19. This is a normal day nowadays

KENDALL

I don't know how this happened. At first, I liked to be with Cara, then I loved to be with Cara and then I loved Cara. But then she left me and I got so sad. Then she came back and scolded me for smoking, and I scolded at her for leaving me. I told her I loved her, because during the lonely months without her, I realized I was in love with her. And I of course did as everybody else would do, I denied it. I thought it was impossible for me to love another girl. And I mean, it was Cara! Who would've guessed?    But I ended up forgiving her, as I always do. I always forgive. But this time, I knew I didn't have to forgive her anymore. I know she wouldn't hurt me again. Her words were so real. I got to learn that she had been in love with me too. She also told me about her ex boyfriend who always looked down at her. It was so terrible to hear it. And I told her about my life.    But now we're together, as a real couple. I asked her yesterday if she wanted to be my girlfriend, and she answered her usual: "Sure."    Anyway, now we're sitting on the couch in her apartment and we are talking about random stuff. Until the unavoidable topic comes up. "But why did you leave me?" I ask her. She is rubbing my arm and looks worried. "I really can't tell you. But you know I didn't have a choice to hurt you, right?"     I sigh. "Right."     She smiles and turns on the TV. "But can't you give me a little hint?" I ask and pout with my lips. She chuckles and shakes her head. "Even that would be too much. At least while you're still together with Harry."     I sigh again and grab my phone. "I'll break up with him now if you promise to tell me everything." She seems to hesitate before she answers: "Deal."    I call Harry and immediately pulls of the patch. It is a painful and long call, but it is worth it. Everything for Cara.     When the patch finally is gone, I turn to Cara again. "We have a deal," I smirk. "Yeah, about that-" "No! You tell me Delevingne!" I immediately cut her off before it was too late. "Fine," she chuckles. "But don't tell anyone about this. Promise?"     I nod. "Promise."    "Okay so, the day when you swore so much, I got drunk on the club. I got this crazy idea I would go to Harry and kick him. So I did. But he then threatened me to hurt you if I ever see you again. He told me to move from New York. And so I did. I thought it would be more painless if I made you hate me first. And that's the story," she told me with a shaky voice.    I was mute. Totally mute. I could never have guessed. And I felt so bad for Cara. She really had done it for me. She had hurt me to not hurt me. It was so sweet. She really loves me I guess.    "How can I make it up to you?" I immediately ask. "Because I feel horrible for blaming it on you when it was Harry all along."     She smiles to me. "Well... You could kiss me, and then, maybe if it's good, I'll forgive you," she teases. I chuckle.    I lean my head to the right and kisses her. I tried my best to make it as passionately as possible, and if you ask me, I did it pretty good. "Wow," she says and breaks away from the kiss. "You are one hundred percent forgiven baby."     I pout. "But I wanted to be one hundred and ten percent forgiven," I joke. She put her hand on my cheek like she was gonna slap me. "Well, pity for you," she says and walks away to the kitchen.     I stand up from the couch and walk after her. I hug her from behind and place some kisses on her neck. "I love you, do you know that?" I whisper in her ear. "Now I do."     I chuckle. "I know you know that I know that you know Cara." She laughs. "Yeah, exactly Kendall, I totally understood what you just said." I bite her neck to give back to her. "Oww!" she exclaims. "That hurts." I just starts to suck on it instead so I left a hickey.     "I know you love it," I whisper and walk to the living room again to watch TV. 

     That was how pretty much our days went by for like a month. I was happy, and so was she. I always told her I loved her everyday, so she won't forget that. I hope she knows that I mean it too. I have stopped smoking, and Cara is like smoking once a day. We're making progress, both of us. Together. We're building up our relationship every single day. 

    I got to know why she had done everything, and I was so angry at Harry. I hate that guy. I admit, I was in love with him before I met Cara. But after Cara left me and I went back to Harry, it was never true love.

   But right now, we're just living our lives. And our lives owns!

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A/N

I wrote it a bit different this chapter because I wanted to try this kind of style. I wrote in present, and not in past from. I hope it was readable. But I will write as I always do the next chapter! This chapter was pretty useless and boring, but I hope you still like it!:)