Chapter 19

Lizzie's P.O.V."What if I just call Jake so he can drop you off, its getting late Shan." Its almost midnight and Shannon insisted not to have a ride home. I offered her to stay but she said she made a promise to Casey that she'll go home tonight, but I'm not so sure about the thought of her walking home.

"I'm fine, I'll text you when I get home okay." She smiles walking towards me with her big backpack on. When my eyes landed on the huge scar on her shoulder that's when I realized that I'm still wearing her hoodie. "I'll see you tomorrow?" She whispers as she put her arms around me. It feels so good. I hum in response relaxing in her arms and say

"Yea, be here at 11 okay?"

"I might be here earlier, I'll miss you too much." Hearing that is still unreal for me. I had only been wishing for this to happen for two whole years and I've only heard her say that on voicemails she left before, but now, I'm hearing it in real time and not just a voicemail, she's actually here saying it to me. I smiled widely as I squeezed her getting too comfortable in her arms before looking up to her.

"I miss you" I whispered sincerely looking deep in her ocean eyes. She's here, and I can feel her and it feels so strangely good. Maybe because the last time this happened, I couldn't find her anymore but right now, She's here with me. "Please be safe."

She hums in response and leans down capturing my lips in hers as my heart explodes into millions of butterflies fluttering around my insides. A euphoric sensation with every movement she makes. My hands travel to their spot, one behind her neck and the other on the side of her face kissing her back while her arms wrapped tightly around my waist pulling me closer. I nearly forgot how fucking good this feels like.

"I can kiss you all night sweetheart." She mumbles in between kisses before pulling away looking at me. "But I really need to go." She pout sticking out her bottom lip like a kid. I giggled placing a quick kiss on it, she's too adorable.

"Alright then, text me when you get home okay? Did Casey changed her number?" I asked knowing Shannon, she tends to forget to let people know she's okay whenever people tell her to do so and I'm a living witness of that. I can't even count how many times I got mad because of that.

"I don't know but let me check." She pulls away from me and reached down of her jeans pocket for her phone and immediately opened it while I grab mine on top of the coffee table where I left it earlier and go through my contacts finding her sister's name.

"Here" She says showing me her screen. I compared the numbers and figured that she changed it, that is something. I brush it off and type in her new number replacing the old one with it.

"If I can't get hold of you in like 20 minutes, I'll call Casey okay?" She chuckles chucking her phone back to her pocket and immediately pulled me in her arms squeezing me tight making me giggle.

"I'll text you, I promise. I'll be fine. I'm not gonna crash into anything this time."

"Shan"I sighed and rest my head on her chest feeling some guilt in the pit of my stomach rising up again. I know I shouldn't be feeling this but I can't help it. That was my fault.

"I'm sorry, bad joke. Hey, look at me." She gently touched my cheek making me look up to her just yo be met by her lips again kissing me softly.

"I'm sorry. It was nothing, and its clearly not your fault." The tone in her voice wiped my worries away and all I can think about is her. I stared at her face from her long lashes that emphasizes her blue ocean eyes, that perfect pointy nose and that rosy lips down to her sharp jawline which is so attractive to me. It still feels unreal.

"What?" She smiles and I shake my head burying my face on her chest causing her to squeeze me tight once again. "I'll see you tomorrow." She whispers placing a soft kiss on the top of my head then completely pulls away before heading out of my apartment.

"Please text me." I say as I stopped by the door as she steps out in the hallway turning around to face me.

"I will, don't worry too much okay? I'll see you tomorrow maybe 8." She giggles and that made me smile. She's happy, I can see it and she's with me so that makes me so much happier.

"Okay, Be safe." She nods her head walking closer to me and giving me one last kiss before she goes off to the elevator waving at me until she was completely out of sight.

