Jealousy's A Bitch

(Brittany's Pov)

I look at the girl standing before me and automatically hate her. She used the term friend loosely and that smirk on her makes me sick.

"What" she ask in her Australian accent and I scoff at her.

"Can you leave, I know your enjoying the show but I do need to talk to her somewhat" I say as Santana is still kissing in my neck but I'm more concern of privacy.

"Na, I like it better here mate" she says and I sigh.

"Santana, what's your pain level from 1-10" I say ignoring the Australian chick.

"Unicorn, no butterfly" she says high and I smile.

"No, how much does it hurt, is it an owy" I say touching her cast and she shakes her head while laughing.

"No, it's perfect. I feel the pain meds starting to fade but I still see rainbows and unicorns" she says smiling and I hit her.

"That's not nice" I say and she shrugs.

"Where's emily and the gang" she asks but I just laugh.

"You were being a little too flirtatious for there type and made them leave with your potty mouth, although you do have a new visitor" I say and try my best to smile but I fail.

I watch as she turns in confusion and catches ruby. she looks lost for words before smiles widely.

"Ruby what are you doing here" she says and I smile a little that Santana is happy.

"Hello to you to gorgeous, when I heard you were in here not once but three times I had to check to see if your girl was legit" she says and my smile drops and I grit my teeth while she smirks.

"Why don't you shut the fuck up because I was at least by her side the whole time Australian" I say and see her smile.

"Feisty, I like" she says and I scoff.

"Ruby, give us a second" Santana says and she leaves.

"Brittany listen.......ruby is.........different than the rest of the gang, she's been here since day one" she says scratching her head.

"She's not an ex is she" i say watching her smirk at me through the glass and I grip on the bed beside Santana.

"No, she's not my ex, but she is flirtatious with everyone" she says smiling.

"What" I say annoyed.

"Your jealous of ruby aren't you" she says and I scoff.

"She wished" I say annoyed.

"Just be honest babe" she says and I scoff and get off of her.

"I am" I say and leave the room shoulder bumping ruby.

(Couple hours later)

I decided that me walking out and everything was childish and to go back to the crew but when I'm about to enter I seen Santana on ruby's lap with her arms wraps around her neck and ruby's hands around Santana's waist. that's my fucking girlfriend. it pisses me off that everyone is talking to them like its nothing. I look at shane and tell him to come here and he does. we walk out and talk a walk in the hospital seeing Im not allowed to leave.

"What's up" he says and. I laugh.

"What's up, what's up is that my girlfriend is sitting on that bitches lap and no one is saying anything" I say heated and see shane smiling.

"Your jealous aren't you" he says and. I scream.

"yeah I'm jealous because another girl is all over my girlfriend" I say walking away.

"Brittany wait"

"No fuck you" I say cutting him off.

I walk into my hospital room which is empty and switch clothes. Yeah is only been two days after my surgery but I need to go somewhere. I would go to the studio but shane got the keys so I go to the bar instead. Santana gives all workers copied keys. I walk over to the bar and take three or seven shots of vodka, I forget and a beer. Im not one to drink but I can if I really have too. I go up to the dJ booth and turn on music. I turn the flashing lights on along with the stereo and get into the music. I listen to the script when I'm upset so I listen to a few I listen to 'before the worst' I listen to 'We Cry' last song is 'Nothing'.

Am I better off dead?Am I better off a quitter?They say I'm better off nowThan I ever was with herAs they take me to my local down the streetI'm smiling but I'm dying trying not to drag my feet

I walk a little wobbly to the dance floor and walk around a little as I try to feel the music. the lights are flashing bright making the room totally dark except for on me.

They say a few drinks will help me to forget her But after one too many I know that I'll neverOnly they can't see where this is gonna end They all think I'm crazy but to me it's perfect sense

And my mates are all there trying to calm me down'Cause I'm shouting your name all over townI'm swearing if I go there nowI can change her mind, turn it all around

And I know that I'm drunk but I'll say the wordsAnd she'll listen this time even though they're slurredSo I, dialed her number and confessed to herI'm still in love but all I heardWas nothing (nothing, nothing, nothing)

I start to cry as I listen to the lyrics but I know that's not me. were going to make it through this. Maybe it's the alcohol but I don't know, Im too drunk to function so I just dance, i dance all of my emotions out.

So I stumble there, along the railings and the fencesI know if we're face to face then she'll come to her sensesEvery drunk step I take leads me to her doorIf she sees how much I'm hurting, she'll take me back for sure

And my mates are all there trying to calm me down'Cause I'm shouting your name all over townI'm swearing if I go there nowI can change her mind, turn it all around

And I know that I'm drunk but I'll say the wordsAnd she'll listen this time even though they're slurredSo I, dialed her number and confessed to herI'm still in love but all I heardWas nothing (nothing, nothing)

She said nothing (nothing, nothing)Oh, I wanted words but all I heard was nothingOh, I got nothing (nothing, nothing)I got nothing (nothing, nothing)Oh, I wanted words but all I heard was nothing

Ohh, sometimes love's intoxicatingOhh, you're coming down, your hands are shakingWhen you realize there's no one waiting

I stop dancing when I spot Santana standing their tears in her eyes and I smile sadly at her before going standing their as the song continues.

Am I better off dead?Am I better off a quitter?They say I'm better off nowThan I ever was with her

And my mates are all there trying to calm me down'Cause I'm shouting your name all over townI'm swearing if I go there nowI can change her mind, turn it all around

And I know that I'm drunk but I'll say the wordsAnd she'll listen this time even though they're slurredSo I, dialed her number and confessed to herI'm still in love but all I heardWas nothing (nothing, nothing)

She starts to walk towards me and I look everywhere but her. she gets in front of me and grabs my face.

She said nothing (nothing, nothing)Oh, I wanted words but all I heard was nothingOh, I got nothing (nothing, nothing)I got nothing (nothing, nothing)Oh, I wanted words but all I heard was nothingOh, I got nothing (nothing, nothing, nothing)

I got nothing [x3]

"You have me, always."