shame

[Heres a long chapter for you thirsty freaks. Also just saying, this is fictional, which is why I can go overboard writing this. PLEASE DONT QUESTION MY RATIONALITY EEP // also when I first wrote this I obviously didn't know enough about BDSM I TOTALLY DIDN'T KNOW YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO COUNT SO ERM HERES A LITTLE EDIT HEHEH]

New Kittypoom's POV:

Fear. Excitement. Anticipation. These feelings merged together as they washed over me. I couldn't see anything and that only made me more aroused. I could feel the stare of someone looking at me. Was Max looking at me as well? I didn't know. I felt so shy. The cold air caressed my skin and I felt breezy down there. All of me was exposed, making me feel vulnerable and embarrassed.

For one, Tay definitely tied way too many knots. The ropes dug into my skin and my heart thumped. It felt rough and tight, yet.. arousing. Being bounded and unable to move felt thrilling. I gulped as I felt myself get hard.

I held my breath as I felt Tay's hands hover over my ear. He didn't touch me, but I could sense it. My ears burned, anticipating his touch. He lowered his hands down to my shoulders and I squirmed. It felt ticklish all over even though he hadn't even touched me. I felt his hand shift lower to my chest and my nipples hardened. When was he going to touch me?

I felt heat rush to wherever his hand drifted over me. Finally, I felt his hand hover over my member. I imagined his touch on my cock, rubbing his hand up and down.. up and down. I imagined the warmth of his hand, the friction, the strength.. the pleasure. Before I knew it, I was already fully hard. My tongue coiled around the ball in my mouth as I struggled to contain my saliva. With bated breaths, I anxiously waited for Tay to make a move.

"Ahnn" I moaned as I felt something wet and warm on the side of my neck. I shuddered at the sudden sensation of pleasure. My heart leapt as I felt sparks fly from the place Tay licked me. The ropes dug into the skin on my wrist further as I felt my legs grow soft. The knots tightened around my waist and chest, rubbing my nipples. I flinched at the friction. It hurt... but it also felt.. good? It was a strange feeling really.

"Hah.. ahn.." My breaths gradually became ragged as Tay's tongue glided up my neck to the back of my ear. Maybe it was because I couldn't see anything, but the sensation was ten times stronger than usual. I shivered as I felt his wet breath on my ear. Wherever his tongue went, a chill followed. It was.. beyond arousing.

He was standing right in front of me, but only his tongue was touching me. I could feel his clothes barely an inch away from me, almost grazing my groin. I wanted to close the gap desperately and feel his body against mine. However, whenever I shifted forward, he would back away, maintaining the stifling distance between us. The ropes prevented me from straying too far and they had tightened considerably from me moving around so much. It was actually starting to hurt now. I winced as I felt a sting from my ribs.

"Ngh.. Tah.." I gasped, trying my best to enunciate my desire.

"Shh.. patience hin." He cooed gently. His voice was so deep yet soft. It was loud as well as he spoke right into my ear. My ears singed.

*THWACK*

I jumped, startled. The sound of whips echoed throughout the room, followed by screams of pain. My heart thumped as I struggled to decipher what was going on.

"I don't hear you counting." Max's voice was cold and deep. Hearing it sent shivers down my spine. 

"AH MAX-" The loud shouts slowly intertwined with moans and groans. I could barely make out the numbers Tul was screaming. I flushed as I realized that Max was most definitely whipping Tul. What I didn't know though, as I couldn't see, was that he was whipping Tul with a 40 strand rubber flogger. What I couldn't see, was that Tul had red marks all over his back and butt from the whippings. What I couldn't see was that even under such torture, Tul was dripping with precum, his dick risen to its fullest and raring to go. What I couldn't see was that Tay was now gawking at the fiasco before him, with a fire slowing burning in his eyes.

"Are you not counting because you want more? What a slut you are, Tul." His guttural voice grew softer and sexier as he continued to verbally abuse Tul. I heard him gasp and moan in response. I gulped. 

It turned me on.

The screams did scare me, however, more than pain, Tul sounded like he throroughly enjoyed it. He sounded so aroused and.. enthusiastic. As if he was feeling really good. I gulped as I wondered how it would feel like to be spanked and hit. The ropes did give me a mix of pleasure and pain. More importantly, it was stimulating and it felt good. I wonder if getting whipped would feel good...