I smiled widely thinking of how this day went. We kissed, not once but too many times. I raised my fingers to my lips as I close the door of my apartment, feeling the lingering touch of her soft ones in mine. It still feels unreal. Maybe I was really thinking too much of it. But I can't help it. Keeping that in for days since I knew she lost her memory was torture. My mind was having debates on whether I should tell her or not with the following reasons. First, it might trigger something. Second, I was scared of losing her again and lastly, I don't know if its worth telling because I didn't imagine we would end up like this again.

Its so unreal

But I'm finally happy after two years, I can say that I am happy. No more wearing fake smiles and going through survival mode whenever I'm out in public. My safety net had returned, my home. Fate really has its own funny way around things and it amazes me how it brought us back together. I just hope that this is our last stop, I can't handle another turmoil that will lead us to breaking off again. I can't go through that torture again.——————Shannon's P.O.V." I kissed her." I smiled widely as I tell this to Casey. Her mouth drops open before holding me by my shoulders and starts shaking me in excitement. We've been talking about how my week went for hours and she's been listening to me, entertained with each memory I've unlocked. She has that genuine smile on her face and eyes that sparkle every time I tell her a new one.I told her about Elizabeth and how easy for me to fall in live with that woman all over again. I thought she was gonna flip when I tell her about the kiss, considering they kept me from her the truth of her for two years leaving me thinking that maybe my family didn't like her, but she was more giddy about the idea of us right

I've kept my promise to Elizabeth and texted her before she even calls my sister to ask if I'm with her. I haven't told Casey that I gave Elizabeth her number so there's a possibility that she might not answer the call when she calls.

"What the fuck? So are you two like back together?" I was about to say something when I realized we really haven't talk about that. Yes, we like each other too much but I really don't want to decide on my own and besides I don't fully know Elizabeth that much, and I just realized that right now.

"Uh- I don't know. Maybe we should take things slowly, I guess. I haven't got any idea who she really is. She just got this thing that made it easy for me to fall. I don't know her favorite food or what she eats but I know that she wouldn't go a day without having a protein shake in the morning. I don't know her what color does she likes, what type of flowers does she wants or wha-"

"Does it even matter?" Casey chuckle cutting my rambling off. I quirked an eyebrow on her and say,

"Yes, it definitely matters. All the little things matters Casey. Anyway, I really need to know her better. We've been focused on my memories and mostly myself since I met her that we haven't talk much about each other right now."

"Well, I'm happy about your progress. I just wish we told you sooner." She paused a sad smile on her face. "Is she mad at us for not telling you all about her?" I smiled, that's one thing, Elizabeth didn't seem to have an ounce of anger towards my family when I told her about them keeping my life with her in it from me. Maybe she understood in some way but I never felt her anger with anyone really, except for herself.

"No, she never did. In fact, she took your number earlier and said she'd call you if I haven't texted her that I'm home in 20 minutes." Her face lights up like relief had washed the guilt inside of her in over two years.

"Yea, you're really bad at that." She shakes her head scrunching her nose. I tilt my head to the side in confusion not getting a hang of on what she's talking about. "Shan, you don't let people know you're safe at home when people tell you to text them. So sometimes we text Lizzie on your whereabouts back when you were still together and I think mom is currently doing that with Zoë." She laughs. I haven't noticed that before until she pointed out. Well at first, but mom just stopped texting me after a couple of times that I forgot. Right, I'm bad at it.

"So what are your plans with Elizabeth tomorrow" I rolled my eyes as she mimicked how I usually call her name. Well, I can call her Lizzie but something just doesn't fit right with me calling her that. I love her name, I really do and I don't want to put that to waste by calling her nickname. What did I call her before? Is it Lizzie?

"She said we'll have lunch with Kathryn Hahn because she's in New York." Her face turns into a worried look and it made me confuse.

"And how do you feel about that?" She asks cautiously, looking at me intently looking for something I can't put my finger on.

"I'm alright with it, but quite nervous since I'm meeting another celebrity. Its just unbelievable. Why? What would the old Shannon feel about it?" She shrugged her shoulders and shakes her head smiling at me. She's not going to tell me.

