chapter 15

Seo Changbins pov

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When the others were not just using y/n as a scapegoat I decided to do my own background check and honestly the things I found about her were just...sad

She was cut off by her family at 16, got severely depressed because of a bullying scandal at 17 that made her move from busan to Seoul

She had attended SH talks for several suicide attempts between the ages of 16 to 21 ...we met her when she was 21 and honestly...I could've sworn she looked pretty fine

But then again , we all know how to act..

She was pretty much of a Loner and seems like her friends cut her off as well after her episodes as the scandals continued,  articles and articles piling up on her attempts and how she was claimed to be a 'whore,slut and other thibgs' when some articles show that she was actually used by the principals son , Jackson

It was actually sad reading all about it, was this why she was so bubbly and jokey , childish even...she was forced to grow up too early ...she didn't enjoy her life...she's been trying to end her life...this is all just adding to it...fvck

Fluffmonster-Lee Felix

BinnieI'm going out

FluffmonsterThis late?

FluffmonsterChangbin it's 3am

BinnieI know, I justHave something INeed to do

FluffmonsterYou're going toY/n aren't you?

BinnieI don't understand How yall are beingLike this to herSo yeah,I am

FluffmonsterYeah I actually don'tUnderstand this Shit as well

FluffmonsterChan and Minho Are the ones thar made herA flingAnd are the ones that madeThis all a competition

BinnieSee you get it

BinnieI wish I had more timeTo talk but I'm really worried About her felix

FluffmonsterYou like her don't you?You never worry about anyone

BinnieIf you knew what I knowYou'd be worried too

FluffmonsterWell I'm coming with you

BinnieBetter hurry, I'm bout to leave

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The drive to y/ns was quiet and actually really stressful for me because I was actually really worried, the way she texted back to me earlier was off

And I knew was going to try and end her life once again, and I can't let that happen

Felix sat in the passenger seat reading up on the things I've read to understand why I was so worried about someone I've only known for a year and barely spoke to

"W...wow I actually don't even know what to say...this is so messed up " felix said in disbelief at the mean articles written about her

"And if I don't get there soon, there'll be another" I huffed and soon I parked my car not caring if it was in the right spot or not, and rushed up to her flood with felix trailing behind me_

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Shreksno1hoe-Seong Y/n

BinnieOpen the doorOr I'm breaking the door downDelivered 1s

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Losing the remaining bit of patience I oh so thought to have I put my phone away I started using my strength to slam again the door

SLAM

SLAM

SLAM

.....This had to work....please

SLAM

SLAM

SLAM

CLICK

... Slamming myself against the door One last time and it sprang open revealing the apartment common room , not taking time to look at it I rushed to her room and seeing it empty freaked me out more and my head pounded painfully with the amout of stress the situation brought me

I noticed that the bathroom light was on and I rushed in opening the door to see a sight that made my heart drop...literally

She was in a bathtub full with water that was now fully red with her own blood looking at her and I saw the source since of her gsnds were tangling on the outside creating a mini pool of blood which made me go on survival mode and I let out a yell running up to her "y/n!"

I hated blood

I hated the sight of blood

I hated the smell and taste of blood

I hated how she was Drowning in her own blood

Ignoring my hemophobia I plunged my hands into the bathtub picking her up, she felt so cold. The water was warm but she was cold and that freaked me up

"Felix call the fucking ambulance!" I yelled as felix rushed to see the scene as he called the ambulance

I placed her on her bed taking random shit from her first aid box to try and stop the bleeding until professional help got there , I checked her pulse and I could feel it and her eyes blinked softly before closing again

"Y/n baby" I called softly ignoring my tears as I caressed her cheek "please, try to keep your eyes open, help is on the way okay?" I said my own words making me tear up more

Her eyes opened slowly as if she was trying to keep them open but struggling "Please baby, try for me okay? Please...stay alive"

Stay alive

Please

You have to

She Has to

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I'm not sure how many hours it's been since I've been sitting in the waiting hall for some news atleast,  a little hey she's alright or she's stable it's all really stressful for me

"Changbin" felix called as he sat next to me "you should go back home...you look like shit"

"I feel like shit" I said my tone lacking humour I tried to use but I was just...drained

"She's gonna be fine"

"I need to be here when she wakes up"

"Well you're gonna end up in your own hospital bed if you don't eat something " felix pointed out and I groaned

"Are the others at home?"

"Yeah" he answered quietly and I huffed I was so gonna put them in place,beat them to death if I have to , I stood up and before I could leave felix held my wrist

"I know you're angry...just...try not to beat them Into a coma"felix said and I chuckled softly "we'll see"

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