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Also few lines are used from song It's you- By Henry. From drama 'While you were sleeping'_______________________________________

'Jeon Jungkook to marry Jung y/n for the sake of the company. To be the owner of the Jeon Corps, the heir of Jeon Jeonsuk should marry Jung y/n and can not file for the divorce service for at least two years after the date of marriage registration. '

"Y/n!" Sarang's annoyed tone reached your ear as you turned to face her. 

"Your ice cream is melting," she mumbled, staring at you while thinking what's going inside your brain. 

Sarang was getting bored at home hence you brought her out for a walk. Somewhere it was good for you too as you will forget about that contract thing. 

"What are you thinking, huh? You can share it with me," she smiled warmly, her palm giving a squeeze to your knuckle.

Can I really trust her? Trust… who should I even trust more?

"Nothing. It's just something about…" she cuts you off.

"It's not about your work, and I know it because you are lost from the moment you came back after visiting Jungkook's company. Did his dad say something to you? Are you okay?" She asked and her voice showed genuine care. You wanted to trust her but you can't and you won't. 

What would you even say to her? That Jeon men used you… 

His father lied to you saying you can get a divorce whenever you want. And he'll help you with your dad's treatment even if the marriage doesn't work but at the same time, he made a contract with his son that he can't sign a divorce for at least two years.  You can't believe his dad lied to you. You considered him as your father figure and he did this to you. 

Jungkook is no less than his dad. Even if his dad asked to hide about the contract, wasn't it, his responsibility to not hide anything from you? Instead, he always added guilt to you for marrying him for your dad and money. He taunted that you used him for money while he did no less. Didn't he use you for getting company under his hands? He taunted you so much, made you feel so filthy about yourself while he did the same!!

Maybe that was the reason he kept going back and forth between being rude and being gentle to you, from ignoring you to pleading with you… 

Why? Why did you do that? Why did you play with my feelings? You could have at least told me about the contract… I wouldn't have taken your actions genuinely! You've left me no choice, Jungkook… no choice. You cheated on me, you disgraced me, my feelings are nothing to you… it's an awful feeling that I have for you.  

"See, you are lost again," she sighed. You turned to look at her while you wondered one thing.

To be the owner of the Jeon Corps, the heir of Jeon Jeonsuk should marry Jung y/n and can not file for the divorce service for at least two years after the date of marriage registration!

"You still love him, don't you?" You asked. You are getting used to pain. You don't know why but you asked. 

She kept quiet for a few minutes contemplating whether to speak or not. But at last, she does. 

"Y/n, don't take me wrong or think I am back to take him away from you. But yes I love him. I never stopped loving him. The only regret I have is not being patient with him, not trusting him enough, not trusting our love and marrying a senseless man. Everything would have been perfect now… we would have been living with our small family if I didn't make such a mistake. But it's not like I am not happy seeing him with you…" you cut her off. 

"There's nothing between us. Nothing ever will be. We married each other under the agreement. Don't worry… I won't be a trouble if you two ever plan to get back together," you mumbled, trying hard to not break. It's his responsibility to tell her about Eunji if he still loves Sarang.

"Come on… y/n, you are so bad at lying. Look at your pale face and trembling hand," she hissed, sighing. 

'Look at you, you are so bad at lying y/n… look at your pale face,' he laughed hysterically while you rolled your eyes, poking your tongue.

You turned to look at her. They both are similar, aren't they? It hurts you. Hurts you that even their words come out the same while he didn't even reciprocate a little thing for you. 

He was in your fortune but not in those lines of fate…

"I am sorry, y/n. But I need to apologize, you deserve it. My leave broke Jungkook completely. And I am sorry for the Jungkook you met. My departure changed him very much. Jungkook is now the harshest person I have ever seen. Although he didn't behave harshly with me, I know. I am sorry that you didn't get to see the innocence behind his dark aura, his laughter behind that authorising tone, his small giggles behind his yells, his love-filled gazes behind his scary sharp stares, protecting arms behind strong intimidating hold… I am sorry that you didn't get to see them. I am sorry, because of me you met a hollow person rather than a man knowing how to treat his lover. Trust me he knows how to…" you cut her off.

"It doesn't matter. Like I said… there's nothing between us. And… this was meant to happen. We can't stop something written in fate. The better thing is that we can move on from it and forget about everything," You gulped the lump hardly while you looked at her in hope. 

