9- D-Day

I was uneasy throughout the day, for Minho left early that morning into the maze, and today was the day which I was to let Minho go so he could focus upon finding the way out of this shucking hell hole. Also, the fact that I wasn't sure how the shuck I was going to end our relationship. I was contemplating to not give a shuck about what Alby wanted, but then I would be breaking the promise that I made with him. I never should have made that promise with him.

The day passed by slowly and my nervousness grew as the time for runners to come back was coming close. Then that time came. I was standing by the wall that Minho was suppose to come through. It was the same one that Minho said he first saw me. I looked down the dreaded maze waiting for his figure to pop up at any given time. After a few minutes, I finally see him turn the corner.

"Minho!" I said happily and watched as his face light up with a smile. "Ji-ho!" he said picking me up and spinning me around in a circle as he entered the glade. I laughed as he put me back down on my feet and placed a kiss upon my cheek.

"Got to go to the mapping room, but I don't really want to leave you." he said as we both were heading towards the mapping room. I blushed thinking about what we did in there and that I was crazy for letting my hormones take the best of me than.

"Everytime that I go in there, now I'll only think about your crying face as you came." Minho whispered into my ears as we stood right in front of the mapping room. My face turning red as Minho smirked while kissing my lips gently and went into the mapping room.

I walked to the deadheads to try and cool my flushed face. I was pacing back and forth, trying to calm down my heart. Why was I going to give up this feeling of complete happiness? Oh right, it's for the best. Was it really for the best though? "Argh. What did I get myself into." I whispered to myself. I didn't know that time had passed so quickly, but the sky was getting less sunny and I could smell Frypan's dinner menu of bacon.

"Suzy." I heard Newt's voice from behind me. I turned back around to looked at a boy who seemed so torn apart. My mood instantly went down and I started to walk away, but the only way back way the way he had come. I didn't answer his call, and walked pass him.

"Please stop avoiding us! I know this whole situation is klunk and shucking sucks, but avoiding it itsn't going to make it better either." he said. I stopped where I was and turned back to face him. He was right that I wasn't making the situation any better than it already was.

"How would you know?" I asked as he now stood in front of me.

"You see my leg? Want to know why I limp?" he asked.

"How?" I said.

"Come on. Lets sit. I've been standing almost all day and need to rest my leg." he said and pointed to a log that was able to fit the two of us. I sat down beside him and waited for him to continue his story.

"I used to be a runner." he started off, if I wasn't angry I would have been surprised. "It was about a year ago when the original group was still around. Honestly, I still have nightmares about it sometimes." he said cracking a smile. "I was at my wits end and couldn't stand being in this shucking hell hole. So one day while out running, I decided to climb the vines and fall from the highest point that they could bring me. I wanted to die." he said.

I was shocked. Newt had always been so cheerful since I arrived that I didn't think such a thing caused his limp. I mean I did think he might have fallen the wrong way, or something crushed his leg. "You're so shucking stupid." I said on the verge of tears.

"I know. I'm thankful you didn't apologize. I felt like crap when people was treating me so kindly when I made the decision to end my life. They acted like it was their fault I decided to commit suicide." newt said with his fingers intertwined with one another, and his thumbs playing hot potato with one another. "I took my anger out on anyone was talking to me as if it was their fault. I was angry at myself, but took it out on the other boys." he said smiling softly at me.

"So I understand where you're coming from. Although my situation may not have been a romantic one, I understand how you're feeling right now." he said taking my hand into his. "I'm sorry for saying sorry." he said, making me chuckle as tears started to spill from my eyes. Newt pulled me in for a hug. He gently patted my back as I sobbed into his chest.

"I don't really hate you and Alby. Just so you know." I said after calming down. Newt started laughing, "Of course not. How would you be able to hate such a great friend like me?" he said jokingly. I playfully punched his arm and laughed along with him. We sat there and talked, Newt still had one of his arm wrapped around me as I rested my head on his shoulder.

"What the shuck are you two shanks doing together." I heard Minho's voice say from behind us. Newt let go of me and quickly stood up. "Well see you later Suzy." Newt said and started to walk towards Minho's direction.

"Hey, I said what were you two doing together." Minho said stopping Newt by grabbing his shoulder. Newt shrugged him off, "Nothing! Why you getting so worked up for you shank." Newt said.

"Well if it was nothing, why were you two hugging one another?" Minho said getting mad. Newt was about to reply, but I interrupted him, "Why not?" my voice making Minho's head snap in my direction with a shocked face.

"Are you shucking serious?" Minho said, his hands making a fist. "After we just told one another our feelings for each other, you're going to go behind my back? With Newt?" his knuckles turning white.

"That's -"

"You don't have to explain anything Newt. If you don't mind. I'm going to talk to Minho alone." I said emphasizing the last word. Newt excused himself quickly and disappeared from our view.

"Going behind your back?!" I shouted in disbelief, as soon as I knew Newt was far enough to be out of hearing range.

"Well I've never seen you hug anyone or let anyone hug you like that other than me! And sticking up for him when he could explain why he had his shucking arms around you. Did you sleep with him as well! Are there others that I don't know about?!" Minho's word felt like a slap upon my face.

"I don't like this Minho. I thought you were different...I thought you would be able to trust me, and not think I'm some shucking slut to go behind your back with one of your best friends! I never would have fallen for you if I knew you were going to be like this." I said angry, but this was it. I was going to end it. I was going to end us. Even if I had to hear such hurtful words, I was going to do it for the both of us.

Tears ran down my face, not because I was angry at his words, but because I was going to have to let Minho go from my heart. Even if it meant he would hate me forever, at least he wouldn't have to go through this pain of choosing to let me go.

"I'm sorry Ji-ho." Minho said sadly and walked towards me stretching out his hand to wipe away my falling tears.

"Don't touch me. We're over." I said pushing away his hand and probably walking away from the love of my life forever.