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warnings ;

i. sexual content

"fuck..."

"oh? you're finally up!"

"what time is it?" you asked, rubbing your eyes.

"7:30pm"

"what? do you mean am?"

"at 7am we were fucking, so no. i mean pm"

you turned your head to look at him, noticing the pink scratches on his biceps.

"how much did i drink last night?" you asked, resting your pounding head on his pillow.

"a lot"

"why didn't you stop me?"

"because it seemed that getting drunk was what you wanted" he said, putting a strand of hair behind your ear.

"yeah... it was" you replied, after some seconds of staying silent.

"fucking hell, it hurts..."

satoru wrapped his arms around you and brought you closer to his chest, kissing the top of your head.

"you wanted to kiss me" he said, making you raise your head.

"did you—"

"i didn't!"

you could tell from his eyes that he was telling the truth. you buried your face in his chest, a small blush making its way to your cheeks.

"thank you" you mumbled against his skin.

satoru stayed silent, as he drew circles on the small of your back. you pressed your body to his, your naked chest coming in full contact with his.

you could feel how sore you were, so you tried to avoid moving your lower half. you could also feel that your body was stiff, yet you didn't know why. having sex on your bed never left you stiff.

"satoru?"

"yes?"

"where did we have sex?"

"in front of the mirror, on the floor, against the wall and on your bathroom's counter"

"now i know why my body is stiff" you sighed.

he softly chuckled, making a smile form on your face. you wrapped your arms around his torso, placing your ear over his fast beating heart. when you were about to ask him, your bedroom door opened.

"that's the most disgusting shit i've ever seen"

"what are you doing here? go back to your girlfriend"

"i came to check on you"

"and she's not my girlfriend, anymore" maki added.

"what?" you asked, slowly raising your head.

"check your phone"

you went to move, but satoru grabbed your phone. maki's eyes fell on the scratches on his back, a chuckle leaving her lips.

"how were you able to scratch his whole back?"

"oh, i fucked her til 9am"

"til— you know what? why did i even open my mouth?"

you laughed, as you unlocked your phone. there were a lot of notifications, but you clicked on nobara's message. your eyes widened, once you opened it;

"what the fuck?" you asked, slowly raising your body off the bed.

"y/n, what the fuck?!" maki said, looking at your naked chest.

"what? it's not like you haven't seen me naked before"

"it's not that. but have you seen yourself?"

satoru laughed as his eyes traveled on the hickeys he gave you. they were covering most of your chest, because he was trying to keep his mouth occupied. you looked at him before lowering your head, eyes widening in shock.

"satoru, what the fuck?!"

"my bad. i had to keep my mouth occupied, since you wanted to kiss me"

"you wanted to what?!"

"i was drunk, okay!?" you said, looking at maki.

"jeez, y/n" maki sighed, as she gave you some clothes.

"you better not move from there. i don't want to see anything" she added, looking at satoru.

you threw the shirt over your head, before you motioned her to come closer. she sat in front of you, before you hugged her— making her scrunch up her nose.

"you smell like him"

"who cares?! you're getting married!!"

"woah, what?" satoru said, as he raised his body.

the sheet was covering your lower halves, so maki didn't have to worry about seeing something she didn't wanna see.

"why didn't i know you were gonna propose?!"

"look, i wanted to tell you, but... after everything that happened—"

"i get it" you interrupted her.

"but, i'm so happy for you! i think i'm gonna cry!" you said, fanning your face.

"you? cry? what the fuck? are you pregnant, or something?"

"shit. i have to buy your pill"

you turned maki's head to the side, as satoru got up and started getting dressed.

"take my keys, cause i can't get up to open the door"

"sure"

he kissed your head and laid you back down on the bed.

"you're still hungover. it's better if you're not moving your head"

"okay"

you watched him as he walked out of the room, leaving you alone with maki. when you heard the front door lock, you turned your head to look at her; her eyebrow was raised, as she stared at you.

"what?"

"kissing your head, huh?" she asked with a smirk on her face.

"it's just something he does"

"i didn't know you were sleeping together. i thought he was leaving"

"he used to, but stopped when you found out"

"the way you act makes you look like a couple"

"maki, there are no feelings involved" you said, supporting your body up with your elbows.

"y/n, i love you, but you're stupid"

"we've talked about this, mak"

"i can't be in a relationship again"

"you can. but you closed your heart and froze it, not letting anyone in"

"it's not that you can't be in a relationship. it's that you don't want to fall in love"

"don't you think it's time to let someone melt your frozen heart?" she added.

"maki... i don't have time for that stuff" you sighed.

"you can make time for it, though"

you stayed silent, as you looked at the other side of the bed; the empty side where satoru laid minutes ago. you took a deep breath, before you talked;

"i'm jealous of you"

"what?"

