Cosmic light

Jay's POV

Keifer! I hate you but I love you at the same time for being my man, loving you is like fighting with one's brain and heart. To be with you feels like I'm living the best life, I'm into my safe space but my brain, I'm afraid of going away of you it's a nightmare for me so I don't even want to expect us to be together, but my heart still believe that it can work out.

Uff these shower thoughts, but my mind is at ease when I told everything to me like some baggage was taken away, just his presence corrects everything and make me feel good. What should I do, and what about that little girl, what has she done, for her Keifer is her father and how can I take him away.

But what about our feelings, and what if when we'll have our own kids, it'll be injustice to them, God what I'm supposed to do. This man is crazy. how can he accept the offer of being someone's father, damn I want to hit him to the core.

I came out of the washroom, Keifer was still there lying partially on the bed, keeping foot on the ground but eyes closed, "is he sleeping like this", I sat beside him, "when you're away from me I wanted to be with you, and now you're here I'm afraid what if you left? or our fate chose to betray again".

He's lying still, but I can see his chest going up and down with every breath he's taking, my lips curled into a big smile, "God must have done a lot of hard work in carving such a handsome face, everything is just perfect about him even if I've so many people around me this man never let me feel anything for anyone else". 

I was staring at his face, and he's sleeping like an idiot here and my poor heart still adoring him, I took a tissue paper and folded it, tickled his ear with its corner, he squirmed and shook his hand to get rid of it and sleeps again. I again did the same, and smiled with his reactions, the way his lines on face were changing, he's annoyed and I was loving it.

Well, its aways him on the teasing side and I got a chance to do it today, I scanned over and found my lipstick lying. It's gonna be fun, I put on hairband on his head so that his hairs won't disturb and started showing my art, his forehead adorned with a squiggly line of pink colour, then his cheeks, "okay the blush for me", the nose and now lips, "my pookie Keifer". 

He's such a cutie, the way he's sleeping damn who can say that this man is a menace, kind of dictator and always busy in his world, possessive and can knock out n number of enemies together. How come I still love him, literally a human is a fool in love, a complete fool. [Well, if the one you love is good then hindi wala phool [flower] otherwise you're the english one}.  

"Jay!", he yawns, "are you done with your clean up, I want you to take to my place, let's go", I was laughing silently, he raised his brows to know what's wrong, but I stayed silent and suppressed my smile. He looked on his either side and then his hands went towards his head, and he found the hairband, "that's why I was feeling some tightening", and he removed that.

He looked at me, "you're still smiling, what've you have done to me", I nodded in negation, but he ran to himself in mirror, "Jay-Jay", and I ran to escape,  he moved closer while cleaning his face 'you've done such a beautiful art on my face, just take the reward for it baby". I stopped after hearing "baby", what the hell he just called me, this nonchalant man called me "baby", the fuck, he came closer to me, "what's wrong?", he whispered.

I came out of my dreamland and he's too close to me like inches apart, his arms expanding like he's ready grab me but I dodged, "you're stinking, get a shower you idiot", and he held my hand, "nope, it's fragrance of my love, just come closer and experience it", but I pushed him, this time a little hard.

That man chose to pull me with himself, and behind us it's bed and he fell on it and I was over him lost in his deep eyes, like they're something I want to dive in and never come back, so precious like a diamond, I took a deep breath, "I hate you", but he calmly said, "love you too", I want to punch his face and damage the world's most beautiful creation.

I felt his hands moving down my waist and tightening grips, and he reciprocated the position, "better", he said while his one hand locked with mine and other behind my head, "our kids will be the most beautiful ever in this world", he said in very serious tone that I literally nodded in affirmation and tbh he's right though, we'll make some good product together.

I saw him smiling, and shook my head, the hell I'm thinking like him and daydreaming about kids...our kids, and saw his ears turning red, is he blushing for real? "don't you have a daughter already? your family?", I sarcastically said, but he turned serious, "I don't have any grudge against that kid, I care about her but that does not mean she's my daughter. I'll never hurt her but if there's choice, I'll always choose you Jay".

His voice was determined, and maybe this was the thing I want to hear, "so what about Diana being your fiancée, the paternity test report and..", he pecked my lips to silent me, "when you can challenge her openly then why do I've to take the stress of proving my innocence, Jay?". Did he know that I met Diana yesterday, maybe yes.

Everything is too complicated, I don't know what'll happen next but his words, should I trust them? Should I trust over fate? There are lot of questions in my mind but still I'm feeling relaxed cause he's in front of me, he's alive the man I love still claiming that he loves me.

"You know what?", he asked in a gentle voice, "I never thought that I'll fall this hard for someone, that Mark Keifer Watson can cry for someone, but I did... for you Jay! But it hurts that you're in pain and that too because of me, the one I love is suffering because of me, it haunts me Jay that how'll I survive the day when you'll not be loving me anymore. I used to sleep with a fear that what if you'll stop loving me when I woke up the next day".

Then why the hell you idiot, dumbhead chose to suffer and didn't came to me but here borrowed a girl and a kid, I hit him on the chest, "we would have find some solutions just in case you showed up yourself, it must not have turn out to be a catastrophic for our lives". 

His grip get loose, but eyes never moved but stuck on my face, little shiny due to tears, "I love you Jay, and I won't get tired of saying this that I love you until scientists finds the end of the universe", his voice trembled, I don't know what to say anymore but he took my hand and placed it near his heart, "can you feel it, my heartbeat...it's too high", he sighed. 

He kind of surrendered his body like he's giving me all the things belongs to him, "it's my mistake that I decided everything my own, and leaving you alone feels like worse decision I took but Jay I was clueless and chose whatever felt feasible and life turned out like this", he dugs his face into my neck, I could feel his warm breaths. 

