Savior, Lunch, Angel

Starting from this chapter Korean dialogue with be written as"Dialogue"And English dialogue will be written as["Dialogue"]If this change is too confusing I don't mind keeping it the way it was before.

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Dear Electronic Diary,

It's been two months...

Was it a joke to him?

Did he mean it?

Did he feel bad for me?

Does he feel anything towards me?

It hurts...

Whatever.

Tomorrow is my birthday...

I guess that's it for today.

-Jessica

I stared at the bright laptop screen for a while.

I just kept reading what I had just wrote.

I pressed the back arrow key and saw yesterdays entry.

The same thing.

I kept pressing back seeing the same questions over and over.

They haven't been answered.

I finally got to the entry of the day after it happened.

There wasn't anything written in the entry.

It was blank for most of the page.

Except for the three words in the middle of it.

"I love him."

After that day Woozi rarely came home. He would stay at the company building to work on his songs most of the time. At least that's what the other members told me.

Vernon and I stayed as friends. We haven't spoken of what happened in the kitchen. We still act as we used to before. I think he still thinks about it though. He avoids getting too close to me.

I couldn't stand sleeping on Woozi's bed by myself. After a week of sleeping alone I started sleeping with Dino. I asked him the first few days but then it just became natural to sleep in his bed.

I started working another part time job to help me get my mind off what happened with Woozi. So after my shift ends at the café I go to the nearby conveniece store and work there.

I looked around the room and spotted a thin piece of paper. I stared at it and then looked away.

I ended up not going to one of their concerts.

I couldnt.

But I still bought the ticket. And I kept it.

I sighed as I shook my head to get rid of all the useless thoughts.

I closed my laptop and hugged Finn close to my chest.

I heard knocking on the door and looked over to see who it was.

"Jay. Lunch is ready. Are you going to eat today?"

I looked at Dino who was giving me a small smile.

He walked over to me and sat down on the bed and held my hands.

"You have to eat. I let you skip breakfast, but you aren't skipping lunch. I know because of what happened you don't have an appetite but you still need the nutrients. Come on."

I had told Dino everything.

My feelings for Woozi. How he acted with only me. What happened between us. Just everything. Every little thing that had happened with him.

He knew why I was the way I was now. And he's been helping me get through it.

A month ago I barely ate a whole plate. Now I can eat a whole meal.

I looked at him and nodded. I got up from the bed and followed him outside. My hand in his.

"Jay! Hurry and eat or your food will get cold!"

I looked at Vernon and smiled.

"You're right. I had fallen asleep again. I guess having two jobs is really sucking the energy out of me."

They all shook their heads and smiled at me.

"Just eat your food. If you want more energy you can skip any meals. You have to eat!"

I looked at Seungkwan and nodded.

"The Jeju Prince has spoken! I guess I have to eat now."

Everyone laughed as they continued eating.

They didn't know about what was going on. I pretended to be completely okay around them. They did notice that I had become a bit different but they didn't question it.

We were just about finished with lunch when the front door opened.

Woozi walked in and looked at all of us.

"I'm back."

Everyone began to put down their chopsticks and swallow their food.

"Wow! You're actually here for once!"

Hoshi exclaimed with a wide smile.

"You've been making music for the past week! We haven't seen you at all except for practice."

S.Coups said as he pointed his chopsticks at Woozi.

I didn't say anything. I just sat there looking at him.

Dino noticed I had tensed up and reached for my hand to hold it.

"Are you okay?"

He leaned in to whisper in my ear.

I hesitated and then nodded.

"Are you going to eat anymore?"

I looked at my food and then up at him.

Even though I said I was fine he could tell by the look on my face that I was having a hard time being in the same room as him.

"It's okay. Let's go to the room. You've eaten enough. Let's go."

He smiled at me and then got up.

"Where are you going?"

We both looked at Mingyu who made everyone's attention go on us. Even Woozi's.

"Jay and I are full. We're gonna play games in our room."

He grabbed my hands and pulled me up.

He put our dishes in the sink and then came back, grabbed my hand, and led me to the room.

The second I was inside I felt the tears fall.

In just seconds Dino had me in his arms and he was stroking my hair.