"your life is not that... complicated"

"you can love whoever you want and you can freely be in a relationship. and look at you, you're even getting married!" you said, feeling tears attack your eyes.

"i'm so happy and proud of you, but at the same time, i'm jealous cause i can't do that"

"you can, y/n"

"i can't. i'm scared that any relationship is gonna be like the last one. i'm scared that if i fall in love, i'm gonna meet the ground with so much force it'd most likely kill me" 

"i'm not gonna talk about marriage, cause i don't think a relationship of mine can even get that far... also, marriage means kids. and kids mean pregnancy. and pregnancy means... violence. everything means violence" you said, as your voice broke.

she came closer and wrapped her arms around you, letting you cry on her shoulder.

"y/n, not everyone is like him. there are good people out there"

"if you keep thinking like that, you're gonna ruin yourself" she added, playing with your hair.

"i'm scared, maki"

"why? there's nothing to be scared of anymore! you're free—"

"that's not what i meant"

"what did you mean, then?"

"i'm scared, cause i feel the ice slowly melting"

she pulled away, looking at you with wide eyes.

"you mean that you..."

she didn't even have to finish her sentence, cause you were already nodding your head.

"and i'm scared that if i don't stop it, it's gonna be bad"

"you can't stop that, y/n"

"i can, but i don't want to"

"i want to fall in love with him, but i fear this won't end well. i feel that something will happen and it'll ruin us"

"can you think positively for once?" maki asked, shaking her head.

"you finally get to feel something good again! even if it turns bad, it won't change the fact that he made you feel good. in all the ways possible" she said, making you laugh.

"what if he does the same?"

"what? y/n, the man literally took a hit for you. he helped you put him in prison. satoru freed you from that nightmare you were living"

"why are we talking about that, when you're literally getting fucking married?" you asked, wiping the tears off your face.

"because you falling in love is more important than me proposing"

"how can you say that?!"

"also, i don't even know what i'm feeling for him. i'm really confused"

"with time you'll know" she said, placing a hand on your shoulder.

you heard the front door opening and soon after closing. footsteps made their way to your bedroom, before satoru got in. his eyes fell on your face, immediately noticing the red in your eyes.

"have you been crying?"

"i'm just really happy for maki and nobara, that's all" you lied.

"congratulations on your engagement, maki"

"thank you"

"your relationship with nobara is probably the only high-school relationship that lasted" satoru said, making her laugh.

"yeah, because we're not toxic"

"thank god. i don't think i could handle talking to two victims of toxic relationships" you said.

"and be one yourself" maki added.

you nodded your head, before you took the water bottle from satoru's hand. you took your pill, before he gave you a packet of painkillers. you took one pill, before he slowly let you lay back down on the bed.

"i told you to lay down to help with your hungover. you'll never relax if you keep moving your head around"

"yeah yeah i'm sorry" you said, rolling your eyes.

"oh, anyways. i forgot to tell you" satoru said, poking your cheek.

"what is it?"

"your neighbors were outside and complained fot the noise"

"and what did you say?" you asked, raising an eyebrow.

"that i'm really sorry and that it'll happen again"

you covered your face with your arms, softly laughing.

"one day i'm gonna move out and leave them alone. i can't imagine how annoyed they must be"

"do you care?" maki asked, raising an eyebrow.

"i used to. but they're always fighting, and that's annoying to me, too"

"did you ever complain?" satoru asked.

"no. most of the times, i'm just leaving so i won't have to listen to them"

maki laughed, shaking her head. whenever your neighbors were fighting you were visiting her place, or, if it was late at night, you were calling satoru over for a fuck. a fuck that probably had your neighbors wide awake.

"so, maki! who's on your guest list?"

"well—"

"do you already know?" satoru asked, looking at her.

"it's gonna be a small wedding, so there aren't gonna be many people"

"who's gonna be there?" you asked, lifting your body up.

"i don't know. you guess" she said with a shrug of her shoulders.

"me"

"yeah, no shit"

"mai"

"unfortunately"

"maki, she's your sister" you laughed.

"nobara doesn't get along with her"

"that's her problem"

"continue guessing" maki said, rolling her eyes.

"yuji?"

"yes"

you stayed silent, as you snapped your fingers.

"i forgot his name"

"describe him?"

"you kinda look like him"

"huh?"

"ooh, i remembered! toji!"

"why is everyone telling me that i look like toji?"

"because you do. especially after cutting your hair"

"she's right. you do look like him"

maki looked at you and satoru with a disgusted expression.

"i can't believe you"

"toji's not that much of a bad guy. yeah, he flirts a lot and he's twenty years older than me, but he's a good guy"

"he flirts with you?" satoru asked, turning his head to look at you.

