Chapter 10: I Got You

He rushes to my side. He sits down on the ground with me and wraps his arms around me. I know he's crying with me.

"Maybe we should go to the hospital." He says crying. "No." I say sobbing uncontrollably. "I'm going to be okay. I just need for you to hold me. Just hold me and never let go.""I'll hold you forever my sweet Maya." He says still crying. "I'm here for you always. I need you right by my side forever. I'll never give up on you. I'll be there my sweet Maya always."

He starts singing I'll be there and my pain just melts away. My heart rate slows down and so does my tears. I silently sit in his arms as he continues to sing. Peace fills my heart. Its crazy how badly I need this man. I seriously can't spend a second without him. Even when we are sleeping in the same bed. He keeps my nightmares away. One arm wraps around his neck once he finishes singing. I'm practically sitting on his lap. But, I love how close we are right now. There's that word love again. Why do I feel weird when I mention anything associated with love with him. Weird in a good way. No. I can't be falling in love with him. I just can't. I can't handle that emotional pain. Because, I know he will never feel that way about me. I will never be good enough to be more than just his best friend. My fingers find his curls and I place a kiss on his forehead. My free hand intertwines with his. 

"Thank you so much Michael. I'm forever bound to you after today. I mean you have me always. You will always have my heart. I will always need you. It's just after all you've done for me today. Staying right by my side when I spoke up there. Defending me like you did. You really didn't have too and I am forever grateful for you. I don't need anybody but you. I never want to be away from you ever. I can't function when we are apart. I don't know what to do. Because I need you so bad but, there are going to be moments when we have to be apart and I don't want too. It hurts my heart just thinking about it." I say in one breath.

I pull him closer to me and I can't help my tears. The thought of being apart from him really breaks my heart. I never want to spend a second away from him. I need him close to me always. 

"Maya." He says giggling a little in between his tears. "My sweet Maya." He says placing a firm hand on the back of my head. "My sweet sweet Maya. It's an amazing feeling knowing you feel that same. That you need me like I need you. I feel so happy yet I can't stop crying for you. Because you are hurting so much and no matter what I do I can't seem to take your pain away. Maybe I am not good enough to be your best friend."

"No Michael." I say crying with him. 

I straddle his lap unintentionally. I wrap my other arm around his neck and hold him close to me. Crying harder then I was before. He promised. He can't leave me. I can't live without him. He holds me tight back. I make him fall back into the grass. I need this man way too much.

"You can't leave me. You just can't." I cry out. "You promised you would never leave me. You promised you would never give up on us. You promised me forever. You promised me you will always need me. Please don't go. I need you. I really need you. I honestly can't live without you Michael." I say crying like a baby.

He lifts us back up. Now sitting again. He just holds me crying and I crying right along with him. I can't believe I said all of that. I'm so emotionally attached to him it's scary. Please don't leave me Michael. 

"Maya, I'm sorry." He says sniffling. "I never meant to cause you more pain. It breaks my heart that I just brought you pain. Please forgive me. I need you. I honestly need you. I can't and I refuse to live without you. You are my entire being. I breathe you. I live for you now. I never want to leave you. I need you by my side every second. You don't understand how much I miss you when I am gone. I can't focus. All I can think about is you. How I need you right by my side believing in me. I crave your presence, your touch, your voice, your love, your smile. Your entire being." He says crying into my neck as he grips the back of my dress. "I can't do it anymore Maya. I just can't." 

"No." I say gripping him tighter. "Don't leave me Michael."

"I would never. What I am trying to say is the complete opposite. I need you by my side at all times. I don't want you to stress or worry about anything ever again. I want to take care of you for the rest of our lives." He says and clears his throat. "What I am trying to say is I never want to leave your side again. I need you everywhere I go. My meetings, studio time, photo shoots, rehearsals, and everything else. Please Maya, need me like I need you around. I am begging you." 

I look at him with my face drenched in my tears. I don't understand. Why would he want me to put my life on hold to just follow him around? He gently touches my face and I bite my lip as he wipes my tears away. He comes closer kissing my forehead. 

"What are you asking of me Michael? Are you saying you want me to put my life on hold and follow you around?"

