Chapter 17 I'm Innocent!

Being with SHINee at their practice room was pretty fun. We talked and laughed and of course danced. They taught me how to do Replay because I was dying to learn it.I noticed that I got a lot closer to Jonghyun. I always ended up being next to him and I couldn't help but just keep smiling to him.I knew that now I want to say yes but I didn't know when I should tell him.The boys wanted me to go to there place so I said yes. Maybe I could talk to Jonghyun privately and tell him how I feel.I took the van with Jonghyun, Onew and Key as Minho went with Taemin his car. I was first to sit in the van and a little fight started with the boys because they all wanted to sit with me.I ended up sitting with Key.We got to their place and went inside. Taemin, Jonghyun, Minho and Onew went to their rooms where as Key took me to the lounge room so I could wait.He put the tv on for me and went into his room. The channel was the celebrity news. All the gossip on what's going on with the famous.I found it quite boring until SHINee came on....'Now we talk about SHINee and there SHINee girl?' A lady said on the tv... SHINee girl? I turned up the volume.It went to a lady at a place live. Seems to be an arena? Like for concerts... Hang on.. That's the place SHINee went last!?!'On the last SHINee concert, a girl got hit on the head by a microphone from SHINees youngest Lee Taemin.' It then put on. Film from a fan of Taemin dancing and throwing his microphone into the crowd, hitting on... On ME!! It went back to the lady 'this girl was taken back stage and the show continued. Now this girl has been seen with 3 members.'I felt my cheeks begin to go red as the boys entered the lounge room. "Oh it looks like we are on tv!!" Onew said with excitement, he bounced onto the couch next to me. The others came and sat down too.It talked about the 3 members that 'I' was seen with. "Who are they talking about?" Minho asked confused.It then went to a picture of Minho and I running from fans, holding hands. Minho and I both looked to each other shocked and a little embarrassed. We looked back to the screen.'First the girl was seen with Choi Minho running from fans as they were caught at a gamezone together'I looked over to Minho who was really surprised that he was on TV about this. I peeked over to Jonghyun and Taemin who both looked a little sad.I looked back to the tv 'they then went out for dinner where Minho was wearing the girls beanie' it showed a picture of us eating at the resturaunt and then it showed a little video of us walking to his car. We-we got f-followed?'Then the next day she was seen with Lee Taemin at the Shinwa high school' it went to photos of Taemin and I at school, some were when we were in class and some as we were outside. Pictures of us walking and holding hands, Taemin whispering things in my ear. I looked to Taemin who had a little smile to the photos. 'No rumour says that Lee Taemin went back in school for this girl' Taemin sighed. I think I know who the last one is... 'Last one is Kim Jonghyun, spending a day with her. Seen at the amusement park, at a restaurant and ice skating" all the boys except Taemin looked to Jonghyun because he wouldn't tell them what he did with me that day.As the lady mentioned the places I was with Jonghyun, it would have pictures of us together: at the amusement park gift shop, eating dinner, ice skating with Jonghyun holding my waist. It even showed when we were walking to the amusement park and Jonghyun hugged me.'Here is a short film from a fan' film? The video played. I was angry and was sitting on a bench seat. Jonghyun sat down and I moved away, he then got closer, I moved away and nearly fell off the bench but Jonghyun caught me. We stared at each other until Jonghyun tried to kiss me. Then we were hugging and then Jonghyun kissed me on the cheek. I pulled away from Jonghyun and pouted and then Jonghyun kissed me on the lips. The video stopped there.I looked to the boys and they were all shocked, Jonghyun was smiling a little and Taemin looked like he was gonna cry.'This girl is either trying to get attention or trying to use the members. Could she be trying to break them up? Or is she really just an innocent girl?' I turned the TV at those last words. I looked to the boys as they looked to me. I felt a tear start to roll down my cheek. I looked down and wiped my eyes. "I'm innocent" I said as I looked back to them. "I did nothing wrong" I whispered. "Layna it's okay we know you did nothing wrong" Key said I quickly glanced to Jonghyun "I need to go" I say looking back to Key. I walked to the front the door and reached my hand to the door knob until I heard Minho start to talk."I didn't know we were being followed..." He said sadly."Neither did i" Taemin replied."You weren't followed! You had hundred of school girls around you! Didn't you think for a moment to why the girls had there phones out, pointing the cameras at you that they were filming and taking pics?" Minho yelled."Well- well at least I wasn't trying to get attention! Did you see the picture of Jonghyun hugging Layna in the city!? Right in front of all the fans!" Taemin yelled trying to defend