9

"no, i swear, i'm almost positive he was talking about me! but, he's getting home any minute, so i should probably go."

jimin was laying on the couch, talking to jin on the phone.

"call me later with updates, okay?"

"i will! bye, jin!"

"bye! good luck!"

jimin hung up and ran to go check himself out in the mirror. he had spent almost an hour trying to look his best, wanting to impress namjoon.

he fixed a few stray pieces of hair and ran to go take a seat on the couch, crossing his legs, and scrolling through his phone.

a few minutes later he heard the front door opening and saw namjoon walking in.

"hey, jimin."

"hey, joonie!"

"this is a little late notice, but i have a surprise," namjoon said, reaching his hand out for the doorknob.

"surprise?"

jimin's mind raced with all the things it could be.

"you know yesterday, how i was taking about that person i wanted to see?"

"y-yeah," jimin said, smirking.

"well... we're dating now! here, you can meet her," namjoon said, opening up the door again.

"her? dating?" jimin whispered, to himself.

jimin's smile faded as he realized what was happening. he looked like he was about to cry.

in walked a gorgeous women. she had long black hair, adorable smile, nice figure, and cool clothes. all things that jimin could never compete with.

"hey, babe" she said, happily wrapping her arms around joon and giving him a quick peck on the lips.

"jimin!"

she walked over to give him a hug, which jimin awkwardly accepted.

"you look even cuter in person! joonie has already showed me so many adorable pictures of you two."

"...joonie?" jimin's fake smile melted away as he heard her use his nick name for namjoon.

"she came up with the same nick name as you. isn't that cute?" namjoon said, smiling.

"yeah, adorable".

jimin had the strangest look on his face. he was so upset, that he couldn't even do a good job of faking being happy.

"i feel kinda sick... i'm gonna go lay down," jimin said, heading to his room.

"wait, i was thinking we could all go see a movie together. you and me had so much fun last time, i figured-"

"no, i'll stay here. you two go have fun."

"really?"

"yes, namjoon. really."

it had been a long time since namjoon had heard jimin call him by his real name and it felt super weird.

"o-okay. i'll be back soon then to check on you."

"don't worry about it. i can take care of myself."

"o-okay."

jimin walked into his room and slammed the door. he collapsed onto the bed, holding back tears, until he heard the front door slam, knowing the two of them were gone.

he started balling into his pillow, exhausted from trying to hold back his tears. he wanted to die. he felt like a loser, he was so embarrassed. obviously joon didn't like him, he's fucking straight. and normal.

jimin sat there for over ten minutes, crying and going over everything in his head.

that's when he got an idea. a sick idea. he shouldn't have to be the one crying himself to sleep for the millionth time. he shouldn't have to feel like crap. he should be happy. after all he's been through, he deserved to get what no one else was giving to him;

affection...

pleasure.

he hopped off his bed and pulled out the small plastic bag from his closet.

inside, was his unboxed dildo and lube. he had already taken all the packaging off, but he had been way too afraid to use it, so it had just been sitting in his closet.

but today was different. he was ready. actually, he was beyond ready. he was desperate.

he pulled the contents out of the bag and sat with his legs crossed on the middle of the bed.

he picked up the toy and fiddled with it, flicking it on and off.

the vibrations were hard, and the settings only went up. he figured he didn't have to turn them on, unless he got super comfortable.

he set the toy down and started to nervously unzip his pants. he slid them down his thick thighs and legs, letting them pool by his ankles. he reached into his underwear and pulled out his small length. he looked at it, waiting to get that tingly feeling again. when it didn't come, he frowned. he didn't know how it had happened before or why. he just knew he wanted it to come back.

he searched up the video he had watched before, hoping that it may help. and luckily, it did. jimin had sat there and watched the whole ten minute video. he had intense tingles going through his whole body and he didn't know how to calm down. he figured that maybe the toy would help. maybe that's what it was for.

he knew what he was doing was probably wrong, but right now...

he really didn't care.

he pulled his underwear completely off and threw them onto the floor. grabbing the toy, he covered it in the mysterious gel.

he leaned onto his back and spread his legs out. he was nervously shaking as he lined up the tip of the toy with his entrance.

he pushed it about a quarter of the way in, resisting slightly. it didn't necessarily hurt, it just felt a bit odd. it felt like something was in his body that shouldn't be there. it felt wrong.

but jimin just looked past it, jamming the toy even further in. a groan escaped his lips at the stretch, still feeling a bit weird.

he moved it around a bit, trying to get some relief, but it didn't really do anything. jimin huffed in annoyance, realizing it probably wouldn't be pleasurable for him.

he was about to give up, when he remembered the vibration switch. he leaned his thumb up and switched it on.

"u-ghhh~"

the intense vibration sent a shock throughout his whole body, causing him to let out a loud moan.

jimin kept going and it only got more pleasurable from there.

it didn't take long for jimin to be sitting up on his knees, pushing his ass up and down on the toy, moaning like a crazy person. jimin wasn't exactly sure what he was doing or why it felt so good, but he didn't care. he just knew that he wanted it.

he reached out for his stuffed bear and started rutting against it, still bouncing on the toy.

once again, he had no clue as to why he was doing what he was doing, but he really wasn't in control anymore. it was like his body was doing all the work and jimin was just sitting there, enjoying it.

he started imagining that namjoon was there with him. he was imagining that joon was the one doing all of that to him. and considering he was alone in the house, he didn't see any reason to hold back.

"ughhh~" jimin moaned loudly, putting the vibration setting up a little higher.

he kept on moaning, spitting out random grunts of pleasure, with namjoon's name slipping out in between them.

"joonie!"

jimin practically screamed his name out of pleasure, needing relief.

a sudden urge to pee washed over him. he felt like it was going to come out, so he quickly stopped. it was beyond unsatisfying and he frowned at the loss.

that's when he heard something. it was namjoon's bedroom door closing.

jimin sat there and thought about what was happening.

"is that namjoon?"

jimin got a chill of nervousness as he realized namjoon was home. and if he was going into his room, then he must have been there for at least a few minutes. which meant...

namjoon had heard him.

heard him shoving the toy in himself.

heard him panting.

heard him moan out his name.

jimin quickly sunk down onto the bed and covered himself with the blankets. his entire face turned red and extreme anxiety washed over him.

jimin couldn't move. he thought he might be sick.

he sat there for a few minutes, having no idea what to do, when he heard a knock on his door.

"j-jimin?"

it was namjoon. jimin couldn't talk to him. he simply couldn't face him right now.

he had to think fast, rolling onto his side and shutting his eyes tightly.

"c-chim? i ditched the movie... i-i was worried and i wanted to check on you."

jimin got a pang of guilt, but continued to pretend he was sleeping.

he heard him open the door and walk in. he felt joon hover over him and pull the blanket over his body, tucking him in tightly.

he felt namjoon standing over him for a few seconds.

seconds turned into minutes and it was hard for jimin to continue to fake being asleep.

"j-jimin?" namjoon whispered, hoping that maybe jimin had woken up.

he waited a moment, but then walked away, turning off the light, and shutting the door behind him.

and it was at that moment jimin realized

their friendship would never be the same.