Even my heartrate was high, his every word felt like the injustice life did to us, but the way we're close right now raising a hope, a new start, should I give a chance to him? to myself? to our destiny? Maybe one more time. 

I gently raised his head and cupped his face, "are you sure this time?", my voice was too low, he just nodded, "I'll make it this time, I'm not leaving things just they are like last time but taking it in my hands and will fight for you like a man, even against the God". 

Maybe this was enough for me trust him, I couldn't hold and pressed my lips against his warm lips and he responded, it felt like we're coming back to each other, to the place we really belong, the place where we find peace. The kiss was really soft, he's too slow like he does not wanna let go me but hold until the end. 

His warm touches on my body felt like something I was yearning for a long, no matter how much I tried avoiding him but at the end we both knows this that love between us never faded, it's intact but the distance only strengthened it, "After all this time, it's always you Jay", he whispered and I smiled, "you're like the cosmic light appeared in my dark cosmos, now it's brightening the whole space", his words never disappoints me. 

He rubs my cheekbones with his hands, and pressed his forehead against mine, "are you giving me a chance? to correct everything?", and I was about to say something, but the door of the room suddenly opened, we looked towards it and Keiran was standing with confused expressions on his face which soon turned into a grin. 

I pushed Keifer hard, he nearly fall, "I just came to call you for breakfast but seems like you're already having one", and he smirked and I can really see a reflection of Keifer in him, and I looked at Keifer who was himself grinning, this man don't even care that his little brother is teasing him. I turned to Keiran and tried to change the topic, "ahh.. we already ate before coming here".

He just nodded, "I'm leaving, you guys can continue", this little Watson is becoming mischievous day by day, Keifer laughs, "you're truly my brother", and I just sighed but Keiran hugs me, "no, I'm hers first then comes you, she's treats me better than you", honestly I didn't expect this but it elated my mood, "at least a Watson finally choosing me", and I wrapped my hands around him.

Keifer scoffed, "tss... even I'll choose you, just hug me in the same way", the audacity of this man to flirt every time and in front of anyone, but I ignored him, he turned to Kieran"do you love her more than your brother?", he nods, "yes.. and yk I would love to have a girlfriend like her, she's like a cosmic light of our dark universe enlightening our space, I wish I was big, I'd have not delayed my wedding with you".

I was literally shocked with his answers, same dialogues and I realized there's no need of DNA test, they're brothers by blood, but when I saw Keifer he's looking Keiran with side eyes and came closer and pulled him away, "she's your Ate, like a big sister and future sister in law", he nods, "I know, Kuya but I'm telling you if you ever dared to leave her again and make her cry I'd never forgive you".

Keifer knelt down in front of him and hugs him, "I promise, I'd never go again, and will never leave you, Keigan and your Ate Jay", and he kissed his forehead, "your big brother will always be there to protect you, and will remain grateful for Jay for taking care of you guys in my absence", he looked at me with teary eyes, "I don't know how I'll be able to pay back to you for it". 

I can't believe this man, the definition of masculinity is a crybaby, Keiran wiped off his tears, "just love her more than she loves us, keep her happy and trust me Kuya we all will have a happy life forever", this kid literally said such a great thing in anonymity and I wish you'll be this much sane Keifer to understand it.

Keifer got up, "it's time for action, Jay I'll meet you in the evening. there's a lot which I've to correct. I don't want to but I'm leaving for now, see you soon", he turned to Keiran, "she's your Ate, stop thinking about marrying her and she's already my wife", I chuckled over his non-sense, this man is getting jealous of his little brother.

I might have forgiven you but Keifer it does not mean I agree to be with you, I've not replied to your love you cause it's just you need my help to turn down the trap of Diana and once we're done with that and get back to London then you're going to pay for your absence, you've to chase me again, like a new start.

But it's time to close the chapter of Diana, it's too much and no third person can come to ruin the things, I know you're on the same mission and I'm gonna help you for that, thanks to Rory he's find out the one who forged the reports, I wish we can find Diana's boyfriend, the real father of Ivy.

New year is approaching, I want to celebrate it happily with Keifer and his brothers, and also my own family, Kuya Angelo, aunty, uncle, even I'm missing my parents, and my Section E, I want to go back to Manila to see them all.

It's already noon, and it does not matter how much I deny but I want to be with all the time, it's time for lunch. Though he said for evening, but I want to eat with him right now, should I go... yes I should cause he owe me and he needs to serve me with meals he himself prepared. 

I will pay a surprise visit to his home, let me see how's it is. It made me happy that he does not live with Herbert but he's his different place, he knows to form boundaries, and stay in limits. But before that I got a message, "Hotel Heaven, great". Without wasting a moment, I visited there, then headed towards Keifer, well he's not at his home but had his location, he's at Herbert Mansion. 

When I reached there, Diana was standing close to Keifer, and Ivy sleeping on the bed, seems like they're kissing, my blood boiled, but before I move in he pushed her, "I was here for Ivy, not for you", and I made my entry like Hermoine with her magic spells. I pushed Diana, "well, that's not how you kiss Keifer, it's only my lips which deserves to taste them".

And I looked at him and raised my toes to reach his height, "I hate to struggle to reach you Burj Khalifa", and I placed my lips against his, it's not soft but it's to claim him as mine in front of whole world, I can't let anyone claim him, maybe things are little off but it does not change the fact that we belong to each other. 

To Be Continued...

----------------------------------------------Hello! hope you're all good and doing well in your life. I planned to write something else but ended up with this one cause of my light mood. So, it's just me recovered from the cold-cough & I'm having it again and then headache, ahh my audacity to wash my hair at night but guys take care of yourself, the climate is tough now-a-days. See you soon in next chapter...