"yeah... at least he did, when he was still the ceo of alpha"

satoru went to say something, but you talked before he could;

"so, if toji is coming, then that means that his son is gonna be there, too. aka your nephew, aka megumi!" you said, smiling at her.

"it's weird when people call megumi my nephew. he's one year younger than me"

"still your nephew" you said, shrugging your shoulders.

"you could be the cool aunt, you know"

"cool aunt? no. megumi can buy whatever he wants, by himself. he's a grown man"

you clicked your tongue, as you shook your head.

"please have kids so i can be the cool aunt. i'm gonna spoil them so much"

"i don't want my kids to be spoiled brats"

"they're gonna be spoiled. not brats" you said with a smile.

"you really want to be a cool aunt, huh?" satoru asked, looking at you.

"yes!" you answered with eyes that shined.

satoru's eyes went soft, as he stared at you while you were talking about all the different things you could possibly buy for maki's future children. the woman didn't fail to notice the change in his expression, but she chose to not say anything.

she chose not to give you false hope for something she didn't know for sure if it was right. even though she never failed to notice the different signs of affection towards you, and the change in satoru's behavior. she could see that he was more open and carefree than before.

"okay. so we have me, mai, toji, megumi and yuji. who else?" you asked, gaining the attention of the two.

"two more from me, because i don't know if nobara wants to add anyone else" 

"any hints?"

"the one is literally next to you"

"eh?" both you and satoru said at the same time.

you turned your heads to look at each other, before looking at maki.

"you're inviting... me?"

"yeah. i don't want her to be alone or uncomfortable with any flirting"

"oh for sure i'm gonna be there" satoru said, making a smirk appear on maki's face.

"damn, and who's the other one?" you asked, looking at your best friend.

"guess"

"com'on, i don't know!" you cried.

"you do"

"a small hint?" you asked, softly smiling.

"black hair"

you took a deep breath and exhaled, eyes locking on hers.

"almost everyone has black hair. how can i possibly—" you stopped, when you realized.

"you can't mean yuta..." you said, making her nod.

"really?" you asked with shiny eyes.

"yeah! he's returning to japan, in a month or so"

"that's amazing!"

"but, maki... isn't it gonna be hard for him? you know... after rika...?" you added.

"he moved on, y/n. rika's accident happened five years ago. of course he misses her, but that's only normal. he had some small relationships and one-nights, after all"

"who knows, maybe you can hit it off once you two see each other again" she continued, winking at you.

satoru tensed up at the sound of that, and maki noticed. she smiled to herself, since she achieved what she wanted. she wanted to pull a reaction out of him and she did it.

"maki, you're crazy. i don't like him that way. i love him as a friend, or even... a brother!" you said, looking at her.

"i was just suggesting" she replied with a shrug of her shoulders.

"before i go and leave you to rest, i want to ask you something"

"sure"

"can you be mine and nobara's maid of honor?"

"...what?"

"you're the only person we want for the job, because my sister... yeah not"

"i don't think i can do that, maki" you said, shaking your head.

"being there for your wedding is already gonna be hard—" you stopped, once you saw the look in her eyes.

"fine. i'll do it" you sighed, lowering your head.

"you're the best. i love you" she said, kissing your head.

"yeah yeah, love you too"

"i'm gonna leave you to rest cause i'm sure that headache didn't go away"

you laughed, as you nodded your head.

"again, congratulations!" satoru said, earning a smile from her.

"i'm leaving her in your hands! you better take care of her"

"i will, don't worry"

once maki left, you removed the shirt off your body and laid back down on the bed. satoru looked at you as you covered your body, trying to get comfortable.

"what's wrong?"

"i don't want to do it" you said softly.

"why not?"

"when you were out, i told her that i'm jealous of her. i know it's probably stupid, but i just can't stand that people get to do things i can't"

"what do you mean?"

"remove your stupid clothes and just get under the covers with me" you said, looking at him.

without wasting a second, he did as you told him— instantly holding you in his arms.

"so, what do you mean?"

"maki can keep her relationship, and it's actually a healthy one! and she can get married, and have kids without having to think what i think about"

"y/n, you don't have to think like this anymore. the whole story is over"

"i know, but his goal was achieved... he ruined my life"

"he may have ruined your life when he was in it, but he's not anymore. and i don't want you to allow him to ruin your life from prison"

"you still need time to heal, and after that it's your choice what to do. you want a relationship? then go for it. you want to stick to one-nights? do it. you're gonna do whatever you want to do"

you looked at him, before slowly nodding your head. you buried your face in his chest, tightening your grip around his torso.

"you're right. thank you"

he smiled, as he kissed the top of your head;

"you're welcome, y/n"