Tay Tawan(na SPANK NEW)'s POV:

I watched Max whip Tul mercilessly. It looked painful. Really painful. There were even red marks all over his body. He was screaming in pain as well. I felt fear creep over my heart. But more than fear... excitement. Excitement and.. something else. I had never heard my friend shout like that, but his shouts didn't sound like he was in agony. Rather, he sounded like it felt good. No, it did look like it felt good.

Max had a crazied expression on his face now as he viciously brought the flogger down again and again. Tul's body shook and shuddered each time the rubber hit his skin. However, contrary to the pitiful state of the back of his body, his cock was in delirion. It was at its peak in fact. It was oozing clear fluid and fully erect. I felt heat surge up my head as a foreign feeling took over me. I.. I wanted to do that too. I want to spank hin. I want to make a mess out of him. I want to hear him wail my name and cry.

Max seemed to have invaded my mind as he threw a thin whip over to me. "It's a riding crop. No where as painful as this, so don't worry." He said, raising the giant weapon in his right hand. I stared at the thin crop in my hands and gulped. My heart began beating faster and faster as I touched the flat leather tip. It was soft. S-should I? Should I really hit him? What if he hates it? What if I hurt him? No, no, obviously I'm going to hurt him- this is a whip!! Or is it not a whip? He said that it's a crop. Is a crop a whip? What is a whi-

"Ngh..Tah.." Hin's voice brought me back from my whirl of thoughts. My throat felt dry as I felt it pulse. I decided to muster my courage and ask him. My head spun as a flurry of questions popped up in my head. Should I say, "fuck hin, I'm sorry but is it okay if I whip you?" or "hinn do you want me to hit you?" or simply "can I hit you"??? or or I could assert more dominance and say something like "shut up and let me hit you."-

"Tah-" His voice interrupted my thoughts.

"SHUT UP HIN, fuck do you want me to hit you?" I blurted out in annoyance. I was trying to think here !!

Silence answered me as hin went quiet. Max and Tul also stopped moving and the room became awkwardly silent. I replayed the words I had just uttered out in my head and FUCK. THAT CAME OUT WRONG. WHAT DID I JUST SAY-

I was so ashamed that I wanted to dig a hole and just hide there for eternity when I saw hin's head bob ever so slightly from the corner of my eyes. T-that was nod wasn't it?? That means yes, doesn't it???! So hin is okay with getting hit, isn't it??? So I can whip hin, can't I???? CAN I REALLY?!

Before I could go on a full overthinking spree, Max clicked his tongue. "Well, New's already given you the green light so stop worrying so much and just do it already, Tay. Watching you is frustrating. New's gonna go soft before you finally do anything."

Tul cackled. My cheeks flushed. I knew how indecisive I was but just now, Max has clearly told me that hin consented right? That meant that he really nodded, right?!?!? I looked back towards hin and fuck. He looked so fucking adorable right now.

His face was dyed pink all the way to his ears. He probably hadn't expected Max to notice his nod and probably didn't expect Max to bluntly comment about it. But that was just the kind of guy he was, and while it was embarrassing, it was also refreshing to see hin's shy reaction.

I took a deep breath and nodded at Max.

"State the number of times you are going to hit him. Then have him count down the numbers." He commanded. His fiery eyes glowed with interest as he eyed me. I gulped nervously.

"Uh, okay. Hin, count from... 10?" I asked. I heard Max sigh. 

"He's gagged, you know." He deadpanned.

"He can still count." I argued, embarrassed. My cheeks grew hot.

"Mm"hin hummed. "Teh" he tried. I flashed a small smile before smirking at Max with a see? He shrugged his shoulders and turned his attention back to Tul. I took a deep breath.

"O-okay here I go." I muttered before swinging the crop onto his thigh.

"Ngh!!" He groaned. After the first hit, I felt something inside of me stir. It was as if I had ignited something, and I found a wave of new emotions wash over me. I was thrilled. This was exhilarating. 

"T-Teh..." He whispered softly. My eyes glinted as I walked behind him stealthily. Without warning, I smacked his back with the crop again.