"No Maya, I want you to leave that job that doesn't care about you. Continue writing and drawing. Continue singing your heart out to my songs. Honestly it's one of my favorite things about you. Keep dancing like no one is watching. Even though I always am. Follow your dreams but, see the world with me. Fall in love with yourself. Be happy and worry free. Because I need you and it hurts so bad when you are gone."

I bite my bottom lip and just stare at him. Honestly I already know my answer. Of course I am going to say yes. I need him around all the time too. I will go any where if he's going to be there. I just need to be with him. 

"Yes Michael." I say smiling through my tears. "Honestly I'll go any where with you. I need you so much. I need to be with you at all times. I don't want to miss you. I want to hold you close and play in your hair." I say running my fingers through his curls. "I needed to go by my job anyway. So I'll just quit. You are more important anyway."

"Maya, I need you to do it for you not me."

"I am doing it for the both of us." I say smiling bigger at him.

He starts placing gentle kisses across my cheeks. I can't help the butterflies in my belly. I can't help giggling either. I kiss his cheek with him. I can't help it. The side of his lips lightly grazes the side of mine. Just the corner but we both pull away quickly. We both look away from each other. I am an idiot. I sigh heavily and try to pull away but he won't let me go.

"Michael." I say shocked. 

"No, please. Just stay like this with me for awhile. I need you Maya." He says into my neck. "I promise you tomorrow is a new beginning. The start of something amazing. I promise you nothing but, pure happiness and true love with me."

"Michael." I say surprised. 

I don't know what to say. I just wrap my arms around his neck and bury my face into my arms. What is he doing to my heart?

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Neither one of us spoke the whole car ride. I just held him close to me. His face is buried in my chest and my fingers in his curls. I swear it's my favorite thing to do. We make it to my job and it's bittersweet right now. I can't believe I am about to quit. I've been here for four years. I've always wanted to quit after the first year but, I got stuck because the pay was good. I am so happy right now. I just want to be in his presence forever. Be right by his side through everything with him. Make him happy. I'm so hopeless when it comes to this man. I don't even want to let him go right now. We've been sitting in the parking lot for ten minutes now. He refuses to let me go too. I gently caress his face. I swear every part of him is so beautiful. I don't want to be without him. I can't be without him. I need him so much. 

"I need you so much Maya. I just can't be without you at all times."

"Get out of my head Michael." I say giggling. "Mm." I hum pulling him closer to me. "I do feel the same way though."

"Maya." He says meeting my eyes. "I wish that more than anything. Just be patient with me please. I promise you I am yours."

What does the even mean?

"Michael I.."

"Shh. Not yet please."

What is he talking about? I'm so confused. I sigh feeling defeated. My grip loosens. I swear I'm constantly reminded why I will never be good enough for him. 

"Are you okay?" He asks. 

Define okay. 

"Yeah." I lie. 

Here I go again. I do it to myself every time. Every single time. I just can't seem to win. 

"Michael." I softly say. "I need to go inside now and handle business." 

I just need a moment away from him sadly. I need to get my emotions under control.

"Are you upset with me?" He asks with sadness. 

I bite my lip not saying a word. I'm not upset with him. I'm upset with myself because I allowed my feelings to grow this deep for someone who will never ever see me that way. I will never be good enough for him. 

"Maya." He says shocked and sits up from my hold. "Please tell me what have I done wrong?" 

You did absolutely nothing wrong. You are just being yourself and somehow I managed to fall for you. Just my luck. 

"You did nothing wrong Michael. I just want to get this over with. So I can start a new beginning with you." I say smiling from the thought of it. "Don't you still want that with me?" I ask looking at him. 

"More than anything Maya. I need that with you. Please just give us more time for something amazing."

My eyes grow wide. What the hell does that mean? What game is he trying to play with my heart right now?

"I'm yours Michael." I say before placing a kiss on his cheek. 

What no. I didn't mean to say that out loud. He looks at me blushing. He bites his lip and softly touches my face. He comes closer to my face. 

"I am yours forever Maya." He whispers in my ear. 

