Chapter 14 - What are your secrets?

[Jimin POV]

I woke up at around 5 am. I took a glance around the white room, taking in the silence that was shattered by the beeping of Jungkook's heart monitor.

Reaching into my bag, I dug for my phone when I felt a rough, leather surface of a book.I pulled it out.

Jungkook's Diary

When did this get into my bag? I shrugged it off and thought that this would be a good time to ask him about it's...content.

I heard shuffling beside me and turned my head to find that Taehyung was stirring awake.

I sighed, taking out my phone that I was previously searching for, laying the notebook down on my lap.

"Hey...Why'd you bring-" Taehyung's groggy voice asked me as he picked up the journal on my lap.

"I- I didn't even know-"

He patted my back and cracked the book open, scanning through some pages.

"He should open up to us more..."

I nodded in agreement, looking over to the clean and fresh pages. "I'm glad he's found somewhere to spill his emotions though..."

"Do you guys have any idea how loud you are talking...?!" Jin-hyung woke up, his hoarse voice startling us.

"Sorry hyung.." We apologised in unison as I rubbed the back of my neck and smiled timidly....Eventually, we got everyone awake and was talking about the plans for our "Idol Life" when I heard a groan from the direction of the bed.

"Kook?" I stood up from my seat, walking over to the bed. His eyes squinted at the bright light, so I motioned the rest to gather around to block some light.

Just then, a loud bang resounded thoroughout the room. I looked back; Jungkook's diary had slipped off of Taehyung's lap when he stood up. Hearing the sound, Jungkook also got curious and looked to the direction.

When he saw a familiar black book on the ground, he panicked.

"H-hyungs-"

"Shh...Baby it's okay..." Jin-hyung comforted him, playing with his hair while whispering sweet nothings into his ear.

I bent over and picked it up, walking over to Jungkook.

"Where-"

"We found it while we were...taking any dangerous objects from your room..." I paused, noticing his emotionless eyes fill with fear, "We- we couldn't help but read through it...I'm sorry baby.."

Jin-hyung let go of Jungkook as he hung his head low and relaxed slightly.

"It's fine"

The most monotonous voice I had heard from anyone in our band for the past 7 years just came out of our maknae's mouth. The maknae that is always full of joy, happiness, energy...

I enveloped him into a tight hug as I began to silently cry. He must've felt the tears on his back as he immediately returned the gesture. "Jungkook...we wanted to let you know...you can tell us anything..." Taehyung mumbled sadly beside the bed, before looking up into the maknae's dull eyes.

I let go of him as everyone sat around him. He looked down, as if to avoid eye contact. I reached over, lifting up his chin.

"Baby, I know it's hard to open up during a bad mental state but you need to let us know how you're feeling so we can help you...Don't you want to sing, dance and talk to ARMY again?"My words seemed to put him back in his place as he lifted his gaze to me and managed a slight smile.

"I-I'll tell you when I-I'm ready..."Everyone's faces lit up with joy at the maknae's cooperation. At the moment, the door opened.

"Ah, all of you are already awake. I just need to check on Jungkook-ssi, and I'll get Gi Hye in here to talk to you all," The same doctor that greeted us last night entered with a smile.

He pressed some buttons on the machine that Jungkook was hooked up to and smiled. "He's stable enough to go without an IV. The heart monitor can be removed too. But we'll need to prescribe some anti-depressants to help him cope." He continued, carefully removing the wires of the machines from Jungkook's arm.

"Thank you, Doctor..." We all stood up and bowed, and even Jungkook bowed to him on his bed after the doctor was done.

"My pleasure. I shall leave you all to Gi Hye, let him check up on Jungkook's mental state."

The doctor quickly left, before Gi Hye entered. He flashed Jungkook a smile before sitting directly across from him.

"Okay Jungkook, so this might be a little strange, but I'll need you to start keeping a diary from today on-"

"Excuse me, Gi Hye?" I looked to Jungkook for permission. The maknae hesitated before nodding, allowing me to continue, "He already has one..."

"Let me take a look."...Gi Hye closed the book after reading through multiple entries as we sat in silence. "Jungkook...I would recommend that you come for therapy at least twice a week. From there, we'll see how we can help you cope with this mental illness. Depression cannot be cured, but it can be reduced."

We all smiled, glad that Gi Hye was a therapist that knew exactly what he was doing. I already knew that he would take great care of the maknae, and will help Jungkook progress much faster....[Time skip: 2 days later]

Jungkook could finally go home. For the past days, we had sealed his window and kept any dangerous things away from him.

Although Bang PD nim said that we were on a hiatus till Jungkook's condition improved, directors still wanted us to film some Run BTS! episodes to release when our hiatus was over, so our schedule would not be too packed.

Namjoon and others tried to knock some sense into the directors — Jungkook is in no condition to film something as light and cheerful as Run BTS!.

The directors being directors, told us that they had no choice and we would start filming the next week. ...[Jungkook's POV]"Hey Kook, get up baby. We'll need to film a Run episode today.." I groaned, reluctant to get out of bed.

Why did filming have to be on one of those days?

The days when I just wanted to cuddle up in bed and sleep for the entire day. The days where I didn't want to do anything.

The days that I just feel flat out numb.

I got up and got dressed, picking out an outfit — a light grey hoodie and denim jeans — before heading downstairs for breakfast. This is going to be a long day...

Word Count: 1164Chapter 14 End[A/N: I'm sorry this is so bad I'm writing this at like 1am cuz I realised I forgot to post and yea...But I was busy with work (yes my exams are over but we still have work - projects - like wth) to entire day so yea. Sorry for the late upload!]