"MPHH!!" He cried. Hearing his loud scream, I felt the beast inside me awaken. 

"You didn't count." I growled. 

"N-nai..." His voice trembled as he whispered. 

"Too late." I answered. He whimpered in response, cowering a little. I found myself thoroughly enjoying the sight.

"Again." I growled. Unable to hold myself back, I started to hit him again and again with the crop. I varied the strength for each whip and his cries only amplified. 

"TAHH-" He shrieked.

"Who are you calling? How dare you call someone other than me." I growled as I whipped his ass with more force this time. I knew that he was calling me. I knew that he wasn't able to enunciate my name due to the ball gag but I couldn't think straight. All I knew was that I wanted another reason to hit him, to punish him, to hear him cry out like this one more time. It was like an addiction, a guilty pleasure. I felt liberated as I let out my violent nature at him.

Soon the sound of whips and delectable screams were all that echoed around the room. It tingled my ears and honestly, it sounded so good. I could begin to understand why people liked this. I could now understand why Max and Tul liked this-

"Mmngh..." he whimpered softly. Instead of the usual cries, I heard him sniffle softly. In that instant, my heart dropped. Ohno!! Did I go too far?!?!? But he hadnt said apple yet, or anything remotely near apple-

I rushed over and caressed his face. The eye mask had two dark, wet spots now and I felt my heart twist. I felt conflicted, ashamed and.. evil. Evil because.. I was so hard right now knowing that I had made him cry. I was so aroused right now even though I had hurt my baby. I was ashamed that I was finding joy in torturing him. I was conflicted because I.. I didnt want to stop.

I kissed the tears on his cheeks that leaked out from under the cloth. He trembled as he tried to stop crying. Now that I could see his face, I noticed that saliva was dripping from his mouth down to his neck. It should've looked gross to me, but it didn't. Instead it looked enticing and inviting. It glistened on his neck and darkened some parts of the rope on his chest. It made hin look delicious. I could never have fathomed that I would ever become so.. turned on just from watching someone drool.

I gulped. I wanted to taste it. I wanted to lick it all up. I wanted to taste him. Placing my hands on his shoulders, I leaned down and opened my mouth, licking the trail of saliva on his neck. He shuddered and I saw his cock throb. Despite all the pain from the whipping and even crying, it seemed like he was still hard. If anything, his junior looked as if it was on cloud nine. I smirked, my worries dissipating as I eyed his erect member.

"So you enjoy it after all, don't you hin" I whispered into his ear. He shivered and turned even redder. I was right. Delighted, I shifted to stand behind him again. I bent forward and began to lick the red streaks on his back. He winced before moaning softly. My hand snaked down and I held his throbbing member. He sucked in air and tensed all over. Slowly, I brought my hand up and down, earning me shrill moans of pleasure.

"Ahnn Tahhh nghhmphh-" he cried ever so sweetly.

"FUCK AGH-" Tul's voice suddenly boomed as he shot his load. I turned around to see Max gripping Tul's neck tightly as his other hand crushed Tul's dick. The sight was jaw-dropping and resembled a scene straight out of a porn video. My cheeks reddened as I realized that what they were doing was definitely explicit enough to be porn.

Strangling hin? I thought, bewildered. I couldn't understand how suffocating someone would be arousing, but I did know that I wanted to at least.. try. I pressed my body against his back and looped my left arm over his shoulder.

"Look up." I commanded. Surprisingly, hin obeyed without any fuss and I took hold of his neck as his head burrowed onto my right shoulder. I could feel the veins in his neck pulse. It felt as if with just a little squeeze, it would die out. I was exhilarated. I brought my other hand up to press his chest down as my grip on his neck tightened.

"Agh- ngh- Ta-" a series of strangled gasps escaped his mouth. His chest was now rising and ebbing at a ridiculously fast pace as he struggled to breathe. I felt his saliva drip down onto my hands but instead of feeling disgusted, I got even more horny. I grinded against his smooth ass and let my fingers fiddle with his nipple. I licked his pink ears greedily as I relished in the feeling of superiority and dominance. It felt like I owned him. Like I was so much stronger than him that I could end him. Like he was weak and powerless as an ant. Like I could do whatever I wanted and-

"T A H- A H G-" He gasped loudly. He suddenly jerked and shuddered. Surprised, I let go of him immediately, worried that I had accidentally gone overboard. However, what I saw only made blood rush to my head even more. Hin had climaxed. Untouched.