"Right. I hope he realizes his mistakes soon… I'll try to talk to him," she mumbles while her hold tightened around your knuckles. 

"No. Please don't. I am good like this. He's good like this," you insisted while she nodded with half heart. 

Even when she loves Jungkook she felt bad seeing you like that. She could tell that you've loved him, maybe more than her but again she couldn't help and feel a little jealous by the thought that you still held his wife position while Jungkook didn't even forgive her. She won't fight for Jungkook but she wishes that no one is written in his fate except her. She was selfish for her love. And she accepted that. 

One day before Jungkook's arrival

"Y/n… here you go," Jimin informed you, handing the envelope to you. Your trembling hands clutched on the tickets while he didn't fail to notice the anxiety, sadness, hurt, disappointment, anger in your gaze. 

He was beyond disappointed in Jungkook. Not only because you were special to him but also because he never expected something like this from his best friend. 

"Thank you so much, Jimin. Thank you for everything," you mumbled, your gaze lifting upwards as he smiled softly. Taking a step near to you, he ruffled your hair. 

"You don't have to. You can order me for anything even at midnight. Just don't hesitate to talk to me," he mumbled and you nodded slowly. 

Do I really have to let you go?

"I am gonna miss you," he blurted out before he could think. He thought the aura would turn awkward but to his surprise, you smiled softly, holding his hands. 

"I am gonna miss you more. More than anything…" you chuckled slowly and then he understood what you meant was as a friend. 

Only if you know he is going to miss you more than a friend… he needs you, he needs you and him, together, away from this world where he would breathe you… where you would be away from all the pain…

"I hope you don't overwork. You are doing enough, Min. Please take frequent breaks, visit your studio more often. Don't overwork and exhaust yourself. Keep flirting… but don't break anyone's heart," you mumbled the last words under your breath while he sighed and wrapped his arms around you. 

Baby, I am falling deeper in love… I'm trying to hold back just for you…

'How can I flirt with someone when you are taking my heart with yourself, my everything with you? Baby… all I need is you or none. Can't fate write us together? Can't god bring us together… even if it's for one day? See I got selfish again… I promise I won't overwork until you stay safe and healthy, love,' he promised himself, wiping his tears and holding you tighter around himself. 

"I will call you every day. Don't forget me. Just know that I am always here for you…" he kissed your head, while you nodded in his chest. You rubbed his back knowing he was trying hard to stay strong. You were more than glad and grateful to god for giving you a friend like Jimin. You knew he won't turn his back even if everyone does. You trusted him, only him. 

"Sushh… if you ever miss me too much and can't stay without me… just call me and I'll be here, okay? Don't be sad Jimin, I won't be able to go. I will break down," you muttered, on the verge of crying while he pulled out a hug and shook his head.

"No. You need to be strong for yourself, for me. But that doesn't mean you can't have bad days… And on those days be on call with me for longer, okay?" He wiggled his brows and you nodded. 

You caressed his chest, calming him down while he couldn't help but notice your lips. Oh god, he was so close to pulling those soft, holy edges in his pair, so close to showing he loved you, loved you more than his best friend, so close to confessing that his heart was aching badly seeing you going away from him. But he controlled himself. He will be okay as long as you are happy and safe even if that means away from him.

"Let's drop my cupcake home," he grins, masking his pain while you chuckled. 

You will miss hearing this nickname while being so close to him… 

As you reach home, you check your luggage once again. You can't forget anything. As you were busy with your leftover packing of small things a knock on the door catches your attention.

"Y/n," she says while you tell her to come inside. Placing your laptop and other electronic gadgets in your handbag you close the zipper. 

"Do you need to go? I mean… I know I am selfish but can't you stay and talk it out. Who knows the misunderstanding between you two gets clear…" she looks at you hopefully while you smile bitterly.

"There's no misunderstanding, Sarang. Don't worry about Jungkook… he will be happy seeing this house and room empty," you asserted, your eyes lingering on the room. 

You will miss everything… won't you? 

"What if he asks for you?" She questions.

'To be the owner of the Jeon Corps, the heir of Jeon Jeonsuk should marry Jung y/n and can not file for the divorce service for at least two years after the date of marriage registration.'

Don't worry he won't ask for me… he would be happy in your or Eunji's arms...

"Ahh… just ask him to check this room when he arrives, he'll find his answer," you reply and continue with your work. Ignoring her presence, you packed the remaining things. 

