It hurts

Keifer's POV

I was unable to sleep again, the night was dark due to the new moon but still there's calmness in the environment. Maybe she's right here with me and I'm feeling like she's not that ignorant of me, I mean noticing me lately.

The wind was a little cold, it blew on my face to make me realise there's still something left worth living, and she's the essence of my life, there might be some reason we met again. Maybe destiny has some plans for us. I peeked into her balcony but the door was closed, just one glance Jay.

I went inside the room, looked for a good book, insomnia and college entrance made me a reader, I sat at the corner of bed and started reading. Soon Jay came and held my hand, "Keifer, I missed you", and I hugged her tightly, "I missed you too".

We looked into each other's eyes, and our lips met, the end of a long desperation, like it's all we need to live, I hugged her again, rubbed her palms, "don't give up on me", and soon I felt like something hit me, "asshole", and I opened my eyes, it's Jay standing in front of me who threw bag on my face.

I stood up, "what? Are you sleepwalking?", she just gave me a death stare and left, I followed her, "what's wrong?", but she literally closed the door on my face, "ahhh", I groaned as it hit my face.

Jay- Jay at least tell me what it's for, why I'm being punished, was she really sleepwalking or maybe on her periods and this was a consequence of her mood swings. Or maybe hitting me for my past deeds, I rubbed my nose and it turned red, there was no other option than to wait for morning.

I just woke up and started brushing my teeth and the door bell, "who can be there in the morning?", before I move, Jay opened the gate and it's Ben-jaa-miin, literally he's here and greeted her with a smile and she too reverted with a grin. They left without a moment and I just kept watching them.

Jay's POV

I was in the elevator with Ben, "you were asking for a chance?", his eyes sparkled, "will you give me one?". I nodded, "maybe yes". He held my hands, "really! Thank you", I pulled off my hands, "I don't have such feelings for you but...", he cut me off, "I'll do anything to keep you happy". I forced a smile.

Soon, we're in the college and went to the cafeteria to grab some food, "our class is still merged with another section for about a week more", Ben told me, I nodded, that's pretty good, I can keep an eye on Kiefer.

As the class started Ben found a seat for us to sit together, but I was looking for Keifer, he's late but entered before the Prof. came, he was approaching me, but someone held his hand, "sit with me, Keifer", it's Kerry. I saw Isla and called her to sit with me, he took another seat and Kerry joined him.

Why am I bothered? Why am I not able to shift my attention? Why does it still hurt? Ben brings me out of my thoughts, he's such a nice man who always helps me but I never felt such attraction, but I won't mind giving him a chance. 

After the lectures, class dispersed and Keifer approached me again, "Jay, I want to ask something", I ignored him, he tried stopping me by holding my hand, "I'm talking to you". I looked deep into his eyes, "but I don't want to, let's go Ben", I was not comfortable but I held Ben's hand and moved out.

He kept standing there, I really can't understand what's in his mind and I saw Kerry coming near her, my fists clenched and I just left for my practice session as the shooting competition was on the corner, Ben followed me. I changed into a sports uniform and Ben helped me in setting the target, but my eyes were more on Keifer standing behind the door.

He's my constant supporter, if it's not him then I might not have held the gun again and came too far. Why God? we've such beautiful memories but not us together, it really hurts.

*Flashback*

Jay's POV

The preparation for annual sports started and all the sections were practicing together. Finally, I made it, when I got to know our section is not allowed in sports meet, I met Keifer first then directly went to the guidance office and confronted them. They gave such lame excuse and by chance Keifer was there, I argued with him for the inclusion of our section.

The incharge teacher stopped us, "maybe you also want to get transferred to Section E Mr Watson", Keifer looked at me, still engaged in arguments. He was irritated but didn't have a counter to my point as I said, "we're a part of this school",he thought for a moment and requested the in-charge to consider it.

And we both came out, and high- fived, "damn Jay, your plan was amazing to confuse teachers and pressurize them to think". I rolled my shoulders, "well, I know I'm smart". He coughs, "but do you think you'd done it without me, what about a thank you".

I pouted, "Felix was really sad but now he'll participate in Basket ball". Keifer pulled me by the collar, "seriously, you're meddling for them again". I nodded, "but why did you help me?", and he coughed, "they say I've catched your attention".

He scoffed, "ahh...aren't you participating in any game". I denied, "no, I'm not into this" and "Gun- shoot, Aried told.." before he completed his sentence I left without saying anything. Huh.. he helped, actually it's his duty as a President to help me.

I was standing near Ci-N who was into table tennis, but everyone's attention shifted to a sound, "someone is into Gun- shoot", my eyes went on Yuri practicing for it. He's good at targeting, "he's the only one into this game, formerly there was Alex but now no one to give him competition", Ci-N told me.

I know I can do better, as my posture is much better and technique more fine due to training by a Chinese coach. But I know my hands won't be able to load the gun again. Denzel compliments Yuri, "no one can really defeat you man, you're awesome"

Eman too joins him, "yes, not like someone who was defeated by a girl", the section E laughs, and everyone knows they're saying it to trigger Keifer. He's calm, "maybe I can do that", he replied. Aries too joins him, "come on Keif".