I hadn't even stuck my rod into his ass, neither had I rubbed his wood. For him to come solely from me twisting his nipple or simply licking his ears was highly unlikely. Excitement and arousal consumed me as I realized that it was probably the strangling that stimulated him so much he came. I couldnt contain myself any longer as I bit down on his shoulder.

"AUH-" He shouted from the sudden pain. My carnal desire to suppress, dominate and run wild took over me. I bit and sucked all over his shoulders, leaving bruises and marks everywhere as I ravaged him like a crazed animal.

"Ngh Tah.. stAph-" he winced as my teeth sank into his back.

It irritated me that he could still speak. It irritated me that he was asking me to stop. It irritated me that he thought that he could tell me what to do. It irritated me so much that I decided to discipline him. However, this time, I would hit him.. at the front. My eyes blazed as just the thought excited me to no end. It ignited a raging fire inside of me and I was determined to unleash it.

"Fuck, Tul, you're so tight today." Max groaned. He was now fucking Tul like a starved predator eating its first meal in weeks. They were a groaning and moaning mess as Max slapped his ass over and over.

"Doing such a thing in front of your friends are turning you on so much eh, Tul." Max teased, his voice was low and gruff. "You pervertic slut."

The loud slaps resounded throughout the room. Hearing it made me itch to slap hin myself, but the crop in my hand made me remember my brilliant plan.

His dick was now small and shriveled as he had already came and.. probably from all the bites I gave him. Tch. I squatted down and took him in my mouth. He gasped in shock before moaning slowly. His member grew hard again in no time under the massage of my tongue. I sucked it softly before leaning in further and letting his tip graze the back of my throat. He moaned louder as he tried to thrust his hips. As soon as I confirmed that he was fully erected, I pulled away and stood up.

"Nn? Tah..?" His voice was confused and full of lust. I smirked. I used the crop to touch the tip of his erection. He shuddered.

"Tah..?? Tah-" fear was evident in his voice as I let the leather tip glide down his shaft.

"Shut the fuck up hin." I growled. He whimpered.

"Five." I said as I lifted the crop.

"Count." I growled before lightly smacking the base of his dick with the crop.

"NNNGHMPHH" He screamed as he twisted in pain. His legs closed and he attempted to squat down. However, the ropes bound him securely to the pole overhead, ensuring that he was unable to bend down. The pole rattled loudly as he tried to forcely bring his hands down. He struggled with great force for a few more times before shrinking back. He began to sniff again as his chest shook up and down.

If it had been any other time, I would've thrown the crop away, ran over and held him in my arms, comforting hin and apologizing again and again. However, the current me had lost all rationality. Seeing hin in that state made me ecstatic. Not hearing anything that resembled "apple" even after that only turned me on further. It fueled me to continue. His incoherent groans and whimpers incited the sadistic nature within me that I never knew existed. I was ashamed of my own twistedness but I was too caught up in the heat of the moment to care.

More. I wanted to hear more.

"You didn't count." I was a little surprised at how malicious I sounded, but I didn't care anymore. I slid the tip of the leather crop in between his thighs, causing him to jump in fear. I let it glide slowly over his skin before whipping him again and again on his thighs. He counted this time.

Now that I had shifted to torment his thighs, his dick was hard as a rock again despite his pained howls. It was only when I felt my cheeks hurting that I realized I had been smiling widely the whole time. I was enjoying myself. A lot. I felt invigorated. His muffled, barely coherent pleas to "stop" only incited me to continue further. Ecstacy filled me as I lightly hit his rod again, earning me a sweet cry of pain.

"Nghhh, waht- Tah staph- leh me go-nGH-" He suddenly gasped and begged. "Unthai me Tah- reahhy I neeh to-"

(Translation: wait Tay stop let me go // untie me Tay really I need to-)

*SLAP*

Ignoring his pleas, I mercilessly whipped him a little harder this time.

