chapter 18- edited

Flashback pt2 [minho's words]

Kittywhisperer- Lee Minho

ChansbabygirlHey MinhooooDelivered 1 month ago

Chansbabygirl Who knew textingMyself was so much funDelivered 4 weeks ago

Chansbabygirl Am I seeming desperate?Delivered 3 weeks ago

Chansbabygirl Funny I mistookThis person named Cheo Junwoo for youHaha.. funny huh?Delivered 2 weeks ago

ChansbabygirlI saw this cuteStray cat today he Was so adorable Although she looked reallyTerrible , he didn't seemTo know anything So I took him inDelivered 1 week ago

Chansbabygirl I've decided to nameHim leeknow isn't that cuteHe's so adorable plusHe seems more comfy And free around me now I fixed one thibgs problem..hahaMaybe I can fix my ownDelivered 7 days ago

Chansbabygirl It's like a dry desert hereDelivered 5 days ago

Chansbabygirl Minho?Delivered 2 days ago

Chansbabygirl You're not gonna replyAre you ...I'll stop bothering you

Sent 1 hour agoDelivered 30 mins agoOpened 22 mins agoRead ~

Typing....

Kittywhisperer Giving up on me already?

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🧠🫀"It's always a game with you"

"Like with all of you"____

Kittywhisperer Giving up on me already doll?I've just joined in

Vegimite Aussie You're really bad at arcadeGames huh..haha...oh cmonBabygirl...Giving up on me already?

PossessedDolphinBoy Why the heck is there PEIn college😭Ynnieee I see uPanting like a dying weiner We said we'll make it to the first finish line together fit and strong!Cmon love..Giving up on me already?

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April 06 2023

I was sitting at my kitchen table, sipping my coffee and paging through one of my favourite romance novels. I was interrupted by a knock from Minho, who i had been exchanging messages with for weeks now ....I put my galss and book down letting him in curious to what he wanted to say after ignoring me for months

So we went to sit down..and of course I was wary

I sighed "Don't play games with me, Minho. I know you're busy, but you don't have to ignore my texts for that long"

Minho's response came a few minutes later of him thinking but it wasn't what i was expecting. "It's not my job to keep you entertained with my texting habits," he said , it seemed like he didn't expect me to get touched by his words...but that's the thing his words stung

My heart sank. I knew i could be clingy and demanding, but i had hoped that he cared enough about i to make time for me. It hurt to know that I wasn't a priority to him, and i didn't know how to communicate that without sounding needy or vulnerable.

"I know, I know," i replied, trying to play it cool. "I'm sorry if I come across as too clingy. I just like to talk to you, is all."

Minho responded, "It's fine, I like talking to you too. But I can't always be available to chat."

I knew that he was trying to set boundaries, and i wanted to respect that. But at the same time, i wanted to let him know that i cared about him, and that i wanted to be a part of his life. I just didn't know how to do it without looking weak or desperate.

I cared a little too much without know I did

"I honestly love everything about you y/n. Personality, enthusiasm, spirt, body , beauty and all , I love all of you but a man needs air..space...plus..we're not committed to each other y/n we aren't a thing...just flings okay? Don't get attached "

My heart raced as Minho said those words. I felt a rush of emotions, all at once: happiness, excitement, fear, confusion and hurt. I didn't know what to say or how to react.

In that moment, I realized that our situationship was more complicated than I thought. I understood that Minho needed space, but I didn't know how to give it to him without losing him. I wanted to be there for him, but I also wanted him to be there for me. Now I sounded desperate....why was I like this

As I sat there, processing everything, I felt lost and unsure of what to do next. I wanted to show Minho that I cared about him, but I didn't want to scare him away with my emotions. I needed to find a balance between giving him space and being there for him, but I didn't know how.

I wasn't inlove....I just..liked the attention..I hoped that was it...I didn't know why I was trying so hard to understand why and how they came to the conclusion of making me their pawn

Minho, chan , jeongin...it hurts to know that its all an act.. ut why do I try so hard to please them either way?

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February 14th 2023

I was sitting on my couch, lost in thought, when I heard the front door open. I looked up to see Minho walking towards me, a cocky grin on his face.

"What are you doing here?" I asked, trying to keep my voice even.

Minho chuckled. "You know what I'm here for, y/n. I just couldn't stay away."

I rolled my eyes, but couldn't help but feel a flutter in my stomach at his words. I had been trying to resist his charms for weeks, but something about him just kept pulling me back in.

"Fine, come in," I said, gesturing to the couch.

Minho sat down next to me, his arm brushing against mine. "So, what's been going on?" he asked, grinning at me.

I hesitated for a moment, then spoke. "I've been having some doubts about everything. I don't know who to trust, or what to believe."

Minho's grin grew wider. "I can help you with that," he said, taking my hand in his. "Just let me take care of you, okay?"

My heart was racing as I felt a surge of emotion inside me. I knew I shouldn't trust him, I knew he was just playing a game with my feelings, but I couldn't resist his charm.

I took a deep breath and looked Minho straight in the eyes. "Okay, I trust you," I said, my voice shaking.

Minho's grin widened. "Good," he said, pulling me towards him. "Let me show you how much I care for you."

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26 Dec 2023

Kittywhisperer -Lee Minho

Chansbabygirl *15 sent messeges*Read-

Chansbabygirl I just wanted to know why you weren't replying to my texts, all I wanted was to have a conversation with you.

Kittywhisperer

I'm sorry if I didn't reply to your texts, y/n, but I have a pretty busy life, y/n. I can't just drop everything to respond to every little message you send me.

Chansbabygirl I understand that, but sometimes I just feel like I'm constantly waiting for you to text me back or respond to me, and it makes me feel like I'm being too clingy.

Kittywhisperer Because you are...

Kittywhisperer

Listen love,I'm not your boyfriend or anything, so it's not my job to keep you entertained all the time. I have other things going on in my life, and I can't always be available to you.

Chansbabygirl I know that, Minho, it's just that sometimes I feel like I don't really have anyone else to talk to or confide in other than you, and it's just really hard sometimes.

Kittywhisperer

I understand that, but you can't rely on me to always be there for you, You need to find other ways to cope and deal instead of just relying on me, y/n.

Chansbabygirl I know, Minho, I really do. I'm just having a hard time right now, and I need someone to listen to me without judgement.

Kittywhisperer

y/n, I'm here for you if you ever need to talk, but I can't always be available to you, y/n. You need to find other ways to cope and deal with whatever is going on in your life, I'm just a fling ...not your psychologist

Chansbabygirl I'm sorry for being so clingy and needy. I just didn't realize how much I was relying on you until now, but it's just really hard right now.

Kittywhisperer

I understand that, y/n, and I promise I'll be there for you when I can, but you need to find other ways to cope and deal with whatever is going on in your life because again... I'm not your psychologist..never will be

Chansbabygirl I know...I'm sorry

Kittywhisperer The others haveProbably blocked anyway huhSorry love..gotta do the same too

Kittywhisperer It's always a shameTo throw away a good fuck