His lips meet my cheek. Where he stays. I touch his face softly and he pulls me into his embrace. Yeah I'm definitely stuck with these feelings. 

"Michael as much as I love being this close to you. I want to get this over with so we can get home. Where you can cuddle with me all you want." I say giggling. 

"I don't mean to butt in." Bill says. "But, we've been sitting here for about thirty minutes now."

Michael's lips leave my cheek but he only gets closer to me. His forehead rests on my shoulder. 

"I swear time stands still when I am in your arms Maya."

"You're sweet Michael. But, I must part for a little."

"Promise to return. I'm going to miss you so much Maya."

"Yes." I say making him look at me. "I need you Michael. Never forget that. Now behave while I am gone."

"I can't promise you that." He says sticking his tongue out at me.

"Boy." I say laughing. "Bill make sure he stays right here." 

"You got it Ms. Maya. We're gonna pull up to the drive thru anyway. We need some coffee after this long day." He says laughing. 

"Maybe something stronger then that." I say laughing loud. 

"Maya." Michael says shocked. 

"Oh don't act innocent Michael. I know you have had liquor before. Boy don't even lie."

"Only at special occasions."

"Yeah, I'm questioning if you even had that green stuff before." I say laughing harder. 

"Green stuff?" He says confused. "Maya what are you talking about?" 

Bill and the rest of his body guards laugh with me. I stick my tongue out at him. I open the car door. 

"I'll be right back Michael." I say as I slip out the car. "I promise." I say looking at him. 

"Maya wait." 

I smile at him and direct him to come closer with my finger. He leans closer to my face and I place a sweet kiss on his forehead. 

"I'll be right back handsome." 

He sits right in his seat and blushes. I close the car door and head to the entrance. Yeah I am screwed. There's no forgetting these feelings now. I slip in the building quickly and quietly. I head straight to the back where the office is. I know he's working today. I tap lightly on the door and it slowly opens. Greg's eyes grow wide when he see's me. He invites me in the office and I take a seat next to his desk and he takes a seat. 

"How are you Maya?"

"I'm better." I say smiling thinking about Michael. "I'm not here for small talk. I just wanted to pick up my check and to talk to you about something."

"Are you finally coming back to work?" He asks with hope in his voice. 

"That's what I am here to speak to you about. How many sick days do I have left and how much vacation hours do I have left."

"Let me check." He says looking through some files. "Well today is your last sick day. You still have two weeks of vacation hours."

"Perfect. Might as well use them and not let the go to waste. I've earned them. Start my vacation hours but, also starting tomorrow I am also putting in my two weeks."

"Maya." He says surprised. 

"I'm sorry but, I have to focus on my mental and physical health."

"Just know you are always walked to come back." He says. 

"So it's in full affect. Thanks. I'm going to say goodbye to everyone here." I say standing up. 

"Okay." He says just sitting there looking confused. "Wait Maya." He says quickly as I'm walking out the room. "Your check." He says handing it to me. "Will you be picking up your last check or should I just mail it to you." 

"Can't mail it. I no longer live there and I won't give out my best friend's address. I'll just reappear when it's time." I say smiling. 

I walk out the office with my check in hand. Man, that felt so good I can't help the big smile on my face. I walk over to the drive thru side and all eyes fall on me. 

"Maya." Connie and Lance says in unison. 

I smile at them. 

"Hope all is well." I say. 

"Well damn Maya." Lance says. "You are looking good."

"Yeah." Connie says. "What's the occasion for a sexy black dress? Michael perhaps." She says with hopeful eyes. 

I can't help but blush. 

"Connie." I say. "I buried my grandmother today."

"I'm so sorry."

"It's okay girl. You didn't know."

"I'm so sorry for your loss." Lance says. 

"Yeah Maya. We've been worried about you."

"I'm in better spirits. I'm really good now. I'm sorry about the last time you saw me."

"Everyone has their breaking point." Connie says. 

"Are you coming back to work soon?" Lance asks. 

"Maya hurry up." I hear at the drive thru window. "I miss you."

My eyes grow wide. 

"Michael." I say surprised. "I'm coming." I say. 

"I really need you Maya." He says. "I miss you so much."

This boy is too much I swear. 

