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WIN'S POV

We decided to watch Bright's favorite movie as we waited. Time flew. We were expecting him to be done when the movie ended but the doctor informed us that there were complications during the surgery and they might take longer. 

Anxiety was creeping in me, I was breaking down deep inside but all I could feel is my heart racing and it was getting harder to breathe. 

"I-I'm gonna sit right there." I told them. 

I went to the farthest chair in that hallway trying to figure out how to calm myself and my thoughts down. I tried distracting myself as I scroll through my social media applications. A travel page caught my attention and as I browsed, I listed down several things I wanted to do with Bright. I sighed. 

"Win, we're gonna go grab something to eat for mom, you want anything?" Namtan interrupted my scrolling. 

"I'm alright. I might go head to their roof deck as well. I'll catch some air." I told her. 

She agreed and started walking away. I scrolled some more before deciding to keep my phone. I saw their mom still busy with some papers probably for Bright's hospitalization. I decided not to bother her. 

I went to the elevator and waited for it to open... There was a child inside, a little girl with a doll and she looked away when I entered. She was humming the song from Frozen when I noticed she wasn't getting off and the only button pressed was the roof deck as well. 

It kind of crept me at first because I sort of thought she might be a ghost... But she was very much alive... I didn't mind her at first but she ran out when the doors opened. 

I chased the kid with the fear of her falling off the edges but then I saw her in one corner staring at the sky crying...

"Hey..." I called her and she looked over me. 

"W-what do you need?" She said as she kept on crying. 

"What's wrong? Who are you with? Did you get lost?" I asked pulling out my handkerchief from my pocket. 

She cried and stared at the sky again before taking my handkerchief. 

"I lost my best friend today." She said. 

"Oh, what happened to your best friend?" I asked her. 

"She just fell while handing me my chocolate drink this morning then she wouldn't wake up, my nany had to go call the ambulance and then they said mommy was dead." She said and cried again. 

I was lost for words with the kid. She was so innocent. Sadness and Fear was triggered in me. Nobody else is dying... 

"Angel!" Someone called from the door. 

"I gotta go, mister. Take care!" The kid said. 

I felt really bad we didn't get to talk that much but above everything I could feel, I was scared. Scared of every possibility that will happen. The thoughts were suffocating, I gasped for air when I decided to look at the view. 

A view of the city was visible from up here... I tried thinking of other things until it came to me. If everything goes well... We're gonna have to talk about what happened to us, I will never have a valid reason for the pain I made him feel... So much of what I have to tell him, I don't care how much he will hate me for my reasons, but all I want right now is for him to be alive. 

The minutes were torture, it felt so long waiting for a notification. When I was calmer, I decided to go back down. The elevator ride was fast, as I was walking to the waiting area of the operating ward... there was a commotion and people were doing something... 

"What happened?" When I saw Namtan and Ton looking at the doors to the operating room. Ton was already crying and I couldn't figure out what happened. 

"H-he flatlined..." Namtan said as tears broke from her eyes. 

He flatlined

He flatlined

He flatlined

It felt like my whole world stopped spinning. This has to be a joke. This is not happening. I refuse to believe whatever they just told me. 

"We will update you further once he is stabilized and everything is finished." Some sort of doctor came out and told their mom. 

Ton and Namtan were crying and I couldn't figure out what to do. I figured my way into the lounge and sat there silently as my thoughts echoed too loud. I was trying to catch my breath as I sat down and watch the world move around me and the sounds were slowly fading... 

It feels like I was in a dream, and I couldn't wake up...  

Hours passed by and I decided to leave. I wanted to go far away once again. I wanted to go somewhere... Places without traces of him, I want the pain to stop because I would go crazy to find solutions just to take him out of his situation... 

I stayed at a hotel for the night. I wanted an environment that would not remind me of him but I couldn't get him out of my mind. A part of it was my fault... I was the one to blame as well, I contributed to this. 

I searched everything from what happened, the possible side effects, and such. My frustration grew with everything I found. I don't understand most of it as they were medical terms. I sighed in defeat when my phone started ringing... I was supposed to ignore it but it was Bright's mom. 

I stared at the screen for too long... My heart was beating fast, whatever happened or whatever she is about to tell me is urgent, because I have been staring at the phone for too long that it has been the 3rd time she was trying to reach me. 

"H-hello?" I answered even if my whole body and voice are shaking. 

"Win... Thank God. I-I just wanted to let you know that Bright has been transferred to the ICU for close observation. They were more strict this time. I would stay. C-can you accompany the girls for a while? I don't trust our helpers at the mansion." She said. She is obviously very exhausted already and having Ton and Namtan around to see that isn't helping. 

"I-I could but I am actually at a hotel as well..." I told her. 

Even if I wanted to take my mind off Bright and everything about him, I decided to take them in with me, Bright's mom said she'd take care of everything even our stay, we could stay for as long as we like. 

How do I tell them I wanted to give up already? I wanted out... I just want to be happy again... without hurting and hurting anyone.

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