"You don't want to know, okay." She stands up and stretched. Maybe I don't want to know, maybe its better if I don't know. "Alright what time will you leave tomorrow?"

"At around eight maybe. Do you have work?"

"Yup at around seven so I'll leave you to it. I'm going to rest, don't forget to lock up okay?" I nod my head and reach for my phone on the coffee table while she head to her room. I open it up and saw a text from Elizabeth, Zoë and Scarlett.

Elizabeth: I really had a great time today, I'll see you tomorrow. Don't be late okay 😘

Zoë: Damn Shan, the community is going wild with these headlines that you're making. Like WTF!

Scarlett: Rose has been having tantrums for three fucking days. When are you coming back to LA? How's things with Lizzie?

I text back Elizabeth first and say

I'll be the early bird if you want me too. I had the best time with you, even though half of it is just you being so moody, but that's okay. You're cute 🥰😘

Then I say to Scarlett,

Rose loves me too much. I'll be back on Sunday and I have work on Monday for Hawkeye remember? So I'll spend the night maybe Monday. Things with Elizabeth are good.

and to Zoë,

Oh that's why I have like hundreds of notifications in my Instagram and still hasn't stop going since I last checked. Anyway I'll be back by the end of the week, you better took care of my plants or you'll see.

I sigh with a smile as I stood up from the couch and stretched. Ugh! I'm so tired. This has been a long and productive day, from filling up for a sick photographer, then being a model to dancing and kissing the woman of my dreams. You can easily tell that is one hell of a strangely but beautiful day. I can't wait to see my angel tomorrow.———————-I woke up a little late than I intended to and rushed to get ready cursing myself under my breath. Its half past seven already but I was planning to get Elizabeth some flowers today, just to cheer her up a bit. She's a little bit shaken up last night so I figured I could cheer her up with some flowers.

I got out of my sister's apartment by 8:15 am and immediately rushed to the flower shop nearby. I'm wearing a sweater, some jeans and of course a pair of converse to complete the outfit. I'm pretty sure I passed by some paparazzi snapping photos of me running through the streets of New York early in the morning, but I completely ignored them because only one thing is running through my mind and that is to get my lady some flowers that will start her day.

I bought her some pink tulips which is the one I immediately saw and fell in love with, just like I was to her and from the flower shop, I booked an Uber. I'm not taking any chances of walking to her apartment, I don't want any screaming men to ruin this day for me. I was thinking too much of the paparazzi by the streets when I forgot that there are floating cameras surrounding her building as well because when we got there I immediately saw them on their usual spots snapping away as I rush in the building.

Well, they've been making up stories about us since day one, what difference does this make now. I brush the idea of the screaming men in my head as I stepped in to the elevator. I can feel the excitement bubbling inside of me. If its even possible, I miss her already like I haven't seen her in months. I can feel the thumping of my heart as the numbers got closer and closer to her floor and when it did, I practically ran through the hallway and to her door. God, I'm sweaty and out of breath, so I let out a few breaths composing myself before knocking on the door twice.

My heart is still beating out of my chest and it took a while before the door opens revealing Trent with a wide smile on his face.

"You're a bit early for lunch?" He says stepping aside and giving me a hug greeting me a soft 'Good morning' as he let me in before yelling, "Lizzie Shan's here!" She's awake.

Elizabeth's head pops from the kitchen her eyes landing on me. Her face lights up with that sweet smile appearing on her gorgeous face. She ran, launching herself to me with her arms flying around my neck making me giggle   while my arms made its way around her waist holding her tight for support.

"You're early, I said be here at eleven." She whispers in my ear but I ignored it and slightly pull back to look at her before giving her the flowers. She gladly took it and admire them in her arms, the way she looked at the flowers I got her when we first met in the flesh. I can tell she loves them.