"Ngh TAH AHHULL-" He shrieked.

(Pronounced smth like eh hull ? I wanted it to sound similar to apple but I didn't know how to.. this was as far as my imagination could go. MAYBE I SHOULDVE CHOSEN ANOTHER WORD- ANYWAYS YES NEW FINALLY SAID THE SAFEWORD)

As much as it didn't sound like apple, my mind immediately registered the word as apple. I knew what hin meant and I knew this time he seriously wanted me to stop, however I was much too in a crazed state to stop my swing-

*PAK*

My leather crop hit the tip of his cock and he convulsed.

*splishhhhhh*

"Ngh.. don- doh looh ah me.. duh looh-" hin cried softly as aequeous fluid gushed out of his urethra. I dodged to the side instinctively and it splurted onto the floor in front of him. The room went silent, amplifying the sound of... running water.

I flushed as I realized what had just transpired. Hin's face, neck and ears were dyed red all the way to his chest. His sniffles were the only sounds that broke the silence now and I felt my heart pound heavily. Fuck.

I was shell-shocked. I stood rooted to the ground, not knowing what to do. My eyes trembled as I felt remorse take over me. My cheeks burned as I felt the second-hand embarrassment but my heart combusted when I realized hin was probably feeling a million.. no.. a gazillion times that and more.

Then, laughter broke beside me, causing me to flinch. "HAHAHAH" Max's guffaw filled the room. I gulped nervously as I pondered how I was going to clean up the mess. At least he isn't mad. I sighed in relief.

"Theres a mop there you can use- PFFT HAHAHAHAH" he spluttered in between cackles. I dashed to the direction he pointed but as I yanked the mop up, I toppled the bucket over and it clanged loudly as it fell onto the ground.

"BAHAAHHAHAH" This evidently only caused Max to roll over and laugh even harder. Embarrassed, I quickly started to mop up the small puddle on the ground.

"Tsk MAX, stop laughing!! New, don't worry about it. It's okay to make a mess. We always do whenever we engage in enema play so-" Tul tried to mediate the situation, but the tactless bafoon continued to chortle deafeningly.

"MAX, CAN YOU JUST SHUT UP FOR A SECOND-" Tul kicked his shin before turning over. "New, believe me, I've done much more than just urinating in here, it's all part of the-"

"HAHAHAH OW TUL, THAT HURTS BAHAHAHAHA" The insensitive prick jabbered in between loud laughter.

"WELL YOU DESERVE IT, SO SHUT THE FUCK UP MAX-" Tul hollered before switching back into a soft voice. "As I was saying, it's all part and parcel of bdsm, New. Shame goes hand in hand with arousal and it's nothing to be ashamed of."

"Yeah hin, I think you looked beautiful. Look at me, I'm serious- oh wait, you can't see me-" I blabbered. What the fuck am I saying?!?!?!?!? I WAS MAKING THE SITUATION WORSE WASN'T I?!?!?!?

Hin sighed with a shy smile before giggling softly. I felt my shoulders relax at the sound of his giggle. As soon as the floor was just about 80% clean, I gingerly unbuckled the ball gag on his face and untied the cloth around his eyes.

His eyes were red from crying and he pouted ever so cutely, his succulent lips forming a cute round shape. He glared at me and I felt myself grow small. Timidly, I wiped the tears off from his face as I whispered apologies to him.

"Untie me, Tay." He said quietly. His voice was hoarse from screaming. I tentatively began untying the rope, but fate apparently found my life not humourous enough and the entertainment god decided to bless me. I. Couldnt. Untie. Hin. FUCK ME. I SHOULD'VE LISTENED TO HIN WHEN HE SAID I TIED WAY TOO MANY KNOTS. WHY DID I TIE SO MANY KNOTS?!?!?

I literally dug my own grave. I REALLY COULD'NT UNTIE IT. I had NO IDEA HOW TO. Panic rising in me, I started fumbling around, causing loops to form on one side of the rope and more knots on the other side. The rope was now like hin's second skin as he had moved around way too much (not my fault of course) and that made it even harder to pull the rope loose. It dug into his skin and he winced as I tried to get a proper grip on it. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. WHAT HAVE I DONE ?!??!?!?! TAY WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?!?!?!?