"You will be okay." I say laughing. 

"Don't make me come in there and get you." He says. 

"Don't you dare." I say quickly. 

"Too late." He says. 

He climbs out the car and jogs around the building to the entrance in a quickness. I meet him in the lobby and he instantly wraps his arms around me. Moments later Bill comes in breathing heavily. I can't help but feel special. My fingers find his curls. He miss me that much that he would risk exposure just to be in my arms.   

"I see that it's Michael who put life back in you." Connie says laughing. 

"Are you two dating?" Lance asks. 

"She's my best friend." 

Way to crush my heart Michael. I cup his face and make him look at me. All he has is a hat on with his curls tucking in and his sunglasses on as a disguise. This man is too much. 

"Michael please go back to the car and wait for me. I just want to say goodbye." I say smiling at him. "Also hold this for me please. Since you have pockets." I say handing him my check. 

"I'm sorry please don't be mad."

"I'm not. I just want to hurry so we can get home."

"Okay my sweet Maya." He says and places a kiss on my cheek. 

Him and Bill walk out and back to the car. I turn back to Connie and Lance who both have a huge smile on their face. 

"There's something going on between y'all."

"Just best friends." I say lowly. 

I can't help the hurt feeling of not being good enough. 

"Awe but, you like him."

"Connie you are reading too much into it." I say. "I didn't want to be rude and not say goodbye to you."

"When are you planning on coming back?" Lance asks. 

"That's the thing. I'm not."

"What?" The both say at the same time. 

"What do you mean?" Connie asks with sadness. 

"I quit. Well I am using my vacation hours as my two weeks. But, I'm not returning. I can't."

"I wish you the best of luck in whatever that you do." Lance says. 

"Thank you. I know this is unexpected. I just want to let go of my past. So much has change for me. So much good. It's nothing personal but I didn't want anything to hold me back. There's nothing left in this town for me. It's time for me to move on."

"See now I can't be upset that you quit." Connie says. "I'm so happy for you." She says hugging me. 

Lance comes up and hugs me too. 

"As much as I would love to keep talking to you guys. Michael needs me and I promised him I won't be long. Until next time. Continue to be you because you both are amazing just the way you are and I am glad I've gotten to know you both in the four years I have worked her. Maybe one day when Things are better we can all finally hang out."

"Yes." Connie says and Lance laughs at her. 

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Michael and I have finally made it home. It feels so good. He barely gets the door open before I'm walking in and heading to my room. I can hear him following behind me. I'm trying so hard to contain my laughter. I just want to get out of these clothes. 

"Maya, where are you going?" He asks. 

But I ignore him and slip into my room. 

"Maya." He whines as the door closes.

I run into my closet and close the door. It's time for some fun. I hear him come in. I cover my mouth trying to hide my laughter. 

"Maya, I need you. Where did you go." He says walking more into my room.

Once his back is turned I rush out the closet towards him. Just as I make it to him he turns around in a quickness and tosses me on the bed. How did he know? 

"Michael." I squeal out as he climbs on the bed. 

His long fingers find my side and I squirm from his touch. I can't help how happy I am right now. I try to tickle him back but fail miserably. I turn to move from his fingers but some how he has me in place. I pull my legs up trying to shield myself. Forgetting all about my dress that rises up as I continue to squirm. While one hand continues to tickle me his other pushes my legs open. He comes closer to me and my laughing and squirming stops. We just stare into each others eyes and his hands softly lay on my sides. He bites his lip as he comes closer to me slowly. His big hands find my shoulders and smooths up towards my neck til he reaches my cheeks. What is happening right now? What is he doing? He stops inches from my face. Just breathing in my breath. 

"Maya I swear you are too beautiful for words. I wonder if I am really worthy enough for you."

What does that even mean.

"Michael." I start to say but he shushes me with his index fingers on my lips. 

"Maya I just.." He stops and sighs. "I need you. I'm only going to need you and no one else." 

His eyes never leave mine. 

"Hey, oh. I'm sorry to disturb you but Mike you got a call." 

His hands fall from my face. He places them on either side of me on the bed. 

