Chapter 1

'How many years had it passed?' A man sitting on his desk talked to himself as he finished his work. His figure once upright with youthful energy now hunched back from countless hours of sitting, his face once with ambition had dulled as eyebags formed under both of his eyes, haunting him like a shadow. "Hey man! wanna grab some beers?" One of his co-workers called from across the room to him, but he kindly refused it. "Thanks, I think I'm gonna skip for now." He spoke, his voice low as he grabbed his bag and head out from the office. A busy city welcomed him as he get out, neon lights everywhere as sea of people walked on the side of the road, rushing past each other, moving forward in their life. But for Y/N everything felt frozen in time, standing still. Life after Highschool lead him into this busy city, Tokyo. He hoped to find a good and better job than the one in his hometown, but instead are stuck with a black company. Who would thought that life would be this hard? Endless cycle of waking up and get to work, many times he wanted to end everything but it always failed. His phone vibrated, revealing a notification from YouTube.

【Minecraft】星街村開発中‼今日は何を作ろうかな？⛏✨【ホロライブ / 星街すいせい】 "Sui-chan is playing Minecraft again, huh?" He muttered to himself as he read the notification, glancing to his lock screen, an old selfie of him and Suisei in Highschool. Even after almost seven years passed, Y/N still have his most precious memories that he cherished the most. The happy days in Highschool with Suisei are still frozen in his mind, replaying on it's own every day and night, wishing everything would be the same again. Hoshimachi Suisei now a VTuber from Hololive shined bright not only in Japan but the whole world. Complete opposite of Y/N L/N the boy she used to love in Highschool. Their promise for each other are kept for roughly a year, staying in touch through messages, and both voice and video calls. But as seconds keep ticking, the promise started to broke. Suisei became busier with her job as a VTuber and Idol, Y/N's messages started to drowned in her phone. Y/N began to realize that he is not enough for her, and he never been a part of her world. Y/N hurried home to his apartment eager to watch Suisei's stream. The busy city around him blurred as he walked towards his apartment, his mind lost in thoughts of her. And as he reached his small apartment, the usual dark and quiet room greeted him. Cups of instant noodles scattered in the floor, papers stacked in the desk, but he didn't bother to care as he rushed to open his laptop and watch Suisei's stream. Her usual cheerful voice welcomed him, her cute smile are still there, the one he thought the world would never see. Despite what happened, he still supported Suisei. Sending her superchats, liking and leaving comments on her streams. He watches as her voice filled his room, her fans showered her with love and supports, making him happy and filling his heart with weight. He hovered into his keyboard, typing a message in her stream but as he about to send it, his finger hesitated, doubt filled his mind. What was the point? Would she even notice it? 'I hope you're happy Sui-chan...You're a star now, an Idol just like what you told me that day...' He spoke, his harsh voice filled the room. He once again takes a look at his lock screen, the young girl who rested her head on his shoulder seemed like a ghost now, someone in his past he could never reclaim. He closed his laptop without thinking, it turned dark and her voice are now gone. The silence coming back to him as he stared at the ceiling, feeling the weights of the years pressed down on him. He had convinced himself many times, that Suisei are in a different part of the world, someone that he couldn't reach anymore. But forgetting the three years he spent with her, the countless days of eating her home-made food, the countless teasing Suisei did to him, it's like cutting a stone with a scissors. "I need to move on, just like she did." He spoke once again filling the small room with his voice. The words tasted bitter, and the darkness of his room started to consumed him. Y/N found himself sinking deeper in his chair, his eyes fluttering closed as sleep began to took in. And in his dream, Suisei are there, waiting for him and smiling at him just like she always did.