𝐇𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬 𝐈𝐬 𝐀 𝐁𝐮𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐟𝐥𝐲 - 𝐋𝐚𝐧𝐚 𝐝𝐞𝐥 𝐫𝐞𝐲 ✰

Kai fucking Coleman.

"Yo, I haven't seen you in forever. You gotta tell me everything." JJ said while climbing in the car .

I laughed slightly to myself even though nothing was funny. "I dont think you want to know." I said while smiling at my brother.

"Oh come on, it can't be that bad." He nudged my arm. With a grin on his face.

"It's not. But today is your day, we're going to pay your restitution." I said with a smile.

"Thank you Jules, for everything. I promise I won't let you down." He said while closing the door.

I smiled . JJ could never make me disappointed in him. I'm so proud to be his sister.

We drove off towards the station and I could see JJ getting nervous. "Don't worry. It'll be fine." I said with a reassuring smile.

We got multiple eye rolls and filthy looks thrown our way once they heard 'Maybank' which is sad but expected. I contemplated on wether or not I should report what happened last night. JJ was happy and walking towards the door but I was stuck at the counter biting my lip. If I do tell an officer, I'll be known as that one model who was sexually assaulted. Whereas if I don't, it could happen to another girl. I stood there and thought about it for a little longer before I caved. This boy doesn't get to get away with it.

"Hey, JJ here's my keys go back to the chateau I have to talk to an officer about something, you mind picking me up in like an hour?" I asked while handing him my keys .

Concern flashed across JJ's face. "Yeah sure, everything okay?" He asked while staring at me.

"Yep just need to figure something out." I said before walking back up to the desk.

I waited till JJ drove off until I spoke. "Excuse me, can I speak to an officer?" I asked the lady at the front desk."Regarding?" She asked. "Sexual assault." I said quietly. "Of course, one minute and an officer will be with you." The lady said with a sad smile.I smiled at the lady and sat on the uncomfortable leather seats.

I waited for a few minutes until a kind looking officer came out. I followed the officer into the back room and told her what had happened last night. I gave a description but half the boys my age on the island have dark hair which was no help. The officer told me that I would have to help identify him if anything came up. I agreed and left.

I waited until I was alone before I broke down and cried.

Why me?Why do I feel like this?I truly hate myself.I took out my phone to text JJ and tell him it's fine I'll walk to the chateau to which he replied with okay.

I began walking towards the chateau.While walking through figure 8 I saw Rafe's black truck parked outside of a beautiful mansion. I sighed upon seeing his truck and scoffed when I saw the fake blonde haired girl climbing out from it. I stared directly at the truck. Just because I told him to leave me alone doesn't mean I meant it. I began picking up my pace so I didn't look like a jealous stalker.

"Hey, Jules. Are you okay?" I heard the familiar voice of Rafe calling out. I pretended I didn't hear him and began speeding up.

"I'm not stupid. I know you're ignoring me." He said. I picked up my pace, ignoring the pain in my side from where I was shot.

I tried sneaking a glance at his truck except it was gone. Rafe's truck was now beside me. "Come on Jules. Can we talk please?" He asked from the truck.

"No, I paid you 5k to piss off. And it seems like you're doing just fine." I scoffed while choking back tears. God. Why am I so emotional?

I heard a car door slam and felt a hand grip my arm. I instantly pulled my arm back. "Don't fucking touch me." I yelled.

Rafe had a confused look on his face. "What? Why- Nevermind." The confused look was replaced with realisation and pity. "I'm sorry Jules." He said while keeping his distance.

"You shouted out about my eating disorder. You used me for a 5k bet. You didn't even care about me, all you wanted to do was get in my bed." I mumbled.

"I know and I'm sorry. I do care about you, more than any other girl I've ever been with." He said while walking towards me.

"You did this. I liked you, actually no I really liked you. I hoped you'd be different." I said while turning away again.

"Jules please! We need to talk. Please get in my truck, I can drop you wherever you need to go. I just want to talk." He pleaded desperately.

I stopped and turned around looking at the boy before me. "I'm going to John b's, you can drop me. I'll listen to what you have to say but I don't forgive you." I said while walking past him and climbing into his truck.

Rafe hopped in and turned to me. "I'm so sorry about yesterday, if I hadn't have mentioned that party you wouldn't have been assaulted." He said while biting the inside of his cheek.