"I'm coming Bill." He says never taking his eyes off of me. "I won't be long. Let's watch movies and eat popcorn til we pass out." He says placing a kiss on my cheek. 

"Sounds like a plan." I say forcing a smile. 

He sits up. He grabs my hand and helps me stand as he does. He helps straighten my dress out. 

"I'm so sorry about that." He whispers. 

I smile at him. 

"Go to your phone call. I'll be here."

"I'll be back." He says turning on his heels. 

He walks out the room and I sit at the edge of the bed. What just happened there? What would've happened if Bill never walked in? I know he could see my panties. I bite my lips. He made me feels things I haven't felt in a while down there. I sigh heavily and fall back on the bed. I'm in too deep. Why me? I just stare at the ceiling waiting for him to return. There's a light tap at the door and I sit up with a quickness hoping it to be Michael. Bill stands there smiling at me. 

"What's up? Does Michael gotta be some where?" I ask worried. 

"No. He's just going to be on the phone for awhile. He sent me to come get you. He says he misses you and hopes you will be by his side. That he needs you."

"Yeah, I'm bored here. I think I'm going to shower and change first. Just let him know. I won't be long."

"Sure thing." He says smiling before leaving the room. 

I get up looking through my draws for my pajamas. I grab the ones I want and head out the room. Michael's eyes find mine as I reach the living. 

"I miss you so much too. I can't wait to see you either." He says smiling big. 

I knew he has someone. I'm just here for his loneliness while she is gone. Wait what am I saying? I keep walking towards the bathroom. Not saying a word to him. I sigh once I close the door behind me. I don't know why I even did that. I might as well just shower quickly. I probably hurt his feelings. I turn on the shower and get undressed. I hop in washing away everything of today. I wash quickly and get out. I dry off and get dressed. 

I leave my hair out and grab my dirty clothes. I head back out through the living room. To see Michael still on the phone. 

"Maya." He calls out. 

But I already slip into my room. I place my clothes in the hamper. I head back out to the living and see a sad look on his face. I walk up to him and his eyes grow wide. I climb on the couch. I sit behind him on the top of the couch and he looks up at me confused. 

"Maya, what are you doing?" He asks. 

"Move up some so I can sit." 

He does what I say. I slip down in to the seat of the couch. Sitting in the corner on a slant. 

"Now come sit right here." I say patting the spot in between my legs. "Please." I say sweetly. 

He bites his lip and sits in between my legs. His back rest against me. My legs wrap slightly around him. Just enough to for my feet to rest on his legs. I wrap my arms around his neck and come closer to his unoccupied ear. 

"I missed you Michael. I just had to have you close to me." I whisper in his ear. 

I place a kiss on his cheek. 

"Thank you Maya. I missed you too. Now your favorite thing please." 

I giggle as my hands find his curls. His phone rest on his shoulder with his head on it. His fingers slowly dance across my legs. Sending chills through my body. 

"I would love for you two too meet." He says giggling. "Are you sure? It is a family thing." He says and gets quiet. "I'm sorry Mother. I just never want to leave her side. Honestly she means so much to me." He says shyly. "Yes ma'am. I will ask. Maya." He softly says look at me. "How you feel about going out some where with my family?"

Uh. That means I will meet his mother. The rest of his family. Will she even like me? What if I say the wrong thing. What if I do something stupid. Embarrass myself or even worse Michael. 

"Maya." He says sternly making me jump. "I'm sorry but, please get out your head. You've been through so much today already."

"If you want me too. I'll stay right by you side. You know I need to be near you at all times."

"Yes my sweet Maya I need you right by my side. ALWAYS."

I smile at him. 

"What kind of outing is it?" I ask curiously. 

"It's like family day at my mother's house."

"Awesome. Should I dress like myself or for funsies." I say. 

"Funsies?" He says confused. "The things that you say." He says laughing. 

"I mean should I dress for your childlike ways."

"Oh yeah. I'm planning on having so much fun with you." He says laughing. "But, also maybe a change of clothes because you might get wet." He says biting his lip. "I like water balloon fights." 

This man is too much. 

"Awe man now I am scared." I say laughing. 

