I frowned as explained everything while her electricity had formed around her, shooting out of her body, making the ship shake while the lights flickered on and off. She had screamed with so much anger and hatred in her voice. The things she's done, the things she doesn't remember and how she felt anytime someone had called her a freak and how all she sees is a freak...I don't know why I was feeling the way that I did but for some reason I felt guilty...never in my life have I ever felt guilty for calling people names but knowing that Kitty already thinks of herself as a freak no matter what she does and how long she hides? I guess she takes it hard than we thought.

When she had finally finished her tantrum, I saw the angry tears welled up in her eyes as she shook her head and ran to her room without another word. We were all speechless "Aw damn, I didn't mean to make her upset. I-I didn't know" Jax said, "Don't beat yourself up about it. You didn't know what was gonna happen. She'll get over it" Sara said, Jax sighed and walked away leaving me with Sara and Snart.

I couldn't stop looking over to where Alex had walked to. I felt a need to go check up on her? Again, I don't know why, I have no idea why I'm doing any of this because team or not, I still don't fucking care about her. She's still the enemy at the end of the day. But instead, my feet had took me to her room. I sighed and froze not knowing what to do because I sure as hell wasn't going to knock on her door and start playing girl.

But the second I heard her sobbing hurt something on the inside. I never heard her cry before, let alone get upset. She's usually so feisty, angry and snarky so I didn't expect her to I guess have emotions, like Sara almost but I also do have to remember that she's a woman. I don't know why hearing her cry made me feel...something, I don't know why but it did...jesus why are feelings so complicated?

(YAY Finally coming back to this story, so sorry it took so long. I have had the WORST writers block when it came to this story despite being able to write parts of other chapters here and there. That's because it's gotta follow along with the show and I just haven't been able to find time, energy or motivation to work on it so yea. BUT I guess it's easier to do anything whilst at my bf's so that's why i'm working on it now because i'm also so EXCITED for you guys to read the more dramatic parts. TBH those are my favorites which is why I try so fucking hard to make them good because the lead up to the drama and shit is what I live for. Anyways, I hope you enjoy!)

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