Her oneself was happy that you, his wife, is leaving his life while her other side wished for you to stay. You were too good. And she knows the only one who deserves happiness was you, the only one who deserved the love was you. 

•~⚜~•

"Yes, yes… I am on my way.  I will be there before the evening," Jungkook discussed the meeting with his secretary as he stepped out of the airport. 

As he expected, his dad sent a car for him. Taking the seat inside, he got comfortable. His muscles relaxed while he felt relieved after a tiring week. 

Finally… Home.

A small smile crept on his lips while his shut eyes imagined you welcoming him. He saw your grumpy, ignoring face as you are still mad at him while he promises to make up for everything. 

Not anymore. Let's not fight more… okay?

He thinks and sadness rushes his veins. He was guilty of hurting you so much. But not anymore. This one week without you made him realise that he can't even stay away without you. Sleeping while talking to your photos became his nightly routine. He missed you more than he thought he would. And somewhere this week made him realise that he just…. He just feels more than something he could ever. The scary feeling was back. He was afraid of love yet he knew it was love, love for you.

The car stops near the front gate as he opens the door and steps out. 

My home… home where she resides…

As he twists open the door, he is met with silence. It was strange for the house to be this quiet when two people stayed in the house. Walking inside, he placed his bags on the couch along with his coat. 

"Y/n! Sarang!" He calls out. And not later enough, Sarang comes into the living room while wiping her wet hands. 

"Oh, kook. Welcome back. How was your trip? Did…" she gets cut off by his question.

"Where's y/n?" He asks, his eyes searching for your presence. But he didn't find any. A hole was being dug in his pit, scaring him while he decided to ignore it.

'Don't give up… please don't,' he prayed

"In her room," she answers, breathing hard. She was scared of his reaction. She knows his anger would bring havoc in her life along with his. 

He nodded and by grabbing a box from his handbag he jogged up the stairs. He took a few good minutes to calm his raging breaths before knocking on the door. 

Knock. No answer.

Knock. Still no…

Knock. Nothing…

Sighing to himself, he waited a little longer. He bit his lips while he waited for you to open the door. He didn't wish to get yelled at by you. But after getting no response for more than five minutes, he twisted open the door. 

Freeze. 

Everything froze including his figure. His system shut down while he forgot to blink. The room was clean as new, nothing on the dressing table, nothing on the bed, nothing… not even a single thing related to you.

Did it happen? No… please…

As he dragged himself to check your closet, he wished that he was wrong, that you didn't leave. But he couldn't console himself more when he saw an empty closet. 

A muffled sob escaped his edges while he stumbled on his feet and fell. His eyes poured the rain while his heart lost its beat count. 

I lost… 

He shook his head in denial. Maybe you are playing with him to make him regret… maybe. You won't trouble him this much, right? 

But he troubled you more… broke you so many times… healed you every time just to break once again...

The box fell on the ground as he got up abruptly to check other cabinets, dressing table, washroom. There was nothing. Vacant. Empty. Hollow. 

I didn't cheat on you!!! I didn't!!

His breathing was shallow and hard in his ribs. Soft whimpers left his mouth as he knelt on the floor. His stomach burned in sensation. While all he wished for all this to be a bad dream. 

Please… give me one chance. I didn't cheat on you!! Trust me… please...

Sarang wiped her tears while she watched Jungkook sobbing alone. She now knew how much she damaged him, how she broke him. But for now, all she did was blame you. Why couldn't you sort out things? Why didn't you wait for him to come back? Why did you hurt her love so much? 

He was left broken again… but this time he was at fault. This time he didn't hold you before losing you. 

I need you… please, forgive me…

His blurry gaze travelled to the nightstand. There he found… 

No please… it'll be my end, honey… please

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So before you all blame y/n for leaving like that... Let me remind you that he never told her about the contract. Instead, when they were getting married, he insulted her, announcing that she is using him for money. Which indirectly she did but not for herself, for her dad's treatment and he knew that. Meanwhile, she was completely unaware of the contract between his father and him. He should have mentioned about it, he didn't find it important before marriage... Fine! But after marriage, when he was falling for her? He should have.

Also, the flashback which played in y/n's mind of Eunji and Jungkook was after marriage which will be mentioned. Here I am clearing because some of you think she's stuck over the first encounter of him and Eunji.. No!

I agree on Jungkook being hurt and broken so much. But again human needs to pick themselves before they break someone else. Knowing how much it hurts, he should have been careful with what he was doing.