himself. It did come to mind that Jonghyun might of done that for attention.No one said anything."Well I think you three boys are all using a bit too much skinship with Layna and that got the fans and reporters attention. Right now we need to think about the band and our reputation. You shouldn't be in public holding hands with Layna or any girl to that matter anyway" Onew then said. "So if we.. I don't know... I'm just saying this for no reason but if we dated Layna, we could then hold hands, kiss, hug in public?" Jonghyun asked. Infact he did all 3 things he mentioned in public to me."Well I guess, I mean you can't keep a relationship a secret. Someday it would be exposed" Onew answered."But don't get any ideas!" Key butted in quickly. "Well I already have asked her to be my girlfriend" Jonghyun said with a little guilt in his voice. I face palmed.Everyone but Taemin yelled "WHAT!!?" Everyone went silent after that. I felt a bit sad to their response because they didn't seem happy that Jonghyun wants to be my boyfriend."Taemin why aren't you surprised?" Jonghyun asked. "She told me" Taemin answered. "Because she didn't know how to respond to your question" he added."That's a first!" Minho chuckled. "Jonghyun you shouldn't be doing this" Onew said."Why?" Jonghyun whined."Well look at the news. Layna has been seen with us and in a 'not good way'. We need to cool all of this connection we have with her and let the gossip fade away" Onew said. I felt a little hurt to what he said... Does that mean we won't see each other?"Or I can be her boyfriend and everyone will know that we were dating" Jonghyun answered."But wouldn't the fans think that she was cheating on you with Minho and I?" Taemin asked."Well.. You shouldn't be using any skinship to Layna when I'm about to start dating her!" Jonghyun said half yelling."What about before though? I was seen with her first so wouldn't they think she is cheating on you?" Taemin asked."I was actually seen with her first" Minho quickly said."Does it matter who was seen first with Layna anyway?" Jonghyun asked."Yes it does!" Taemin said loudly like a kid."No it doesn't! It matters who Layna ends with!" Jonghyun said half yelling as usual to this convosation."And who is that?" Minho asked "you!? Why do you think you can have her? Infact why does she have to end up with one of us!?" He added."Yes why can we all just be friends?" Onew asked. I'm sure they were all looking at Jonghyun."I-I I well-" Jonghyun said stuttering. Did he even have an answer? I was dying to know like the other boys. "I want to be with her though because I like her and all I can think about is her!" Jonghyun then said."What if I like her? Would you let her go?" Taemin asked. He stood up."No! I would fight until I have her!" Jonghyun yelled while standing up."And if she doesn't want you in the end? What if she didn't even want you from the start!? Your fighting for nothing!" Minho smartly said also standing up."Then you would be fighting for nothing too!" Jonghyun yelled.Jonghyun sighed "why won't you guys just let me be with her?" Jonghyun whined."We just don't want her being put in the wrong hands. Jonghyun, you are how should I say... A playboy. You have had the most girlfriends than all of us and most of the time it doesn't mean much" Onew said.I knew Jonghyun was a playboy!Jonghyun said nothing to that, he didn't even fight what what Onew had called him."It's also happening to fast. Can we cool the problem down that we have at the moment and then you can think about relationships with Layna" Onew then said."Wouldn't that cause more commotion?" Key asked Onew."Hopefully not" Onew answers."I hope we all know now what happens when we mess with a fan. This wasn't mean to happen. Taemin hit Layna's head and in favour, we were to become friends with her. But you 3 boys have wrecked that-" Onew went on but I zoned out...The-they were only friends for me because... Because they felt bad for me!I felt rage, anger! Come to me. My hands clenched tight as I stormed back into the lounge room.They all stopped talking and looked to me with shock."THIS WAS FOR A FAVOUR? DID YOU FEEL BAD FOR ME!? AM I JUST A FAN TO YOU!??" I yelled to all of the boys. They sat there in silent.I gave a death glare to Onew because he was the the one that had said it."You wanna know what happens when you mess with a fan!?" I said to Onew very serious. I felt tears flowing down my cheeks now.I really didn't want to do this but I had to show my point.I slapped Onew on the face causing him to fall onto the ground."You should all feel sorry for yourselves!" I said looked back to everyone. "I don't even know who you people are!" I said giving each one a look. I looked to Jonghyun and Taemin longer than the others. Was what they were doing just an act!?I quickly looked away "I don't even want to look at you people" I said wiping my ears. I didn't even want to say bye so I walk out of there home.This time I didn't go out with a huge relieved smile and the heart skipping feeling.This time I walked out with tears rolling down my cheeks leaving wet mascara trails. I felt like I got shot in the heart and the pain shocked along my nervous system.