"I wouldn't have known the truth either so it's not your fault." I sighed while looking out the window.

"Are you okay?" He asked while looking at me.

"Mhm. Livin the dream." I muttered sarcastically.

Rafe sighed and began driving towards John b's.

While driving past a crowded house on figure 8 I noticed someone familiar. It was him. My breathing hitched in my throat and my eyes watered upon seeing him, I couldn't tell if it was fear or anger but I didn't like it.

It felt like we were driving extra slow past that house . "Can you speed up?" I asked while turning to face Rafe .

I must've looked as bad I felt because he instantly looked concerned. "Whats wrong?" He asked while scanning my face .

"That's him." I muttered while pointing at the brown haired boy who had his arm around a red haired girl.

Rafe said nothing, he just pulled over and climbed out of the truck. I watched in horror as he made his way towards the dark haired boy. Rafe towered over him and was clearly much more muscular than him. I watched as he connected his fist with the boys jaw. He repeated this motion until three other boys pulled him off. "Hey man, what the fuck?" The dark haired boy groaned. "Drop fucking dead Kai. I swear to god, I'll kill you." Rafe spat. I was in the car across from the street and I heard it. I can only imagine how loud he actually said it. I swung open the door and ran over to Rafe and tried pulling Rafe away. "Stop. It's not your place." I said while dragging his arm. He didn't move just stood there staring at Kai.

"I didn't know she was your girl Rafe. She came onto me first." He pleaded. Rafe let out a dry laugh and then furrowed his eyebrows at him before pushing the three boys out of the way and once again connecting his fist with the brown haired boys face.

"She told you to stop. And you didn't." He said in between blows. Kai's face was now a mess of blood but Rafe didn't look finished. I grabbed his arm. "Can we go?" I said while tugging on his arm. "Yeah, he won't feel it. He's passed out." Rafe said while tapping the bloody mess of a boy with his foot.

We began walking over to the truck and people were shouting at us but I just wanted to go home. I needed to collect my car from JJ and then I was going home. "What the fuck Rafe? I didn't ask you to do that." I asked while climbing into the passenger seat.

"He deserved it. I don't know what you want me to say." Rafe said like a child who has just been told off.

"It's not your business anymore!" I yelled . "Yes it is." He muttered."Because you know so much about me?" I asked ironically. "Because I care about you. And I don't like seeing you hurt." He mumbled. "You hurt me. So what're you gonna do? Beat yourself up? Grow up." I spat. "No. I know I fucked up, I know that. But I can't leave you. I can't be without you." Rafe said. "Oh for fuck sake. Rafe. You don't care about me, you don't hurt someone you care about. You'll be fine without me, you've done fine for the past 19 years without me. You'll be fine now." I said while leaning against the window.

Rafe sighed and started the car. "I really do care about you." He said. I could feel his eyes on me but I didn't want to talk. I felt the urge to take another shower. "Mhm." I mumbled .

Rafe dropped me off at the chateau and I didn't even wave him goodbye.

I opened the door to the chateau and all eyes were on me. "Jules, why were you with Rafe?" JJ questioned.

"Why did he attack Kai Coleman?" John be asked while standing up and showing me the video of Rafe beating up Kai. And there I was in the background.

"Let the girl breathe." Kie said while pushing John b's phone out of my face.

"No but really. What happened?" Pope asked while sitting forward.

"They don't like each other.. I don't know." I lied.

"Kai used to be Rafe's best friend. They never fell out, they just grew apart Jules..." Sarah said with concern.

I stared at them all before walking out. Never mind getting my keys, I have to go.

I swung open the door and just sprinted. I shouldn't have since my stitches weren't fully healed, but I really couldn't care. In that moment my mind shut off, it was just my legs moving. I ignored my brain telling me to stop. I just kept running until I was at a beach. There were so many old trees that had been too heavy to move so they remained in the sand, I sat down beside one and finally let myself breathe properly. I could feel the burning pain in my chest but I didn't care. They can't know. I don't want them to know.

After a couple of hours out there just thinking, the sun began setting and I decided I wanted to go home. Walking in the dark used to be scary. But I'm at the point where I don't care anymore.

Once I was home, I knew there would be an unpleasant greeting from my mother awaiting. "You're home. Some cops were here looking for you."