Chapter 39

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"Ten, all this time I didn't love you!"

Ten froze with the words he just heard. His system can't take it. He can't believe it. Rather, he's not believing it.

"I don't believe you."

"I'm not lying!" Star said with her cracking voice.

"How come?" Ten shook his head in disbelief, "How come I felt your love even just for a short time? How come I felt loved just by looking at your eyes? How come I felt those emotions if you really don't love me?" He asked in a raised tone. His tears suddenly fell and pain is very visible on his face. It made Star feel more pain. She knew he will be hurt, but seeing him cry because of her is even more painful.

"Ten, I'm sorry. I'm sorry for lying all this time."

"Star... how could you?"

"Ten, think of it! I never said I loved you!"

"I know! But I felt it just by your actions, Star..."

"Maybe I acted pretty well?"

Ten felt something pierced in his heart. She's really hurting him big time.

"Ten, when I entered the company, I really would like to be an artist. And when I saw you..." Star gulped before continuing, "I felt curious of how would it feel to date a celebrity before I debut. So I tried my best to make you mine."

Ten's fist started forming into a ball. He felt mad. He can't believe the Star he's facing. He's like a bitch in his eyes. He's like a desperate woman who only do whatever she wants.

Meanwhile, Star is doing her best to think of the words she will say. Making Ten mad at her is, for her, the last resort. Because if she won't, he won't stop. So even if it hurts, he will, for him.

"When I finally had you, I felt excited. Hiding our relationship is pretty hard but it's exciting." She smirked, while her heart is drowning in pain.

"Stop..." Ten lowered his head and closed his eyes. He's controling his self before he do anything he will regret.

"I'm sorry Ten. But I also want to thank you for letting me experience dating you before I debut." She sighed, "I had fun."

"I hate you." Ten whispered that Star heard. He whispered it yet she can hear him growling inside. She felt how Ten despise him that time. She wanted to cry and take back everything and ask for forgiveness. She wanted to hug him but she also think that this is better. He will soon be okay.

"Forget me, then." She whispered while tears continuously ran down her cheeks. She turned her back to hide her face.

"Oh God, why is this happening?"

She then froze when she felt Ten hugged her from the back. It's even more painful.

"Star, I hate you." He whispered in the middle of his sobs. He's really crying and if he won't control his self, he might have gone hysterical. "I hate you. I hate you. I want to hit you but I just can't."

"I'm sorry Ten. I'm really sorry. I hope you'll be okay soon."

Ten hugged her tighter. He buried his face on her crown and cried silently. "Thank you for coming to my life. I'm letting you go now." Then he stepped back and released her. He sat on the floor, hugged his knees and buried his face on his arms. He then cried loudly.

Star just cried along with him silently. It hurts seeing him having a hard time because of her. She then just slowly walked away while covering his mouth to stop herself from sobbing. She's running out of tears but it's hard not to cry.

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She wanted to skip her training but she can't. She just went to her training but she's performing poorly.

"Star, you already rested for few days! You're not reaching the note well. You usually do!" Woorim, they're vocal trainor, said.

"I'm sorry." She just said in a low voice.

"Are you okay?"

She just shook her head as a response. She's really not in the mood but she's doing her best to at least do what they wanted to. Yet, her performances aren't good.

"What's the matter?"

"Can't tell." She timidly answered without looking at her.

Woorim sighed, "You'll have an evaluation later. Our producers will watch. So you better get yourself composed and prepare for a performance. I'll dismiss you know."

Star thanked her and bowed and then walked out of the room. But before she could go out, Woorim spoke, "Get well soon." She just nodded at her and went out of the room.

As soon as she closed the door, she heaved a sigh and walked back to their practice room. She started thinking of what to sing for the evaluation, instead of her problem.

No one's in the practice room because the others were on their different classes and trainings. She went to the sofa and reached for the guitar near it. She started plucking the strings. The music draws her emotions. It will make you feel a heavy feeling and it's draining the energy.

The evaluation time came. They'll perform on the practice room and everyone's ready.

"Star?" Seomin noticed Star's aura.

Star just looked at her. Seomin decided not to speak anymore. She's been worried all the time but she thinks Star needs to be alone.

Star's time came, and unexpectedly and mockingly, the Rookies came in.

Star fixed her eyes to Ten who's looking for a spot to sit on. They'll be evaluated too and for the mean time, they will serve as the audience.

"Please, start already." Woorim said with a soft voice.

Star sat on the stool and placed the guitar on her lap. She started playing it and lookedat Ten. He's looking intently at him, with no emotions seen on his eyes. He avoided his gazes as she started singing.

"I see your face in my mind as I drive away'Cause none of us thought it's gonna end that wayPeople are people and sometime we change our mindsBut it's killing me to see you go after all this time..."

She hummed while feeling the pain in her heart.

"Music starts playing like the end of a sad movieIt's the kind of ending you don't really wanna see'Cause it's tragedy and it will only bring you downNow I don't know what to be without you around

And we know it's never simple, never easyNever a clean break, no one here to save meYou're the only thing I know, like the back of my handAnd I can't"

She paused for a while before she continued.

"Breathe without you, but I have toBreathe without you, but I have to"

The audience swayed while listening to his angelic voice. Pain striked in Ten's heart. He can feel her emotions, yet the idea that she fooled him is more painful.

"Never wanted this, never wanna see you hurtEvery little bump in the road I try to swervePeople are people and sometimes it doesn't work outNothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out

And we know it's never simple, never easyNever a clean break, no one here to save meYou're the only thing I know, like the back of my handAnd I can't

Breath without you, but I have toBreathe without you, but I have to

It's 2 am, feeling like I just lost a friendHope you know it's not easy, easy for meIt's 2 am, feeling like I just lost a friendHope you know this ain't easy, easy for me

And we know it's never simple, never easyNever a clean break, no one here to save meOh,  I can’t..Breathe without you, but I have toBreathe without you, but I have toBreathe without you, but I have to"

She felt tears forming on her eyes as she thought of the next lyrics. The warm liquid almost touched the surface.

"Sorry, sorry, sorry, yeah, sorrySorry, sorry, sorry."

At her last strum, everyone clapped and the producers thought it was a splendid performance. She really have a great voice.

She lowered her head and then walked out of the space in the middle that serves as the stage. She maintained an emotionless face so that the producers won't notice that she's in a bad mood.

She glanced at Ten and she caught him looking at her.

Before, she always catch him looking at her with alive eyes and with a sweet smile. But now, he don't show any emotions. She thinks he's mad.

It's not the same anymore.

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