I felt so dumb. I knew this wasn't true! I wish this was just a dream and soon I'd wake up and everything would be normal again.I walked down the stairs slowly. I stepped outside of the apartment lobby and watched the cars as they drove past.I didn't move. I froze in the middle of the foot path making people have to walk around me.

I tried not to look back but I ended up looking to there apartment building.I could hear my name being called out but I didn't take much notice because I was too busy saying goodbye in my thoughts to SHINee."Goodbye SHINee. I hope that we never meet again. I hope that my heart won't barge or intertwine with yours anymore and find its way to slip past like the tears on my cheeks. The pain you gave me may be described like your songs but I'm sure that would be a heck of a song! Goodbye SHINee!-" my thoughts got interrupted by a warm touch on my shoulder.

I turned around to the direction of the person and was disappointed."Go away" I whispered, my voice croaked.

I didn't know if I was angry for a) it was Jonghyun and he came down to talk to me or what not when I said my goodbyes just then. or b) because it was only Jonghyun who came down and not the others.

I looked away from Jonghyun, I should of just left from the second I saw him but... I wanted to know what he wanted to say.I decided to wait for an opology, a explanation or anything for him to mean he wasn't guilty to this problem. I sighed letting a test roll down my cheek. "When you- did you- were you-" I took another deep sigh. I had so many questions to ask no when I was about to ask one, better question would come to my mind.

I closed my eyes and slowly directed my head back to Jonghyun. I took a silent sigh and opened my eyes, they instantly looked to his eyes. I noticed that he had time to get into a disguise though."You tricked me" I said. My voice was still croaky. "Did you think that I was stupid? Stupid enough to be played!?" I looked away from him and scoffed.I looked back to Jonghyun and said "you loured me in with your loveable moments that I could of cherished for life! But all the other fans you owe have the same feeling. Fans are just to easy for you! To easy for SHINee! Because you know what they want! You know what makes us happy!"

The sight of just seeing you makes me happy... That feeling when I get butterflies in my stomach and the shivering or shaking of my body was just by seeing your smile!

"But no today Mr! Today you messed with the wrong fan! You see I knew this wasn't true! It was so unbelievable!" I say."And I knew that it would come to a problem Where our friendship would need to end... I just didn't know it would end like this and this fast! But anyway what's so good about me? What's so good about this fan of yours!? Well I know when to stop!"

What's the point on talking to Jonghyun anyway. I wasn't even going anywhere with what I was saying. I was just trying to make him feel bad.I saw a tear roll down his cheek, his cheeks were red and puffy. His blonde hair was all messy. He looked so cute.

"Onew was telling us that he wanted us to stop with all this IOU stuff. Actually it ended ages ago. The only polite o-or nice thing for us to return a favour was being your friend. I actually did want to know you better and I can tell you that the rest did too. Onew just said what he said in a very cold manner, he was really annoyed with Taemin, Minho and I. You should know that he can be like an appa sometimes... I mean he is the leader. Layna we are really sorry. I'm sorry. Can you please understand that we aren't pretending to be your friend? We like you and" Jonghyun stopped talking and sighed."I really like you" he said calmly.

The tone in his voice made his words sink into my mind and think... He looked so sad. He looked like a lost puppy on a rainy night. His words were convincing, there wasn't anything for me to ague about except that he wants me to forgive them all.

I calmed my voice "Jonghyun I don't think I can forgive you all" I turned around facing the road. I took a step to cross but was instantly pulled back. Jonghyun had hold of the back of my jacket and swung me around to face him again. My hands pressed onto his chest."We are really sorry! I'm so sorry!" He whispered. I couldn't stop staring into his eyes. I could feel his heart pounding like mine. I watched his eyes as they looked down to my lips.

No no no !Jonghyun leaned in his head closer to mine, pouting his lips and eyeing my lips as he got closer. Please don't! It was only a few more centimetres and he would have his lips on mine.

"NO!" I yelled and pulled away. I stepped onto the road. "I can't!" I say, I felt my nerves start to go out of control. "I just can't!" I yell.I didn't know that I had step another step back. Being more onto the road. Until the noise of a car beep that caught my attention.

"LAYNA!!"

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Hi guys, sorry for keeping you waiting for this chapter.Was it worth it?I have just been so busy and haven't had the time to write my book. Forgive me?Anyway...What happened to Layna? Will she forgive SHINee?Do you think she is just over reacting? Sorry to the SHAWOLS because I know SHINee wouldn't be like this but every book needs its drama.Leave a comment if you like and please remember to vote! :)Thank you!!Got some more shout outs to the people who have read and voted :)Baekkie12 Park_YunRi I really appreciate the votes :) your amazing !

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