Sensing that something wasn't right, Max walked over to help me. That bastard was still snickering but he was the expert, so I couldn't reject his offer to help. He of all people should know best how to fix this.

"HAHAHAH OHMYGOD TAY, how did you even tie this shit?!" Max doubled over in laughter as he took a good look at the mess I created. Hin was now glaring daggers at me. If looks could kill, I would've died ten times over already!!

"Stop laughing and help me!!" I elbowed him. Hin blushed furiously as Max's hands touched him.

"Don't look at him." I huffed unhappily as I noticed Max's eyes wandering down. I used my hand to cover his member and he winced.

"Ouch! Fuck you Tay, don't touch me." hin hissed. I jumped and retracted my hand immediately. Only then did I see the red lines on his member. Oh.

I growled in disapproval, but it was my fault this even happened in the first place, so I could do nothing but pray that the ropes would just come off any second now.

New (EMARRASSED) kittypoom's POV:

I wanted to die. I wanted to curl up into a ball and jump into the sea of reset. Or better yet kick Tay into a sea of flames before jumping in myself. Having Maxi see my naked and beaten state and even untying the ropes for me was beyond embarrassing. If anything, it felt like a literal hell of shame.

One of my closet friends witnessed me urinating all over his floor and was even untying me from a bondage my stupid boyfriend couldn't untie !! It was no doubt, the most shameful moment of my life. I was never going to live it down and Maxi would definitely never let it go.

I sighed inwardly as I could already imagine how much he would tease me about it. The prick was still snickering right in front of me. The nerve. I closed my eyes as I regretted every moment of that night. Why the hell did I drink so much milk?! Why the hell did I not think to relieve myself before we started?!?!?!

All the whys and what ifs filled my mind and tortured my soul. I felt harrassed both mentally and physically. I was angry at Tay but at the same time, angry at myself. It was more of shame than anger really, but the shame fueled my anger.

"I think we need to cut it." Max stated after tugging and fiddling with the rope. "There's too many dead knots and it would take forever to untie it all." He sighed as he got up and walked over to Tul.

As if mocking me, Tul was unbound in the blink of an eye. I glowered at Tay and he looked away, not daring to meet my eyes. He lightly pressed my shoulder with his finger and mumbled, "s-sorry" I rolled my eyes and gave him the silent treatment. I wasn't about to forgive him yet. Not after all the shame and embarrassment he made me go through.

Max and Tul went over to the other side of the room to look for scissors to cut the rope with, leaving the two of us on our own for a bit.

"I'm sorry, ja." He said apologetically as he caressed his cheeks. The warmth of his palm felt nice on my skin and I started to melt.

"Hmph" I huffed as I turned away from him. He was a total beast just a moment ago, not listening to what I said. I even said the safeword yet he didn't stop. The more I thought about it, the angrier I got.

"Hinn, look at me? I'm really sorry. I won't do it again if you don't want me to." He said softly, gently cupping my cheeks with both hands and turning my head to face him. His eyes were sincere and full of regret. I felt my anger bubble and subside as I stared into his eyes. I sighed. I could never stay mad at this man.

"We found the rope cutter!!" Max waved as he strode back. With ease, he snipped the rope off me. I felt really bad for him as I saw the pieces of rope fall onto the ground. Tul looked sadly at the pieces of rope on the floor and I mumbled that I would pay them back for the rope. Max snickered before patting my shoulder, saying that it was fine.

"Even if someone should pay up, it's Mr Tawan Vihokratana here." Tul said as he bumped Tay's shoulder with his.

"Oh! Oh! Yeah, I can pay." He said as he reached to his pocket. "Huh? Oh, I think I left my wallet upstairs." He mumbled anxiously as his eyes widened, panic clear in his voice.

I sighed, smiling. What should I do with this man...

[It was a real long chapter and I was dying of laughter towards the end HAHAHAH I HAD SO MUCH FUN WRITING THE LAST PART. Tul speaks english very very well, so I just imagined him speaking thai to New and then switching to english to swear at Max HAHAHAH anyways,, hope you enjoyed this chapter,, don't worry though the next has more to come. After all... Tay hasn't cummed yet has he? *winks* ]