I was seeing it from a distance, and didn't have the courage to go ahead, but Ci-N dragged me, "seems like there's gonna be a fight, entertainment", I pulled off, "grab some popcorn then", he still took me.

Keifer took the gun, he's holding it like a newbie and he's supposed to compete with Yuri, well the game started and Keifer loaded the gun but Yuri already achieved his target till then.

The whole section E mocked him, "looser, looser", Freya came in between, "come on Keifer, when you don't know then why are you embarrassing the class".

Yuri smirked, "so called President lost", Edrix counters, "if you've courage then take the challenge for Basketball. He came ahead, Keifer looked at me then Yuri, "there's no wrestling on schedule", the PT teacher tried to arbitrate. Tbh I was not interested in this and I just silently left.

After a while I returned, as it's break time and thought no one would be there, I moved in but someone was there, it's Keifer, again holding the pistol wrongly, "you'll never be able to aim like this", I said from behind. He turned towards me, "like you know".

I moved towards him, "I do", he forwarded the pistol, "go ahead", I stepped back, "no", and the most horrible things I faced came in front of my eyes, there's a time when this was my love and now I'm afraid. He snapped his fingers, "if you can't then don't distract me".

He kept murmuring, "I can' t bear the humiliation again, I've to win", this man and his ego, I gestured to him to hold it properly. He's again failing so I finally moved and made him hold it in a proper way, our hands and arms touched and fingers tangled for a moment.

We looked into each other's eyes, I placed his finger on the trigger and went behind him, it's difficult to reach his hand properly, "you're so tall", he just pulled me ahead, in between his arms and my heart skipped a beat.

He was breathing over my head, he bent a bit, his arms placed over my shoulders and face just beside mine, "now tell me", he whispered, and I really forgot everything, he's too close to me, his cheeks touched mine and it's electrifying, "come on', he said.

After almost eight months I hold the pistol again, though I was teaching him but I know how much I missed it, his hands were holding mine, I guided him, "stretch your one hand, and look at the target properly, then just close your one eye to focus and then shoot", and I pulled the trigger, and damn, even after months I scored 9 points.

I noticed it's just me who shooted, his hands already slipped down , he's just holding my waist and resting chin on my head, I shrugged him off, "what?", he backed off, "see, you're such an awesome player, go ahead".

Keifer turned me towards him, "you'd keep fighting", I kept the pistol down, "do you even have an idea about what happened to me? I was sued without any reason, how's my life then, I didn't brag about it but it's tough and it still haunts me". He held my hands, "I don't know what exactly happened to you but giving up can't be an option".

He sighed, "I chose to get humiliated in front of all so that you'll pick up a pistol again, now it's your choice, maybe life is giving you a second chance". I never felt so touched like it's with his words, and I looked at the pistol and picked it up again.

*Flashback over*

Jay's POV

A smile formed around my lips, as I remember how we got so close to him during the competition, different sections never became the barrier, but I started feeling something for him, he's becoming special for me, his presence became important. We're supporting each other, I was cheering for him in basketball, and him in shooting.

Soon,  came out of my memories, I did warm up and started aiming, but I was unable to focus properly, "I'm distracted", Ben gives me water, "maybe you need a little rest", he approached me to take off my lens off, but I pushed his hands, "don't", it's my instant reaction, I don't like someone touching me.

He was startled, "are you alright?", I nodded, "we should eat something", we went towards the cafeteria and bought a bread roll, Isla waved towards me and the whole class was almost sitting there. Kerry calls Keifer who was busy on the phone by sitting in the corner, he too joins.

Fred, one of our classmates, grinned while looking at me and Ben, "where were you guys?", I squeezed my eyes, "practice session", Keifer interrupted, what the hell is with him, no matter what the time of place is, he can't change, always wants things to go his way. Ria tries to conclude things, "but Ben is not in sports, seems like you guys are going well along".

"Yes, we're together", I said looking at Keifer, his expressions were dark but unreadable at the same time. His eyes were constant on me, but my gazes too at him. And especially at Kerry sitting beside her, she holds his arms, "wow, already a couple in the house, but not better than us", she smiled, "I mean in the new year party".

It's out of my control, I wanted to break her yellowish teeth and shove the juice straw in her throat right at the moment but before I reacted Keifer shrugged off her hands, "new year is too far and...", he looked at me, "I won't be joining it".

Kerry looked innocently, "but why? Baby", wait.. What does she call him? Baby? Fuck? he's not even saying anything. Keifer replied, "I'm not into such things and..'', and he looked at me, "I'll go only if that one person agrees". The kind of game he plays especially with eyes, damn it hurts, "it's me, right?", Kerry clings to him. I chose to leave. 

To Be Continued...

Happy Diwali to all of you, may this festival of lights bring happiness and success in your life ❤️✨

------------------------------------------------------I was not ghosting you but truly sorry for delaying, but yk the festive seasons is all about celebrations and spending time with family, and tiring as well. But soon emotional chapters and some heartwarming moments will be there.