"They're beautiful, Thank you honey." Before I could even process her calling me honey again, her hand rests on the side of my face capturing my lips in hers. It still gives me a euphoric sensation every time we kiss. I get butterflies in my stomach fluttering around, my heart wants to explode in my chest, my fingers gets all tingly, my knees feels like jelly and I have this huge wave of dopamine rushing through my veins. It feels so damn amazing.

She pulls away slowly her hand that is resting on the side of my face moves to the back of my neck as she bites down on her lower lip before looking up to me, and that made my heart skip a beat.

"Good morning" I smiled. She tilts her head to the side with that sweet smile of hers and whispers,

"Good morning"

"Okay, what was that?" Her brother's voice echoes in the room popping our own little bubble. Elizabeth sighs as our head snaps at Trent who has a wide smile spread across his face. I bit the insides of my mouth and open it to say something but Elizabeth beats me to it.

"Its self explanatory, don't you get it?" She smiles widely, a happy smile and this time it reached her eyes. Her hand touches mine and takes hold of it lacing our fingers together, it fits perfectly.

"For real?" Trent exclaimed as he walked closer to us. I nod my head in agreement to what Elizabeth said even though its not very clear to me what this is. I can't really tell, maybe the important thing is that, we like and understood each other. I wouldn't want to say love since that is a much stronger word. But I might be, I don't know. I still need to know more about her, I guess.

Trent pulls me into a big and tight hug almost lifting me up from the floor. Even though we're about the same height, he is far much stronger than I am. He is still wearing his pajamas. Well, I came here so early so that shouldn't surprise me.

"God, about time! Aww I'm so happy for the both of you." I chuckled as he pulls away tapping me on my shoulders like a coach taps his team on the back after a good game. It was brotherly like and it made me feel comfort in some way. I glanced at Elizabeth who is still holding my hand as she holds the flowers close to her chest with the other. She then turns at me and smiled, that sweet smile. God I can stare at her beautiful smile all day and I wouldn't mind.

"You hungry?" I snapped out of my thought with the squeeze of my hand and that's the only time I realized the grumbling in my stomach.

"Kind of, I haven't had anything since yesterday's dinner." I chuckled softly touching the hairs on the back of my neck. Elizabeth glanced at Trey who led the way to the kitchen and when we got there I see Jarnie plating up some eggs. Elizabeth lets go of my hand before going to the cabinets while I walk to Jarnie greeting her a good morning by giving her a hug and a kiss on the cheek.

"Mom guess what?" Trent starts making me turn to himseeing the widest grin he possibly can give before I glanced at Elizabeth. Her lips curved into a small smile as she fix up the tulips on a case she has in front of her.

"What?"

"These two have been kissing behind our backs a-"

"Trent! God, do you have to say that." Elizabeth groans rolling her eyes at her brother while Jarnie has her jaw dropped looking at the both of us.

"Is it true?" I glanced at Elizabeth not sure on what to say. Well, we are kissing behind their backs which is literally true. But I don't think Elizabeth and I haven't talked much about it and what this really is. I must've had that written on my face because she turns to her mother smiling and says,

"We're taking things slow this time." She smiles and somehow a huge wave of relief washed over me. So when Jarnie turns to me for some kind of confirmation, I nod vigorously in return. But even with that out in the open, Jarnie squeezes me into a tight hug before pinching my cheeks in a gentle and harmless way, a huge smile imprinted on her face.

"I really am so happy. Well, you're always been a part of the family Shan." I felt my heart being squeezed upon hearing that. Its a great feeling to have someone say that to you, an overwhelming kind of feeling. Maybe its one of the reasons I'm falling for Elizabeth, her family is just wonderful but then I wonder, how come I never met her dad yet.

"Thank you." I pulled Jarnie into a tight hug earning a giggle from her as I pull away.

"Now you're gonna stick around this time buddy?" Trent eventually says looking at me with hopeful eyes. I glanced at Elizabeth who looks at me with the same look her brother has so I say, with the purest sincerity,

"Yes" I wouldn't want to be anywhere else. This is meant to be. I just know it is.