"Oh yes, I'm so sorry Mother. Yes ma'am I'm so excited. I can't wait for you to meet her too." He says smiling ear to ear. 

His fingers continue to dance across my exposed skin on my legs.

"Yes, Mother you have a good night too. I love you so much." He says. 

He hangs up the phone and falls back into my arms. He pulls my legs more around him. His hands caress up leg til he reaches my thighs. Where his hands stay. 

"I love being so close to you Maya." 

I lay my legs flat on him and come closer to his ear. I wrap my arms around his neck. 

"Never let me go Michael. Because I need you. I need you so bad that it hurts." I whisper in his ear. 

"My sweet Maya. Please never stop needing me. I can't do this without you. You are my reason for everything. I need you so bad that it does hurt so bad so much. That's why I need you around all the time. I promise you are it for me. I promise in time you will see and understand Just how amazing this is." He says as his fingers caress up and down my legs gently. 

I lift his arms and wrap my arms his body. My forehead falls to his shoulders. I bite my lip trying to contain my moan. This man is doing things to me right now and he's not even trying too. 

"Maya, are you okay?" He asks as he tries to look at me. 

"No." I say quickly. "Please don't move." I breath out.

"What's wrong?" 

"I'm okay. I promise. I need a moment. I just want to stay like this. Can we just freeze time. I never want to move. This is just perfect." 

"I wish I had the power too. Because I never want to be anywhere but right in your arms. Unless I am the one holding you. My sweet Maya." He says and touches the back of my head. 

"Thank you Michael. I swear I can't get enough of you."

"Don't ever." He says laughing. "I swear I believe I am addicted to you." He says. 

"After that stunt you pulled today. I believe that is possible."

"Girl." He sangs. "I know you are too."

"Yeah." I say dragging the word. "Why wouldn't I be? I mean I am addicted to your music. I think I've proved that countless times." I say laughing. 

"Awe man. I see that you are a big fan of me but yet you treated me as a human being. I never understood that."

"Why wouldn't I? You are human. Why should fame change that." I say honestly.

"Thank you Maya." He says putting his legs up on the couch. 

"Hey don't mean to disturb you two but, I had made that popcorn for you. I'm going to head to my place. Just want to make sure you both are good before I go." Bill says. 

"Thank you so much." Michael says. 

"Anything for you boss me. I like seeing you so happy." He says smiling down at us. "Maya has been a true blessing to all of us."

I place my chin on top of Michael's shoulder and smile up at him.

"Thank you so much Bill. I love being around all of you guys. I really am happy to have meet all of you."

"You two have a good night and don't stay up all night. Okay. Also don't make yourself sick eating so much popcorn." He says to us. 

"Can't make no promises." We both say laughing. 

Michael intertwines his fingers with mine. I can't help but blush.

"Have a good night you two. See you in the morning." He says before walking off.

"Good night." We both say. 

He heads out closing the door behind him. Now it's just Michael and I. 

"Michael, what are you doing?" I ask as he turns around in my hold. 

He puts my legs around his torso. 

"I just want to hold you too." He says wrapping his arms around my body. "I need to be close to you right now." He says into my neck. 

Gosh, he's so close to me right now. I can't hold this feeling he's making me feel between my legs. Damn it Michael are you trying to make me wet right now. I bite my lip trying to think about any and everything else but how he is laying on me right now. He places a few tender kisses on my shoulder. Damn it Michael. I bite my lip trying to hold in my moan. This is so hard right now. Why me? His hand finds my hair. His fingers mesh in my curls ever so gently. 

"Michael." I moan lowly. 

My eyes grow wide. Crap. How did I just let that slip out like that. His hand takes one of mine. He brings it too his lips. Kissing each of my finger tips before kissing the inside of my palm. I can't breathe right now. He places my hand back on his neck. He comes up kissing me on the cheek. He sits more up on his knees and I can't help my legs locking around him. He presses his forehead against mine. He's so close to my lips right now. I can't seem to look away from his big cocoa brown eyes. His big hand gently touches my face. His thumb softly grazes across my lips. What's happening right now. 

"Maya." He whispers. "I need you. I honestly do. But, we need more time. Please be patient. It's going to be so magical. I just know it is."