"It's okay. I'm here. Don't cry."

I wrapped my arms around his waist and grabbed onto the back of his shirt.

Seeing him hurt me.

"Shh. It will be alright."

He picked me up bridal style and placed me on our bed. He re-arranged the pillows and sat down next to me still holding me.

I had stopped crying but the tears wouldn't stop falling.

The door suddenly opened and we saw Mingyu walking in.

"Hey guys! Do you mind if I-"

Mingyu's eyes widened when he saw me crying and Dino holding me.

"Mingyu. Close the door and sit down."

He quickly closed the door behind him and walked up to us.

"Why is Jay crying? What happened? Does anybody else know? What is going on?"

Dino looked at me before saying anything.

I wiped my tears and nodded at him before he said anything.

"Don't worry. I'll tell him."

Mingyu looked at me and sat on the bed in front of me.

"I like Jihoon."

Mingyu's eyes widened.

"What?"

I sighed and Dino held my hand.

"If you can't I can help you."

I shook my head and smiled at him.

"I have feelings for Jihoon oppa. Two months ago we went to the company building together because he asked me to acompany him to work. I told him he should take a break so we went to play around in the practice room, but then..."

I opened my mouth to say something but I couldn't. I looked over to Dino and leaned my head on his shoulder.

He sighed and held my hand tightly. Then he looked at Mingyu.

"Jihoon hyung... He kissed her. He kissed Jay. And now he isn't talking to her. He's completely ignoring her."

Mingyu looked at me and Dino with wide eyes again.

"Why?"

Dino shrugged.

"It's been hell for Jay these past two months. Remember the whole week that she wouldn't talk at all? Well that is why."

Mingyu nodded his head and looked at Jay.

"If you need any help just tell me. You can count on me. If Dino isn't here when you need him you can turn to me."

I smiled and reached over to hug Mingyu.

"Don't tell anybody else unless they ask and I give you the okay to tell them."

Mingyu nodded and hugged me back tightly.

"It's going to be okay. I'll make sure that you're okay. We're going to keep your mind of him as much as possible."

I smiled at him and Dino and nodded.

"Thanks. It really means a lot."

We both pulled away and they both grabbed my hands.

"Let's go somewhere."

I looked at Mingyu.

"Where?"

He shurgged and laughed.

"Anywhere! Let's go out and play."

I laughed at his enthusiasm and motivation to go play.

"Alright. Let's see where the day takes us. I have work tomorrow morning so let's come back home early."

The three of us went to go change.

I put on some jeans and rolled up the bottom. I wore a plain black t-shirt and a blue jacket.

I heard a knock on the door and I turned expecting to see Dino.

"I'm ready to-"

I froze.

"Are you going somewhere?"

I looked at him and my eyes widened.

'He talked to me.'

"Hey, look I'm-"

"Jay! Let's go! We don't want to waste too much time!"

Dino walked into the room and saw Woozi inside the room.

"Why are you here?"

Woozi looked at Dino with a shocked face.

"What do you mean?"

Dino sighed and shook his head.

"Nothing. Nevermind. We have to go."

Dino grabbed my hand and pulled me along with him.

"Wait! Why do you keep pulling her along everywhere with you? She can do things on her own."

I didn't turn back to look at him.

Instead, Dino turned around.

"Sorry hyung, but I don't think you have to know."

I tightened my hold on Dino's hand as a signal that I wanted to leave.

"Hey! I'm ready! Let's... go..."

Mingyu stood in front of me and saw Dino and Woozi behind me.

"Dino, Jay and I will go ahead. Are you going to stay or come with us."

Dino looked at me and I met eyes with him.

"Let's go. There shouldn't be a problem here anyways."

Mingyu nodded and he grabbed my other hand and pulled me along.

"Guys! Jay, Dino and I are going out for a bit. We'll be back soon."

We heard various voices from around the dorm scream out.

"Okay!"

"Be safe!"

"Don't do anything stupid!"

"Come back soon!"

"Bring us food!"

"Have fun!"

The three of us put on our masks and caps and we walked out of the dorm.

The moment I stepped out I felt as if I could finally breathe.