I seriously need to stop seeing more than what it really is. I can't do this anymore. I can't risk getting hurt by him. No more. I refuse too. I'm fighting these feelings right here and right now. I can't take it anymore. 

"Hey you promised me movies and popcorn til we pass out." I say. 

His eyes grow wide and he bites his bottom lip. He sighs heavily and looks at me with so much sadness in his eyes. What's wrong with him? With some strength I make him lay on his back. Now I'm on top of him. I did not think this through. 

"Maya." He says shocked. 

I don't know what to do now? He just looks so sad right now. Am I the cause of his pain? I come closer to his face and his eyes grow wide. I touch his face softly and kiss him on the cheek. I lay my head on his chest and feel his hand on me. 

"Michael are you upset with me?"

"No Maya. I just..." He stops and sighs heavily. "I don't know." He says lowly. 

"Mi.." I stop. 

Wait where is his hands? I look down and find them on my butt. 

"Michael." I say shocked looking at him. 

"What happened?" He asks confused. 

"Your hands." I say and jump from his lap. 

"I'm sorry." He says not looking at me. 

We both find ourselves at each end of the couch. Just sitting in silence and I feel like the distance between us keeps getting bigger and bigger. The longer we sit here like this. I'm not even mad or anything. It seems like he didn't even know. He still owes me movies til we pass out. I have the perfect thing to watch. I use to record my favorite shows and cartoons growing up. I'm glad I still have it. I get up and walk to my room. I peek my room to see if he still was there and he was. He looks at me with so much remorse written across his face. I smile at him and slip back into my room. I go over to my nightstand and open the draw. I grab the VCR tape and head back to the living. I see he hasn't moved. I grab the remote and turn on the TV. 

"You still owe me movies til we pass out mister." I say sticking the tape into the VCR. 

I press play and sit back down on the couch. Awe I feel so bad. He turns his face away from my view. I hear him sniffle. Is he crying?

"Michael." I say worried. 

He doesn't say anything. He doesn't even look at me. I reach over and grab his hand. I feel his body stiffen up. My other hand touches his face and I make him look at me. He really is crying. Why?

"What's wrong?" I ask. 

"I'm so sorry." He says as he lays his head in my lap. "Never meant to Maya. I honestly didn't even realize I did that." He says taking my hand in his. "I'm so sorry."

"Michael." I say giggling. "It's okay." I say as I run my fingers through his curls. "I know you you didn't mean too." I say. 

I lean down and place kisses across his cheek and tickle his side. 

"Maya." He whines in between giggles. "Okay, Okay." 

I stop and lean back up. 

"Better?" I ask. 

"Yeah." He says sitting up and wiping his face. 

"Just know I am going to get you back." I say laughing. 

"What?" He says looking at me. 

I stick my tongue out at him. I swear he's so cute and adorable. 

"Okay mister. Let's watch movies til we pass out."

"Fine." He whines. 

He sits right on the couch closer to me and I sit side ways and place my legs over his lap. I lean my head on his shoulder and he wraps his arms around me. I'm really glad we can come back from awkward things like that. My fingers find his curls as we focus on the TV. 

"Mm. Maya." He hums. "Two can play that game." He says as his fingers mesh in my curls. 

This boy is too much. I giggle at him and continue to watch the TV. I swear this moment is so perfect right now. Even after what happened before this moment. I feel like it all brought us closer. I'm so happy being in his presence. Being so close to him. The way he makes me laugh. The way he takes away all of my pain. How he takes away my insecurities. 

"Maya." He softly says. "You make me so happy. But, I have to say at this very moment. I am so happy beyond words. Thank you so much." 

"Yes Michael." I say in satisfaction. 

I'm either talking out loud and not realizing it or this man can read minds. I swear he is too much. But, I really am happy and it is really all thanks to him. I wrap my arm around his neck pulling myself closer to him. He wraps his arm around me and our free hands intertwine. 

"Thank you so much Maya."

"Huh." I say looking at his face. 

He's already looking me. 

"For everything. You take my loneliness away."

"And you take my pain away."

"I'm always going to need you beautiful."

"And I'm always going to need you handsome."